| 11:38a |
and i wonder how i could be so happy back then,
and i wonder how anything ever changed that infinite feeling.
how did one day change anything? how did that one day end up
being the last one in my life where i was happy?
maybe i still am happy, but why do I feel like i'm not.
why has it been that the best year and a bit, i have felt like this?
i don't know. but maybe i'm starting to be happy again
or maybe that's just something i want to tell myself
but, i hope it's the truth.
i really do
because deep down, i am happy in some form
i just wish my mind would absorb that.
in 6 days, it's my two years
and i guess i should reflect on the past year
which had a lot of on and off rough times
and i don't know what i was thinking
because no matter what, i will always love him
and i can't do anything to change that
and i really hope that this is a good year for us
because, i love you. |