boyfriends and their priorities   
03:37pm 08/06/2003
 
mood: pissed off
music: "goodnite" the movie life
guys especially boyfriends need to understand that your girlfriends come first. in my case with fur i come after work, friends/family, and f.f.a (future farmers of america). i'm 4th. whereas i should come 1st or atleast 2nd. what realy set me off on me coming last is that he just got back from florida and he came to see me yesterday and he only stayed for like 4 hours after a week of not seeing me. i wrote this to bert warning him about what the hell he's doing

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i don't understand you sometimes because you say that im your world but yet i come after the florida trip and F.F.A. and every other thing you have going on in your life you squeeze me in whenever you have time for me so how am i your world? sure you think about me all the time but how is that considering me to be your world? and if you plan on marrying me how are you going to make time to be at "our" wedding? and did you not say that we would spend alot more time together now that it's summer time? how is that going to happen when you had the florida trip last week and this week your going to be gone on tuesday, wednesday,& thursday; then friday or satruday you're supposed to spend it with your g-parents and get graduation pictures taken.... and on the 23rd, 24th, and 25th im going to be going to volleyball camp from 8:30-5 everyday?

im not pissed off per-say im just upset because you put me last. and the worst part of our relatinship is that you dont bother to inform me of you leaving to go to ffa or whatever else stuff you do. you know everything that goes on in my life but yet i know almost nothing about yours. and another thing that upsets me is that i talk to niki more than i talk to you. sure shes my best friend but your my boyfriend whom i only see once or twice a week. im not mad that you went to florida because i think you needed a vacation and to be totally honest with you i was going to tell you that we should take a break before you went to florida so you didn't have to find time to call me while you were down there, but then i said to myself,"self, he's not going to have fun while he's down there because he'll be depressed because you two took a break; sure he'd know as soon as he got back we'd get back together, but he'd be depressed."

i don't want to break things off, lord knows we'd die without each other, its just that i'd like to have one whole day all to ourselves where can just drive around, get lost, talk, play in the rain, or something of that nature. no going to the movies, wally world, or whatever; just you and me all by ourselves. i dont an audience, no friends/family, just you and me.

ive felt like this for the past 7 1/2 months but i didnt say anything because i thought that it would get better but it hasnt.

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poor niki she hasnt seen josh in a month because the stupid bastard wont take off work to go and see her. like i said before and ill say it again if he wants to be with her he needs to make an effort.
anyways im goign to be angry some more and wash some clothes.		  
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