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Friday, May 22nd, 2009
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8:46 pm
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quite an irony that for not having been around for long, i've found myself yet again, in a comfort zone. certainly very odd. could it be, that it's time to reset everything back to zero once more? maybe pack up for life elsewhere for an extended period, get things all sorted out before deciding what to do with my life?
perhaps the Taipei trip was a wake-up call.
i love my colleagues. i love my boss. i really do. as human, he's a great, generous, funny guy. but as a boss, i really just wanna strangle the last bit of air out of him. i don't like the way things are progressing at work, and i certainly don't like the way they're putting me on a fast track of everything where i am right now, quite sick and not as capable as i want to be.
this is supposed to just spin money. and nothing else. no strings of emotions whatsoever attached. why can't i just discard my so-called "conscience" and just fall into the abyss of no-thinking?
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| Sunday, May 17th, 2009
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9:42 am
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i gave up on going back to Motherland this Aug, mainly due to my lower back and knees, which i have an x-ray scheduled for next week. they began hurting for unknown reasons, the lower back's all stiff and stuck every morning when i wake up, while the knees are hurting no matter when i'm walking or sitting down. it's worrying, and i expect quite abit of money for the diagnosis and treatment. am really upset at how my health's been breaking down since the beginning of this year, and i have no idea why cos there isn't any major changes to my life routine patterns or diet.
but to put things in another perspective, it's gonna be a substantial amount of money for Aug's trip. granted that NWA merely cost $475, but JRP + accom + live tickets + soaring yen? orders at work has slowed drastically, it's only a matter of time where harsh cost-cutting measures step in, and i'd be lying to say i'm not worried by it. oh well, at least there's still online shopping and auctions to turn to.
came close to snagging a fullset h.Frill off S-inc, but honestly? the lack of going out really doesn't justify keeping all these pretties in the closet. so far i've successfully blended in my large collection of shirt-dresses into daily work-wear, but i doubt i can work that much magic with the dressier stuff (except for Miho Matsuda). really like some of the Seven tights, but 8970yen is quite pricy, no?
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| Saturday, May 16th, 2009
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11:07 pm
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got a large pile of clothes to iron, another larger pile of clothes to wash, and a whole suitcase to unpack by tomorrow. what i absolutely hate after any holiday, is the unpacking. now i have to reshuffle my entire closet to fit in the new stuff i bought, namely shirtdresses, vests, boots and facial stuff. D:
paid Mai a handsome ransom for my moments of folly and weakness. ;___;
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| Wednesday, May 13th, 2009
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8:35 pm
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because my memory can really phail at times;
June - Streetfest (Btssb scallop twins with Kitty!)
July - Cosfest (BPN kuro-loli for Day 1, but Day 2?!)
Aug - Motherland, perhaps?
Sep -
Oct -
Nov -
Dec - KL? JLPT2???
i really hope i could squeeze in another trip to Motherland this year for the boys, because i'd probably not have the chance next year cos (1) work will likely pick up; (2) JLPT2 prep class overkillz; (3) new album! yeah even if it means having to take out another balance transfer to fund this trip, i'd gladly do it. now it's a matter of waiting out the happenings at work. rumors of enforced unpaid leave are rift, so i gotta bid my time for it. truth is, to go in Aug i'd need to take two days of unpaid leave, which is kinda dumb if there isn't any forced on us to take. :/
am praying very, very hard that the boys will have a FC tour after the Saitama one, so that i'd have more time to save money and leave for it.
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| Tuesday, May 12th, 2009
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9:08 pm
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bit the bullet and sent Mai my last order list, and now i'd have a full outfit for Streetfest! :D
feeling so so so so so broke now. ;_;
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| Monday, May 11th, 2009
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11:32 am
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私、やっぱり一人以上は苦手です。一人は時々さびしいけど、きっと安楽だ。別の事を考え必要はない、自分の気持ちだけで良い。それに悪いそうかもしれない、でも友情を守れのため、しかたないと思う。厳しいな、そんな人生は。
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| Saturday, May 2nd, 2009
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11:52 am
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so erm, i won a btssb jsk to twin with Kitty for Streetfest, a bunny bag, and a set of full-black BPN+Boz outfit for Cosfest Day 1. will probably rewear Streetfest set for Cosfest Day 2 to cut costs and maximize usage before selling again. which is why i'm really kicking myself for not picking out what i needed while i was in Tokyo, but it didn't occur to me that i'd be picking up EGL all over again. like a bittersweet homecoming yeah? except that it'd be solely at events for now, i'm still not convinced that i can pull it off for a shopping trip to Orchard. :/
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| Friday, May 1st, 2009
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12:01 pm
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sometimes, i am really the dumbest person around you know.
starting over again isn't exactly easy. hope that things will work out fine. gotta be really really careful of every decision made. phew.
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| Sunday, April 19th, 2009
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6:04 pm
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went for a facial yesterday, had a full back massage and hair treatment today, and i still feel like urgh. right now my lower back hurts like crazy, and it'd only subside when the monthly tide comes and goes away. i hate it whenever this happens. grr.
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| Friday, April 10th, 2009
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10:41 am
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haha, as fate turned out, things i wanted to alter and keep got sold instead. ;_;
what's all this freaking shit man?!
slashed prices for everything, even threw in free shipping. please to be put my misery to an end!
work has sapped all my energy. completely. sap sap sap. i have work to do at home now, so please to be excuse me.
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| Saturday, April 4th, 2009
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11:46 am
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you know, the sad state of sales has really forced me to drop auction-sniping completely. i really can't squeeze anymore stuff in the "For Sale" bin! there's this incredibly cute Gramm skirt, but i know that (1) it'd end up costing ard USD$70 after fees and such, (2) it'd only have a wear-life of at most three times, and (3) i already own a similar piece. sigh. it's kinda boring sometimes, when my interests revolve around so little stuff. sad fate of not being able to love many, perhaps?
so yeah, back to the sales. times are bad now, people are not so keen on easy-spending, and i don't exactly dread these stuff so much that i gotta throw them out no matter what. so i'm gonna get alterations done, and keep them! the bags are still okay to keep, cos they can go with anything anyway and it doesn't hurt to keep bags. the h.Anarchy jeans will be sent for alteration (to skinny or boot-cut), the ETC gingham JSK can become a cute (and more comfy) summer dress, the SDL blouse might look better with short sleeves (cos the cuffs are way too OTT), while the remaining stuff can wait till i have time to really rack my brains on what to do with them.
and because i believe by embarking on mini-projects like these, i'd at least contain some of the frustrations with not being able to snip auctions hahaha.
okay this is truly a meaningless entry.
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| Thursday, April 2nd, 2009
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11:55 pm
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i will not be defeated. no i will not!
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| Sunday, March 29th, 2009
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11:23 am
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so yeah, true to expectations, nothing got sold, and i have a feeling it will take a long, long, looooooooooooooong time to unload anything at all. buy hey the Bodyline nun onepiece got sold like after.... 2years?! so yeah, i shouldn't lose faith.
but i got really, really frustrated while packing the room yesterday. there are just so much stuff i have to get rid off, but i don't know how! X__X
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| Saturday, March 28th, 2009
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2:45 pm
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sales post is finally, finally up. but now that it's up, i am uncertain how much of it can be sold. prices aren't exactly high, but conditions aren't exactly the best either. let's just say that i'm praying hard for a miracle to happen before my eyes.
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| Wednesday, March 25th, 2009
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1:47 pm
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- is brain-dead at work -
i sold all my paypal funds again, before i cave in to auction-sniping and uncover another can of worms. it's really easy to lose all resolve when Japan-withdrawal symptons kick in, and by the time i ride out if it, i'd be sitting on various regret-able items. :/
plus, it's always good to know that this sum will go into paying next month's credit card bill (courtesy of my weakness at hEAVEN) and school fees. yes it's a new term this week onwards, and real life demands money more than anything else. which is also why i really gotta be aggressive with this coming sales, else nothing major will be achieved eventually. honestly i swear i came back with only what i needed, and not wanted. it's high time to get some major ass-kicking around in the closet department. XD
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| Tuesday, March 24th, 2009
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9:45 pm
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ああ、買いたいな 何もかまわない。 けどその我がままで めちゃ やばじゃないの。 もう 山のように 買ったばっかりのに。
嫌だな。 すべては嫌だ。
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| Sunday, March 22nd, 2009
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11:25 am
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received the final installment earlier of the week, so the the Breakaway got shipped to USA last night, and now i'm feeling kinda rich hahaha. unfortunately the withdrawal rates suck now, there's nothing exciting on mbok or yj, and i have more-than-expected stuff to clear in order to accommodate the recent ten-pc h.Naoto additions. yeap you read it right. on top of that extensive list up there, i just found MOAR things to get rid off. wish me tons of luck man.
all in all, the entire Tokyo trip costed around S$2.2K, at S$556 for air tix, S$1.3K worth of yen, and a $370 credit card bill at h.Naoto. so far i've paid about S$600 for air tix + accom for the Taipei trip, and budgeting about S$1K worth of NTD for food/travel/shopping. if the axe does not fall on me or my paycheck, i'd really want to go Tokyo again in Sep for the Saitama live.
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| Tuesday, March 17th, 2009
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9:00 pm
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back from Japan, and back to the mundane drone of work life. sigh. why does good times always feel so short?
now, i shall work towards the Taipei trip in May! before that comes, really gotta dig more stuff out to sell/throw/donate. the Tokyo trip was within budget, but still i came back with hefty purchases in the form of a Gramm bag, Seven pants, Sixh pants, Gramm & hEAVEN tights, Uniqlo shirt-dresses, and some more small misc stuff from Muji and various shops. it's a great trip, because i kept to the golden rule of buying stuff that's really wearable and usable. so yeah more of the old OTT stuff needs to move out, including the still-unsold JSKs. there's really no way i can envision myself in anything sweet/pretty/demure anymore, so even the less-dressy ETC style has gotta move out.
gotta list out all the stuff again. go me!
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| Sunday, March 1st, 2009
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10:40 pm
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AND I WON A BLOCK B TICKET AT ORIGINAL PRICE!!! omfg how awesome is that?! should be about 20+ rows from the front, which really is as good as what i've hoped for. block B! just think, if per pax takes about 1m in length, i'd be about 25m away from the stage! and a center block this time, so i'd either get the line direct infront of Ruki, or alongside Reita/Aoi again. XDXDXD
AND MY LUGGAGE IS ALL PACKED! picked out a few tops and just rolled and squeezed everything in. i think there really isn't much i could do style-wise, since all i have is a beige, checkered coat. i wish to wear my engineer boots there, but the stupid zipper handle broke a while ago and it's such hassle to wear and take off. :/
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1:42 pm
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i couldn't wait until tonight, and after some pep talk from mum, i sent Mai an email to bid on a Block B ticket. and she said she'd pass me the ticket on the day itself cos she lives like, 15mins away from the venue! am feeling so relieved right now, just pray that i can win this ticket smoothly!
today i shall not think about work, and try to get all my stuff and luggage sorted out. go me!
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