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| Tuesday, April 25th, 2006 | |
| 9:30 pm | Mya! OOoooohh.. I'm baaaaaaaaaack. Like a bla-a-a-ack sheep. Whaaaaaaat????? And starting with an annoying note: I can't register for classes because the website thingy says I haven't paid for my chemistry equipment breakage fee (which I did pay), and the 'make a payment' section says I have no payments to make. Uuuuhhhh.... I think it's my computer, but it still pissed me off. For some reason of another, I can't drop the ADJUS 121.. 122 class, either. Drop date is this Friday! Why can't I drop it! Arrrgg!!!! I should go to the administrations office by foot, duh. FF:AC!!!!! It's out today!! It's out today!! It's out today!!!!! I wanna go to Sun Valley Mall or whereever to get that into my hands!! Gimmeee!!! Please!!! Give me!!! I've been waiting for over half a year!!! Ever since I thought that that thing was coming out during November!!! Someone leaked false info. I really need to do fine artish art. Or do some serious manga. Serious manga, I should do. I'm going to teach it, so that makes sense. Right now, I'm trying to type my fastest, because I like the fluency of quick typing (and because I like to be an over-achiever in aspects that will probably not affect my life). I like to play quick music on the piano, so I would like to type quicker than what I do now. I know it's partly due to the fact that my brain can't process sentences as quick as my fingers would like to type. Besides, typing uses both hands' fingers, and that leads to a more flexible, quick-thinking head. All good stuff happens when typing fast! Except for carpel tunnel syndrome. Carpel tunnels syndrome. I don't know. Randomness. I'm thinking of keeping online journals light-hearted. Bad things come out of me when I start throwing up anger. See, people say a bad experience turns into a good memory, but for me, bad experiences where the blame is entirely on me, I just want to forget them!!! SO ashamed at myself, and I'll always be. Lesson learned. Moving on! So my journals are as long as ever. I guess I haven't changed a lot. 'tis good, enit? eh? huh? hey? ey? There is actually a brain there, somewhere. You just can't see it. Beneath all this randomness and stupidity, there is an active, deep-in-thought brain that's barfing up all these letters. I NEED TO DO ART!!! GIVE ME FF: AC!!!! SELL YOUR KH2 SO THAT I CAN BUY IT FOR LESS THAN $40!!! Yep. Those three shouts are today's wishes. Right now, I'd like to look up the names of my characters and see if they actually exist in what form in this world. Iglaz: he's primarily in Russian sites. Timally: she has something to do with medicine and computer related stuff. Signing off!! Current Mood:  annoyed |
| 9:30 pm | Mya! OOoooohh.. I'm baaaaaaaaaack. Like a bla-a-a-ack sheep. Whaaaaaaat????? And starting with an annoying note: I can't register for classes because the website thingy says I haven't paid for my chemistry equipment breakage fee (which I did pay), and the 'make a payment' section says I have no payments to make. Uuuuhhhh.... I think it's my computer, but it still pissed me off. For some reason of another, I can't drop the ADJUS 121.. 122 class, either. Drop date is this Friday! Why can't I drop it! Arrrgg!!!! I should go to the administrations office by foot, duh. FF:AC!!!!! It's out today!! It's out today!! It's out today!!!!! I wanna go to Sun Valley Mall or whereever to get that into my hands!! Gimmeee!!! Please!!! Give me!!! I've been waiting for over half a year!!! Ever since I thought that that thing was coming out during November!!! Someone leaked false info. I really need to do fine artish art. Or do some serious manga. Serious manga, I should do. I'm going to teach it, so that makes sense. Right now, I'm trying to type my fastest, because I like the fluency of quick typing (and because I like to be an over-achiever in aspects that will probably not affect my life). I like to play quick music on the piano, so I would like to type quicker than what I do now. I know it's partly due to the fact that my brain can't process sentences as quick as my fingers would like to type. Besides, typing uses both hands' fingers, and that leads to a more flexible, quick-thinking head. All good stuff happens when typing fast! Except for carpel tunnel syndrome. Carpel tunnels syndrome. I don't know. Randomness. I'm thinking of keeping online journals light-hearted. Bad things come out of me when I start throwing up anger. See, people say a bad experience turns into a good memory, but for me, bad experiences where the blame is entirely on me, I just want to forget them!!! SO ashamed at myself, and I'll always be. Lesson learned. Moving on! So my journals are as long as ever. I guess I haven't changed a lot. 'tis good, enit? eh? huh? hey? ey? There is actually a brain there, somewhere. You just can't see it. Beneath all this randomness and stupidity, there is an active, deep-in-thought brain that's barfing up all these letters. I NEED TO DO ART!!! GIVE ME FF: AC!!!! SELL YOUR KH2 SO THAT I CAN BUY IT FOR LESS THAN $40!!! Yep. Those three shouts are today's wishes. Right now, I'd like to look up the names of my characters and see if they actually exist in what form in this world. Iglaz: he's primarily in Russian sites. Timally: she has something to do with medicine and computer related stuff. Signing off!! Current Mood: annoyed |
| Thursday, May 12th, 2005 | |
| 11:51 am | I got my ear pierced yesterday!!!! Whoo-hoo! Now, I have four on my left and one on my right. Heeheehee. Waahaahaa. I'm gonna get a bar (industrial. Why's it called that?) in my right ear someday. But yesterday's didn't hurt anywhere close to what I thought it would. My friend asked me 'Did it hurt?' and I asked back 'It went in already????' I thought it was the scissor thing pinching my ear. And I have new clothes, too. OH MY GOSH DID SHE JUST SAY THAT!!???? Yep! I!! Did!!! I kinda decided that I'm probably shooing away lots of people with what I where, and making new friends that I know by phone (at a new place) at a pace of ....none? per year was pretty depressing, so hah! I'm a loner to new people. I'm still wearing what I wore, too. My mom told me "Use more money on those kinds of things!" and my dad told me "Good." Can you tell how fashion-nonchalant I am? Is that even correct? I didn't know that there was a tennis party at Melo's today! Stupid computer wouldn't let me open that one e-mail. Haaaw..... Well, as long as I make it there. I love you guys!!! <-from Alex. Do you get it, Northgate girls JV basketball team of '02? Current Mood:  hungry |
| Tuesday, May 3rd, 2005 | |
| 11:12 pm | Is this a miracle? Gaspy gasp! I'm about 142 pages behind in Waterlily. And we're going to finish the book this Friday. Beautiful. Oh well. I'll catch up. I think the episodes for Teen Titans are so so few sided. I always see the Silky episode, Slayed.. Slade.. haunts Robin episode, The Beast Within, Malfior/Malchior (with Raven) episode, Wavelength, Terra's defection (is that right?) episode, and Independence Day Mad Mod episode. I still love Beast Boy. On piano, I'm playing Christmas on the Battlefield or Merry Christmas, Mr. Lawrence by Ryuuichi Sakamoto. Pretty stuff. And also Summer by Joe Hisaishi. <- Really pretty. I finished the very well known Charlie Brown music, Linus and Lucy which was insanely almost impossible to play without messing up 839 times at normal speed. Other stuff I'm doing right now (on my own): Jupiter (Hirahara Ayaka), Dareka no Negai ga Kanaukoro (Utada Hikaru), Sekai ni Hitotsu dake no Hana (SMAP), Morai Naki (Hitotoyou), Ai no Tameni (Ueto Aya), Wonderful Life (& G).... lots of FFIX and FFVIII stuff. I want the other sheet notes, too! FFX! FFVII!! FFX-2!! Tactics!!! Advanced level music notes, please (like I can complete them). Randomness (didya' miss them?). Favorite made-up characters: Edal the red-headed, skinny-donkey, hyperactive shyguy; Mereth, the steriotypical mysterical confident beautiful princess; Arls, the red guy with a purple name from the Murderers' Village; Liez, the future leader but now in the midst of suicidal thoughts; Khaym, all her might to stop him; Beata, the easy-going powerful father; Aedon, always stressed out by him; Judah (she's a she), struggling with attention and reason; Lawton, the dude whose work-filled life is not made any easier by her; Irving, the inventor, the musician, the artist, the slack; Eian, whose aggressive ways puts her in trouble manymany times; and Hwolan, her father, who will gut out life for the next 26,855 years. What I wanted to get to was Hwolan (whose name I hate but has been the name for way too long to change). I'm gonna cry just thinking about him! Yeah. I should write about him some other time because I should be getting to homework (again). Emotion-Movement! Emotion-Movement! By the way, is a direct translation for Kandou~~~~. At least for me, it is. I want to write fanfics!! <-Then do! I want to watch Howl's Moving Castle! <-Be patient! I'm going to Japan!!! <-And to the World Expo!! I need to catch up with work! <-No duh! I want Final Fantasy: Advent Children!! <- Is it a game? Is it a movie? I'm going!!! Current Mood:  rushed |
| Sunday, May 1st, 2005 | |
| 9:40 pm | Nine months! Bye! Naw. Just kidding. I forgot my password for about a minute! I thought it was my newer version, but it didn't turn out like that. Oh well. Anyhow, I'm aiming for Humbolt, major in Environmental Science First Nations Environmental Protection, minors (if possible) in Native American Studies and Studio Arts. Lots of things to do (including Geography homework that's due tomorrow and reading for Native American Literatures). Chem-108 -> Chem-120 -> Chem-121, Biosc-130, 131. Maybe Biosc-119 Math-191 (finished) -> Math-182. Geol-120, 122 (Lab), and Geography (in process). In addition, Spch-120, Hist-122 (critical thinking), and one of the physiological or psychological studies class (I'll probably take nutrition), since I'm going to a CSU. UC's have less GE requirements (since I already took a language). Stuff I want to take (during the three years) are Oil/acrylic, creative writing, short story writing, another watercolor, figure drawing, Metalsmithing and Jewelry, basketball, tae kwon do, aikido weapons, hiking. Stuff I want to take but know I won't take: Meteorology more of the biology classes (butterflies and insects, nature conservation), WWW publishing with HTML (I still don't understand), construction processes, Cultural Geography, Maps and Cartography, Histories!!, Horticulture~~~, Culinary!!!, Spanish (I want to relearn it!!), animation stuff, Oceanography. Yeah. I like lots of things. Anyways, that was lots of nonsense that didn't need to be written. So, on with what I'm-a doing these days. Game!!! Re-played Dewprism, powering up FFT ( the bars are addictive), and now, FFVII. This is the only time I've gone past the first disc. It's so sad.... (T _T) Tears... Stop attacking Mideel, Ultima WEAPON! I love the faces when you press triangle to get to the menu screen. The girls' (I can't believe I'm older than Yuffie and one year younger than Tifa. When'd that happen? The first impression I got when I looked at their ages were "WHA!!?" and now look..) portraits, faces, whatever, are so perty. I love-em. Aerith, Aerith. COME OUT, FINAL FANTASY: ADVENT CHILDREN!!! We can't wait! Reading Ella Cara Deloria's Waterlily for my NA Literatures class. And there was a small dance demonstration? Was it a demonstration? on Friday. Jingle, Fancy, and Shawl. We loved it. By the way, I'm talking about American Indian dancing. I really want to go to Stanford on Mother's Day Weekend. Biggest powwow in California. I might go to that Southwest trip, so cool too! Comic-wise, Fruit Basket. I like Kyou, Shigure, Kisa (I wonder why, you year of the Tiger), the teacher, Uo-Chan (I'm a pisces. 'Uo' = fish), and Hana-chan. I'm up to book seven, by the way. The Hatori-type is never my liking, and Akito needs to be thocked in the head and have a broken neck. Hi. Oh. I don't like Hiro, either. Lots of names that are gender-confuzzlement. Yuki (Kyou, Hiro maybe also) can go either way. Ayame is a girl's name, Akito and Touru's a guy's name. Enough said. I need to do my homework. Sorry for the sudden end. See you! (Translation: hopefully I will be back) Current Mood:  restlessCurrent Music: "Moon Light" by F.F.S.S. |
| Friday, August 6th, 2004 | |
| 5:29 pm | We found a dead bird on our veranda! I doubt it is West Nile Virus, because we live more north from where lots of it is happening, but I sill e-mailed the Mosquito and Vector Control District. Be on the lookout! If you find any dead birds, go to here: www.westnile.ca.gov Ummm.... I will work on my 15 - 20 page manga for the Rising Stars thingy! Current Mood: rushed |
| Saturday, July 31st, 2004 | |
| 3:52 pm | I'm here, I'm here! After... it seems like the sixth, so.. after twenty-five days!!! I am on blurty again!! Look at how much I value journals!! Muahaha!! Am having trouble typing ! in. @ comes out instead. Naaarrgh. And lookie (looky?) how much I have painted!! I actually have an Eian painting, too, but that's over in the drawer place. She's posing for a magazine-ish type of pose. With her leaning on a refrigerator and her foot on a safe. You money and food lover. Ironically, she has an abnormally high metabolism and no money during her younger (than now) years. .... ... .. . Hey!! She's not even in the following list!! Why am I ranting about her!!? So, here they are: http://mangahuue.250free.com/Watercolor/Final.jpg http://mangahuue.250free.com/Watercolor/kiralin.jpg http://mangahuue.250free.com/Watercolor/Shpill.jpg http://mangahuue.250free.com/Watercolor/Merehana.jpg http://mangahuue.250free.com/Watercolor/Nan-by_Helen.jpg http://mangahuue.250free.com/Watercolor/Smiles_Much.jpg The first four are weird colored, because I took their pictures in the shade, and they looked too dark. Then I used the sponge tool? on the compurter to brighten things up, so there's the outcome: ugly, luminescent, glowing, neon, unrealistic colors. First one, obviously for our finals, and I like being idiotic. That's toooo much... and I still have more to do. The theme was to be 'time.' It can be the changing of the seasons, a tomato flower, a green tomato, a ripe tomato, a spaghetti, it can be a clock, what ever!!! Just show time!! With at least four sections! Mwaha! I'll show you the finished product. Kiralin is: two keychains and the Laputa necklace (see it? At the upper right hand corner). Hehehe. I did that thing in about two classes. Less than. I was on turbo those days! We were supposed to mix colors on the palette, and then paint it onto the paper, but uh.. Sorry, I don't like that technique. It looks mixed enough! Wanna fight? Huh, huh? Shpill........ Wet on wet. I hate this thing. I need to make the shadow darker, it doesn't look like a vile (or whatever it's called), the cork (it's a cork) won't fit, and look at the boredom background!! Shomeone help me! Merehana = Mereth Hanabi. Hanabi means, literally, Flower Fire in Japanese. In other words, fireworks. We did a varugated (how do you spell that) wash, one-tone wash, and a valued-wash, and for the varu-varyu, we painted something over it. I drew Mereth looking up to the fireworks, because the watercolor ended up like that. What's up with your hand, Mereth!!??? Uh-huh. Hey, where'd the edge-shading one go? I did mine on the value wash! Nan: by Helen is by Helen (duiiiiiiihhh), and we did a character swap, and drew each other's characters! Nan was the only person that I hadn't thought of a weapon for, and I needed to think of a circular weapon, because the strory's a colorwheel!!! I was thinking about the steering wheel on the ship, slinky (wha?), buoy... and Helen chose the buoy! Nan's going to buoy-attack you!! With the rubber duck! Smiles_Much. Where's the smile? I don't know. She does smile more, usually. This is another extra one that I did. I started to want to make actual forms out of the swirly thingies, so I started to do this. What are you trying to do? Kill yourself!? Quite.. frankly.... No where near being done, and I'm making her stereotypical (though you can't tell yet)! Ah! That's what my 7 - 10 page essay is on!!!! (Senior Paper's nothing compared to this!) Yep. I've written two five page essays, two three page assignments, and now, a seven to ten page essay. In a span of six weeks (actually, we're in our fifth). We've taken ten quizzes, one mid-term, and we need to make a portfolio! With transition pages in-between the assignmets and essays, an intro, conclusion, a definition sheet, and a cover!!! Wow, that's a lot! Guess what racial group I'm writing my stereotype essay on??? Native Americans!!! Pocahontas, the positive stereotype, the older Westerns, the negative stereotypes, and Smoke Signals! More accurate!! Yeeeeeeeeaaah. It's a little unnerving when your feet don't touch the floor when you're at the bathroom. Hint-hint, DVC Art Department, hint-hint. Our restaurant is open, finally, after four month minus one day!!! It looks a lot better, everything's new, shining, clean (the lights are absolutely gorgeous). We still don't have a lot of stuff on the walls, but they're going to come!!! Come eat!!! More spacious, more parking, more newer! Coooo~~~me, come, come, come. Hey!! New icons!! All from the watercolor class!! Hee-hee. I had some fun with non-100 px x 100 px sizes. These are the best so far!! Very simple, but I swear they took over an hour. By the way, Eian's one says 'Fly me to the Moon.' Uh-huh. Current Mood: rushed |
| Tuesday, July 6th, 2004 | |
| 8:23 pm | Here's Vivi that I did in Watercolor today! Took about two hours or so. We were supposed to use only primary colors, and if we wanted other colors, we had to wait until one layer was dried, and then paint on top of it. That's easy for me, because that's all I do. I hate mixing colors, because they're a hassel, and I don't like to paint everything the way they are. Weird colors in weird places = good. I especially like purple shadow on yellow object. More stingily (what?), with colored pencils. Instead of having an outline of a dark color, I like to make that outline highlight outline color. Black is never good. Don't mind the blotchy part of Vivi's clothes, the left side of him, and I know I did a bad job. ...I finished something in one day! That's cool! The assignment for tomorrow is to bring two or three objects that you'd like to paint. The more meaningful to self, the better the artwork it seems, my teacher says. But, of course, no valuables. What should I bring? Laputa necklace!!!?? http://mangahuue.250free.com/Watercolor/Vivi.jpg Wee haw!! We all love Vivi! Hey! Another notice!! Our restaurant will probably be finished in two weeks!! The sign's up, so we'll probably light it from today on. Aaaahhh.... the nearly four months of unemployment. Current Mood: rushedCurrent Music: "The Last Samurai" music |
| Friday, July 2nd, 2004 | |
| 9:30 pm | Watercolor piccies! By the way, I have done some watercolor paintings. I like all of them, except for Maru, or Circle. Understandable, isn't it? Well, here they are, and a question to ask! Look at the Beata_bw, and looking at only his (yes, his) face's shape, what race does he look like?????? In other words, ignore his hair! I want to be able to draw the difference between the races instead of making people look the same. I'll probably be the second (Yamashita Kazumi does this very well. She creates Tensai!! Yanagisawa Kyouju no Seikatsu (Genius!! Professor Yanagisawa's Lifestyle, and by the way, she herself is a genius, I think. So smart. You should read it if it's produced in the language you speak!) shoujo-mangaka to even try to distinguish between people. Naw, more than the second, but definitely in the minority. http://mangahuue.250free.com/Watercolor/Arm.jpg http://mangahuue.250free.com/Watercolor/Beata_bw.jpg http://mangahuue.250free.com/Watercolor/Beata_c.jpg http://mangahuue.250free.com/Watercolor/Majokko_Eian.jpg http://mangahuue.250free.com/Watercolor/Maru.jpg http://mangahuue.250free.com/Watercolor/Nepheltopi.jpg The arm is one that I actually looked at, and we were supposed to use only five values, so it's not so smooth. The basic exercise. They had a manequin's (sp?) arm in the back closet, so I chose that as my simple, white object. The part lower than the elbow (don't know what it's called. Forearm?) is too dark, compared with the real thing. Beata_bw, because I just wanted to see what it looked like. It makes it seem much more like an Asian, primarily Chinese, brush painting. Beata_c, the real thing. By the by, I'm not finished. I should have asked that question up there once it was finished, huh? Doink-o to my head. THWAT!!!!! Oh so what!!! Hey! I just noticed that that's also my username! Wow, was I in a hurry when I signed up with Blurty! I really love how he tuned out, although it's too smooth to the sides of the eyes. I love you Beata!!! Why'd you have to die!!!!!???? Because I killed him! That's why!! Yes, he dies. So sad. He's supposed to be Native American, by the way. I don't want to say Indian, because he's not from India. American Indian? What? American Person Born in India? DAM + N YOU, COLUMBUS!! YOU SLAVE TRADER!!!! I still have no clue what they want to/should be called! I should have looked at a person's face. Oh, and my stories are all fantasy-based, so his clothes will be off from the real thing. Try not to, though. Again, I'm not done, so his clothes are incomplete!!! Please leave a message if you have stuff to say!! It's welcomed! Majokko_Eian!! The first one that I did!!! All of these except for the arm was on free time, to get used to the brushes and paint and values and colors. I haven't said that yet, so... Anyways (I'm typing like I'm talking!), I love this one, too. A little doodle that I did on the materials list has been painted!! I wrote 'If someone's a witch in my characters, then that character is Eian!!! She looks so good in it! The towers are too light, but I wasn't used to paints yet. Then there's my trademark swirls on the moon. And the moon's so distorted.. Can't see that when you're painting. On the screen, you can. I love let-it-run/bleed painting techniques. Maru. BLAH. In the beginning, I wanted to have that middle circle as a fortune teller's crystal ball, but it wasn't going to look anything like it; circles abroad! All kinds of circles!!! Lots of non-primary colors!! What a miracle! If you've read HUNTER X HUNTER vol. 19, you've seen something familiar to this. You know I love angles (...No, I don't)! So I happened to love the part where Nepheltopi (my spelling; I know her/his name is Nephelpito) jumped to the outside of the nest, clinging (not the right word, but on the side) to the wall, looking over to where the lines meet, right before springing to the three. Uh-huh. But me? After I did this much, I said 'Next!!' It doesn't look like anything. I didn't look at anything (except for the arm), so weird parts are everywhere. Current Mood:  artistic |
| 9:07 pm | Ha!!! After about a month of no computer!!!!! The reason?? I had homework to do!!! I'm going to DVC already(and I'm having good stuff time!!) I wake up around 5:30 in the morning (none of that 'I don't have to get up early' shtuff), walk there (about 30 minutes. Someone give me rollerblades and a helmet for my third birthday. As opposed to my half birthday), play tennis from 6:30 to 7:45 (to get away from the heat!! It's nice and cool in the morning), do English from 8:15 to 10:20, and then play around in Watercolor from 10:30 to 2:45!!!! Gagagagagaga... Gahahahahahahahaha!!!!! Mistypement! The funny thing is, that tennis consists of many people younger than me, English consists of people the same age as me, and Watercolor consists of most people older than me. I'm so terrified in that class!! Everybody's so serious about watercolor (not as in they won't talk)!!!!! They ask stuff like 'What's the binder in this paint,' or 'What's this paint made out of?' or 'Can you show us how to stretch the paper?' And so on... People try out different companies' paints, read books, look at the difference of colors for lots of companies, have been doing watercolor for ten years, or acrylics for lots of years, and want to learn watercolor now. ....Dang. I'm sorry everyone, because there's this person that's just taking the class to have fun, and not to learn. Oi oi. That's me, by the way. English isn't what I thought it would be. We're looking at the media right now. Stereotypes, races, gender, sexual orientation, whatever. We're not doing much writing, but more arguing and opinions. I'm only now starting to remember what our high school teachers have been telling us: they're not going to teach you grammar. ...Which was what I've been thinking English was all this time. I wonder how English is going to work at big schools? Where (I've heard and only heard) that there are 400 students per class and the professors don't stop? Neh. There's about 40, at most, students in my class. As of now, it's pretty easy. Lots of reading to do, but nothing that's overwhelming. Am I missing something? Tennis!!!!!!!!!! I'm very sorry, but WE DON'T HAVE SET PARTNERS!!!!!! WE DON'T HAVE TO BE PARTNERS EVERYDAY!!! Yeah. I just want a person who's better, because our rallies aren't rallies. You whiner, you. It is pretty tiring, considering I walk with a load of stuff for 30 minutes, and then tennis. I had sore muscles the whole week. Anyhow!!! I'm overall enjoying this life! I haven't registered in my mind that this is school!! That this counts for college!! AT ALL! But it's OK! Now I'm on a four days weekend! Wahoo! Random notice: There's not a lot of schools that offer Native American Studies and Art as majors or degrees (or whatever they're called). What am I going to do??? Oh, but there was a school whose name was Native American Arts College or University... I forgot. I think there was a tribal name at the beginning, too. Is it a place where they teach Native American arts, or is it a Native American-run art school? Hmm. Current Mood:  accomplished |
| Thursday, June 3rd, 2004 | |
| 9:41 pm | Yay. Let's go 03. Demon, once again! http://groups.msn.com/ugr8kdc4addomhoudc0afq8583/shoebox.msnw?action=ShowPhoto&PhotoID=29 Note: I am extremely discontent with grades. It's all my fault, and it's been there since fourth grade(at the earliest that I can remember). Yeah. Not happy with any of my classes(except for art). I can get straight 'A's and a 6.0 if I did study for five minutes everyday and did my homework, but no. I haven't started my homework before 9 o'clock this year. Ever. This I can say: I am not going to go to a UC. My mom's pushing me towards it too much. I feel like rebelling, and I am going to rebel. I want to be independent because I want to get something done. I want to be forced into doing something that is the norm for others, and not relying on my parents as much. In other words, give me a job instead of saying "A person who can't complete schoolwork can't have a job; your grades'll fall." How many times have I told you that it's not going to make a difference? How many times have I told you that I don't work at all at home. How many times have I told you that it's not Northgate that's hard, it's my idioticy. I'd be really happy if I have ADD or emotional problems. Then that would mean that I'm more capable of doing things. Dang, I don't know how much I cried today. Probably enought to fill a bottle of water. I repeat: I am not happy with my grades. I am not happy coping with my grades. I want to graduate. You don't know what senioritis is. I don't want to be compared to other people. You won't understand this inability to start work. I don't know why I don't say this to your face. Ah, it'd be so swell if there was a swearing session. I want to, but I told myself I'm not going to in public. Current Mood:  discontent |
| Tuesday, May 25th, 2004 | |
| 8:18 pm | Since I've left my sketch book at school a lot lately(mainly because there's lots of stuff to bring home), I won't be able to post '01. How do you do' and '02. Secret.' I probably won't post the writing for 'Secret,' too. Heh. She cusses waaaaay to much. And I wouldn't mind posting it if it were only mi amigo/as that are going to read this. A hunch that more will come. A hunch? Yeah, right. So, this is 03. Demon. Very traditional. Though I think the second picture is a lot more traditional than the first. And the first has a kiddy nose. Dah well. I like'em both. Yeeeah, Ah lahk'em both. Colored pencil on black paper is addicting. Yeah.. Kinda big pictures. Let's try to contain the size from next on. http://mangahuue.250free.com/30_Topics/Demon.bmp http://mangahuue.250free.com/30_Topics/Oni.bmp Senior project practice presentation tomorrow!!!!!!! Whahahahahaaaaa! I didn't try to type the 'h'! Honest to my god, whoever that is! And thank you, you-know-I'm-talking/typing-to-you, for the happi and whatever the rest is called(and yes, it is me)! Jo~~~in, jo~~~~~~~in. Me, Kagami-kai, you, Jimi-san's class. I order you(pwah, really....). And also physics test. Pre-calc quest on Friday. Then sociology, econ, physics, and pre-calc finals next Thursday and Friday.... I am going to ace them all. Mwahahahahaha~~~. Be positive, everyone. AND DON'T COMPLAIN ABOUT SCHOOL, BECAUSE IT'S BORING!!! IF YOU THINK IT'S BORING, IT BECOMES BORING!! And if it still is boring, it's because learning is the last thing that you feel pleasure from, or because you still haven't eliminated the 'this is boring' feel. So what if I'm an optimist? <-Too much so, but it's fun. vocabulary myrmidon(grebneliurM .rM read this one already, but oh well. I love that word/name. Grebnelium)- n. 1. Greek Legend. one of a group of warriors from ancient Thessaly who formed the army of Achilles in the Trojan War. 2. any blindly fairthful follower. The former with a capital 'M,' the latter with a lower-case 'm.' Current Mood: rushed |
| Saturday, May 22nd, 2004 | |
| 1:48 pm | Regeneration was fun(the taiko performance)!!!! Performed by Taiko Project, and I hope they'll be able to live on performances and/or teaching taiko. I got to see Yuta, not changed, and always his nice personality. Yeah... He was the central person(it seemed to me) of the group. Go, fundoshi!!!! It's actually not quite comfortable. Hahahahaha. The next tour performance is in 2006. T_T Ahhhhhhhh yeaaaaaaaaaaah. Different topic, the 30 Topics for the Writer/Drawer topics are here!!! Haha! Three 'topics' in one sentence!! I have 01. How do you do? ready, but not the picture!! It's at school!! Noooooo.... Here are the topics, translated just for you! <- I like being corny these days. In Japanese, it's called 'stinky.' ( 30 Topics for the Writer/Drawer ) vcblry ostentatious- adj. 1. done with the intent of attracting notice; showy. 2. characterized or marked by ostentiation. Current Mood: hungry |
| Saturday, May 15th, 2004 | |
| 8:33 pm | Ummm.... I think I'll be doing this thing called Monokaki-san he no 30 no odai, which means 30 topics for the writer/drawer(mono = thing, kaku(kaki, referring to a person) = write or draw, with different kanjis, so monokaki was written in katakana, foreign language alphabet! The site that I got these topics is in Japanese, so yeah.. If you can't read, sorry. I'm writing for this(if you didn't know, I take great joy in writing and reading. It's just that I take greater joy in other things. What do I not take joy in? Uh.. heh, heh...), and draw when the time comes. Maybe even a comic!! Cool! The site is here ->: http://www.geocities.co.jp/HeartLand-Tachibana/8907/mono/ Credit it if you're going to do this, even if you can't read Japanese, please. Probably starting next post. I don't want to type online and waste internet money. Vocabulary: inteterate adj. 1. confirmed in a habit or practice, habitual. 2. firmly established by tradition or custom; deep-rooted. Current Mood: rushed |
| Sunday, May 9th, 2004 | |
| 9:39 pm | Columbus, that slaver Can't wait for Final Fantasy: Advent Children... They don't seem like children, but who cares. No one does(hey, I do. No. Yes. No. Ye--*SMACK!!! So what if I'm on my tirid... Myrid.. tyrid..? Torrent, horrible tyrant.. I don't know the word). Well, anyways, I've been forgetting vocaby thingy bungy dingy lungy. Nananana. Na na na Na Na na na Na Hey hey hey Good bye. That commercial was great. Yeah. Like we need lyrics to sing it(by the way, it was in seventh grade, five years ago, when the Giants were going to move from Candlestick/3Com to PacBell/SBC). Ooga booga? Jeez! I'm not in a crazy mood, but my brain's processing these weirdo comments!! Gar! Help!!! NoiiiiiiI~~~~!!!! I'm a genius! I swear!!! <-I'm serious, by the way. And yet another by the way: Columbus did not discover America, nor the New World, nor did the colonists explore and tame the empty wilderness. Stop the beeping propaganda, people!!!!! This actually goes to any country, but in here, it seems like Indians from America (why not call them Americans? I'm an American born in America. Don't we say 'I'm Swedish/Irish/Nigerian/Japnese/Australian/whatever? Or call them whatever they decide on being called. Not the other races, primarily white, decide, the native people to this land)are having their history misrepresented the most. Yeah, sure, I didn't know that the Japanese were put into internment camps until I was in eighth grade, but they're not discrimminated, hated, ignored, laughed at, or forgotten. Probably respected. Oh, and dear me: Japan, please change your textbooks back to what they were. Nanjing Massacre, not Incident. Don't say 'learning from the American,' and say to use the calculator for a simple calculation like 3 x 3. And your politics is extremely corrupted, if you haven't noticed. I like the prime minister, and the lady who's the head of the environmental party. What ever. I want to live on a reservation. Can you tell I don't care about living conditions much? vocabulary. amalgamate v. 1. in noun form, the dream of Tecumseh's(from Canada to Mexico, a line of defense against the encroaching settlers) 2. to unite so as to form a combination; merge 3. to unite together; combine; merge. remonstrate v. 1. to say or plead in protest, opposition, or disapproval 2. to present reasons in complaint or objection; plead or argue in protest. Current Mood:  irritated |
| 9:23 pm | These are so so Beata and Aedon... Maybe not so, so, but Beata is a dude who loves accesories. Wears them all the time. Likes to be flashy, and well dressed. The sidekick? The Great Spirit of (insert name here)? Are you kidding me? He is that dude with prophetic, shamnistic(is that a word?) abilities, and yeah. Almost anything you can think of that needs the sixth sense. Light magic... any magic. What about life magic? Hair, no. Personality, yes. Not exactly overprotective towards people who he cares about and can defends themselves, but yes, to those who aren't able to(like his kids). Aedon: Hair's ridiculously long(braided to her hips. The above haslong hair, too), tied with not ribbons, but stuff. Clothes: PERFECT. She's not showy. The only accessories that she wears is this necklace that she achieved through trial when she was still a little kid, and she's proud of it. Special feature: tattoo..? What? Sidekick.. Um. Beata? Hey, that can be vice versa, too! Magic? Elements? Yes!! Beata too, if you insist!! Then her attitude is great. Maybe not quite like it says, but serious. The weapons are not right for both of them, though. Can't be helped. What are those things called anyways? Need to think of a name. When am I not rushed???????!!!!!!?!??!??!!!?!?!??!?? Current Mood: rushed |
| Tuesday, May 4th, 2004 | |
| 9:57 pm | Oh, wait. I lied(unintentionally). The new six icons were made by whims, so don't mind the computerness in it. Adobe Photoshop 6. Uh-huh. It was fun, but I'd still rather use my colored pencil more than the computer. Can you tell that I didn't put much time in some of them? Current Mood: rushed |
| 9:57 pm | Oh, wait. I lied(unintentionally). The new six icons were made by whims, so don't mind the computerness in it. Adobe Photoshop 6. Uh-huh. It was fun, but I'd still rather use my colored pencil more than the computer. Can you tell that I didn't put much time in some of them? Current Mood: rushed |
| 9:56 pm | So... I've used those color icons for how much??? I'm pretty sure I've used all six colors... Well. Here goes new icons. After this post, by the way. Dang, I have no time. Current Mood: rushed |
| Friday, April 23rd, 2004 | |
| 4:15 pm | The actual times that I've spoken to Mr. Faust, I can probably count off with my two hands. I don't go up to the office that often, and there's not the reason for me to go so often. So let's see.. At least twice during my freshman year, because I went up to wonder if there's a locker open. At least thrice during my sophomore year to get my locker number, I.D. card, and a thank you cake from the basketball team for the support you gave us(we made a cake with a big basketball frosting on the top). At least once during Junior year for the same reason(I.D.). And twice to get my I.D. card and graduation stuff. Those weren't actual conversations that I had with him, but I can tell that he is a good person. From what the other people say about him, I can tell that he was one of the, if not the, most loved person at school. Go to his office once and he'll remember your name. He makes an effort to know everybody. He posted up any articles that contained something about the students(they were mainly sports related). He would highlight the parts that contained our names so that it would be easier to know where to read. So many people were crying today. I thought it was amazing that he was a treasurer. Not many people become attached to a treasurer so often. Well, maybe because he was a treasurer that so many people can get attached. Anyone can go up to him, and anyone isn't required to go see him. It's easier to become attached to a person when it's not required. All I heard about him was that "I love Mr. Faust." "He knows everyone." "I was surprised that he knew my name." Only good things. That's where I stemmed my like for Mr. Faust. So, when the news came out, I also cried. I wouldn't have if it was only my experiences with him. I didn't know him well. I still don't. When I first heard it, it was: he had passed away from severe burns all over his body, and that he chose suicide. I interpreted it as since he had so severe injuries, that it would take money to conduct an operation that might work, might not work. That he wouldn't take that risk to put his family into jeopardy, so he chose to take his life. It is sad when someone connected to you in someway dies. I think being alive is the reason to stay alive. Even if you're depressed, and have these kinds of thoughts, staying alive helps so many people. The people who are around you are going to be shocked if all of a sudden a person commits suicide. They'll feel guilt, and question themselves for things that aren't their fault. Staying alive, even if you don't feel the gratitude, helps everyone around you. There always will be support for you, in varying degrees, of course, but never give up. I know you're trying your hardest, so I won't say 'Do your best,' but it helps us all by stayng alive. It seems like there is always at least one person passing on each year at our school. And they all seem to be universally loved by evertibe, Mr. Chang had bone marrow cancer, and his operation was a success. It was his body that wouldn't hold up. I don't remember anything about Dot. Kasha was in an accident, and Keith from an illness. Isn't it sad? Current Mood:  sympathetic |
