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Friday, January 1st, 2010
12:00 am
TO SELL
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Monday, December 28th, 2009
11:08 am
i've been stalking my own sales posts, because i still can't believed that i managed to pull it off in a day, and the stark fact that there's still so much left to sell. unbashedly, i posted 15 h.Naoto items, and 10 items of assorted brands. response has been lukewarm so far, and i don't hold much faith that much will get sold any soon. not in this economic climate anyway. but i'm just relieved that i kept to my words and didn't quit halfway. it's been the biggest haul to date, and i really pray and hope that i do not repeat this in the future ever again.
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Sunday, December 27th, 2009
11:18 pm
I DID IT.

after a painstaking 4 hours of photo-taking, cropping, resizing, measuring, posting and detailing, massively epic post is finally up and running. srsly? i pray that this is the LAST TIME i deal with something so epic. now my wrist and back hurts like mad. :'(

this selling madness has got to stop. STOP.
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Thursday, December 10th, 2009
4:37 pm
it's an inevitable situation, and i have made my decision.

i am going to offload MOST of my current h.Naoto loot.

B.U.T. this doesn't mean that i no longer love the brand. in fact it has been somewhat unbelievable that i can remain a loyal fan for the past five years. one remarkable trait of this brand, is that it evolves constantly. and throughout my consistent frantic selling bouts, it's evident that my tastes has also evolved along in line with the later introductions. hence, it makes perfect sense that i should let go of the older pieces, because it's no longer comfortable to be admist the stares of complete strangers on any given normal day.

some items possess beautiful memories. some items serve practicality. some could blend in as casual wear. some are just too much effort to coordinate. some need each other to pull together. so yeah i'd definitely need to get everything laid out, photographed, measured, and then i can make a final decision.

oh yeah, and the hoard of parkas and cardigans that i had kept for "practical reasons", but were never worn.

Xmas will definitely be spent on this event. trust me.
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Monday, November 30th, 2009
9:54 pm
heard the saying where when one gets material-richer, the soul becomes poorer?


i feel my soul is poverty-stricken. but i am not material-rich either.


what's wrong? what went wrong?


naively-thinking that if i can resist all those nitty-bitsy voices and heart-tugs, i can get soul-rich because i have once again, proven that i can be what i want to be.


then, why am i feeling so miserable right now?


i'm not dying from brand envy. i'm reeling from i-dun-care-what-the-flying-fuck-i-am-going-to-do-as-i-please envy. i'm seething with cold rage on blatant defiance to convention, utter selfishness and incredulous narcissism.

i wish i can be equally strong. where i can stamp down my feet and declare that not everything in life has to be justified to be worthy.

unfortunately, life is a vicious snake, where it'd slid back silently when you least expect it, and bite you right in the face. i refuse to allow myself to be caught in such a situation, so every decision made is to ensure that.

...yet, i am already tired. tired of making sure that life will remain the same.
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Friday, October 9th, 2009
1:56 pm
quickie list of stuff to sell:

- hn+Nois choker + wristlet set
- Btssb black socks
- Bodyline pink socks
- Boz capelet
- BPN onepiece?
- Algonquins parka x 3 (okay i'd attempt self-taken coordinated pics this time)
- Algonquins vest? (dunno, just that it doesn't get worn much now)
- Bodyline skirt + pannier set

go me!
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Thursday, October 8th, 2009
2:12 pm
am so damn happy that the last ETC jsk finally got SOLD. someone offered a reasonable amount, i didn't make a very big loss, so off it goes to Brazil. like finally it got sold! it's not a bad-looking jsk, so it's really bizzare why no one wanted it. i'd keep it if i could fit into it comfortably. :/

there's still the unworn BPN onepiece sitting in a far corner, along with a Boz capelet. hmm.
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Tuesday, September 15th, 2009
10:08 am
as expected, the bunny bag sold quickly, but sadly the rest of the items aren't moving. nvm i still have up to this Dec to get everything cleared out. now i'm contemplating about getting another Muji drawer unit to add-on to the current one, so that all my clothes can be stored neatly. no wait, actually i think i should first throw out those that i don't need anymore, then assess the situation again. hmm.

also, my newfound おしゃれ-obsession - fedora hats. came back from Taipei with one, got another one at Mphosis at 30% discount, and i toted two back from Motherland this time. can't have enough of them! but storage is a nightmare - must reorg again to fit them in. D:
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Monday, September 14th, 2009
1:44 pm
Motherland was AWESOME, and her generosity was overwhelming. she gave me possibly the most memorable and amazing homecoming trip to date, and i already miss her dearly.

shopping was eventful, and sensible. not a single regret-purchase, no indulgence in anything pouf, only one item from kami-sama, and LOADS of great bargain buys for daily おしゃれ-ness. my most deadly-おしゃれ item this time, has to be the agnes.b tote-bag. then there're the fedora hats, and babydoll dress hahaha. evidently i am turning into a みなーちゃん quite successfully lol.

already put up the last bit of stuff for sale, gotta get them out before year-end comes along. i must resist all temptations to bid for anything, and keep the money inside Paypal for the Saitama dvd.
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Monday, August 24th, 2009
1:08 pm
will be launching a new project soon, hope things will pick up along the way, and that my determination will see some fruitful results. gonna be real tough from now on.

starting to get really nervous and excited about going home! just another ten more days away, and i'd be back in the company of everything i truly love. :)
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Wednesday, August 19th, 2009
9:59 pm
goal #1: save half of pay for the next five months.

reason: to stop the bleeding due to extensive traveling for the year.


goal #2: keep expenditure within 50k yen for Japan trip

reason: because the exchange rates totally ripped my heart out.



thank goodness for the cheap air-tix this round. but still, adding up all three trips for this year, i have spent a pretty large chunk of savings on jetting to Motherland and sub-Motherland. really gotta step up on pumping in the savings.

no more whimsical impulsive buying. no more auctions. no more sprees. no more unnecessary spending. no more $38 haircuts. no more $8 latte. no more.
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Monday, August 17th, 2009
9:43 pm
最近よく考えたことは;


私、一体何が望んでいるか。


そう言う事を何回も何回も聞いていた。でもどうして考えても、答えはできなかった。どうしてかな。


正直、そのままで生きているは、本当にいいか。別の人生をやって見ないか。


分からない。さっぱり分からない。


けど、この答えも本気なの?分からないと、分かりたくないかもしれない か。


ああ、辛いだ。 そう言う言葉が。


人生はそいう事だ。
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Tuesday, August 11th, 2009
3:03 pm
damn, i really shd have stayed on another day. >:(

Day 1
- arrive Narita Aiport 7.40am, rush for Keisei Skyliner, reach Ikebukuro by 10am.
- check-in at hostel ----> Shinjuku (closet child + Alta + quick lunch)
- Harajuku (Takeshita-Dori ---> LaForet ---> h.Naoto ---> Omotesando), finish up by 6pm
- Yoyogi (dinner with yohan and janys)
- back to hostel!

Day 2
- chiong for uniqlo + 3coins (open 10am!) + early lunch + closet child (open 12pm!)
- leave for Yokohama by 1pm, closet child, leave for Sugamo by 3pm
- reach Sugamo by 4pm, leave by 5pm
- Kudanshita ---> Budokan, reach by 6pm. VAMPS!

Day 3
- meet shuui, min & a-sama for early lunch at Shinjuku/Kichijoji? or last-min shopping
- leave for Saitama by 2pm. GAZETTE!

Day 4
- check-out 6am, catch limited express train at Ueno 6.43am, reach Narita Airport 8.01am.
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Monday, July 20th, 2009
7:49 pm
so i couldn't sleep last night, finally got the sales post up and running (yes including the most recent Bodyline stuff which are still unworn). plenty of comments, none firm. bet it's gonna be tough to get rid of anything this time. obviously everyone's gunning for cheap cheap cheap.

it didn't take long to prove that putting all those pouf behind is the way to go. initially i was kinda thrilled that the same old sparks began to fly, but after just one event, the result's obvious. now all i pray for, is to quickly unload all these crap before i fly back to Motherland. i need the money, i need the space, i need the sanity. and i need to overhaul all my stuff because yes i am nearing the stage where i can no longer just wear t-shirts and jeans. gah this is all so frustrating.
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Sunday, June 28th, 2009
7:53 pm
didn't manage to do as much this weekend as i had planned for. got the pics taken, posted and updated, but i got lazy and ended the day without taking measurements. somehow i am really getting very tired of selling stuff. really. very, VERY tired. yet i can be so DAMN SURE that this won't be last. because i can guarantee you, someway somehow as time goes by i'd certainly succumb to some frivolous purchase yet again.

never mind, there's still next week. there's ALWAYS next week.
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Wednesday, June 24th, 2009
8:23 pm
am falling way way way back on schedule YO! but at least all the necessary equipment are prepared, it's more of a timing problem.

am expecting yet another package from Bodyline, this time with something quite interesting. free shipping rocks my boat yeah. although i'm not sure if the selling afterwards will be equally pleasant. but anyway, i'm on my merry way of getting very, very broke.
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Monday, June 15th, 2009
4:21 pm
okay i better plan out the weekends before nothing productive gets done:

- 20-Jun : facial @ 11.30am, pack closet thereafter
- 21-Jun : meeve's grad show @ NAFA. timing? dress up?
- 27-Jun :
- 28-Jun :
- 04-Jul :
- 05-Jul :
- 11-Jul : Cosfest Day 1!
- 12-Jul : Cosfest Day 2!
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Thursday, June 11th, 2009
10:53 pm
wow. mum actually made a lot of sense when she quipped:

"well, if space is your constraint but money isn't, then just buy one damn bloody expensive thing, and all your problems solved!"


ahem. hee~
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Friday, June 5th, 2009
11:22 am
ok i sorta thought about it before bed last night, and came to this conclusion:

i have a lolita complex.

else i really have no explanation on my limbo-ing behaviour with lolita fashion for the past few years. it's frustrating and annoying, really. i still stalk auctions every single day, i lust after stuff that i know i'd never keep for long, i ooh and aah while reading Kera. yes even if i know deep down that i really should get over it. :x

sigh.

maybe i'm just looking at it wrongly.
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Thursday, June 4th, 2009
11:02 pm
oh wow talk about fate. two days ago, i pray to lose the auction, and i did. two days later, the Bodyline site suddenly ran this "free shipping" promo, so i got some stuff that i really wanted, like a pair of basic black shoes for everything and anything, the skirt that i've been limboing over and over again (heck, i'd rather buy, wear once and sell. else i can never get over it), and a white halter-neck blouse for layering underneath. all these for free shipping, what else possibly can i ask more for?! XD

current mood: cheerful
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