Baby Schuyler

9:32pm: By outstanding demand...
here I am again. I stopped writing for a long while because I didn't feel people were listgening, or reading what I wrote, nor that it was even remotely important to anyone but me. Well, I knew it was important to my Daddy. he loves everything I say or do about my babyness. It's like candy for him, no, mint chip frozen yogurt, it puts a big ol' smile on his face. I love my Daddy in ways that bring tears to my eyes when I think of him.
Well, we've been a long way and we're still working on getting everything just they way we want it. but we're closer now than we've ever been. Daddy's been working very hard at his company, so that's made time to build my beautiful, handmade crib a little short, but that's all right. Quality takes time and this is the crib that I will sleep in for the rest of my life. The carefully crafted crib that he will tuck me into after changing me into my night diaper and kiss me on the forehead. I do have the the nicest diaper pail covered with Eeyore decals, some great baby toys (email me for a list of really fun ones) and a realtionship that continues to grow in a warm and positive direction every day.

Visit tomorrow for more about my life as a baby...

8:47pm: Last day of the long days
Well today is the last day of the long days I had to work this week. I think my effort was appreciated and I think I did a good job keeping Dr. D'Angelo's practice from falling apart. If he EVER asks me again to "fill in", I'm asking for $15/hr. Still, it was nice being around the 4Eyes crew, they are nice people.
I am exhausted! I will sleep well tonight! And I get to sleep an extra hour! Yay!
I am not sure what's going on with Kimmy. She has been on and off again in her babyhood and while I respect that I wonder if she'll ever settle into something. She doesn't call anymore, so I don't call. I guess she has stronger ties to the people she knows in the scene.
I miss my Family. I miss Daddy and Sonia and Jessamin! I didn't get to meet Sonia's friend while she was up:( I would have liked to! Alas, maybe next time.
Well, Abena has changed their diaper and now it sucks. It is 1/2 as thin and equally lacking in absorbancy. I am probably going to have to return to using Molicare diapers again. We'll see.
Well, goodnight, I have maxes to do, that I am avoiding, but it isn't making them go away. *sigh*
*S

11:50am: *sigh* I miss my Daddy
It's been a long week and I am very tired. I am so glad that these 12 hour days will be ending soon! I have been trying to be a good baby for my Daddy. I do everything he says I should do and nothing I'm not supposed to. I am grounded from The Sims, so I stay away from the laptop. I miss my music, though, which has become Daddy's music. I really miss listening to The Proclaimers, Sarah MacLachlan, Tori Amos, etc. Things would be less lonely at home if I had music to listen to. Alas, I don't. There are only so many times one can listen to the Labyrinth soundtrack.
But I love my Daddy very much and miss him terribly.
*S

10:05pm: Speaking of Hell

9:28pm: More happiness....
I am working a long week this week, but I am surviving! I miss my Daddy very much, though! So I thought in the spirit of missing and loving him, I would continue my previous list of what is so wonderful about my Daddy:
He took me kayaking and might take me again!!!
He says I'm squidgy, and I deny it, but I like that he says it.
He loves me.
He misses me too.
He spent three long years being the brain behind my job as Network Administrator, for which I was not really qualified and bailed me out of countless situations.
He is a good Buddhist...and tries to gently remind me when I am not.
He adores me and desires no other for his baby.
He bought me the best baby shoes in the world!
He loves me, even after spankings.
He has great big giant hands that make mine look so small.
He has beautiful eyes, like the sea after a storm.
He has been there for over 8 years, through LOTS of shrapnel.
He makes me feel small.
He makes me feel protected.
He makes me feel loved.
He calls me twice a day.
He got me Piggie and Big Fat Hairy Bunny to love.
He came to see me the night we realized Scott left.
He gives me perspective.
He LOVES me!
Well, that's enough for now, because typical Virgo, I have tears in my eyes and should be doing ad approvals.
The new diapers suck. I emailed Brian at ABAIP to talk about their suckage and am waiting for his reply.
Mmmm..I want to go to bed!
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4:38pm: He loves me
I love my Daddy because.....
He loves me.
He understands me.
He enjoys being my Daddy.
He buys my diapers and keeps my cellphone alive.
He punishes me when I am bad
He cheers me when I am sad.
He gives me rules to follow.
He has always been there.
He will always be there.
He is always looking out for my well-being.
He keeps me healthy by having me on a vegetarian baby food diet with lots of juice and water.
He lets me have soda sometimes.
He teases me.
He tells me jokes, even when they aren't remotely funny.
He loves me.
He kisses me.
He holds me.
He changes my diapers, all kinds.
He feeds me on occasion.
He holds me with my bottle sometimes.
He is always thinking of me.
He always shares with me.
He surprises me sometimes.
He gives me good advice.
He always tells me the truth.
He tells me when I am good.
He tells me when I am bad, in a non-verbal way that involves the smell of Canada mints.
He understands me.
He knows my family and STILL loves me.
He misses me when I am gone, or he is gone.
He makes plans for our future together.
He has given me Jess and Sonia in my life, two wonderful gifts that keep amazing me.
He takes me to the movies.
He lets me do big girl stuff sometimes.
He *insert subliminal hypnotic text* wants to buy me a horse just like Seabiscuit. (Sonia, HUSH!)
He cares for me.
He always has.
He keeps me as his baby.
He is a good man.
He loves me.

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1:31pm: Over-refrigeration
Ok, the A/C in this building is on way too high. I feel like a side of beef.
Had my baby food for lunch, since I am back to only baby food again. I had bananas, pears and pasta primavera. I made sure to pack extra food for dinner, since I am going to Daddy's to spend the night. Yay, I love getting fed. Today I am enjoying my diapers ever so much. They just feel good and soft and comforting. My rash seems to be clearing up. I am still gonna show the doctor and see what she says tomorrow, but feeling better is a bonus! Did some explaining of my babyhood to Daddy's GF in an email, since she emailed me, interested to hear. Yay! I hope what I had to say was helpful. It's hard to explain the cerebral side of this fetish, as so much of it is cerebral. But she's very intelligent and well-rounded so I am certain that she can make something of my ramblings. It's so good to have dialogue going!
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8:17pm: Rules and such
As part of my continued regression, Daddy has accumulated a series of rules for me to follow. I asked him recently if he would write these up for me and give me a copy to frame for my room and a copy (tiny print) for me to keep with me for reference. I started listing the ones I knew and emailed them to him to help the process along, because he's a very busy Daddy! Hopefully I will have these soon and can share them with everyone. They are quite lovely, and certainly get me excited to read, so I am sure you will all like them.
Settling into my babyness is slow, but coming along fine. There are things that frustrate me, but that's only natural, as we all know, babies get frustrated when they can't have what they want! It's behaving badly that gets us in trouble. Alas, I am trying very hard to be a good baby girl for my Daddy.
My Jessamin is in Florida and I miss her very much! It's so wonderful to have someone who really understands why I am the way I am. She may not think it's her thing, but she understands!
Daddy's girlfriend is trying to adapt to having me around with all that comes along with a baby. She doesn't really "get it", which is perfectly okay, although I really wish I could explain it to her in a way that she would "get it", cause I really want to have her understanding. I like her a whole lot and enjoy her company and think she's good for Daddy, so part of my wants to explain it to her, but I do not want to force the issue. It's ok that she doesn't get it and if she ever wants that explanation, I'll let her decide it's time. It's wonderful that she accepts it at all! It is kind of a lot to swallow and I am aware of that.
I am thinking of taking a break from school for the fall semester and work on writing my thesis, which will be due at the end of my senior year. I've decided to write an autobiographical text....Buddha knows my life hasbeen interesting enough.
Well, gotta get back to work. Kimmy: call me, I MISS you!
-Skye

7:42pm: Chickens!
The chickens Katie ordered arrived today and there was a tragic moment for me. They are specifically labeled NOT FOR CHILDREN UNDER 3. SIGH. So I am text messaging Daddy to see if I can get permission to play with the big girl chickens. No reply yet.
My bad diaper rash seems to be getting better. Daddy ordered smaller diapers cause with the weight I've lost, the large Abenas are chafing my legs. Ordinary diaper rash creme didn't help with my rash, Clinique Dramatically Different Moisturizing Lotion did. Go figure.
I am still excited for my crib. I need to start learning to sew adult baby clothes. This chick on eBay sells the cutest outfits for unreal money. I think I could make them no problem, with a little practice and then I could have baby clothes I liked. With Daddy's okay of course.
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7:49pm: on lunch
Well, I'm on my break from work and bored. Katie ordered more rubber chickens for us! Yay! We made certain to only get four, because one cannot predict how they will behave in larger numbers. We want docile rubber chickens to squeeze and wash.
Daddy was going to modify a bunk bed for my newcrib, but that doesn't look like the best plan now, so he is pricing lumber and planning on building it from scratch. I just hope he makes it more than functional. I'd like it to be pretty as well, with a die cut rosette on the headboard or finials on the four posts. I AM giving up my dream bed, a leaf carved sleigh bed for this crib and I'd like the exchange to be somewhat even. All babies want nice cribs of course, so this is no surprise. My tummy has been tied up in knots over the whole affair, because it is taking some time to do and I am not a naturally patient person (Virgo) and all I've got is thinking time on my hands, since I work so much. Alas, I have no choice but to wait and trust my Daddy has good taste and excellent construction skills, which I am sure he does. He's the best!
-S

7:39pm: Baby Girlness
I am trying to get back to more regular postings to this log. Cross yer fingers. I was inspired by Baby Sheila's post about going to the store in a messy diaper. I have had countless such excursions and they never get old. I seem to have an odd habit of messing my diaper in bookstores. The conditions inside a bookstore must be such that my body says, "ooh, great place to fill her diaper" I dunno. However, being helplessly incontinent can be even more exciting than being in control, because the excitement and arousal of having mess just slide out of you without your say-so is amazing. You feel so small and helpless and you cling to your Daddy's hand because you're so humiliated that you helplessly mess and wet just like the baby you are. It's very erotic and arousing and pretty much the closest to sex any real baby girl can get.
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7:24pm: Harry Potter and stuff
Well, the new Harry Potter book has me in knots wondering what's going to happen next. I am at work now and cannot read and it's driving me crazy.
Hopefully my new diapers came today. I was getting sorta low, but it's nice to have a fresh supply. And Daddy decided I should be taking children's vitamins with my baby food, to keep me healthy, so he ordered those too. I am working all kinds of crazy hours to make extra money so we can get my crib going and my new wardrobe ordered. I am so excited I could POP! Daddy is going to need some time getting used to me accepting his will without question, but I think he'll find that easy.
I love the rubber chicken at work.
*S

3:02pm: Ooooh, getting SO excited!
I am so excited for the changes that are going to take place with my Daddy's regression of me! I am excited for my crib, my new baby clothes, my rules, my toys, excited to live live as closely as possible to an infant. I am excited to decorate my crib and sew bumper pads for it and pick a mobile. I am sure Daddy is going to have final say on all of this, but it'll be fun to shop for them. I am working CRAZY hours right now to get this off the ground and I hope we can start working on it all soon. I love my Daddy so much and am really blessed to have found him. He really really does love and cherish me! *bounce* Thanks to this new outlook, everything and everyone else seems so much nicer.
-Skye

4:09pm: I am terrible at keeping up with this when it's busy
I try to, but mostly I have time for two things: work and sleep. Daddy has gone full speed ahead with my regression and we're starting to get into buying nursery items and baby clothes. Soon, I will be all baby girl, no big girl things in my room. I will have a crib, a changing table, a diaper pail, a toybox, a dresser for my baby clothes. I am very excited about this!

12:22pm: Yeah, I know
I haven't posted here in so long! I have so much going on right now! I have three jobs and lots of little household things to get done with what little time I have left. I expect to burn up into a crisp at any moment. Got the car cleaned, did laundry and did my take home work this weekend. I am happy to be back in comfy Abena's again. Daddy says maybe we can get the crib built before the end of June! Yay! I am so looking forward to having a crib. Went to see Finding Nemo again with Daddy and Kimmy last night. It was Father's Day, so it was very sweet for Daddy to take us out on HIS day. He's such a sweetie. I am losing lotsa weight which is nice. I went from 245 to 209 so far and it keeps coming off:) I'd like to be back around 130 by Christmas hopefully. Baby food diets are very helpful.
*S

10:29am: It's Been a Long, Strange Week
My apologies to all who check back to this regularly and have had disappointing results. A lot of my life has changed in the past week, so I haven't had time or opportunity to post here. I got a new job, bringing my job count now to 3! I work as an ad taker for a nationwide personals corporation. That's the short of what i do. It's interesting, amusing and annoying in many ways, but it' work and it's relatively painless. So, since I now work every day of the week, things are a little hectic. Why do I do this to myself? It all boils down to my rent being $995 a month and the fact that I live alone. The money just doesn't come from thin air, and I have never had a biological Mommy or Daddy rich enough or doting enough to support me. Sometimes I envy people who do, it certainly seems like their lives are easier. But then, these people tend to be a little less mature and a little more dependant on the almighty parental word, lest they lose their cash cow. So, I work a lot, 'cause it currently costs a lot for me to live.
My Daddy helps out though, in his way, buying me diapers and such. He's a real good Daddy.
Kimmy is currently looking for a new, closer, more stable job situation so she can move in with me, which will certainly solve a lot of problems. Neither of us will be lonely and I will have more money in my bank account. Plus, Kotya and Jasmine will get a little sister to play with! Yay! Okay, now Kimmy, get on the stick and get hired someplace closer!
*S

11:51am: Being a baby is tough
I have had a long week and it promises to get even longer. I am working on my third 14 hour work day and am very tired and a little burned out. I got a nice new jacket from school, but Daddy says it's big girl clothes and I can't have it. I need a jacket, too.
I hope all this working brings in lots of money for me. I need it for certain! Then, if Kimmy finds a closer job and decides to move in, that'll help with money and being lonely.
Well no stickers today either;(
Poor baby!
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1:41pm: Grades are in!
*gasp*. So far, i got two A's and I musta pulled them out of my butt, because I have no clue how I otherwise deserved them. *shrug* Thank you, Buddha.
I have been a diapered ball of frustration lately. I have three job offers and I need two, but I don't know if they will work together and I don't know if I want to give up on the third, especially now that I know I have good grades for this semester. I need to graduate, but also i need to work and make money and pay for my terrbily expensive apartment. Which is freezing cold this week!
To Kimmy: I know we've only toyed with the idea and made no real decisions/offers, so I wanted to put this out there. It seems that you and I spend a lot of time being lonely and not getting to enjoy our babyhood with one another. So, I know we would not have a lot of space, but I am officially inviting you to come live with me, should you decide you would like that. Rent would be what yer paying now $450, there's parking and yer kitty is welcome. I have digital cable internet and tv and it's a nice place, where you can be a diapered baby as much as you want to. Mostly, it'd be nice to have someone around. Anyway, it's just an offer and your decision doesn't affect us as friends, it's just a thought that I wondered if it might work.
I generally like the apartment I am in, it's architecturally beautiful and large and central to everything fun in Salem. There's a horse-drawn carriage that goes by during the week giving tours of "historic Salem', we have a Witch Museum, an amusement park, a Pioneer Village, a Pirate Museum and lots more. Generally I work so much I never get to see these places. Maybe someday soon I will. A raising in the general temperature of the apartment would be nice as well! Even Wanda and Ken are starting to shiver.
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2:54pm: ELT
Jesssamin and I went to Every Little Thing last night searching for Hula Kitty stuff, but they didn't even have any!. It was terrible. So she has to order her beachmat online or something. Then we met Daddy at Buddha's for supper and it was ok. I only had hot n sour soup, because I wasn't very hungry. Then we walked down and got a book jess wanted and went to another bookstore and got some books daddy wanted and a tiny sock monkey somehow made it home with Jess through some kind of machinations of Daddy's . He will be a happy sock monkey with a good home.
I coulda had a baby book, but I didn't want one, I wanted a big girl book and I figured Daddy would say no, but later he told me I shoulda asked. But anyways I was in a strange, kinda blah mood so it mightn't have mattered very much all in all. What I want is a hair cut. It's been too long and my hair is starting to frey at the ends.
I am done with school 'cept for a few incompletes i have to finish up. I a glad to be out of classes for the summer. I need a break from all that stuff. I need time to write.
To work, to concentrate on being a good baby
*S

4:57pm: HELLO KITTY PRESENT!
I almost forgotted. Jessamin, the bestest, bestest sister ever, got me a "Chocolat" design hello Kitty travel clock for my new job and some Hula kitty stickers *psss, she has a tan!* Thank you so much Jessamin!!!!!
*S

4:48pm: Busy day for baby
I had lotsa meeting to go to today. The big one was the Bookstore Advisory Meeting where we have to choose betwen to bookstores for a 50 million dollar contract for our new campus center. I feel so unqualified to be on this committee, but they wanted a student and they got me.
Then I met with Heather and wrote her speech and showed her my stickers. I love my stickers:)
Now, I am catching up on email and websurfing and trying to keep from bouncing outta my skin. We saw The Matrix Reloaded last night and it was enjoyable. I really think I need to see it again in order to get all the dialogue from the Architect and the Oracle. There may have been some subtleties there that I didn't catch the first time. If you stay through the credits, you get to see a trailer for the next movie, out in November. Yay!
My diaper is still dry after almost an hour! hehehehehehehehe
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4:48pm: Busy day for baby
I had lotsa meeting to go to today. The big one was the Bookstore Advisory Meeting where we have to choose betwen to bookstores for a 50 million dollar contract for our new campus center. I feel so unqualified to be on this committee, but they wanted a student and they got me.
Then I met with Heather and wrote her speech and showed her my stickers. I love my stickers:)
Now, I am catching up on email and websurfing and trying to keep from bouncing outta my skin. We saw The Matrix Reloaded last night and it was enjoyable. I really think I need to see it again in order to get all the dialogue from the Architect and the Oracle. There may have been some subtleties there that I didn't catch the first time. If you stay through the credits, you get to see a trailer for the next movie, out in November. Yay!
My diaper is still dry after almost an hour! hehehehehehehehe
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4:42pm: I started a trend
which I hope continues. We now have three baby girls posting to this site and I think it's wonderful! If you wanna see who they are, follow my friends link.
Today was an odd day all around. I woke up feeling terrible, dragged my ass out of bed, crawled into the shower, soaped up with abandon and went to reach for the comb and *my eyes shut so I don't get soap in them* I grasped something round and furry. NOT my comb. My kitty. Apparently. He didn't appreciate the shampoo and quickly exited, and I finally found my comb. Then I drove into work and it's deadly quiet here with all the students gone and there's not much to do but sit and contemplate my diaper and if this one is comfortable today or a little pinchy.
I vote comfy.
I hope Daddy takes Jessamin and I out to see The Matrix tonight! I have been a good baby:)
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5:19pm: Allergies suck
they really do. Today I got a job with the Phoenix and I start training next week. It's a real job with stuff to do and benefits and all that happy crap. I hope I like it.
I am all congested and feelings like soggy, week old bread. I hope that I start to feel better soon. It's at least sunny and warm out today, although that usually means a sweaty bottom in my diaper, but you make trade offs. I have been wearing my onesies more often, mostly because I am out of diaper tape and it helps keep the tapes from creeping undone. When yer an active baby, you have these problems.
Today I want a balloon. I am not sure why, I just have it on the brain. Nobody can be uncheered by a balloon, BTW. Piglet said that I think. okie..heading out to get Jess.
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12:39pm: Aaaaaaaahhhhhhhh-choo!
I am allergic to cats. Apparently. As well as a score of seasonal allergens. I have had a cold pretty much for the last month or so and so i went to the doc and she said "allergies". it's kinda comical that I am allregic to my cats, since there is no way I am getting rid of them. She said, "Well, try to keep them from sleeping with you." Riiigghhhht. Anyway, I have Allegra now and am taking that and hopefully it will help.
I had a day with Kimmy yesterday that was quiet, but nice. We hung out in our diapers and watched Beauty and the Beast and played with FIMO clay. She's such a sweetie, I think any guy that had a chance to be her Daddy and screwed it up is a fool. And I would counsel others against becoming involved with such a person.
Well, I look forward to spending lots more time with Kimmy and hopefully we can erase some of the bad things that she's gone through and be happy as babies together.
*S