06:07pm 15/03/2003
 
mood: crying
music: me crying
I really miss my boyfriend right now I dont know what I should do if I should call him or not. I really wanna talk to my baby but I am afrid to call cause I am afrid I will say something wrong to him and I really dont wanna lose him again cause he means the world to me.Its been ac ouple of weeks since we have been bak together and I am really happy that we never brke up and we were still together after almost 3 months of not seeing each other.Last night was the best night of all. I now everything that turns on my baby. -----his ear-
-ahem-
-me-
-kissing-
-me sitting on his lap-.
-rubbing his legs-

I have alot of turn ons but I am not gonna say cause I dont wanna ;) My baby is the only one that can now my turn ons and he is the only one that does now my turn ons.... We have been together for about 7-8 months now....... and I am really happy about that and I cant wait until this August 23 cause it will be our 1 year annivery... I can't wait until them cause I have something special planned for him... ;) I cant wait!!!!!!!!!! *jumps up and down* I dont jknow how much it will cost but I am hopin nothin way over my head cause I just want this so special for us cause we are TRUE LOVE and nothin can come between us.... If anything comes between us I will always find him and be with him over and over again.. I am planning on getting married to him and haing kids with him cause he is the only one I really wanna spend the rest of my life with. I dont know how he feels but thats the way I feel... I wanna write him a letter telling him howwww much i love him and I really wanna be with him and marry him and have his kids and spend the rest of my life with him. I dont know if he is gonna agree with that but if he is my TRUE LOVE he will feel the same way cause if he wasnt then he wouldnt have come back to me.......... I dont know how much longer this entry will last but proboly little longer. He told me over and over again that he loves me and he dosent wanna lose me and I told him that I dont wanna lose him ever too.
He is my baby boy and I am so happy that he is




♥-donna
 
     
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09:50pm 12/03/2003
 
mood: pissed off
♥I really hate this one gurl named Chantel and she drives me !@#!@#@ nuts.... I really wish I could sock her one of these days and her bestfriend Erin and this guy who like Erin.. They all drive me nuts... One of these days I will sock them in the face and I will not get in trouble for it. Chantel really needs to get a life please going out with a 6th grader and shes a 7th grader please tell me that is crazy or what. Chantel says she did nothin to me and I shouldnt be disin her in my journal or whatever but I am cause she makes fun of me cause of my sexuality and that really hurt me alot and I really wanna get back at her for doing that to me. The day she did that to me I felt really put down and I didnt know what to say to her cause I was soooooooooooooooooooooooo hurt I was crying for like 3 hours and I couldnt stop until I sat in the bath and let myself relax from the stress and aggravation..... Now she is saying that other people and talking about me and saying shit about me great just what I need to be made fun of more and be the laughing stock of the school............. HELL FUCKING No...... I will not stand for that I am trying to ignore it all but it is kinda hard for me... Well I g2g I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fuckin pissed off right now and I really need to go to bed and relax for a couple of hours!!!!!!!!!♥



♥Donna♥
 
     
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I thought my life could get worse?? But guess what?? My life got better.   
07:59pm 12/03/2003
 
mood: happy
music: Us against the world ~PLAY~
For the past 3 days they have been really great for me!!!!!!! The reason why they have been really great for me is because I have been seeing my ex boyfriend!!! I am really happy that I have finaly gotten to see him cause I really missed him alot and I thought I was never gonna see him again and then all os a sudden I meet him again and I really cried so much cause he told me that he still loves me and I was so shocked when he said that and that's when I started to cry again... He means the world to me and that I never wanted to lose him and I really wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. It has almost been 3 months since the last time I saw him last and I guess I am really shocked and surprised to see him at last. I was counting day by day month by month til I was gonna see My ex again. It was on Monday when he was over my friends house and he was there and he was watching her type and talk to me and he found out that it was me and he started to say stuff to me and I was sooooooooo shocked and happy.. He is the love of my life and I really don't wanna lose him again and I guess I am nwever gonna lose him cause he gave me his cell phone number and I was like OMG!!!!! I love you so much (But I was laughing when I said it cause I was high). He was so happy to see me and to tell me that he loved me and that I am hi one and only... He will always mean the world to me and I dont know when I am gonna call him but I am planning on it soon and I guess I will talk to him awhile and tell him how much I really missed him and how much I still love him and I still wanna be with him and that I have always cried when I thought of him. There is this one certain song that reminds me of him and I break down crying when ever I hear it..... I hope that he says we can get back together and that I can finaly get back with my one true love that I know that is my one and only true love cause if he wasnt he wouldnt wanna ever see me again and I guess this is what true love is about? My love and my happiness goes to him and I hope that I can get him something to show him how much I still love him and I still wanna be with him and I really never wanted to leave him and always be with him...... He is still my heart adn soul and I am very greatful for that....... Well I g2g that was my GAY update of my long so fucking GAY life.....

-Princess





AKA







-Donna
 
     
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I thought my life could get worse?? But guess what?? My life got better.   
07:58pm 12/03/2003
 
mood: happy
music: Us against the world ~PLAY~
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I thought my life could get worse?? But guess what?? My life got better.   
07:44pm 12/03/2003
 
mood: happy
music: Us against the world ~PLAY~
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My life rocks.....   
02:43pm 09/03/2003
 
mood: loved
music: cry ~*mandy moore*~
I thought to no end what so ever my life was ruined for good.... But today was the best day for me and I guess it is a miracle cause guess what? My ex told me he still loves me.... I started to cry cause I thoguht I lost him forever. But I guess he still has feelings for me and I still have feelings for him... He was my love and my first love and I knew I was never gonna lose him and I did... But to this day I found out that my love is still my love and I will never forget that. I know I should be writing my essay on Finland and I am doing everythin possible to not write it and I dont really wanna write but I am gonna write it and pass it in *crosses fingers* if he excepts it.
I really love Brent and I dont wanna lose him again I wish I could just see him again and tell him how much I love him and I really didnt want to hurt him like this.. He was my first kiss and my first boyfriend and he will be my last cause I believe in true love....


True love what does it mean to me?:
If you find someone that you love and you dont wanna lose them and if you do lose them and you guys dont talk for awhile and someday your best friend is talking to him on the phone and he tells her to tell them that he misses them then thats true love to me... Its like me and him were never apart in the first place *starts to cry*

well thats my update.
 
     
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09:46am 09/03/2003
  sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeettttttttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




I'm Weed.
What drug are you?
quiz by midgetfarm.com


 
     
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08:55am 09/03/2003
 
mood: loved
Hey everyone I know its asuch a long time since I updated but I am I have the world s best pics of my krisibear to show you guys.



this is my krisibear and I love him with all my heart I might be meeting him soon over summer vaction and I will be hanging with my baby more and more I am gonna call him (but 1st I need a calling card) then I will call him I <3 him with all my
 
     
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07:31pm 22/02/2003
  Some random quizzez


I got vans on the shoe quiz. Go and take it by clicking on the picture above, and also go and visit Roxanne's domain, redruby.net too.





Which Piercing are you?






I have issues with...
destiny
discipline
society
labor
mirror
Take Word Association Test
 
     
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02:57pm 22/02/2003
 
mood: high
music: i run away ~*Britney Spears~*










I choose this picture cause he reminds me of my life.. He is into black and white and I am into gothlic shit as well...... My parents wont let me dress gothlic but I am still into it anyways and I really like that cause since I was little I liked black and my parents tried so hard to steer me away from it but it drove me closer to more liking them hating.. I really dont care what people look like and how like people who smoke I dont care cause I am a smoker myself..... I smoke weed and ciggs.Even though my parents know they dont mind. I love good charlotte and I will always love them cause they are one of the best groups I have ever heard.
My parents dont really want me liking them cause they are on the side of gothlic and I dont mind that cause like I said I LOVE GOTHLIC.
Im also into witch craft and shit like that I am a fan of all kinds of stuff to do with that cause I love things that are not normal and I really love that cause thats who I am.....
 
     
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05:45pm 16/02/2003
 
mood: lonely
CURRENTS
current clothes // jeans and a hoddie
current hair // down
current mood // lonly and missing my bf
current music // none
current taste // milk
current smell //nothin
current annoyance // none
current thing i ought to be doing // sleeping
current desktop // britney spears
current favorite band // too many too name
current book // harry potter 3
current cd in cd player // avril lavigne
current color of toenails // purple and blue
current worry // You loves me?
Current Crush // Mark

LAST PERSON
you touched // Mark
you talked to // Mark
you hugged // Mark
you instant messaged // noone
you yelled at // DAD
who broke your heart // Brent

FAVORITE
person // Mark,Jessica and someone else I cant mention
food // Pizza
drink // soda or milk
color // light blue
shoes // Vans.
candy // sour skittles
animal // dolphin
tv show // Rugrats
dance // slow dancing and dirtty dancing
song // Hero "Mariah Carey"
vegetable // Spinch
fruit // strawberries and watermelon.

ARE YOU
understanding // sometimes
open-minded // yes
arrogant // ehh
insecure // sometimes
interesting // hell no
hungry // yes
friendly // yes
smart // yeah
moody // hell yea
childish // yeah and I love it.
independent // sometimes
organized // yeah
healthy // yep
shy // Hell yeah
difficult // yes
attractive // no
bored easily // Yeah
Messy // yes
Thirsty // yes
responsible // sometimes
obsessive // sometimes
angry // yes
sad // yes
happy // yes
trusting // yes
ill // mentally
talkative // yeah
original // yes
different // yes
unique // yes
ignored // yes
content // ehh
a thinker // yes
sleepy // yes
lonely // yes

WHO DO YOU WANT TO
kill //NOONE!!!!! thats mean
kiss // My crush
hug // My crush
hook up // Me and my crush
shake // myself
be like // myself
talk to offline // My crush.
 
     
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HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!   
03:32pm 16/02/2003
 
mood: missing boyfriend
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Hey Yesterday is my birthday wow... I guess noone cares.. I did cool things yesterday and I really had have fun with them as well I know I havent updated in such a long time but who cares I am updating now :P I really wanna spend it with the guy I love with all my heart right now and I wish he could be here with me and I could prove to him that I love him...... We have been together now for about 4 days and we love each other so much I know he might be a little older then me but who cares he just moved in to my apartment building and I have been spending so much time with him.. He makes me feel good about myself and I am really glad that I am with someone that makes me good about myself..... When everyone is downing me I have him to cuddle with and kiss when I am sad or lonly... My parents dont know yet but I am planning on telling them soon about me and the one I love so much.......... I am hoping they are not gonna get mad at me and guess what? He drives as welll and that is really awsome and we went out the other night when we were suposed to help with them moving in instead we stayed at the house and then we left in the car just the two of us and we sat in the car and kissed and then we came back and help out... This entry is a pain in the ass to write I had to rewrite it about 5 times already but this time I got it right.!

<3 Donna
 
     
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04:41pm 10/02/2003
 
mood: creative
CURRENTS
current clothes // pink kiss pants and a xoxo tank top
current hair // down
current mood // Hungry
current music // none
current taste // Hamburgers
current smell //food
current annoyance // none
current thing i ought to be doing // sleeping
current desktop // britney spears
current favorite band // too many too name
current book // harry potter 3
current cd in cd player // avril lavigne
current color of toenails // purple and blue
current worry //Brent
Current Crush // Brent

LAST PERSON
you touched // myself
you talked to // my mom
you hugged // my mom
you instant messaged // Chris
you yelled at // Jessica Ruth Reed
who broke your heart // No1

FAVORITE
person // My parents and my best friends
food // Pizza
drink // soda or milk
color // light blue
shoes // Vans.
candy // sour skittles
animal // dolphin
tv show // Rugrats
dance // slow dancing and dirtty dancing
song // Hero "Mariah Carey"
vegetable // Spinch
fruit // strawberries and watermelon.

ARE YOU
understanding // sometimes
open-minded // yes
arrogant // ehh
insecure // sometimes
interesting // hell no
hungry // yes
friendly // yes
smart // yeah
moody // hell yea
childish // yeah and I love it.
independent // sometimes
organized // yeah
healthy // yep
shy // Hell yeah
difficult // yes
attractive // no
bored easily // Yeah
Messy // yes
Thirsty // yes
responsible // sometimes
obsessive // sometimes
angry // yes
sad // yes
happy // yes
trusting // yes
ill // mentally
talkative // yeah
original // yes
different // yes
unique // yes
ignored // yes
content // ehh
a thinker // yes
sleepy // yes
lonely // yes

WHO DO YOU WANT TO
kill // Jessica
kiss // Austin
hug // Austin
hook up // Me and Austin
shake // Jessica
be like // myself
talk to offline // Autin
 
     
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12:43pm 05/02/2003
 
mood: crushed
Love-What does it mean to me? Well I really can't explain love anymore cause I have been heart broken so many times it is not funny anymore....

A Kiss- A friend and a lover... My old friend means alot to me still I wish i could see her one more time in my life I guess I am not gonna. A old lover, we were in love so much but something I did so stupid made it so I can't see either my friend or my ex-boyfriend.

I wrote this is because... When everything goes wrong in my life I guess I have no control over what I do anymore... Ever since I have stared my new meds I am a completly different person in my life.I wish I could just prove it to my old friends and my ev boyfriend........ I guess I will never be able to prove to them I have changed cause I guess none of them will give me the time of day to prove to them I have changed......I have tried so hard not to make a total ass out of my self and I guess I still am making an ass out of myself.... I really wanna prove to them I have changed and I have grown up and I am sooooo much mature.......But if they don't wanna see the new person I am I guess I will never have those old friends again as long as I live my life......

To Jessica......
Jessica that kiss ment everything to me.I truly am sorry for what I have done to you and your family.. I really wanna apoligize to you guys if you guys will even let me......... I have made such a bad mistake lying to you and doing the shit I did....I guess you were right I was not acting my age and I was not mature in my old life and I guess now I have changed so much and I really wanna show that to you again..

To Brent:
Brent I have made such an ass out of myself and I guess I do still love you so much and I wish I had never lost you......



Well,
This is all for now I guess????


<3 Donna
 
     
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08:07pm 03/02/2003
 
mood: avriltistic
music: ~*Complicated*~ ~Avril Lavigne*~
Avril manic......... I <3 Avril Lavigne


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03:06pm 26/01/2003
 
mood: crushed
music: Jenny From the Block ~*Jennifer Lopez*~
Hey everyone.. I am not doing that well right now....I have been up set for a while..On friday I went to school with my mom and I had to see the princapal.Well,to find out I was ratted out by one of my best friends to him.Well,I guess it is for the best of me and I really am happy that she did it for me.
What I did I know was wrong.

What I did was I brought a knife into school and I was trying to slit my wrists in school in front of people and I shouldn't have done that cause I had class mates watching me and seeing everything I was doing. Some kids now are afrid to come to school cause of me and I really don't blame them cause I would be afrid to come to school if someone ever did that.

Well, now I have to get a probation officer and I have to go to court once a week to face a judge about it and if I don't do what i am suspose to do I will be thrown in juvie. When my insurence is changed I will be put into a hospital for people with my kind of orders.. I really don't wanna go there cause if I do my brother will be very upset and I don't want him to see me there.

I really wish i had never made these choices because I lost a friend that I really care about and I don't wanna lose....... I wish she could see that I am really sorry and I wish i had never done what I had done... She was my bestfriend until we had a little fight and I really wish i could rewind time and make things all better...

Well that's all for now.....


~*Donna*~


This entry is for my best friend ~*Jessica*~ and my exboyfriend ~*Brent*~
 
     
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05:03pm 20/01/2003
  Hey everyone I am donna I had a boyfriend... But now I am single..................

Leave me some if you want my time...........

<3 Donna
 
     
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