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Tuesday, August 29th, 2006
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8:49p - today
The moon is waning
The air is cold
The light blue sky taking over the last bits of greening yellow on the far horizon.
True Inspiration.
Went back to work today
Call me crazy but I was looking forward to it
Nice to get normality back and see the day changing.
Something is hunting John
Maybe his own unconscious mind
Does he feel guilty about me?
Or is it something worst?
He has nightmares when we sleep together.
Today I realized how he lives in a cocoon,
A bubble, a shell, a cage,
So much like my own
But were I try to face my fears, John just ignore his hoping it will go away.
I feel love and hope,
In the way he looks at me
How he is caring
Giving me attention.
But my lazy self always comes back
Is just me, isn’t it?
I feel I becoming something I despise.
This lay back attitude
Weak and scared
What am I doing with my life?
current mood:  apathetic (comment on this)
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