| last weekend of freedom |
[29 Aug 2003|10:54pm] |
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well i don't think today could get anymore boring. i swear today was so unproductive oh wait i did cook but thats about it. uhm yesterday was the second day of volunteering. we were out on the floor color coding and we kicked some major ass. some of the racks went from chaos to perfect order. we finished early and were basically talking to nate, doug, and kevin the rest of the time. kevin's a little creepy like he won't leave us alone. but the other people there are pretty cool. we spent our break in the break area with them this time. i dunno i wouldn't mind working there for real till i hope to get a job at h-park this summer. well i'll leave you with some quotes that i picked up because i was so friggen bored and had nothing better to do or i just remembered them and decided to share.
"don't knock masterbation. it's sex with someone i love." - woody allen
"having paula abdule judge a singing contest is like having christopher reeves judge a dance contest. it ain't right!" - chris rock
"whenever i see an old lady slip and fall on a wet sidewalk, my first instinct is to laugh. but then i think what if i was an ant and she fell on me. then it wouldn't seem quite as funny." - jack handey
"people tell you to be yourself...like yourself is some defined thing." - my so called life
"what would you do if i sang out of tune? would you stand up and walk out on me? lend me your ears and i'll sing you a song. i will try not to sing out of key." - joe cocker
"a chicken and an egg are laying down in bed. the egg is angrily muttering to itself, while the chicken is contentedly smoking a cigarette. the chicken leans over and says to the egg,"well i guess that answers THAT question..."
"have you ever made fun of someone so much that you wanted to thank them for all the good times you've had at their expense?" - dave attell
"the way is see it, the men i'm with, whoever they are, it's like look, you have to accept that i like ice cream, and i know it shows up on my hips but if you don't accept that, then leave. go away. toodles. it's non-negotiable." - tori amos
"the radio is playing queen and we're rockin out..." - saves the day
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| working for the man every night and day |
[27 Aug 2003|06:20pm] |
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ahahahaha that's great stuff, just the way that is sounds in my head the way i would say it is friggen hilarious.
haha chesty laboob lol. yeah i'm not obsessed with these things or anything oh wait yeah i am.
hmm today i went to volunteer at the salvation army from 10am - 3pm. oh man within like 5 mins of actually working i got hit on by another guy that works there. but i told him i was in highschool and he backed off. him and these other guys doug and nate are a little weird but nice. there's a possible she-male there too that's kinda nice but i haven't really talked to her/him. sue and greg the managers are real nice too. it's enjoyable, better than other possibilities. oh man during our lunch break jess and i ran/speed walked to giant for some food, we had like $10 between us. it was real hot and crazy but we made it back just in time. we're going back tomorrow but we get to be out on the floor this time color coding. come and see us if you wannu lol. well i'm tired i'm gonna go chill out. peace.
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| another memegen |
[26 Aug 2003|04:44pm] |
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i had another one for megan but i'm dubm and don't know how to work things but it said nikolai so whateva.
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[26 Aug 2003|02:10pm] |
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well i got this one then i put meg in and i got a more kickass one
yeah i watched that e true hollywood story on her, and she seems like she'd be acool person that is actually intellegent.
i hate this new season of DC, it was the reason i stopped watching when it first aired. but i'll endure cuz i did see james van der beek barely having a shirt on and that's just hot.
i went shopping yesterday. i got some clothes for school. like nice somewhat dressy ones and of course a kickass triumph the insult comic shirt. there's still more to be bought though. ohh i got a nice purse from wet seal. it's rather mod looking. and a jacket that reminds me of james dean. there's so much dayglo inspired 80's clothing out now. i just hate that leg warmers came back, that's just not cool now. i can't wait for it to get cold. i wanna layer my clothes i love that. and i actually have a sweater or few that i'd like to wear. i'm a weird one. i went from hot topic to new york and company my style varies insanely.
i drove there too well halfway. i'm all highway lol. i love it you can go like 70mph and just cruise.
well i'm breakin off gonna go do my hair. peace
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| i like to show it and i like to shake it shake it shake it... |
[25 Aug 2003|12:23am] |
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wish you were here - pink floyd |
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well lets see i'm bored. i haven't done very much in the past few days.
i went to a message board for i heart the 80's that jess sent me, man they put down mib real bad. he's definately one of the funniest. donal logue doesn't really get his props either. i think the top 5 would be (no particular order) Michael ian black, Hal sparks, Donal logue, Mo rocco, Greg fitzsimmons, with the guys from espn coming in a close 6th and 7th lol.
hmm i'm gonna go do some shopping tomorrow. hopefully i'll be able to drive some of the way. i've been doing pretty well on the highway its my fave cuz i like the wide roads that i can drive a little faster than normal on. but i surprisingly like curvy roads. as long as they aren't narrow as all hell.
i got my hair done the other day, finally back to red! well it's like blood red with bright red highlights. i love it. tara was like that kicks ass i think i'm gonna have to go red again. it's such a great color.
i'm a dumb girl. i miss dillan. he's at the beach right now with his fam and garrett. he said he's gonna call me tomorrow. i told him he didn't have to cuz it's his vacation but he said that not talking to me for a week would ruin it for him. ahh he's so awesome. and the day after he gets home KISS AND AEROSMITH! WOOHOO! can't wait!
GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR PERMIT TEST JESS! it's easy just relax and think using the common sense.
[what do you want essa?[essay? what? are you calling me a term paper or something?]
man old celebrities kick soo much ass. they were just ultra cool. but i do have quite the obsession with johnny depp right now. you look at him and it's like holy shit how is it possible to be that hot.
eh i'm breaking off cuz i'm missing the oblongs.
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| what happened to the th in birfday? |
[20 Aug 2003|11:16pm] |
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well lets see i haven't updated in a while, like almost a week. hot damn. what have i been up to, WELL...
i got realllly drunk and had a horrible hangover on friday. it was in celebratio of getting my math done but i didn't even get it handed in on time. FUCKERS! i hate those secretary bitches. uhm then later that day i hung out with shwandell and jess. aww i missed shwandell, it had been too long. uhm lets see. jess stayed over til sunday and we went with dillan and garret to see freddy vs jason. i'm so proud of myself. we snuck in for one and i didn't have any bad dreams or freak my self out about it. it was pretty funny though. hmm monday i dunno what i did. hmm i forget that day totally. ha tuesday i went driving alot. it was awesome but cunts have to ride my ass when i'm already going 6 miles over the speed limit. i was like uhm hello uhm hi off my ass! anyways i went to jess's and we hung out had some cake for her and ame's b-day's , it's cool cuz they are 16 and 21. then we went to dillan's for his campfire thing. garret was there too. i was pretty cool actually. then we left around 11 and went to walmart with ame. and then to sheetz. we celebrated jess's b-day in there and drank some red bull. that is the shittiest stuff and fuck those commercials i did not have wings grow out of my back. i only stayed up til like 4am. uhm we went back to jess's and she had her bacardi cuz it's her birfday. ugh i kinda felt sick though. maybe it was the red bull or my like fucking weeklong hangover i dunno. uhm we went to the mall today. that was fun, chinese is the greatest! haha.
i heart the 70s is so kicking some ass. i actually know what there talking about somewhat lol. and jimmy g is on this one so it can do no wrong.
oh man jess and i might go clubbin. that's some crazy shit right there but i wannu, i think it would be fun.
i saw a bee commit suicide, it was great.
well i'm breakin off gonna go find my bed. peace out.
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| you're so fi-INE... |
[14 Aug 2003|03:47pm] |
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the sweetest thing - U2 |
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the play was ok, i've seen better. uhm the kid talked weird and said father like fa-THer, so it got quiet and i was like farjer? my sister and i had good laugh about it.
let's see, still working on my math, i'm a slacker and i probably won't get it all done.
if i talk to shwandell, me her and jess might go do something. i dunno yet. but i need to get my ass out of my house. uhm sunday i guess jess,garret,dillan and i are gonna go to the movies. freddy vs jason. oh my i'm gonna be sooo scared. then dillan might be having a campfire thing going on, on tuesday. i gotta get a schedule together for the thrift store and get that in tomorrow. i'll be volunteering like for the rest of the summer. grr. oh well i waited this long.
well i might go driving so peace out...
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| leave out the others baby and say i'm the only one... |
[12 Aug 2003|12:36pm] |
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alright blurty pisses me off, or aol or my computer, one of the 3. i tried updating last night and it kept saying error i couldn't even look at my blurty. so fuck it.
what have i been up too. well lets see. on saturday i went to my g-rents(mom's side). on sunday my g-rents(dad's side) came over and brought all their records for us. hip shit rigt there. uhm monday i went to dillan's for a lil bit. it was fun. uhm all the while i've beentrying to get my math shit done. it's sooo hard and i only have til this friday to get it done. that sucks but i put it off and put it off.
i called the thrift store to get a schedule for when i can volunteer there for my grad project. it's really unprofessional. they said make up your own schedule and bring it in when your gonn be working. oh well i get to do it on my own time.
i love tcm. this month it's like summer under the stars. so everyday is a marathon of a classic stars movies. frank sinatra day was yesterday. he's so kickass. i only watched i think 3 of the movies that were on but i have alot ofthe other ones taped and whatnot. i missed some of jimmy stewart day that sucked but his movies are always on. and john wayne day is coming up. there's just something about him that you have to like.
well lets see anythign else i can i say, i'm going to see abraham and sarah in like 15 mins. it's a religious play show type deal. i've seen a few others. they're definately better than that shit the rockettes do on broadway.
i have fallen back into my dawson's creek obsession. it is seriously one of my top 5 shows. well that's on tv now. i also have a pete yorn obsession going on too.
peace out....
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| candy apples are really good...so is nyquil |
[08 Aug 2003|10:14pm] |
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You are Kelso, haha.
Which That 70's show character are you?
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yeah that figures, that's awesome that you got eric, jess.
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| peg leg meg and jizzica hahaha |
[07 Aug 2003|12:02am] |
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running - no doubt, thenew fred astaire-lucky boys confusion |
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"you drain me dry and make me wonder why i'm even here, this double vision that i was seeing is finally clear, you want to stay but you know very well i want you gone, not fit to fuckin tread the ground that i'm walking on"
Congratulations!! You're a shot of some good old
hard liquor!
What Drink Are You?
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i'm such a lose.
the sklar brothers are really funny.
"stories and cigarettes ruined lives of lesser girls, and i wanna know, cuz i want you to know..."
"heel toe heel toe, side to side, again, gonna get it right. don't push so hard, nothing is ever easy"
"if it wasn't for my horse, i would hav never spent that year in college. i'm gonna repeat that cuz i think it bears repeating. if it wasn't for my HORSE, i would have never spent that year in college. HOW DOES A HORSE HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH COLLEGE, a degree giving institute?!"
tiredness consumes me, i'm off to sleep.
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[06 Aug 2003|05:37pm] |
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just another - pete yorn...his voice is soo soothing |
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i tried to update earlier but it messed up or something. but this is kinda how it went.
i love my friends (that includes you amanda). they are there for me and take my bitching and complaining and still come back. i'm a lucky girl.
i'm also a drunk girl. bacardi 151 is God's gift to drunkards. it's gotten me drunnk like 4 times with one bottle. of course i hardly eat but still. it's probably really bbad to be doing this but i can't help it, i like the feeling cuz i forget for a little bit or it helps me get to sleep. i probably made an ass out of my self yesterday at dillan's but i actually could get away hang out with people and laugh it was great.
it looks like family counciling for us. i'm glad that's going down. i don't want to be unhappy when i'm home. it's supposed to be your safety from the outside world but i fel better when i'm outside instead of in.
thanks to everyone who cares. i appreciate is alot.
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| that the hell is jason schwartzman thinking! |
[04 Aug 2003|06:12pm] |
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wow sum 41's hell song is actuallly really good and helping me out. that's just surprising cuz it's sum 41.
well on saturday and sunday i hung out with jess. we went to the mall, came back to my house, got really drunk. the next day we went to see american wedding. my second time seeing it cuz i went with my sister on thursday i think. i can't really remember days anymore. it's a really good movie, i heart stifler.
then i came home only to end up being grounded for seeing it again wtf? i don't know what's going on with my family. i don't feel like i can talk to my rents about anything cuz they are so unhappy with their marriage and to hear about it daily really gets to you. it's been like this for atleast 10 years they go up and down but this is sooo far down i can't see anywayof this getting better unless they push it away and go on being unhappy or get a divorce. i really don't want that to happen. i think my mom is bi polar. hopefully she'll get help we might all have to get help. i don't know why we can't just be a normal (if that's a possibility cuz what is normal?) family. i mean today i had a consultation for my oral surguery, they were setting dates and everything. i just couldn't take it. my life is in the fuckin shitter and these orthodontists are setting up a surgery!? i was trying to hold back the tears the whole time but when they left the room i just broke down and cried. i'm supposed to be strong. that's who i am, how i want to be. but i had to fucking sit there and say i'm not emotionally ready for this. while i'm crying. i wanted to leave so bad. i felt so bad. there are 10 people getting this surgery or something like it and only me and 1 other person got approved by the insurance company so the other 8 have to pay money out of their pockets to get it down and here i am saying i'm not ready. but the dr. said if i'm not ready i shouldn't do it. but if i want to get it down sometime down the line i might not get approved. i'm so done with this dental shit. my rents said i can getmy braces off but the ortho will probably be a dick about it. i swear he hasn't gone through 5 years of this where my friends don't even know me without them. that's insane. so i might get invisiline i don't really know cuz i couldn't even talk or ask questions i was just really upset. and something else that made me think was my parents are putting aside their problems and are supporting me in my decisions. i want to hate them because they might get a divorce but for them to do that for me was so unselfish. i'm lost...i don't know what to do or think about anything. it's a horrible way to be. and i want to snap out of it.
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| carnival tmes |
[31 Jul 2003|12:41pm] |
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well i went to the carnival last night. man is it ever white trash. we basically made fun of people, well dillan did alot. esp when the person was right there within hearing distance. omg what the hell is wrong with my keyboard. i have to type each letter really slow and deliberate just tohave it show up. if you saw me typing right now you would be like wtf? anyways.... i went with jess and dillan and garrett were there. i felt bad about not telling jess that but i think we had a decent time for a carnival. well until jj was an ass and spun jess rght off the merry go round. she has a big gash on her back from it and hewouldn't appoligize. (craig)nipples was there and he was like dude appologize cuz your an ass. it was cool of him. it was crazy seeing him cuz he was smoking like a chimney. ithink he went through a pack. he gave me one of his special vanilla camels. and lit it with his pimp lighter lol. it was cool. i got a little buzz cuz i haven't done that in a long time. uhm lets see i saw a bunch of other people that were pretty cool to talk to for a hot second. dillan looks like a hot jesus,everyone was like hey nice beard! ihope he doesn't cut his hair i really like it. well i g2g peace out ,it took me like 5 years just to type this.
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| sir, here's a nice stick to beat the lovely lady with... |
[27 Jul 2003|10:50pm] |
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i like that movie alot, it's the quiet man. a john wayne movie, really good check it out sometime.
anyways today was a laid back boring day. i swam and that was about it. i was gonna go driving but my mom was in a bad mood.
dillan is such an awesome guy. he's so amazing. hes not like every other guy that you hear about that's a total asshole only out to do someone or just being a flat out asshole in general. i'm really lucky to have found him or for him to have found me, whichever it is. i feel kinda geeky going on about this buti dunno i feel special right now.
him: don't worry about it
me: i'm just dumb so whatev
him: yeah you are, but your a hot dumby, so it's ok
me: ha thanks
~~other stuff being tlked about~~
him: our relationship is real and important, and not just some trivial high school relationship
me: i agree
him: it's awesome to know you feel the same way
me: yeah
him: i feel real lucky to be able to have such and awesome girlfriend like you
me: aww you're so incredibly sweet to me, we're both lucky :)
him: i have to be incredibly sweet to an incredibly great girlfriend, yeah we are
i hope he doesn't get pissed cuz i put some of our convo in here but i just couldn't help myself. it's some of the sweetest things i've ever had said to me. up their in he top 5 and the rest is probably other things he's said to me :) well peace out for now...i'm going to bed.
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| if i could turn back time... le tits? |
[27 Jul 2003|12:26am] |
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well i just got back from the cher concert. it was really good. her opening act was a comedian. i've never heard of him before. i thought it was gonna be dom irrara who is hilarious, but it was this guy. he waspretty good. he made a joke about this town in pa called litits. he said he went to a perry county gas attendent and asked how it was pronounced either ledits or le tits? and he said it's pronounced go home faggot. oh man he got thats good i wonder who go that info for him cuz hes from cali. uhm oh man there were 2 guys in sailor suits and the one was like pleather, it was hot lol too bad they wouldn't go for me being a girl and all lol. elvis and his cher look-a-like g.f./wife were there. it was cool cuz he as in total costume. but cher puts on an awesome show. rhinestones and glitter everywhere. costume changes for almost every song. and her dancers were awesome with the fabric drape tricks they did. i'd give it an 8.5/10. with a 10/10 being a bon jovi concert cuz that band can do no wrong. well peace out i'm kinda awake right now so i'll see what happens.
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| i'm not lazy or anything ::looks up and around:: |
[24 Jul 2003|10:15pm] |
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i tried to update before but it kicked me offline so i said fffffffffuck it. so i'll give a brief over view of what i was doing in the past almost week.
~friday~ my rents left so i had jess and katie come over, alex and aaron came over too but only for like an hour. my sister had her friends over as well. we got a bit(ok alot lol)drunk and had some good times. [you suck big m!]
~saturday~ jess and katie left around 5pm and then my sister and her friends came over again. i wasn't in a great mood that night so i watched some gone with the wind (i heart that movie) and then i went downstairs and drank some more with my sister and her friends. we watched a show called cheaters, that's such a crazy show.
~sunday~ hellish day! my relatives came over at like 2 to have a anniversary party for my rents but they didn't even come home til 7 so it was like them using my house for a get together without my rents. it was the stupidest shit.
~monday~ uhm i don't remember what i did this day. i think i just hung out at home.
~tuesday~i went shopping to the hershey outlets. i go some dvds (the boy in the plastic bubble starring john travolta yeah the made for tv movie lol, old school uncensored but i can't tell what they added. other than the box has topless chicks on it. and this rockumentary with skid row, slaughter, damn yankees, and great white.)
~wednesday~i went to dillan's house. i had fun, he did too lol. we watched this movie called love liza it's pretty good. philip s. hoffman is in it. he's a really good actor.
~today~i went out with the rents to the g store, a cemetary, ot to eat. then my mom took me driving a bit. then my mom, sister and i went to borders, i'm tryingto find this book i think it's called this is where james dean died. but i can't find it. and we went to linens and things.
well lets see any extras. oh yeah i might be going with kayla to her cabin and hanging out with shwandell! that should be awesome but i dunno how i'll deal with bugs and the camping style. (sorry i can't make it to your party!)
heidi asked me to go see lynard skynard with her. they're playing the york fair. hopefully i'll be going to see poison there. i wanna go see styxx, reo, and journey too but i dunno if my sister will spend some money cash hoes for it.
i'm going to see cher this saturday. ha yeah i know but it's gonna be awesome i like her.
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| i hate silence...it makes me think |
[18 Jul 2003|12:57am] |
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i'm feeling down right now.well i dunno if you would call it down but i don't feel good. i could say i don't know why but i do.
for one, shwandell is gone later today. i'm gonna miss having her around. she still will be but not as much.
another would be my rents putting so much pressure on me this weekend. i just want to have a good time and not have to worry about anything buti do. i have so much shit around the house it's like i'm going to be the parent and i don't want that at all.
yet another would be me and dillan. ::sigh:: we got into a bit of a fight today. i got so angry. i held everything in because i didn't want to regret saying something. he doesn't think i want to hang out with him or really like him i guess. and when i said that if i say i can't hang out i mean it , its not just a way to get out of hanging out with him. he said he didn't care. that hurt me. i care about him so much and then he said he didn't care. it made it seem that this whole thing means nothing.
he did appoligize in the end and said he wanted to hang out later this week because he can't come over later today. he just doesn't get that i like him. i do, if i didn't i wouldn't waste my time.
well i should probably get some sleep so i can see my rents off tomorrow...
"i can't stop thinking about you...i like what's wrong with you, yes i like what's wrong with you..."
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| you know what happens when i get mad, shit starts to fall outta my hands like this ::crash:: |
[17 Jul 2003|12:10am] |
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You want to knock boots with Jack Sparrow. Call him
Captain and he'll give you a ride on his
vessel. You love it anyway that you can get it
and guys who know how to accessorize really
turn you on. From his beads to his eyeliner
this boy knows what it is about. Never a dull
moment. Fancy a quickie in jail? He's your man.
So grab some rum, a set of shackles, and your
ankles, because you are in for a seriously
storm tossed ride.
Whose booty would you most like to plunder from Pirates of the Caribbean?
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this is a funny quiz, just the title of it makes me giggle. but johnny depp is totally freakin hot i'd do him anyday.
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[16 Jul 2003|04:37pm] |
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Do you feel as though sometimes your "Just a
Rat In A Cage"? Well, thats probably
because by day your you, but by night you are
the imfameous Billy Corgan of the Smashing
Pumpkins! Your life had you down at points and
music was your only way out, well, that and
some drugs and a small fling with Courtney
Love, and need i mention your failed
marriage...but we're not talking about that.
We're talking about how your one of the most
respected men in Rock History, with your bald
head and good song writing skills you are Billy
C all the way!
Which fameous Rock band frontman are you? *With Pictures*
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oh shit that's awesome!
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