rebecca's Blurty

Yesterday was Ryan and I's two years. We saw "the ruins", and it was okay
but okay if a bad way? I'm happy that we've been together for this long but it seems like
so much longer. I'm scared because i'm unsure if we will have a "3 years", just because that's
..me. but i'm really not sure what will happen this year. things are going to be so different once Ryan
is in college. I don't know if he's going to start working before then but there's so many new
things that i have to get used to. i'm actually really looking forward to the summer, and i'll
probably be getting a new job come late august/early september (after i find out what
his school schedule will be like). I really hope that I won't only get to see him like once
a week, because that would affect our relationship so much and i'd go crazy.
I really love him though, and I thank God for being able to be with him.
I really do want to be with him forever.
-Anyways, I start driving school next week, next saturday to be exact; and i'm doing the "express"
program, so i'll have two saturdays, two mondays, and two tuesdays..then I'll be done and
starting in car next month.
-Mary Sue wants me to go to an eating disorder clinic/program thing in the summer..
at "sheena's place". I guess I actually brought it up, but I don't think i'll do it--
because i'm lazy and unmotivated like that.
-I have a spare now because I couldn't stand that horrible class anymore.
-Things have been kind of getting better, I guess because I don't have any real
"stresses" right now..ryan and i are fine, i'm not fighting with melissa, school is meh,
i don't really have a lot of things to commit to right now..which is probably bad, but
i really need this break so i can get back to normal. i would like to work
but i would like to see ryan, and i would like to not work because it's so hkjdhskjh
and it pisses me off. i don't know. but i need to wait until i'm completely on top of
my game again before i get dragged into major commitments.
-Things are weird with my school now and i'm pretty sure it's going to blow
up anytime now. the people around this area have become so violent and angry.
i'm sick of hearing about bomb threats and shit.
-I hope things keep getting better.