eh well    03:50pm 23/04/2005   So here i am yet again, haven't updated in a while. Well, last night Ana talked to muh girlfriend. They talked for no lie...uh id say a whole hour. I was like wow. But apparently it was good talk. N she comes in the car n goes, "She loves You." I'm like "you really think so?", she was all like, "Yeah alot. Either that or she needs to go get her Oscar nomination." but I'm just like ok. I really wanted to stay up all night and talk to my baby, but the thing was i kinda fell asleep =\ (sorry baby) lol but ya. I'm on the phone with muh baby right now. But yeah, idk wut else to say so ima go now. Peaceeeee        Post   You think you know me?    08:18pm 20/04/2005   How many people here truely know me? You think so huh? I'll put all my money on it says you have no fucking clue. I'm going to be straight out and blunt with everything i need to say. Hopefully OTHERS will follow. Seriously, I want to believe you love me, I want to believe you care, but when some of your actions over time can actually make me doubt that very considerably...it's too hard to. I love you beyond fucking words and you KNOW that. You fucking know it. I am giving up EVERYTHING...what are you doing? I'm not trying to be mean or anything. I basically do 3 things. I go to school I go to work and I sit home waiting for YOU! So seriously. Re-evaluate your feelings, your thoughts on 'love', and everything else. You need to let me know. Because i have no clue right now. To me, you seem un happy. And if you are...leave....Don't sit here un happy because im an asshole. But atleast have the gaul to tell me. You are young. And you do get confused. Maybe you don't love me. What is your defenition of love. Do you really know how you feel? Because I have NO CLUE! M.        Post   Woop Woop!    05:05pm 11/04/2005   Alright, everything right now is going perfect....got some good news... i got a job on June 4th...makin 100 dollars in 4 hours. For those who arent math guys...thats 25 dollars an HOUR...lmao. But ya all i gotta do is the lights for 2 variety shows at my school ...in 4 hours...and i get 100 bux...awesome huh?!? Well yeah, and then i am gonna get another job soon since saturday im talkin to my dad about it, and getting rid of the car...so i have like....15 dollars right now...ill use some for gas i guess...cuz im on E...and ill find a lil more...i got 7 or 8 in change lol...and ill take my dad to lunch. i printed out all the info im going to need i think. I gotta get in touch with PCC's financial aid dept... but ill do that after i get to talk to my dad...cuz why bother if they are gonna pay u kno...but if they wont ima go to CO and have a whole year to do it b4 i go to PCC...but hey everything is workin out good...now as long as Leilani wants me out there...i'm still going. Hopefully she'd tell me if she didn't want me there. Mic aka Baby Phace        Post   Yooooo IM BACK!    10:37am 11/04/2005   Well good news... I'm back to baby phace...im good now. I mean...i actually to put everything in the past. We are good....we're good.... News: In class right now...just got done gettin all my info down for my talk with my dad this coming saturday. I got: Job examples...from the Pueblo Chieftain online Tuition Costs...PCC And an explanation fo how i can make it with...or without their help. I feel truely that once i leave, my relationship with them can grow so much...and I actually want that and i dont know why. I wanna be able to call my dad grandpa...reffering to MY children...down the road obviously...but i want that... I hate hating people i really do. You got to do alot to me to piss me off to where i hate you. It takes alot jus to piss me off....i worry more than i get upset. but I'm tellin y'all right now ...im feelin so good. I also got my community service hours taken care of...i asked mr grimes the newspaper sponsor for 2 hours...cuz i have all i need but 2....and i thought he didnt like me...well he gave me 30...LMAO...i know. o well. But ima get goin...LUNCH TIME yayyyyayayayayay :) But email meh if ya want to. I'm out like disco....takin off like a jet...makin like Tom...im gonna Cruise...peace out people :-p Mic bka BaBy PhAcE        Post   Kill Me    05:02pm 29/03/2005   I feel so betrayed so fucked over so hurt. Why me damnit WHY?!        Post   I can't feel my legs.    04:42pm 29/03/2005   I am in hell right now. I want to sit here and tell Leilani that I love her, and everything is alright, but it doesn't feel right. I still get this mental picture of some guy fucking my girlfriend. And it hurts so bad. No one has any idea. Because she was sittin here tellin me the whole time she loved me. Then, when we finally started to get some where, she told me he had kissed her and she pushed him off. Once, and only once after I told her that I had cheated on her within a week or so of starting the relationship, she told me, that once again she had lied and that she had let cain strip her down naked, kiss her all over, and lay her on the floor, have rough sex with her, and then leave. Can any one in this world fathom what i am feeling at this point and time. I mean just finding out about it NOW hurts, because I just got back from seeing her. If i was there and she would have told me...we coulda maybe fixed this so much better. But, things are semi-fixed but it still hurts. The fact that she could do all of that while she said she loved me. Then you have Ryan and Nick. They both tried shit with her, mind you here's a little message to the "boys". Ryan: If I hear that you as so much LOOKED at Leilani in a way any more than you would any other person, I will gladly make you a new asshole. I will beat you. Beat you until my arms are limp. Until i can't lift them again, and then, i will proceed to kick the fuck out of you until I fall over from exhaustion. You disrespectful son of a bitch. YOU WERE FUCKING ENGAGED TO SAMANTHA AND YOU KISSED MY!!!!!! GIRLFRIEND! You are DAMN lucky im not on the next flight there just to kick YOUR ass then fly back home. Stupid mother fucker. Nick: Listen to me you little shit. I'm going to say this once and once only. You better vanish. When I return to Pueblo, if I catch a glimpse of you...that's all I will need. It is in your best interest to disapear due to health reasons. I will bring a wooden baseball bat and beat you til your face is unrecognizable. You will have wood splinters coming out of your face. Do you understand me you little shit. I will FUCK YOU UP! Stupid son of a bitch. Who EVER told you that it was alright for you to lay a damn FINGER on MY girlfriend? Run Nick. Run like the wind because if you don't you will be one sad little boy. Cain: You son of a bitch. I have few select words for you. And they are run mother fucker. If I ever see you, i swear on my life i will go to jail for Murder. I am going to fucking kill you if i ever see you. So if I were u id get a head start....Go.        Post   Slowly I'm dying    10:31am 28/03/2005   I'm home ...wait....well no, I'm back where I'm from unfortunately. Last night was the most heart wrenching feeling i've ever known. Before we even packed my suitcase, we were hurtin really bad, then we went and took a walk on the golf course...lon cried so much...i couldn't help but cry too. Then we left, and all was good until we got sight of the airport, she started crying into my chest and saying "no" over n over again. I knew what she was feeling. We got there 45 minutes b4 my flight even started to board so we stuck around in the food area talking to each other, then her dad found us as we were walking back, "Oh not to rush you but we gotta hurry this along"...ass....so we go looking around for the security checkpoint, finally found it. He hurriedly extended his hand sayin "well it's been nice"...me being the polite person I can be.."thank you, i appreciate your hospitality." Turned to Lyndell gave her a hug and sed goodbye, turned to lon gave her a hug and a kiss, i couldn't bear it. "noggin" *pop* They started to walk away as i went into the checkpoint, i reached the conveyer belt and put my stuff on it, and caught a glimpse of Lon, what i was sure was my last. She looked at me, we both looked incredibly depressed. Walked through, put my shoes, belt, and jacket back on. Started to walk and realized that her n her mom n dad stuck around to look down through this glass to see me off ....i didn't even look at her dad, i smiled barely at her mom...dunno if it was even noticeable...looked down at my shoes, looked back up at lon and mouthed the words I Love You. she did the same...i was just at the beginning of a downward escalator when this happened and i felt tears swellin up in my eyes so i hurried and walked down the rest of the stairs to get out of view of lon...didn't wanna cry. Got on the subway to concourse A...they started boarding just as i got there. The ticket guy asked "How are you today sir?" I said, "Shitty how about yourself"...he jus kinda looked sympathetic at me. As soon as i crossed the ticket thing into the little tunnel/gate to board the plane it felt like a million needles were being poked into me all over...It hurt. Hurt....there's a new word. I never knew the meaning of hurt until i left Colorado Sunday morning. Honestly, I had everything so wrong. Lon loves me so much, i had no clue as to how much before i got there. I know how much MORE i love her now than i thought I did before. And i actually feel as though i belong in CO. I got to FL at 10:40 sunday mornin...stepped outside and gagged at how hot humid sticky and thick the air was. You know you are out of place when the air won't let you breathe. So that's basically where I fall right now. Malissa: thanks for everything i really appreciate it all. I miss ya already. Lon: tell yer mom i say thank you and tell Mark Tammy Darby and Jalen i miss them all. Baby, I love you so much, i don't know how to put this much love into words. But, keep yer eyes open for a new song, that's the ebst way i can relay my feelings. I talked to Lon's mommy last night, and she was all like, " i miss you" and all this, it was kinda nice and we got to talk a bit and i got str8 to the point...i said to her after a little silence..."You know I love your daughter, right?" She said, "yeah i do, and she loves you too." Wow that felt so good to say and hear. But im so empty, even more so then when i went out there the first time, but it's all good...more motivation to go and live there. Gotta make things work. And i will.        Post   Here i am!    07:21pm 21/03/2005   Well here i am again sept for this time im sitting in JFK airport in New York...kinda weird....jetBlue offers free wireless internet in their terminal. Oh well. MAL WHY DIDNT U TELL ME U NEEDED/LIKE RCT? I love that game i have the disks at home lol. n e ways, in about 4.5 hours ima see muh baby....can't wait. Gonna be great. But im kinda low on battery ima go walk around, try not to get mugged, and see if i can find an outlet. O well. Take care, Mic        Read 1 - Post   Hmm    08:22pm 15/03/2005   Ehhhh well lets see. Today i was alright i guess. I played basketball, played decent. English and Chorus mid-terms are tommorow. Had a match today at Ft.Lauderdale. For those who care to know, i lost badly. I couldn't make a shot for my life. I just simply played bad, also I forgot my vibration dampener, so my strings were way loose so my shots went looooooong. But n e ways, i was playin it was 2-1 him...then i lost 6 str8 games...wow wtf. It happened to junior as well. So n e ways, doubles is on, and we are winning 4-1....guess wtf happens...lost 6 games str8. Then we won 2 so it was 7-6 them...we were up 40-15...then we lost one point....40-30...then another...duece...then another...ad out....and another....game set and match...8-6 no one on the boys team won today. The other team wasn't eveen that good. God im off to an 0-2 start to my season. Im playin shitty. W/e tho... im seriously jus lik w/e fk it all. N thursday we play Douglas...only one of the best teams in the st8....we're fucked. O well...after that im almost gone...ill be in PW monday night...tuesday mornin...idk....        Post   OMFG    04:01pm 14/03/2005   alright well today is insane. I can't go to practice cuz my racket is bein strung. But regardless...i was talkin to david today and things got real shitty coz he seems like hes always lookin down on me...and talkin down to me...but here's a email he sent me. David Kirlew: I write better alone. If you have a problem with that take it up with God because I am no longer dealing with this issue. I never said you could pass on suggestions what I did say, and plaster this everywhere, what I said was after I final the initial draft then you can tell all your ideas. So don't come to me saying I'm looking down on you. If I focus on your suggestions I'm gonna be bogged down and will not finish the script. I set up my little "system" to ensure that I finished the script not to limit ideas. I've told you this at least twice so I say it again I really shall be quite upset. Now for those who know me...you know i dont take shit for anything....so my response was... woah u need to check yourself, i dont know who you think you are dealing with...but i definately don't need your attitude...man what has gotten into you lately. and thas me being nice lol. but n e ways, sumtime between tonight and friday night ill be going live on WAY FM, the christian radio station which btw they have in denver...go to www.wayfm.com i think...but its like 89.1 i think.... n ill be singin "Get Here" by Justin Guarini...if i win...i make the top 10...kinda like a cell phone american idol...i could walk out of this with a record contract... the reason why i chose that song is cause its one i feel with every fiber of my heart...because its a song ive been listenin to since i met my gf leilani...n i feel it...n e wun wanna hear lemme know i got it recorded...sounds....good. i think. But n e who i gotta get goin to work. but i shall see yall later. Lon baby if u wanna call me im goin on break from 6-6:30 my time. <3 Mic        Post   I AM CRAZY    03:20pm 11/03/2005   ok, so i get home after like 2 hours of school, i really dont feel like goin to work. so i hope online n wut not n im jus lookin round blurty and im jus browsin everywuns infos and memories n shtuff. But n e ways, i found some things that bothered me...im jus bein stupid i know, but i guess its better if everywun knows how i think n wut gets to me. 1. I feel like im interupting in everyones life in PW...i read these journals n i cant help but feel as tho i dont belong. 2. Mal's wun memory...somethin about a john mayer foto n lon sayin bout it being hot...yea thats nice. 3. lons info "well check back if your that interested"...honestly i sure hope no one else is that interested or me n that person miiiiite have a problem. 4. in her info thingy she has a hug thing...hug counter or w/e...im like...ok? so i mean she knows how i am about that, i dun like tha fact that other ppl get to hug her...i cant. ugh but w/e im beein an ass again. n e ways ima go to work now b4 i sit here n be bothered all day.        Post   Wow    03:08pm 09/03/2005   Honestly, i think im just too in shock to speak. Let me explain to all the folks at home what is going on. I have a gf. She lives in CO. Things are hard enough being so far from eachother. One thing that seems to get in the way is money. Well, she always tells me how she never has money to come see me cuz she doesnt have a job and all that. OK...i get it. It's understandable. However, we had a talk a while back about next year her choir class is going to NY for either competition or something else i dont know what the deal was. But she was sayin how she isn't gonna sign up for choir next year cuz too much drama and too much shit, and the money would be an issue. But today I have a whole new story to play with. Last night was one of the worst fights we've ever had and the funniest part was it was in no way my fault, and i said absolutely nothing to worsen it. here's how it played out. Leilani asked me, "If you had the chance to perform at Carnegie Hall....would you?" Naturally i said yes. Carnegie hall is a big deal...but i was thinking along the lines of with MY music...as a performer. If your going to go and do it...I was thinking it would be as an individual and sell the place out with people wanting to hear YOUR music. However, she was meaning her choir class next year. Now i totally was in shock when she started sayin how she wanted to go n this that n the other and she wanted my input...well i told her i had none...why? mom always always ALWAYS said "dont say nothin if you cant say nothin nice at all" Well guess wut. what was goin thru my mind wasn't very nice. But i eventually rephrased it in a nice way...basically tellin her.." who the fuck am i to tell you not to go? if you want to go to new york then go to new york" now mind you im a very jealous very paranoid person...i mean shes traveling this year to a winter resort with her choir...why i dont know...and thats got me worried as hell. So can you possibly imagine new york? Well she says"I just didn't want it to seem like i want to go new york instead of going to see you." well guess what...THATS EXACTLY WHAT IT IS! one thing ive noticed in this world is that everyone seems to be nothing but talk. No action JUST TALK! and thats bullshit. Honestly. And then she wants to say, well im going to make this decision on my own lalala...im like ok then why the hell did you bother asking me?!? There's no point. You dont WANT my input, you just dont want to give me the chance to say, well geez thanks for askin wut i think. Honestly, I'd like to know, i dont care who you are...am i out of line here...? Please...Malissa....and any one else reading leave me a comment and let me know. I mean i told her..."i dont want you to miss out on this opportunity cuz its obvious you want to go, but at the same time i wont be able to keep from worrying and keep from thinkin stupid shit about why wont she come see me? The funny part is she changed her story half way thru the convo. First it was, "well id only have to pay for the outift...the trip is paid for because ( i dont remember the reason)..." so im like alright, well its almost a free trip...i really cant argue with her...i can be mad that i dont ever get to see her...then...yes there is a then.....then she decides to say something along the lines of "well it's not a big deal i think we are only gonna have to pay for half of it..." well guess fuckin wuuuuut. NY aint cheap, neither are hotels...so here's my estimation...flight = 300 ish per person...150 for her...cuz half...choir outfits....70-100...so we'll say another 50. She's up to 200....hotels...haha easily....150 a night....so 75X a minimu of 2 or 3 nights...so another 150...ill be damned 350...plus food and shit and souveniers...all that adds up to over 400 fucking dollars....but once again "baby you know id do anything to see you." no apparently you wouldnt. And if i seem unfair and bitter im sorry but YOUR not the one who gave up gradnite or home coming or FUCKING PROM to be able to go for 5 measley fucking days to see YOU! not malissa not brady sure as hell not your dad...YOU god damnit...i gave up my damn senior year for you. but im selfish and im an asshole so fuck me and fuck ne thing i say. Go to New York ok, it's a hell of an opportunity, but fucking atleast have the balls to tell me str8 wut u want n wut its gonna take for you to get it. I told you milllions of times, dont worry about me cuz no one else fucking does...meaning i shouldnt be the damn influence on whether or not you go on this trip. I'm sorry, im an insensitive asshole. I dont even know why you bother dealing with me anymore cuz i know just as well as everyone else...im not worth it.        Post   About me...    12:57am 05/03/2005   Personally, i think this is dumb, no one really needs to know this cuz the wun who does should know this already. But w/e i obliged. 1. Full name: Michael Alexander Hoyos 2. Nicknames: Mic, mickey, big bird, gucci eyes, baby phace, big mic, em, gee, God, Gringo, Suavecito, tio michael...too many to name 3. Shoe size: 11.5-12 4. Height: 5'10"-5'11" 5. Hair: Dirty Blonde/ Brown 6. Siblings? Legally...yes...2 sisters (michelle and denise) and one bro ( Chris) they are all half tho... 7. Do you like to sing in the shower? yea even tho i suck 8. Do you like to sing? Yea, keeps me occupied 9. Birthday: July 10th Bitch! 10. Sign: Cancer 11. Lefty or righty? Ambidextrous 12. Shoes or sandals? Depends 13. Coke or Pepsi? Sprite....which is a coke product....so coke? 14. What do you want in a relationship? Happiness...simple eh? 15. Have you ever cheated? Relationships...once...test...numerous.. 16. Marital status: Head over heels, never gonna put my feet back down on earth in love. FAVORITES 17. Song (right now)? Grind on meeee, relax your mind take your time on meeeee. 18. Cologne & perfume? Cologne.....Chrome...my individual style....Perfume??? lol um i guess curve 20. Number? 20 21. Card game? Bull Shit or Spades 22. Radio station? 96.5 Power 96, 99 Jiggy Jamz, Y 100, 103.5 The Beat 23. Sports? Everything and i do it damn well 24. Food: Favorite? Sorry abuela, but ima half to say italian. 25. TV show? No time to watch TV...anything but that 70s show. 26. Cartoon: The wun where the guy doesnt have to work but he gets millions of dollars for nothing...o wait just a fantasy. 27. Character: ME! 28. Color? Baby Blue A LITTLE BIT O' THIS, A LITTLE BIT O' THAT 29. Do you plan on having kids? Kids? Eh....yes...now? You fkn crazy??? 30. How many do you want? 2..maybe 3 31. What's something you can't wait to say? Fuck all y'all haters who doubted me along every step of this journey (when i win my first grammy [ Best New Artist]) 32. Get married? Yes 33. Would you have kids before marriage? i try to avoid that but if i must lol...i aint gonna stop natures course. 34.You have a b/f or g/f? Yes,my gf! 35. Do you have a crush: Nope. My gf is all i need 36. What hurts you the most? a good kick in the balls 37. Music/TV: Music 38. Guys/Girls: uh...well i got a girl, and im not gay so yeah my GF. 39. Green/Blue: Blue 40. Pink/Purple: depends on who/ what 41. Summer/Winter: Winter....lets go play in the snow....! 42. Night/Day: Night 43. Hanging Out / Chillin: Chillin....cuz chillin u can do by yer self, u hang out wit ppl 44. Dopey/Funny: Funny 45. You know I'm around when you hear: "Grind on meeeeeee" 46. What school do you go to? Monarch High 47. Do you enjoy what you do? I do enjoy what i do or i wont do it. 48. What's a major turn on for you? Nothing in particular, jus really everything my gf has...no one else turns me on. FRIENDS 49. Who Are They? Matt, John, Alwayne, Andre, Natalie, Ray ,and Chris. Not many, i dont label ppl as my friend that easily, i have standards. 50. Most blonde: Me lol. 51. Nicest: Chris by far. Nicest person ive ever met. 52. Funniest: Andre!!! 4 sho lol 53. Tallest: Aaron (he is like 6'4" i think lol) 54. What's the worst thing a friend could do to you? lie...same with a GF 55. Is it right to flirt if you have a g/f or b/f: nope, if you do your wun fucked up bastard. OTHER RANDOM QUESTIONS... 56. What was the last thing you cried over or got teary about? When i didnt know wut i was gonna do with my life. 57. What's something about guys/girls you don't get?i dont get girls at all...guys are too easy to understand... 58. What do you want right now? Pizza 59. What's one thing you can't live without? Music 60. Love or Lust: Love 61. Silver or Gold: Platinum bitches 62. Diamond or Pearl: Diamond... 63. Sunset or sunrise: Sunset.. try n wake me the fuck up for a damn sunrise 64. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping? no comment 65. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: the wuns my gf gave me 66. Do you have any piercings: not yet 67.What color underpants are you wearing right now: underpants? 68. What song are you listening to right now? none...amazingly enough 69. Where would you want to go on your honeymoon: to a bed lol. 70. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? My GF DUH! 71. What are some of the first things you notice about the opposite sex? I!!! dont notice them...ive got all i need...some ppl thas not good enough tho 72. What makes you happy? Pizza 73. What's the next CD(s) you're going to get? Im not buyin none until i make mine. 74. Do you wear contacts or glasses? bitch, fk the bullshit...20 20 vision right here 75. What was the best advice ever given to you? No one gives me valuable advice. 76. Do you like Funny or Scary movies better? Funny 77. On the phone or in person? In person 78. Hugs or kisses? Both 79. What song seems to reflect you the most?: My music without a doubt. 80. If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything you own to? my gf 81. Do you have any enemies? uh....does the world go round? DUH! 82. Who was the last person to hug you? ... hmmm. it was either...Melissa...Natalie....or Renecia.. 83. Would you rather be rich or famous? Respected. for my music...but from those 2....famous. 84. What time is it in Albania now? time for them to switch to eastern standard time 85. What time is it where you are now? 12:53 in tha AM 86. Have you ever met Santa? Does Colonel Sanders count? 87. Name something pretty: A soft piano ballad with a sweet drum to it. 88. Do you have any pets? yes, my German Shepherds Prissy n Oakley and my Silky terreir Sophie. 89. Who was the last person you danced with? hmmm...id say it was me teachin kyle how to dance...other than that natalie. 90. Last time you were stressed: What? Stress? Whats that....i live with it 91. Are you an alcoholic? if music were considered alcohol....sign me up for AA        Post   oh yeah    12:17am 05/02/2005   and yes i do have accounts on rating sites...why? because i laugh. i laugh at people i know. facebattle, ive found over 5 ppl i know form around here or old neighborhoods that i know. and they are so diff. and rate my body, my friend justin told me about it sayin he was on there, and idk about yer comp, but on mine u cant chek profiles n leave comments...without having an account. Undisclosed...YEAH NO ONE NEEDS TO KNOW MY FUCKING LIFE INFO. IVE GOT YOU AND YOU ARE THE ONLY THING THAT MATTERS TO ME. I DONT PAY ATTENTION TO OTHER FUCKING GIRLS. I IGNORE THEM DAMNIT. Something you werent too good at when you had YOUR rating site accounts. I wasnt the one to fuck around on them was I?        Post   WTF    12:01am 05/02/2005   Iite, so u wanna know what the fuck is going on... here it is str8 up. DO YOU HAVE ANY FUCKING IDEA WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY ALONE DAY FATER DAY FOR 18 FUCKING YEARS OF YOUR LIFE??? NO YOU DONT. I HAVE NOTHING OR NO ONE TO BEFRIEND OR TALK TO OR ANYTHING OF THE SORT. DAY AFTER DAY I CONTINUE ON WITH MY PIECE OF SHIT LIFE KNOWING THAT ITS BULLSHIT. IM NOT MAKING N E THING OF MYSELF NOR DOES IT SEEM LIKE I WILL. THE ONLY THING IN MY LIFE THAT IVE COME TO APPRECIATE IS YOU!!! YOU GOD DAMNIT...I MEAN ITS TO THE POINT WHERE DAYS WILL GO BYE AND FOR NO APPARENT RESON MY EYES FEEL LIKE THEY WANT TO SPILL OUT EVERYTHING SO DOES MY HEART BUT I CANT. WHY? I D K...BUT SERIOUSLY IM ALONE IN THIS WORLD. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO OR WHO TO TALK TO NONE THE LESS WHO I COULD TRUST IN THIS WORLD. YES I WAS GOING TO COME SEE YOU THIS SPRING BREAK. THAT WAS YOUR SUPRISE. AND FOR THOSE OF US WHO ARENT ENGLISH SUPERSTARS..WAS = PAST TENSE. I WAS GOING TO COME SEE YOU, BUT NOT N E MORE. THANK GOD FOR THAT BECAUSE IF I WAS STILL COMING YOUR MOM WOULD HAVE RUINED THE SURPRISE. OH WELL. AND YOU KNOW WUT...YES I WENT TO THE FUCKING SOCCER GAME....NO...I WENT BY MY GOD DAMN SELF. WAS I GOING TO PICK UP FRIENDS? POSIBLY BUT NOT N E MORE CUZ THEY WERE BUSY. THEY ARE FUCKING FRIENDS FROM SCHOOL. HAVE YOU EVER HEARD ME MENTION THEIR NAMES AND FLIRTING WITH ME OR THEM IN THE SAME SENTENCE? NO. I WENT BY MYSELF. FURTHERMORE....I SAT WITH THE GOD DAMN TEACHERS AND ADMINISTRATORS. OK SEE NOW HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE PARANOID AND JEALOUS????? NOT TOO DAMN GOD HUH? IM AN ASSHOLE BECAUSE NO MATTER WUT I ALWAYS THINK THAT WAY FIRST. O AND BY THE WAY WE WON...DISTRICT CHAMPS 2 YEARS IN A ROW. I MEAN SERIOUSLY I DIE WITHOUT YOU HERE EVERY DAY. THE ONLY THING IN LIFE I MUST ACHIEVE OR I KNOW I WILL NOT LIVE LONG IS TO BE WITH YOU...BUT ONLY IF I MAKE YOU HAPPY. Do i make you happy? I don't know. i question that sometimes. however, im not sure on whats going on right now, so its best if i stop writing this before i go COMPLETELY insane.        Post   ARGH!    09:58am 24/01/2005   Im so pissed, i dont have my headfones to make my beats...and to make it worst...i found over a hundred new sounds and stuff hidden in my software. DAMNIT!!!!! RAWR!        Post   ARGH!    09:58am 24/01/2005   Im so pissed, i dont have my headfones to make my beats...and to make it worst...i found over a hundred new sounds and stuff hidden in my software. DAMNIT!!!!! RAWR!        Post   Oh yeah    03:31pm 22/01/2005   Went shopping today with my mom, got 3 new shirts and 3 new dress pants. Looks so pimped you dont even kno i should be one of the fab 5...if i was gay. But yeah n e ways, ill take pics and put em up on greatestjournal.com user = babyphace...take a look let me know wut u think. but yeah, im gonna get to work soon. Music as of right now....D'Angelo...Aint no sunshine and Boyz II Men....Can You Stand the Rain. But yeah, i'll be going now. Ciao Mic Gut feeling        Read 1 - Post   ah    10:07am 21/01/2005   well ive got to do something productive in 2nd hour, so i might as well jus keep updating here...um what have i been doing lately? making beats...damn my beats are good, and im not one to appreciate my own doings but damn. I made this slowjam beat its soooo hot, and this other upbeat one thats really good. idk i made so many beats i 4get wut i did. but im gonna go do that now i guess. Mic =Still got that gut feeling=        Read 1 - Post       10:27pm 28/10/2004   Look, i seem to seriously be causing alot of trouble and drama whenever i write in this journal. i figured itd let people get to know my thinking pattern, instead it just fkd with people really bad. I'm not writing anymore. the hell with it, ill go back to screaming at my pillow for being in the way. Out like disco....and never coming back... mic        Post

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