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Sunday, May 21st, 2006
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10:04p - if I just keep telling myself the same stuff over and over again, maybe I will believe it
yesterday I actually woke up early, around 930, and i was feeling good. but some how I wasted the whole day doing nothing. them I went to bed really late feeling guilty, specially because john been feeling very stressed cuz he have so much to do and no time for himself.
today I was back in my vicious circle of wasting time. but them read all the stuff about Hestia and other Goddess and decided, YET AGAIN, THAT IS TIME TO CHANGE MY LIFE AROUND.
I tried to do some work on flash, and keep out of my mp3 collection.
I have to find ways to improve myself in my professional life, but first I need to have a professional life.
I would like to be a illustrator, since that what I went to college for, and my dad spent a lot of money so I could do so. I always liked drawing, until I went to college, and once I was suppose to draw I no longer wanted too. ITS AN AGAINST THING. as always, my autority problem shows up, even if its something that I love, once I been told to do something, I have to be against it.
but now is time to change. WELL, NOW IS ME TELLING ME TO DO SOMETHING. I CAN NOT BE AGAISNT ME, OR CAN I????
the truth is , sometimes I am the one holding me down. or I may even say, most of the time I hold myself down. and Im not happy about it. and Im the olny one that can change that.
current mood:  bouncy (comment on this)
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