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i'm stupid , i'm stupid , i'm stupid
Urghhh I hate colleges and schools, and everything being my fault. I need help with this stuff I never know what I'm doing becuase no one else in my family went to college and I don't enjoy school to begin with. I have to keep waiting for Rutgers to see if they'll accept me and NOW I got a letter in the mail from Bergan Community College stating that our registration for fall of 2004 is almost due. SO now I have no clue what the hell to do. I don't know whats going on. I have to try to contact SAT and my highschool AGAIN for another transcript for Montclair. I have so much work to do in photography class and I think I'm going to fail. I have work. I ... *sigh* i feel sick to my stomach. There's to much to do when I thought everything was going to happen later and it's now. It's partically my fault, but I don't know what to do or what I should do. I don't want to stay home anymore I can't take it anymore. I want to live on a campus somewhere. I don't want to keep trying to find jobs inbetween winters and FUCK. FUCK FUCK FUCK. Why .... ok. This week, get your shit straighter than you can possibly ever do it. .... Thats what I got to do.
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