lying on the sand as the brake of the waves clash against our feet   
12:41pm 30/06/2003
 
mood: happy
music: "p.i.m.p." 50 cent
im so glad i get to get away from this town on friday and saturday. im going to walnut island down at the beach. no parents, no pesky little dorks from Pea Ridge to bother me (jordon and eric), no house work has to be done, i cant wait.
i have one more thing to say about the things that DIDNT happen between eric and i and then im done with the subject.youd think after 2 weeks of dwelling on the subject that people would drop it and stop fussing about it.
Do the stupid faggets (mostly eric and alittle of jordon) in creswell (aka pea ridge) have nothing else to do than sit around get drunk and talk about me? get a life.
anyways todays a lazy day and im bored. i cleaned this morning. my bathroom, my bedroom, the kitchen, and the living room. i dont plan on doing anything else today except finish writing my poem that i discovered lines of last night when robert was driving me home.
he and i spent all day together yesterday. by far the most awsome day ive had, so far.

heres the lines ive come up with so far for my poem

Sunsetting over the horizon
While lying in the comfort of your arms
The wind whispering love songs
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thats not as deep as most of my poems but itll do.
im off to see if i can finish this up.

beauty sense will not fail you
 
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what a great song   
05:06pm 30/06/2003
 
mood: happy
music: jubal "1000 tears"
a friend of mine's band JUBAL has a song that they're trying to spread the word about. go here:
http://sky.prohosting.com/kain89/1000tears.wma
you wont have to leave the web page youre already on except the windows media player will pop in a box on the side of your explorer page dont exit out of it. it wil take awhile to download but its ok its a really good song
its called 1000tears
write me back and tell me what you think about it
 
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what a dumb mother fucker   
08:17pm 30/06/2003
  lyingnext2him: hey its amy
NEW AGE INFANTRY: ok
lyingnext2him: so u didnt call me a bitch
NEW AGE INFANTRY: nope
lyingnext2him: ok then hold on
lyingnext2him: just venting? i think after robert put himself on the line with the rose and all and offered forgiveness you still couldnt be honest about me and you. youre the one hurting him bitch not me.
lyingnext2him: you didnt write that
NEW AGE INFANTRY: no
NEW AGE INFANTRY: i swear
lyingnext2him: riiiiiiiight
NEW AGE INFANTRY: u guys are trying to set me up
lyingnext2him: no i swear
lyingnext2him: i checked my mesages
lyingnext2him: and it was up there
lyingnext2him: it couldve been jordon
NEW AGE INFANTRY: u are trying to get me to come over again or something then robert will be like some friend
lyingnext2him: NO
lyingnext2him: IM NOT THAT STUPID
lyingnext2him: i dont want you
lyingnext2him: i never did
NEW AGE INFANTRY: ok
lyingnext2him: i may hate you but not that much to set you up
NEW AGE INFANTRY: i got what i wanted and thats all that matters to me
lyingnext2him: what did you get
NEW AGE INFANTRY: sex ... the same thing that every guy wants
lyingnext2him: except robert
lyingnext2him: and you never got sex
NEW AGE INFANTRY: now chat later.. maybe i'll see u in a another life
NEW AGE INFANTRY signed off at 8:17:32 PM.
 
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still a dumb mother fucker   
09:09pm 30/06/2003
 
mood: angry
music: "brick in the wall" pink floyd
volcomangel173: so im just asking you
volcomangel173: did you put it up there
NEW AGE INFANTRY: how many times must i tell u
NEW AGE INFANTRY: no
volcomangel173: ok
volcomangel173: then who was it?

NEW AGE INFANTRY: um guess
volcomangel173: bert?
NEW AGE INFANTRY: no only person i can think of would be j
volcomangel173: y did he do it
NEW AGE INFANTRY: i don't know who did it
NEW AGE INFANTRY: i'm just saying if it is up there thats the only person i could think of that would do it
volcomangel173: the only people who have the addy for my page is you bert niki and j and my cus and hes not in town
NEW AGE INFANTRY: ok then
volcomangel173: so it was j
NEW AGE INFANTRY: i don't know
NEW AGE INFANTRY: it may have been
volcomangel173: should we ask him?
NEW AGE INFANTRY: i guess
volcomangel173: im sorry
NEW AGE INFANTRY: yeah ok
NEW AGE INFANTRY: u have relly screwed me up
volcomangel173: what now?

volcomangel173: how ?
we didnt do anything
volcomangel173: youre the only person who can screw yourself up
NEW AGE INFANTRY: did u tell your cuz that i call ed her a bitch, i don't know where she got it from but i can only think of one person that would tell her that
volcomangel173: and if im not mistaken you wanted me to break up with robert to go out with you
volcomangel173: i never you called her a bitch
NEW AGE INFANTRY: thats cause i thought rob wanted to break up with u
NEW AGE INFANTRY: i did not
volcomangel173: i told her that you told jordon and his dad that if you didnt get any from me and her int he next two weeks that youwere dropping us
volcomangel173: why would he want to break up with me?

NEW AGE INFANTRY: what?
NEW AGE INFANTRY: thats what j siad he said
volcomangel173: yea j told me
NEW AGE INFANTRY: ok thats y i said about me and u
volcomangel173: what im confused
NEW AGE INFANTRY: n/m
volcomangel173: you told j that because you thought that it would break up bert and i
volcomangel173: dont fucking nevermine me because you and i need to fucken straighten this out
NEW AGE INFANTRY: so what was her honest opinion of me
NEW AGE INFANTRY: no
volcomangel173: she doesnt like you
NEW AGE INFANTRY: ok
volcomangel173: thats not the point
volcomangel173: why have i screwed you up'?
NEW AGE INFANTRY: nothing
volcomangel173: no no no tellme
NEW AGE INFANTRY: n/m
NEW AGE INFANTRY: n/m
NEW AGE INFANTRY: n/m
volcomangel173: youre the one who started it
NEW AGE INFANTRY: how
volcomangel173: you opedned your mouth
volcomangel173: opened**

NEW AGE INFANTRY: u want to see me again
volcomangel173: no
NEW AGE INFANTRY: ok kool
NEW AGE INFANTRY: chat later
volcomangel173: bye
 
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