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Huh ? [19 Apr 2004|11:33pm] [ mood | bored ] Well, I remember going here for a good reason and not random posting, but I will anyways. Today is to fucking hot. I fucking couldn't stand the weather at all, I hate how spring has dramatic climate changes. I had 3 nose bleeds today from it ! Three !! Urgh. Anyways, a class I really needed to not be cancelled today, was ( for the first time ) cancelled, so that put me behind real bad. Not to mention I have to go back and take more photos and develop them all. Stupid class. Urgh what was so important going on here, I totally forgot.... well while I'm trying to thing of that, my friend Chris called while he was in Florida. It was awesome he was next to ,what sounded like to me and him, a thousand metal cats meowing. That was probably out extent of our phone conversation and us saying "WHAT!?" , "HUH?!" . "WHERE ARE YOU ?!" People have no respect for others art sometimes. My friend drew a "sketch" picture or a ruff draft pictur for this band and their website. He proposed it, they liked it. He's than been trying out SOO many themes for their website and everyone they turn down, yet he still gives them pictures and shit. By time is up ( and them telling him they can find other people ), they fucking tell him he limited internet space, so he can't do it anymore and blah blah blah. BUT all that sample art he was giving them ... they were fucking using it to make buttons and shit with it. WTF?! Thats just like handing someone your story so they could read it and you publishing it. Once I heard that, I hated it with a passion. Anyways thats why you should Copywright everything and charge people ! DO WHAT YOU CAN !! Or at least let them ask you before hand. So if anyone see's buttons from "Alieen Kills" an all "Grrrl" ( what riot gils they are ) DON'T BUY THEM PLEASE. Hellboy was a good movie, when will he make his glorious return back into comics ! Watched One PIece the movie 3, I don't like their movies as much as their show. I still have your panada necklace if your still wonderng about that ... post comment

Argh , ye' be scurvey ! [18 Apr 2004|11:27pm] [ mood | sick ] What I have to say about Kill Bill is that it was extremely well written. If you look at it the way it's suppose to be ( one movie instead of two parts ), everything was awesomely well balanced. Well I'm not talking anything about the movie but Quinten ( I can never spell his name ) is making ANOTHER kung-fu action flick with Mr. Everyone Dies Except for Me, also known as .. Jet Li. I really want to see the trailer. If anyone knows information about "Hero" ( the name of the movie ) please let me know. BURNING HEAT IS SUCH A GOOD SONG >_____<. Hah I remembered bugging all the people who play DDR just to play that song becuase I sucked at it. O man, that song is so good. Off topic, in my freezer ... I have about close to 8 boxes of hot pockets. Thats retarded. IF ANYONE WANTS HOT POCKETS COM'ON OVA' ! I still need to call Rutgers Admissions about my recomendation. I got an E-mail stating I will get one. I just have no clue what else to do. My status page hasn't changed, and I don't think I have time to call now ... even though I'm wasting it here, I type faster than I talk o the phone >____<. Anyways I'm off to eat, finish homework, than go to class. Update tonight and talk to everyone soon ! post comment

Updating, .... in a row ?! [15 Apr 2004|06:50am] [ mood | tired ] Yeah wow, I updated again. Two days in a row. That noramlly doens't happen. Well I made a new icon. It's of Naruto. If no one has seen the show. I advise you too. Today was eh' so far. I woke-up 2 hours later than planned. Tred to get class's and reliazed you can't even register for then before April 22nd ! Than I took pictures with my friends Seyran and Sara near some chemicals and waste behind the local Walgreens in Lodi. After that we went to a japanese food place for their 1 year anniversary. It was awesome becuase I made a 5 mintue toast to them. And nobody even knew me.... Thats been my day so far. Today I realized when I was taking pictures of the waste, garbage, and chemicals that like there's these gigantic tanks that pump out water all the time. And it's been turning the ground organe. It also goes right into the river stream of Lodi.... Ew. I don't know what they're doing with that area, but still being able to taste the smell of that place after you leave there is kind of growse. What else is new ? No work today. Two weeks of unemployment and in debt to my parents for a new cellphone and car insurance. I need to get out of it quickly, they're not being total ass's and giving me the en of the year. Which I have a LONG time. My grandfather from Arizona is in the hospital. I don't know what to do kind of. I know I should talk to him, but say what. Hey how's it going, good luck that your ok... havn't seen you in ... 5 years, or talked to you in 6 months. Hope your... ok. Yep. That'd probably be about it. Important notice: I will probably make this journal friends only soon so if you wish to still read this let me know. I NEED HELP CHANGING THE COLORS ON MY BLURTY. I WANT TO CUSTOMIZE IT, HELP ME. THANK YOU... well .. thank you after you help me I guess ? Yeah. I need to be more interesting, until than later. KILL BILL VOL.2 YOI ! 4 comments|post comment

Yeah [14 Apr 2004|08:29am] [ mood | sick ] So today I feel like crap. All I did was sleep. I wasn't feeling good at all. I made a new screen name. It's called TokyoBehemoth. I need to sign up for another semiester at my community college and it's still not letting me. Urgh. Wow I do feel really sick. I'm kind of glad I didn't have work today. I just would've feel asleep there. There's nothing new to write about. School has me stressing out. At least I have no class's tomorrow. Well I will update later. This Friday Kill Bill Vol. 2 ! Yeah ! Can't wait. Later post comment

i'm stupid , i'm stupid , i'm stupid [12 Apr 2004|01:19am] [ mood | crazy ] Urghhh I hate colleges and schools, and everything being my fault. I need help with this stuff I never know what I'm doing becuase no one else in my family went to college and I don't enjoy school to begin with. I have to keep waiting for Rutgers to see if they'll accept me and NOW I got a letter in the mail from Bergan Community College stating that our registration for fall of 2004 is almost due. SO now I have no clue what the hell to do. I don't know whats going on. I have to try to contact SAT and my highschool AGAIN for another transcript for Montclair. I have so much work to do in photography class and I think I'm going to fail. I have work. I ... *sigh* i feel sick to my stomach. There's to much to do when I thought everything was going to happen later and it's now. It's partically my fault, but I don't know what to do or what I should do. I don't want to stay home anymore I can't take it anymore. I want to live on a campus somewhere. I don't want to keep trying to find jobs inbetween winters and FUCK. FUCK FUCK FUCK. Why .... ok. This week, get your shit straighter than you can possibly ever do it. .... Thats what I got to do. post comment

Rum Rum RUM !!! [06 Apr 2004|12:10pm] [ mood | bored ] So I'm here in computers class and it's not so bad today. I've been meaning to try to get into other colleges yet I'm finding that I'm applying my time wrong. Yesterday was my friends birthday Jason of the Charles family. It was pretty funny yesterday. I also got my Naruto 2 video game for the Gamecube! I love it ! Gamecube is becoming my favorite system, I don't know why I sold mine in the first place. Anyways somegames I'm looking foward to is two import One Piece games, Wario Ware ( which came out today ), lots more, and The Legend of Zelda : The Four Swords Adventures !!! That game looks so amazing. Pam please play that game with me >____< I need to find more people with a GBA so we can link up and play. Thank god for gameboys becuase work today would be boring without it. Other news. Nothing much. It's kind of the usual. I realized I don't set anything for myself. Like no specific goal if I already have like ... 1. I want to have at least 5 by the next two weeks. Maybe I will try out for that vieo game thing in New York that pam was mentioning. Maybe I will ry to go on vacation >____< hah thats not a goal, but I havn't left the state for like a vacation in a LONG time. I want to get out of here. Japans lookin' good this time of year ... hah I wish. Crappp I was going to to duck out of class early and just finish my homework at ... home, but the teacher walked in and almost caught me on the intra'net. ( as she would call it ). I want lunch... lunch ... lunch... mmm ramen. Yeah I'm going to go. Update later. 2 comments|post comment

Run Run Run [30 Mar 2004|02:37am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | The Cure - "Frday I'm In Love" ] Did I mention how much I enjoy One Piece ? I do ! I didn't enjoy much of today. The weekend was good. I liked it much enjoyed. I found out my credit card balance today is clean .... *evil grin* OR WILL IT ! What to get ? Oh I know video games, there's a never ending supply of that. I shouldn't, but I probably will ... eventually. Yeah I should really kick my own ass. I sit home complaining how much I hate it, yet when I think of a place to go out ... I need money, so I don't leave my house. Than I always say how I want to draw. I'm such a ;WLIGHW;GJN waste.... I feel that everytime I bring up the word draw, I feel like I'm laughing at myself. It's like "hahaha you USED to do that buddy, why are you still thinking about it, didn't you like give it up like a year ago ?" Thats what it feels like, but my lust for drawing feels like a cigarette addiction. You have to bury, smuther, and .. bury it some more to finally go away. I havn't begin to bury my artistic abilities. ( on a side note e-mail rutgers admissions office AGAIN becuase it failed to go online .. or call again tomorrow , get transcripts wednesday ) My summer job is coming up. How do I feel about it ? FUCK. Thats exactly how I feel about it. Meaning I will get screwed over for a good amount of cash. I don't want that !!! EEIIII ... I used to have a job where everyone was my friend and I had great hours. Shitty pay, but... I actually enjoyed it. I ENJOYED WORKING. I NEVER said that ... NEVER. Since when does work become enjoyable.... I threw that away. I throw a lot of things away. Paper, grades, jobs, and time. *shrug* I dunno' I say I don't care yet thats a total lie. Shit these animal crackers are good as hell. Hahaha I never use that pharse but I decided to keep it. Haha good as hell thats fucking stoopid. I feel like when I get older I'm going to be even more lazy. If I had one of the seven sins tattooed on my forehead at birth it would be SLOTH. Hrm ? What seven orginal sin would you be most committed of ? Well I gotta' go to bed. Class tomorrow. Night. post comment

Oh no oh no ! [23 Mar 2004|01:59pm] [ mood | determined ] I got haircut. I no longer look like my picture. It's short short. I ate an organe from florida today and boy was it amazing !!! Well I have work today in a few bleh. Florida oranges are the best. One Piece he anime is great. I need to start drawing again. Yeah I'll start again. Woop woop. post comment

Gomuu Gomuu no RECAP !! [22 Mar 2004|01:16am] Ok so I will do a two week recap. March something I started my spring break. I stayed by pam's until tuesday which was great awesome I loved it! Worked worked worked and Friday was a day of New York city. My friend Jeff and his friend from CN Bryan were waling around shooting the breeze and even visited the mighty awesome STUPID pokemon center. Pretty much all day was going around finding Naruto stuff and asian food except I walked away with a Full Metal Alchemist art book and 2 One Piece action figures. I went back to school finding out I've been doing kind of well. On Friday Pam came home from awesome Orlando, Florida and was back in Smoggy New Jersey. Saw Dawn of the Dead re-make, which was awesome by the way, and now just relaxing after a two great weeks. My job just gets better I do less and less work everyday AND my boss might get fired which means I could probbaly do whatever I want until I quit when April starts my other summer job. Well I would like to update this a little more and I shall. I will update sooner or later ! post comment

YEAH [10 Mar 2004|02:21am] [ mood | thirsty ] [ music | I farted.... ] This weekend has been great. I spent an extra long extended period of time with pam and than I don't have work tomorrow. The weekend was fun, I watch more Fushugi Yuugi ? Fushasha Yuugi ? I'm terrible at syaing the name and I liked it a lot. It's just I can't watch anime at night i fall asleep all the time O_O! I download the new Full Metal Alchemist... Edward !!! Yeah it was great. This weekend I had outback steakhouse which was awesome. I had some crawfish like pasta. I think I'm going to have a crawfish as a pet. I kind of wanted to see Hildago becuase it looks like Indiana Jones type of a moive ... or a clone of it, but we never got around to it this weekend. Guilty Gear XX is my favorite fighting game and Johnny and Slayer are mega ultra turbo good. My boss caught his brother masturbating. Ew. He's like 23 and his brother is like 12. Thats so young. My boss told him he was a sinner and to wash his hands in holy water at chruch. Hah I thought it was funny. I got a free Gameboy Advance game today ( Super Puzzle Fighter 2 ) it's Omazing. I'm so nervous I think I should someone should cut my hair in my sleep I want to cut it so badly. I was thinking of keeping it REAL short like where there's barely hair on my head. I don't know help me. I need a hair cut so badly. Well I'm quiting Planet-X for clydes again. I talked to my boss he said he's not making me work weekends. I REALLY want to talk to him before I quit though becuase I might not want to go back just yet. But are my parents happy = yes. Will I be happy if I get more money , see my planet-x friends, and get the hours I want, and be able to have free weekends = most likly yes. Super Puzzle Fighter 2 is extreme awesome. I ordered Naruto action figures which will hopefully be here next week in all it glorious mega ultra glory ! Pam if you are reading this I think I left my Mars Volta CD there. And everything else I keep forgetting >_______<. I'm sorry. You can pay puzzle fighter ^^. Go see HELLBOY april 2nd becuase I WILL !! http://www.hellboy.com ( offical comic website of mike mignola's amazing character ) http://www.ruben.fm/videos.html ... this is awesome Well I'm out I'll update later. Night everyone. post comment

If i was in a room by myself you won't notice me. [02 Mar 2004|11:11pm] I want to cry. Nothing matters anymore. 2 comments|post comment

Ehhh' roawr [02 Mar 2004|12:39pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | blah blah savIN' and clickIN' blah blah (teacher can't talk ] Updating. From school. On a eMac. eMac's are really good ... I don't see the difference in the graphics programs from eMac to PC though. Anyways whats new ? NOTHING thats what. Watching One Piece right now inbetween the rawsome Naruto and surprisingly amazing Full Metal Alchemist. Going to NYC next week hopefully so I can actually do some home ( bleh photography, art apperciation, comp. graphics research ). If anyone goes to http://www.narutoguide.com I am pleased to annouce I shall be working on their current game for Wings Of the Shinobi. I will be drawing backgrounds and such IF I feel like it's worth whatever little time I have ( I probably will I'm just REALLY LAZY ). If anyone wants to check out my art go to http://www.artconspiracy.com and search for the name Toast Head. I'll post a link later ( the sites down right now ). What else what else what else... Spring break is to early. I have mine the upcoming week. I will be spedning it greatly though ^____^. In my computer class ( which I'm in right now ) there's this awesome puerto rican dude with a mullet he's killer. me and him exchange words and why how we hate the president. The asian kid next to me sleeps which is what I would be doing. I'm stuck here though. Shit teacher is in the room. I'll update tonight. Later. post comment

Yeah I hate everything right now. [25 Feb 2004|02:32pm] That was so dumb. I got advice to smoke marijuana. Hah, that is probably the most stupid advice I've gotten since my friend told me to cut off my hand for space purposes. Anyways I've actually gotten people READING my journal which is cool. They want to know !! They MUST !! I want everything to be destroyed by robots right now I'm in a bad mood. Anyways here's some cool links you people should check out. http://ape-law.com/evilmonkey/menu.htm The Genius mind behind Hsu and Chan from Electronic Gaming Monthly magazine. Check out that comic and his violence man. http://www.casshern.com/ HOLY SHIT ! An old anime made into a movie by those japanese folk. This movie looks so bad ass it bleeds with style. ( Click on the trailers on the top menu bar and watch it ) I probably posted this song but I like My Chemical Romance ( www.mychemicalromance.com ... check them out as well .. indie rock about vampires, new york, blood, bullets, zombies, and more! ) Vampires Will Never Hurt You And if they get me and the sun goes down into the ground And if they get me take this spike to my heart and And if they get me and the sun goes down And if they get me take this spike and You put the spike in my heart And if the sun comes up will it tear the skin right off our bones And then as razor sharp white teeth rip out our necks I saw you there Someone call the doctor, someone get me to a church Where they can pump this venom gaping hole And you must keep your soul like a secret in your throat And if they come and get me You put the spike in my heart And if they get me and the sun goes down And if they get me take this spike and -Chorus- Can you take this spike? Will it fill our hearts with thoughts of endless Night time sky Can you take this spike? Will it wash away this jet black feeling? And now the nightclub set the stage for this they come in pairs she said We'll shoot back holy water like cheap whiskey they're always there Someone get me to the doctor, and someone call the nurse And someone buy me roses, and someone burned the church We're hanging out with corpses, we're driving in this hearse Someone save my soul tonight, please save my soul -Chorus- And as these days watch over time, and as these days watch over time And as these days watch over us tonight I'll never let them, I'll never let them I'll never let them hurt you now tonight I'll never let them, I can't forget them I'll never let them hurt you, I promise Struck down, before our prime Before, you got off the floor Can you stake my heart? Can you stake my heart? Can you stake me before the sun goes down? Whatever. I need more money. I'll update soon. Later. 5 comments|post comment

EEarrgghhh and stuff [20 Feb 2004|12:50am] [ mood | curious ] [ music | Naruto theme song season 3/4's opening..... ] Money, money, money... people think too much about it. I have come to a certain point in my life that if I don't require at least 150 dollars a month ( which is the MINIMUM amount ) I wouldn't have a car anymore. Not to mention food I eat on the go, and all this stuff I can't stand it. Which bring me to my next conclusion. I want to go to Japan. I want to go to NYC very soon, I live a half hour away there's no reason why I can't go into the city like I used to. I also want to go to the pokemon center ( store ) ... becuase I can ! Hrm... and than there's all this stuff that I don't need but would like to own such as video games. Money is everywhere. If I don't have more than a 20 hour work schedule week my father would be disappointed in me .. no wait ... a 25 hour and if I don't leave the ...my father is disappointed in me no matter what, but the point is there's nothing I can do at the situation I'm at right now. I have school, I need to work, I like to see my friends... IF i had more work I really think I would be a lot more stressful like I was a couple months ago. On the other hand I did take some really awesome photographs for my photo-classssssss. I'm kind of a step ahead in my Painter class but I was absent this tuesday. I don't have the teachers e-mail address.... hrm. Thats not good. In school I joined the anime club. I think I did it just to play video games for a day becuase I was bored *shrug* the people in there are weird. I went there one day and the whole club was sitting on a table outside and the president was there too, and I had I think a video with me and I was like "Uhhhh is anyone going in the room or in the room I brought something to watch" and everyone gave me a look like, 'didn't you know there's killer termites in that room with bombs strapped on them?'. Than the president ( think of Thor but from the Matrix ) looks at me and says "The room is closed becuase I said so." So I looked at him with a face of 'I'm throwing mind daggers at you o high and mighty doorkeeper' and than I just left. People are dumb. O well, they missed out ! I've become more boring. When I realized the things I've accomplish in a day or funny statements or basically anything I have to say, when I break it down it's like "That tree is really far away." It's always insignifigant shit. *shrug* Maybe I think to hard ? I want Naruto FKJHGKLJAGH "stuff" for lack of better words. Most of it though is like little toys and pillows I want... I dunno what I want though ? But if anyone watchs Naruto the animation in 71 is REALLY good. Oh look China Town's gott'a have Naruto stuff, where's China Town? In NYC, what do I need to get there though, MONEY. Which leads me back to where I started off this post. *sigh* Things keep going back to the greeeeeeeen. I'm tired of money. What I'm not tired is books and anime. I want to start reading more( or actually begin) novels. I'm not going to cut away from comics though. If anyone has any suggestions on good books let me know. I think I'm going to end this post with a woop though. Later...........WOOP 9 comments|post comment

Enter college, art, video games.... i have to pee. [02 Feb 2004|11:47am] [ mood | hyper ] [ music | WOOOOO ] I've been in school for two or three weeks ? It seems like a long time. But as February is here, it feels like it'll come and go so fast, and MARCH is always the slowest month. I hate that month for some reason. Always a lot of work too. I have to save up 80 bucks for 2 video games or around there .... get my Final Fantasy 11 working. I will have no life when I'm home it'll be play play play school work school work and not go out until the weekends ^___^. Ah I'll go out though ... sometimes. After I beat the games. Woop I just made a 4 cheese hot pocket, those are so good. I have work this tuesday and wednesday, need to draw. Need to get awesome ! I want to finish ... need to ! I'm so hyper and happy everythings good, shes so good to me , my friends are awesome , things seem to be back on track hopefully... i just want to get into any school better than BCC kinda. I will update later tonight after class bye bye. post comment

What the, wasn't it 4 hours ago two mintues ago ? [27 Jan 2004|12:02am] Yeah so I started college again. Today was a long day, I didn't get home until 6:20 aroung there. I left my house at 7:45 ! I swear I feel asleep at 9:30 and i set my alarm for 10:30 and i woke-up at 11:15. Than I texted message Pam and was watching an anime, and next thing I know it's like .. 10 mintues to 12. Where's all this time going, it's scaring me. I'm trying to stay awake some more though to talk to my love ^____^ she made my day better just by being there. I've got back into trying to finish Final Fantasy Tactics Advance. Mo'Foking game, it's yeah. There, at least it pass's the time away in class's. I downloaded that Samurai Depper Kyo episode. I fell asleep. It seemed ok, reminds me of Naruto TOO much, maybe thats why I didn't seem interested. Still so cold, I need more blankets in my room. Or more drinks becuase I feel thristy, I want like a gatorade though, and I could have one even though I'm not an athlete. I should wake-up earlier than 9 o'clock tomorrow so my day doesn't feel like it drags on while I'm at class or at work, I just don't want to though. I think I'll be fine... to much complaining...toooooo much. I shouldn't. Yet I do need to draw VERY soon. Prtfolio review coming up and I'm afarid I have nothing to show. I need to bust out projects like hit singles from the New Kid On the Block. Well I'm tired, I need to sleep or something else. Update later when I have time. Night. post comment

You know how things are ... [22 Jan 2004|11:09pm] [ mood | restless ] [ music | The White Stripes - Suger never tasted so good ] So I came home from work, they treat me like crap there. I try to do the right thing and everyone still doesn't care or like me. I had to work by myself today and everytime I a return came up I can't do them so my maneger got all mad. They're all ok people, just don't tick them off. Later on in the night it wasn't so bad becuase I was hungry I just got Taco Bell and like kicked back for awhile becuase I didn't feel like working. After I got home I got a bloody nose, and it reminded me of this My Chemical Romance song ( one of the 11 songs that are my favorite ... which is ALL OF THEM ! ) and it's called ... Demolition Lovers Hand in mine, into your icy blues And then I'd say to you we could take to the highway With this trunk of ammunition too I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets I'm trying, I'm trying To let you know just how much you mean to me And after all the the things we put each other through and I would drive on to the end with you A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full And I feel like there's nothing left to do But prove myself to you and we'll keep it running But this time, I mean it I'll let you know just how much you mean to me As snow falls on desert sky Until the end of everything I'm trying, I'm trying To let you know how much you mean As days fade, and nights grow And we go cold Until the end, until this blood Until this, I mean this, I mean this Until the end of... I'm trying, I'm trying To let you know how much you mean As days fade, and nights grow And we go cold But this time, we'll show them We'll show them all how much we mean As snow falls on desert sky Until the end of every... All we are, all we are Is bullets I mean this As lead rains, will pass on through our phantoms Forever, forever Like scarecrows that fuel this flame we're burning Forever, and ever Know how much I want to show you you're the only one Like a bed of roses there's a dozen reasons in this gun And as we're falling down, and in this pool of blood And as we're touching hands, and as we're falling down And in this pool of blood, and as we're falling down I'll see your eyes, and in this pool of blood I'll meet your eyes, I mean this forever I'm really tired but I think I will stay awake for a little more. There is plenty to do, like draw. I called up for an interview about a college today and I got a voice manchine. I'm upset I will call again tomorrow. I started readings Kenshin the manga, good as usual ! I want to get into Deeper Samurai Kyo ? or Samurai Deeper Kyo ... I'm not sure how to pronounce it, but when I asked my boss today I was surprised he was like currently watching it. *shrug* He doesn't believe in downloading anime he believes in buying shit, which that is .. stupid expensive on his part. O well. I need to play Final Fantasy 11..... I think I want to write a zombie movie, one thats actually terrifying where it's really really scary. I think that would be awesome to write. And nothing stupid with chemicals and everything I'm talking about the dead rising and going KA-RA-ZEE !! And I want them to be extra scary, and fast... becuase fast zombies scare me a lot. Like in Return of the Living Dead. Yeah scary, gorey, and really have a DEEP noir effect becuase those are always awesome. I wrote to much , night. 1 comment|post comment

What the look alike ! [20 Jan 2004|12:17am] [ mood | cold ] So I was driving home today and I thought this band I heard on the radio was Brand New. So I go to the site and I found out I was wrong but one other thing I did find is WHY AM I SMOKING IN THE BAND! I don't know but I think that guy kind of looks like me and that freaked me out. I saw Dracula AGAIN today with Pam-pam and it was awesome as usual. I got to take a nap today, I'm still tired I'm going to bed soon anyways. I don't know about anyone else, but I'm tired of this ice I slipped on it and I can barely lift my left arm that much. It hurts so much. Hopefully it'll all be clear sooner or later, isn't like spring 7 days away.... please. Anything but snow. I'm also quite happy that I have more than a hundred dollars in the bank ! Boy do I need money, cash flow is running slow and there's so many things I need to save up for. Coin stars are my friends in these times of desperate measures. I should quite writing while I'm ahead I might start waking up and than I won't be able to sleep. Well I'm off for the night, later. 2 comments|post comment

Urgh groggy [13 Jan 2004|06:04pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | My Chemical Romance - The Vampires Will Never Hurt You ] I just woke-up. It's 5:53. I went to bed at around 12 in the evening ... today. Thats what I got for a nights sleep. I think I fucked up my computer I started download some codecs and I downloaded Kazaa Lite again and now it is running slow as we speak. I should've just not have given in like I did. Urgh my grandmother gave me something I told her NOT to give me, I don't need anymore crap in my room. I went to a diner this morning becuase I wanted breakfast and I didn't want to stay home awake all day long. I think when the warm weather returns I'm going to skateboard. I want to skateboard. I also sent an e-mail to my old teacher asking her for letters of reccomendation. I need to pick up transcripts tomorrow and send her more info and what she has to write inside the letter to help me out. Thats twice I know she'll be helping my ass out big time. I have to buy her a cake, or a Carvel cookie puss. Latly all I want to do is play sonic video games, I just borrowed Sonic Battle from my job it's the best fighting game on gameboy advance yet ! I can't believe I just woke-up I feel like I wasted a day. Hopefully I can go by Jeffs house to play the Naruto game.... that game always makes me like ... giddy ? It's so cool becuase I see my favorite characters do all their crazy awesome moves. Looking around my room I just want to throw almost everything that I don't like about my room ( even the carpet and paint on my walls ) and just throw it out. It's so plain ... it still looks like I live in a kids room. I'm fucking 19. I hate it in my room sometimes. I'm probably going to take down my posters soon of whatever I have... but to put new ones back up I need to BUY more. Thats cash I don't want to spend. I need a haircut. Yeah I remember for Christmas my mom told me that all the video cameras were sold out that were in my price range so she didn't buy it yet. I still have no camera and I tell her almost everyday to give me the money for it and she won't. If I would've known she isn't going to give me money for the camera I should've asked for more stuff for christmas becuase I lucked out becuase of the camera. God damn, I was trying to fill out an application this morning and try to decribe the best way possible about me in less than 200 words. Now I don't know about everyone else, but at almost 9 in the morning trying to write 200 words ABOUT YOURSELF ( and I'm negative when it comes to me ) I had no clue where to start. So I just opened up notepad and wrote random lines down and have to put them into a good paragraph sentance form. I wish there was Microsoft Word or something on my computer becuase it would make things a lot easier for me. ... and yes I know who does this art. Jermaine Rogers, I heard he does work with Radiohead but I like The Mars Volta and At the Drive In. I think it's cool this guy does so many band posters. I also need fish food for my fish. I don't need air in my tires anymore. I'm still so tired but I can't go back to sleep I'll update sooner... or later. post comment

The Devil in Mexico ... [12 Jan 2004|02:39pm] [ mood | hungry ] [ music | Murder By Death ] "Well I'll take two shots said the devil to the man and layed a little book on the bar, well lord knows the devil he only talks shit and only drinks whiskey from the jar, and his hands were raw and his eyes were cold, and his breath was pure alcohol and the sound of his voice it never got old and he talked and talked and talked through the night kept sippin his shine till the mornin light tumbled in through the shades and as he started to go i put three bullets in his back. ..... well the devils bleedin crude oil from a hole in his chest and its panging on the bedpan drippin through the bedsheets and all the businessmen are putting pails beneath his wounds and pawin the oil at the market, well his heart ain't made of nothin but piss and vinegar and his boots have trampled more than you would know and his breath has split open the thermometer on the sill its so fucking cold in here since you brought in the snow black heart leaking oil in the pan, dealin' insults with his free hand in this hospital bed bleedin' black heart you shot the plan to hell and the apathy ate you up inside ...... black heart leaking oil in the pan, dealin' insults with his free hand in this hospital bed bleedin' black heart you shot the plan to hell and the apathy ate you up inside Like slivers of lead inside your food he's the poison inside you and you eat until you're full and you eat until youre full he lit the fires inside your belly full of medicine and whiskey the aspirin, valium, codiene pills and silver rum someone say a hail mary(someone say a hail mary)for this house bless the corners and burn the devil out. someone say a hail mary(someone say a hail mary!) for this house...." I have work tonight : / School starts thursday, I'm not that excited as I was before. I just hope I get to sleep early enough so I have enough sleep in the morning. I think I'm going to get changed and draw for a hour or so. Update tonight. bye bye .... 1 comment|post comment

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