crazi vaca   
03:51pm 01/01/2004
  wow vaca is bein insane lol xmass lasteedlike 4 days omg torture!!!!!!! i dont mind seein my family but i didnt want to see them everyday especiallly with all there bullshit right now. for xmass i got some cool stuff. i decided what college monsera art school in beverly mass. it sounds perfect im already working on my portfolio im gunna do so good. i saw Will over vaca we jus sorta hung out saw a movie and shit it was great i cant decide if i love or hate the feeling i get around him i mean when im with him i get my pride back my lil habits are all known and we can talk about anything i guess its that way cuz Will's the only person that really knows me i mean yea a couple of my really close friends know me but not like he does. then again i hate it, it reminds me of how scared i was how shady everything used to be i mean rough shit happend to me before and during when i knew Will but he jus sucked the suicide from meshowed me that the real me was better than that. i guess im jus strung out. hehe d ur right "u jus wanna go where everyone knows ur name" god is that true! anyways new years cant write a lot about that on the internet lol jk i went to tims partied with my close friends aj got mad at mei took a lot of pictures played a lot of guitar sang so much my vioce is crackin and tried to break my vocal chords lol dont ask o boyz. i watched like 90 episodes of south park and yelled at random ppl lol o man gotta love u guys ur fuckin nuts and thanx tim see we can stay up fuckin some pussies cant. aj thought i was ignoring him so he got all pissed and wouldnt talk to me ass. i was goin to go to jens but the devinchenzos never left for there soi they called dont remeber what we talked about not important. but here i am now im new london tryin to find somethin to do so gimme a call if ur bored and ill come get ya im tryin to get ahold of ronnie damnit
loves to all in 2004 **2003 was the shit**
 
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hey hey   
08:28pm 09/12/2003
 
mood: high
music: safe-kittie
hey guys o today was alright it kinda sucked tho. school was borin as usual kinda good i guess. i got my progress report lol uppsi i kinda sucked on that. i came home and got on the comp and leslie this cunt from john stark had all these ppl bitch me out on the internet becuz she couldnt do it herself and i couldnt say anything or nicole would get suspended wich is fuckin retarded. i hate that bitch cant wait to run into her ill kill her. i hate it when ppl cant hold their fucking own!!!!! grr. so that kinda sucked then jake came over and we went down to the train tracks and stuff talekd about crap hes alright hes a freshi at my school but none of the freshmen are all that bad the sophmores are the asshooles but i am one so yaknow. i talked to nicoe,l and my dad played guitar thought about shit. my stomache hurts to much to live i went to the doctors today for a mega quick checkup they took a pic and are gettin back to me some time tomorrow atleast i can eat now thank god i was gunna tweek lol ramen, cheeze doodles ice cream lol i pigged out. i gotta eat good food so i can really beat the shit out of leslie break that fat bitches broken legs grr lol she said she was gunna send my convo to the police lmao what a fuckin loser! i hope she does i alreadt have a record i dont really care what else is on it and there only gunna give me community service. stupid bitch whatever i better be careful now grrr anywho any ways what do u call a white grandmother? a gram cracker ye that was rpetty dumb shutup lol welpz i guess ill go play my guitar made up the prettiest song about the best guy in the world maybe one day ill get my gut up enough to play it to him timmy :) and dont u dare say i told u so! coz i knew the whole time to if u knew where my happiness goes when i jus hear his voice omg its crazy the best smile goes across my face but ill never get the gut god damn seriousness lol welp im guna go dream luvs ya calle-----------------------------------------------------penis this close man it was like ooo baby lmao anyways will remember that time at friendlys when we were fuckin in the parkin lot and someone pulled up rght next to us lmao o good times we didnt stop but i think we put up a pretty damn good show if i say so myself lol o boyz thats on the internet now lmao i love you baby boy!
 
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iffi   
03:30pm 07/12/2003
 
mood: bitchy
music: she fuckin hates me lalalala
these last couple of days have been a lil hard on my bruised emotions. friday was fun shit i went to goodtimes with a bunch of ppl hung out with nicole a lot, shes so different now i hate it. it was fun tho. i tried to skate lol. o boyz, ill prolly go again. alittle to much drama lol. sat i didnt do anything me and nicoel were like permanently snowed in so i got kazaa and we were makin cds then we talked to seani he said he might come down with justin and hang out i was excited coz seans cool shit and i wanted to meet justin. Seani likes me so he was goin on and on about how cute i was and shit and nicole got massive jelous! i felt like shit i dont rally like him im jus a flirty person i mean i never see him anyway! but she still got irritated with me wich i knew would happen. we were sendin em pics i felt so fat idk y i feel fat next to nicole i mean atleast her boobs hide it but thats an issue ill never get over becuz no one will let me forget. fuckin irritating by the way. aj caled me sat night he didnt have anything to say but ask me if i was goin to the show that i REALLY fuckin wanted to go to now im pissed at him abotu that becuz he never called and never came but fuck him from now on im havin fun and partyin i shouldnt have to wait on him EVER i wont put up with that. Nicole was tellin me Amy's hair was really long now......it probably looks really pretty. its so fucked up what she did, i wish i could fuckin rip her heart into lil tiny shreds right in front of her face so she could feel my emotional pain physically. im still gettin over that bitch i might see her at nicoles party(SHE FUCKIN HATES ME LA LA LA LA) i cant believe she rented out the entiretown hall lol like the whole schools goin i wish i went to stark theres no like certain group of ppl here. it sux. but yea we're guna make up a dance to baby boy! wo hoo! i cant wait we always take all the attention lol. goodtimes!today was sun nothing happend nothing! i feel like extreamly downim gunna call aj at 9 and ask him if he even wants to go out anyway i mean he sure doesnt make a fuckin effort. at all plus i like a couple other ppl. ill prolly write more l8r tonight
wish me luck with aj............................im gunna see will over xmass vaca i cant wait hes the kid im gunna marry eventually lola
 
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iffi   
03:30pm 07/12/2003
 
mood: bitchy
music: she fuckin hates me lalalala
these last couple of days have been a lil hard on my bruised emotions. friday was fun shit i went to goodtimes with a bunch of ppl hung out with nicole a lot, shes so different now i hate it. it was fun tho. i tried to skate lol. o boyz, ill prolly go again. alittle to much drama lol. sat i didnt do anything me and nicoel were like permanently snowed in so i got kazaa and we were makin cds then we talked to seani he said he might come down with justin and hang out i was excited coz seans cool shit and i wanted to meet justin. Seani likes me so he was goin on and on about how cute i was and shit and nicole got massive jelous! i felt like shit i dont rally like him im jus a flirty person i mean i never see him anyway! but she still got irritated with me wich i knew would happen. we were sendin em pics i felt so fat idk y i feel fat next to nicole i mean atleast her boobs hide it but thats an issue ill never get over becuz no one will let me forget. fuckin irritating by the way. aj caled me sat night he didnt have anything to say but ask me if i was goin to the show that i REALLY fuckin wanted to go to now im pissed at him abotu that becuz he never called and never came but fuck him from now on im havin fun and partyin i shouldnt have to wait on him EVER i wont put up with that. Nicole was tellin me Amy's hair was really long now......it probably looks really pretty. its so fucked up what she did, i wish i could fuckin rip her heart into lil tiny shreds right in front of her face so she could feel my emotional pain physically. im still gettin over that bitch i might see her at nicoles party(SHE FUCKIN HATES ME LA LA LA LA) i cant believe she rented out the entiretown hall lol like the whole schools goin i wish i went to stark theres no like certain group of ppl here. it sux. but yea we're guna make up a dance to baby boy! wo hoo! i cant wait we always take all the attention lol. goodtimes!today was sun nothing happend nothing! i feel like extreamly downim gunna call aj at 9 and ask him if he even wants to go out anyway i mean he sure doesnt make a fuckin effort. at all plus i like a couple other ppl. ill prolly write more l8r tonight
wish me luck with aj............................im gunna see will over xmass vaca i cant wait hes the kid im gunna marry eventually lola
 
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waiting for weekend   
08:10pm 03/12/2003
 
mood: busy
music: mettalica-sandman
today was a wednesday. as u prolly know. i dont really care about today i went to school saw everybody and came home but hey theres nothing wrong with a normal day. this weekend is gunna be "uber"fun tho cant wait!!!!!!!!!!! (certain someone who makes me happy i might get to see) :) massive smile. anyways.....nicoles friend asked me out today is it jus me or does the entire world not want me to be with aj im starting to think we are fuck buddies but ya knwo shit happens like that i jus dont want to go to the baby shower and everything and be uncomfortable. i mean thats not the only reason. im still uber paranoid in sure im fine jus the daughter of a druggie! it wasnt me man it was the uterus!! ona more important note i've been listening to mettalica, maybe its my way of gettin around aj and mom who decided to call my house at 430 this morning to tell me i needed to go back on brith control and had a nervous breakdown fuckin lunatic shes worse when im here. so now i will be back on who knows what god forbid my mom believe me that i can take care of myself and make my own dicisions but y would she know that she never knew me anyway grr! cunt. yes i said cunt and to all u ppl who cringe when u hear it CUNT CUNT CUNT! its jus a word live it up a lil! hehe gotta stay positive lol. i keep having to remind myself im goin out with aj and not to flirt so much. thats soooooo bad~only with certain ppl tho! uppsy! well i talk to him about it anyways im not one to not say what i think unless im in school becuz i gotta beat the system to bend. maybe go to law school to learn how fucked up a free country is. (watch out i may start sounding like slc punk) anywho im gunna go think and draw a bit i have started drawin a lot now its very easy goin and shit
toodles!
luv ya!
 
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bored   
08:00pm 01/12/2003
  hey guys since ppl are being stupid and need me to write in this thing ill write some extreamly boring shit
highlights of the vaca
watched slc punk wonderful as usual, mud wrestled o the good fun, saw my calle, saw my sean and sat next to his entire fam, threw gummie bears at critics, found out britts baby is a boy!!!!!! yayyayayay, ummmm, shopped went to the y, lost a few pounds, tried to pierce my belly button, scartissue doesnt bleed it jus hurts, got mettalicas best cd, played guitar, saw aj, saw timmy, saw dani..............um yea thats all o and aj bugged me a lot yea and we were bitchy towards each otha imagine that
 
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sunday night   
06:01pm 23/11/2003
  hey
its sunday and my weekend was pretty damn eventful. lets see welp, friday i went to the movies with lara and saw scary movie three. wich kinda sucked but parts where really funny like the jesus part when we were the only two ppl that laughed in the whole friggen theatre. o good times. then i came back home and slept when i woke up i went to wally world(wich was of course fantastic) then i wen to ajs and we didnt do a lot jus talked wich was exactly(for once) what i wanted to do. and of course read some topographical maps lmao devinchenzo joke it was great! then sat night there was a drama thingy so i wnt and saw all my ppl Jen Laura Brad Jay and CALLE MY HUNI SWEETY SNUKUMS LOL idk tho last night i had a dream abotu amy and we made up in my dream and got over whatever happend to us it was weird i almost want to talk to her after all the hatred and sickness and lies she made me feel and hate, i cant help but smile when i think about her :( no use in tryin to understand. i talked to my william morgy he mkes me so happy but i gotta keep it on the 9-0 otherwise ajs gonna turn into the poe poe. ad today sunday i went to early thanks giving with my disfunctional familia and witnessed the rape of a proud itallien american family stupid drama let me tell u! when i came home my dad was really sick so i took care of him and then once he felt better aj called me and told me wen he had off and if we were gunnna get together i dont know about us anymore the talk we had was kinda like an "i'll do better now" talk but i guess ill jus see what happens im seeing Will ova vaca:) cause he makes me happy and he always buys me a really good gift lol welp i g2g straighten my hair luvs Roby
 
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bored and confuzzled   
03:08pm 20/11/2003
  Today was pretty normal ...i brought a pic of Will in and a bunch of ppl thaought he was hott lol hes my baby i am still so fuckin in love with that kid i dont think its ever gunna go away. but after the relationship we had y wouldnt we be. perfect. i think about him so much when i wake up or go to bed i wish shit never had to get that bad but shit happens. 'nother day another deamon.(calle) lol. i called hijm a lil while ago and he told me he as goin out with this chick ally fat prtirican prolly...im not worried about it i know the truth. we talked abou someone i liked blah blah blah. so since then ive been squirming lol.my lovely mother (coughyearightcough) is spose to be here in an hour or two. she alwasy comes over and takes me to eat yesterday i went to the y ahhh steam room i love it. im tryin to fricken lose weight. i have to see my shrink at 6its very amusing i sit there and talk about how te government is a bunch of possed liberals and how they are goin to take over and eat ur soul. she asked me to make up stories for her lmao its great i dont think it relaly helps anything but its not my money.this weekend i am piercing my nipple. its gunna hurt cant wait. i am spose to see aj on sat but we all know how that goes then again maybe he will bring me to hooters again that was good quality um food yea thats it. **shes sat on m lap and not urs adam** o yea hows it feel im jk well my cookies are done cooking and im out of things to write o yea school. merrimack highschool well.....there are some kool ppl there not many but some i find myself looking forward to seeing a couple ppl and im like omg i used to have so many friends at my otha school but o well
i want food so g'nights ill write something interesting next time i promise
 
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fisrt entry   
09:04pm 18/11/2003
  Hey...I'm Robyn and this is my blurty. i jus switched schools and the school im at now is just a run of the mill type of place same drama same stupidity but what more can u ask for in high school? i got this blurty thang cause my bbf's all have then yes calle and nicolian u guys! idiots i still dont get y u hate each other every otha minute but whatever floats ur dead fish! i luv u guys new schools suck. i guess i will state some beliefs or something because i dont really know what else to write.....i have some belief in anarchy but doubt it will consume america because isnt anarchy a form of government just non government i guess its jus the question **to any real punks or hippies on the internet normal people dont waste ur time** if an anarchist group gained political power would it be a form of government or just freedom? i listen to a lil bit of every type of music my favorite songa are
one last carress my the misfits, 6 pack by black flag, suga suga how u get so fly aww its so cute!!! theres too many
i play guitar. and my "boyfriends" an idiot right now whatever. Will is my huni(i wish) and well theres my first entry hope ur happy calle coz i hate this public writing thing lol
love yas girls
PS_charlie gainor i miss u hun we gotta party
 
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