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Blurty for Sie.
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| Tuesday, March 30th, 2004 |
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Sorry I havent updated in forever, ive been buisy. Doing what you ask? Absolutly nothing. haha. Welcome to Calvert County. hmm..so what has happened in my life since i updated last??? well, I got my bellybutton pierced, my mom got a new job at bowens (so run in there sometime and say hi!), kyles gone for 3 weeks (woo!! party!), my pappy's coming up tomarrow for grandparents day at hunters school (which is cool, but he gets annoying after awhile because he doesnt seem to understand the meaning of personal space too well. but hes a grandparent, what do you expect?), NGB's show is coming up soon (April 9th!!) so im getting excited about that, and i guess thats about all i can remember now. COME TO NGB's SHOW ON APRIL 9TH AT JAXX!!!! SEE ME FOR INFORMATION!! |
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| Monday, March 22nd, 2004 |
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| Sunday, March 21st, 2004 |
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| Wednesday, March 10th, 2004 |
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| Happy birthday Kevin! :) I didnt know you knew him megan..heh. funny how stuff works out like that. anyways..yeah sorry for not updating in a while. right now im lookin on ebay for this really pretty piano piece from kutless. well i gotta go cuz moms coming. | ||||
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| Sunday, March 7th, 2004 |
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| Monday, March 1st, 2004 |
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| well today was pretty uneventful except for just a few minutes ago. dad called to tell my mom about hunters hockey games. mom tired to tell him that he needs to do something other than blame me or i wont ever come back to him. he, as usual, turned it against her and blamed everything on her. so moms all mad about him. and then she just told me that hunter has playoffs on my birthday and how dad was saying that hunter has to go and cant miss it to go out to dinner with me and my family. i was trying to be a good sister cuz im sure that it means alot to hunter so i told mom that i didnt care and we didnt have to do anything. but thats really not how i feel. i was really looking forward to doing this. AS A FAMILY. im sure something will get worked out, but i just feel pretty awful about the whole thing. i wish it wasnt my birthday. then it wouldnt matter as much. but i guess theres nothing that anyone can do about that. its my life and it sucks. i guess i just have to learn to deal with it better. | ||||||||
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| Saturday, February 28th, 2004 |
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 You are the gothic tower outfit! Which Moulin Rouge Satine costume are you? brought to you by Quizilla
 How sensitive are you?? |
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// YOUR ROOM, WAKING UP // 01. What color are your walls? white 02. What color is your bedspread/sheets? red and white and a million other colors 03. What color is your rug? i dont have one ha 04. Any posters/bulletin boards/designs in your room? nope 05. Do you have a TV? yup 06. Do you have a phone? only my cell in my room.. 07. Do you have your own computer? i have to share it with my bro, but its bacically mine 08. Do you have a desk? yea 09. What are your most treasured belongings in your room? my bed,my tv, my phone 10. What are your most favorite things in your room? my bed...waterbed! woo! 11. Do you have any fancy lights in your room? nope // GETTING READY // 01. What is the first thing you do when you wake up? knock my cell phone off of my nightstand to turn off the alarm on it..its scary..it happens everyday. 02. Anything unusual? no 03. Do you pick out your clothes the night before school? not usually 04. Do you try your best to look cute for school? nope..dont care that much // SCHOOL // 01. What color is your backpack? dont have one 02. Do you try your best when it comes to school work? sometimes 03. Do you listen or doodle? depends what mood im in and what class 04. BE QUIET - fuck you! 05. Do you eat your cafeteria food, or go out? cafeteria food..when im hungry 06. What do you do right when schools over? get on the bus and go home...oh joy. // HOME // When you come home are you. . . 01. Miserable? 80% of the time..yes 02. Happy? sometimes, but that usually changes quick 03. Tired? im always tired 04. LEAVE ME ALONE? omgosh that is me EXACTLY...but noone in my fam seems to get the concept // OTHER // 01. Do you take walks around your neighborhood sometimes? i thought about it once...then decided against it. it was too cold. 02. What are some hobbies of yours? music, computer, my latest fetish..SMALLVILLE! 03. Do you collect anything? stuffed animals...i have like 200 and wont get rid of any of them..theyre all special in a certain way to me. 04. What do you do in your spare time? usually attempt to get out of the house and fail. lol. 05. Are you in love, or at least falling? nah // NIGHT TIME // 01. What do you do before you go to bed? daydream of my prince charming sweeping me off of my feet. 03. What way do you sleep? every way possible...i toss and turn at night 04. Do you like your life? for the most part...it sucks sometimes, but thats life i guess |
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| Saturday, February 21st, 2004 |
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1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 2. Am I loveable? 3. How long have you known me? 4. When and how did we first meet? 5. What was your first impression? 6. Do you still think that way about me now? 7. What do you think my weakness is? 8. Do you think I'll get married? 9. What makes me happy? 10. What makes me sad? 11. What reminds you of me? 12. If you could give me anything what would it be? 13. How well do you know me? 14. When's the last time you saw me? 15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 16. Do you think I could kill someone? 17. Describe me in one word. 18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger,weaker,or staying the same? 19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and would listen? 20. Are you going to put this on your blurty and see what I say about you? |
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| Friday, February 20th, 2004 |
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My mom needs to leave. Plain and simple. She is driving me crazy. I was hoping that she and kyle would go out tonight...but NOOOO. Damnit. I need some freaking peace and quiet and I need for her to leave me the fuck alone. She has had her head up my ass for like 2 weeks or so and its driving me insane. Thank God I'll be at sams tomarrow. I'd do anything to get out of here. So...ANYWAYS. my arm hurts. haha. Yeah ive officially declared my brother able to teliport. Like I know he's here...but I cant seem to find him anywhere. I dont know where that boy goes. haha. Its happened for like 2 days now...Ill be looking for him and he'll be in the house, but i cant seem to find him. Its wierd. -Fuct up visions in my head Im a fuct up kid is what they said But at least I know all the things that I want and its all the things ive got- I love that song. I love mest. haha I cant seem to go anywhere without theyre cd...and when i cant listen to it like in school...ill sing it. (badly) lol. ah wells. I apologize to anyone who had to hear me. haha. |
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| Thursday, February 19th, 2004 |
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| well my moms been up my ass lately...and then i told her that we went to kfc with tom today and she got all pissy...the only reason why im on is because my moms taking a walk...i need to talk to someone so im gonna call this guy that i met on bp...hes really nice. im trying to figure out if colin wants me to leave him alone or try to be friends...cuz im getting hints of both. yall know how i feel but im not expecting him to trust me for awhile...so yeah. right now im just hoping that he'll forgive me and try to be friends again. ah wells. i just dont want to try to be friends and have him wanting me to go away and make it worse. ah well. i guess ill find out somehow. | ||||
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| Tuesday, February 17th, 2004 |
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| Well i havent been allowed on cuz of my grades. ugh. The only reason why im on now is because i told my mom that i was doing english homework and shes at class now. thank goodness. i need some alone time. time to think about everything. why do my feelings change so often? what are my feelings? what am i trying to accomplish? what am i thinking? i dont know. ah wells. just thinking about stuff. but i always seem to think about everything after i make a decision. oh well. i guess i just have to live with mistakes. if they are mistakes....its all how my mood is at the moment. i hate it. ah wells. i probabally dont even know what im talking about. but whatever. i dont even want to go into what happened today. | ||||||||
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| Thursday, February 12th, 2004 |
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well today was another crappy day. when we got to school we had to get off of the bus and stand outside for like 10 minutes in the freezing cold...which sucked. then when i got to prenursing, i had to do my presentation but i forgot alot of the stuff that i was supposed to say but didnt write down on my notecards. so i think i screwed that up. but i know i did ok on the paper so its ok i guess. then i cut my finger on my prenursing locker when i went to hang up my nursing jacket thingy. so i get to third period and mrs. keiossean is bitching about people not doing their work and blah blah blah and i just felt like walking over to her and being like...look. if we dont want to do the freaking paper then we wont do it and we'll just get a bad grade. ok? fuck you. gosh that woman drives me crazy. and then, for the second day in a row i got all depressed after 3rd and was depressed until i got home. in lunch i cried. but jubs made me feel better so its all ok. in chorus ashley wouldnt shut up about her supposedly getting a penguin. like that will ever happen. in mr. hedgers class the stupid preppy girls were pissing me off. and then in chem. we got our report cards. I got a 69 in prenursing, a 74 in english, a 96 in math, a 96 in chorus, an 87 in history, and a 62 in chemistry. the only really bad ones were prenursing and chemistry. english i could have gotten up higher too. but other than that, theyre acceptible grades. but my mom didnt see it that way....she flipped out saying that almost all of my grades were lower than last time and that i cant go anywhere or be on the computer anymore until i get my grades up. i just found out now that its mainly because it costs less on insurance if i get good grades. but it would have been nice of her to tell me that before she flipped out on me and got me all upset. so for the second time today, i cried. i called tim to tell him that i couldnt come over tonight and told him all about it. he helped me get settled and said that i was freaking out about something that wasnt that bad. which hes probabally right, my mom usually flips out one day and then the next she barely remembers it. but this time cuz its about money she'll remember it. yeah so im either gonna have to sneak on or lie my way on to get online anymore. ah wells. i guess ill go before i get caught. Boo-the world is right when youre arms are around me. |
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| Wednesday, February 11th, 2004 |
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Ok so today I went back to school....it wasnt all that great. but i guess not everyday is. anyways...colin hates me. and i can understand that because it sucks what i did to him. ah wells. im sure eventually things will get back to normal. School is so boring...like libby and I were discussing today....every day is the same. you get up, get ready, sit through classes, see the same boring people, and talk about the same boring things. and then you do the same thing again. I really dont know why i go to school..because we dont learn anything. we just have to be in the class...it doesnt matter if we are actually listening or anything. Its pointless. ah wells. sorry...i just had to vent for a lil while. anyways...so yeah im feeling pretty sick now so im gonna go. luv u guys. Boo-I don't wanna close my eyes I don't wanna fall asleep 'Cause I'd miss you, baby And I don't wanna miss a thing 'Cause even when I dream of you The sweetest dream would never do I'd still miss you, baby And I don't wanna miss a thing |
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| Tuesday, February 10th, 2004 |
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:::FAVORITES::: Color: Red and black Number: 13 Animal: horsey Drink: pepsi Food: steak, mashed potatoes, and broccili yummmmmmm. but only from Duclau Candy: m&ms TV Show: csi, dr.phil, opera TV Channel: fuse Cartoon: Fairly Oddparents Anime: blah. no. Movie: Stigmata Actor: the dude from pirates of the carribbean Actress: nichole kidman Music Genre: Punk, rock, alternitive, screamo,emo...all of that stuff...and yes, country Band: so many....... Artist: idunno Song(s): my immortal by evanescence Book: the bible Word: "what?" haha School subject: lunch haha City: nyc, miami, or nashville Boardgame: monopoly Videogame: halo i suppose Computer Game: idunno :::LEAST FAVORITES::: Color: i dont know....i like them all Number: 69. blah. Animal: are insects animals? Drink: orange juice blah! Food: asparigus Candy: idont know TV Show: paid programming, if thats considered a show TV Channel: Home Shopping Network Cartoon: idont know Anime: i hate all anime Movie: idont know Actor: dunno Actress: Lizzy Mcguire....blah. Music Genre: Rap Band: dont know Artist: dont know Song: Any about "The Club and Bling" Book: anything that the school makes us read. Word: the 'n' word. School subject: english..i can speak engish perfectly, i dont need to know stuff that i will never use in life. its a waste of my time. City: either new york or nashville. probabally new york....its so alive...i can never get enough. Boardgame: donno Videogame: donno Clique: preps. theres so much more to life than gossip and shopping. ::THIS OR THAT::: Pepsi or Coke? pepsi McDonalds or Burger King? both. Day or Night? night Punk or Metal? both Chocolate or vanilla? chocolate Winter or Summer? summer...but i like a lil bit of winter too. Spring or Fall? spring Guys or girls? guys White or Wheat? white Boxers or briefs? boxers Dogs or cats? both Top or bottom? bottom Black or White? black B&W or Color? black and white adds perspective but color can be useful City or Country? city Cold or warm? warm New or Old? depends Apples or Oranges? apples Top 8 things you love: 1) God 2) Tim 3) Music 4) Family 5) Friends 6) my life 7) art of all kinds 8) the beauty of the ocean Top 7 things you hate: 1) Media 2) Politicians 3) war 4) Ignorance 5) death 6) sickness 7) Rich people who don't help anyone Top 3 best friends: 1) Tim 2) Krystal 3) Sam Top 2 aphrodisiacs for you: 1) Physical contact 2) passion yay finally done! now im gonna go watch some tv. woo! Boo-Life is finally turning around...the clouds are opening up and the sunshine is beaming through to the future. |
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| ok so yesterday was fun for the most part...krystal, colin, jubs, ron, and I went to the mall. it was fun. we came back and krystal and I went to the library to work on our primary source lists for our english papers. ugh. there was bacically nothing there so we spent the remaining time while we were waiting for our moms to pick us up looking up books on sex positions. haha. were so stupid. but its ok. before i left the library i got a call from tim...which was interesting because i couldnt talk cuz my mom got there right after he called. but then after my mom picked me up we went to stoneys but i didnt eat much of my salad cuz i had a cheeseburger after we went to the mall. i had a sore throat last night. blah. i called tim back to talk about the stuff that i couldnt talk about to my mom and yeah. so i woke up this morning with still a throat and my head was all stuffed up and i felt like blah so i went downstairs and asked my mom if i could stay home and she said yeah so i went back upstairs and fell asleep till 7 when colin came over to pick me up. i was gonna call him but then i fell asleep. Sorry! and so my mom told him that i was sick and i went back to sleep till 10:30 when i got up and got food and watched tv. i got online and talked to tim some and then colin came over to see how i was doing and we talked some. yea im sure he'll get mad at me for putting this on here but yall are gonna find out one way or another so yeah were not going out anymore. im sorry that i hurt him again, but i guess its better to end it now rather than get deeper and then end it. hopefully he'll eventually want to be friends again, but if not than i can understand. ah wells. so that brings me up to right now. I guess ill go downstairs and get some salad or something to eat cuz my tummy feels bad. I hope yall have fun at school! haha. | ||||||||
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| Saturday, February 7th, 2004 |
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Well i talked to my dad today....i had to ask him for my stuff back because if i asked him and he didnt give me it all then my mom was gonna tell the judge about it when we go to court. so i asked and he was like "well im not giving you the computer cuz we use it...(which was given to me for my birthday or xmas one year)...and you were saying before you left about how you wanted to sell youre video camera so we were gonna give you the money for that cuz were using it." but ok heres what happened one day...for future reference.... one time, he came to school and tried to pick me up to 'take me to an orthodontist appt.' without my mom or me knowing previously or anything and i told him that i wasnt gonna go with him cuz mom didnt know where i would be and mom didnt tell me anything about it and i dont feel comfortable in a car with him. and he said he had my money with him that day and he was gonna give it to me but i said that i wasnt gonna go with him and so he didnt give me the money... ok so back to my story about today.... and he was like "well i was gonna give you the money but you didnt go with me blah blah blah..." and i was like "BECAUSE I FELT UNCOMFORTABLE IN A CAR WITH YOU AND BECAUSE MOM DIDNT KNOW WHERE I WAS GONNA BE!" and he was like "why didnt you feel comfortable with me?" and i was like "BECAUSE I DONT LIKE YOU!" and he walked away...and then he pulled me aside again and was like "gimmie three reasons why you dont like me" and i was like "because i dont like what you did to mom, or me, or hunter...i dont like how you brainwashed hunter and I...and I dont like you" and he was like "sierra, dont you remember all of the times that i came home and you were up crying blah blah blah... (and he was trying to brainwash me there again)...look at the one whos brainwashed sierra..blah blah blah..." and i was like "i dont have to hear this..are you gonna gimmie my stuff?" and he was like "I'll give you you're stuff except for the things we talked about" and I was like fine...and when you said that i betrayed youre whole family..it wasnt about youre whole family...i dont have a problem with them...i have a problem with you." and then he started talking about the brainwashing thing again and i was like "i dont have to hear this..mom can we go?" and she was like yeah and we walked out. and now ive got a huge pile of shit in my house...not any of my good stuff that i wanted so were going to bring that up in court. ah how i love my family. yeah but i actually took it really well...it didnt bother me at all. which is very good. |
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| Friday, February 6th, 2004 |
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| so today we had a two hour delay. yay! it made me happy. I went to first period and turned in my prenursing project today...we were expecting a long period as usual but because of the 2 hour delay we only had like 10 minutes cuz calvert went to their third period classes real quick. went to 3rd and talked to krystal...good talk. need to talk more. always more. went to lunch and sam and krystal skipped and came to lunch with us..yay. i showed them my 'magic water' and bought them cookies. went to math and we had this old lady as a sub trying to teach us something she didnt even understand so i did other stuff during math. ow my wrist hurts. * goes and gets krys's brace* ah...much better. except now i cant type. hehe. ah wells. back to school...uum chorus we had that stupid sub that talked to us about 'attention' in hedgers class earlier this year. i was about to skip and come to lunch but he saw me. ah wells. went to hedgers and watched a movie. went to chem and talked the whole time. i felt like i was gonna faint the whole day. i really really gotta start eating right. ah wells. going to youth group tonight. im excited. hopefully i wont get as many looks as i did last time. ah wells, i love it no matter what anyone thinks of me. and im gonna keep going. so ha! haha jp. looking forward to going to sams house (hopefully) on saturday for a party! woo! that should be fun. i guess im going to update my xanga now...ive decided that this journal is for writing stuff and my xanga is for poems and stuff. well ill talk to you guys later. | ||||||||
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| Thursday, February 5th, 2004 |
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Well i talked to colin..and everything is straight now. i knew it would be...just didnt know how soon it would happen. but whatever...glad thats over. im prayin for a 2 hour delay tomarrow but im not positive that were gonna get one. ah wells. well see when it happens. finally done with my whole project woo!! so relieved. im very tired though so im gonna go to bed now. nighty night you guys. luv yas. p.s. jeremy- everything WILL work out. p.p.s. krystal- goodnight, luv yas...sorry for signing off without saying goodbye. p.p.p.s. everyone else- I LOVE YOU! :) *dont ever think twice about telling someone that you love them, you dont know when either of you might be gone forever* |
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happy.
hungry.
tired.
disappointed.
okay.
lonely.
aggravated.
indescribable.
thirsty.
content.
exhausted.