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[03 Feb 2003|09:56pm] |
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hey kids, more buisiness. im sorry i haven't been updating but with all the band stuff, track and school and such i really don't have much time. so yeah. the weekend was fun band practiced pretty much all day saturday we have a really cool new song. it's kinda tbsish. there's 3 vocal parts and it's fast i like it. we're definitely ready to rock out on friday. it should be alot of fun. it'll be my first official show with the band. i still only know like half the songs but it'll be good. i know about 7 songs now. after 3 practices so yeah. i wish we practiced more i hate going a whole week between practices. i just love playing so much i'd quit track but i don't want to upset/dissapoint my dad. and it's not really that big of a deal i mean it is but eh i dunno. it sucks. i like cross country but track is the devil. satan incarnate. the workouts in track are harder which is crazy since XC workout are already hard. but chyea. so i stil ldon't know when we're recording but hopefully it'll be really soon cause that's gonna rock. i think we're gonna tour next summer! hmm i dunno we'll see. anyways you people from around here should try to make it out to the show. laters
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[29 Jan 2003|09:23pm] |
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so i updated a long long long one last night but blurty was being gay. so yeah i'll try to do it again tonight but ohh well. so the weekend. was like 3 days ago but here's what went on. i played like 3 shows. so that was fun. the band is really kicking off. im excited to see what tomorrow will bring. we entered a competition for a scholarship and the guy that's been doing the competition for like 5 years said he's never heard better so that's good encouragement but we'll see how that goes. it's a national competition and there are a lot of good bands in the competition. nationals are in DC and i'd be happy if we make that. that'd be so much fun. so that's why the weekend was so busy. mainly band stuff. this week has been busy with schoolwork and stuff too so im sorry i meani know you guys love to read this *sarcasm*. uhm im doing a lot better in school so that's good. trying to cut down the internet time. it's so sad how pathetically addicted i am to AIM. i really need to get off of it. i need like AIM gum or something like that nicorette stuff. but yeah. so not much else has been going on i'll update again ASAP. double deuce action
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| so reckless for all these years |
[27 Jan 2003|04:59pm] |
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dude, sorry i haven't been updating kids. but yeah this weekend was incredibly busy. band buisness like crazy i have so much totell but i have to make you wait because i have to go do more stuff. i don't know if i have time for this journal deal but i'll try hard to update tonight before i go to bed.!! love
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| AND I WANNA BE AN ANARCHIST! GET PISSED! DESTROY |
[23 Jan 2003|05:32pm] |
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haha great subject huh? i almost always use a line from the song im listening to so don't think im crazy. so yeah i haven't updated in a while. uhm not much has been happening just school really which sucks so there's not much to say about that although i am doing a lot better than last semester like in chemistry and algebra and stuff. it's such crap. are you ready to be liberated? haha great song. so yeah uhm i've been running a lot too and that sucks as well. so hard. ohh well i guess it's good that i stay in shape and stuff. finch was last night, i didn't go but siobhan surprised me and got me a shirt. she rules!. so yeah i'll just catch em next time they come pretty often so im not worried. so yeah Less Than Jake like one of my all time fav bands is goin on tour with Good Charlotte. Shoot me. I can just see it now. 50 gajillion avrils that have seen them on MTV there i really hope they don't ruin it. but yeah they're coming with GC and New Found Glory. i can't wait to see NFG again they are so good live. so is LTJ. so awesome. so that will totally kick GC's ass anyway. but yeah not much else has been happening. i play my first show this saturday. a lot sooner than expected but it should rock. it's gonna be part of the video too so all you kids who come might just be in NATG's first video. it'll be on the new cd coming out. it should be about 18 track and the vid. so make sure you all check that shiz out. ok well that's enough for now. later kids!
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| yay |
[20 Jan 2003|03:50am] |
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all better!
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| ruining my life. that's what you seem to be the best at |
[19 Jan 2003|11:44pm] |
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girls suck. end of story. im so pissed off. like i can't even comprehend. ok so here's the story that prompted those mean comments. (there are a few exceptions to them). so im hangin out with siobhan, she gets grounded. damn, come home and sit. and then alicia asks me to come watch a movie at her house with some of her friends. and i've never really been interested in hanging out with her friends so this was me being nice and wanting to hang out with her. and yeah. when we're alone and just hangin out she says all this stuff about how she likes me so much and stuff. and then i come over tonight and she says 3 things to me in a span of 3 and a half hours. those things being 1)hi 2) you're leaving now? 3) bye. so lame. she's always wanted me to hang out with her and her friends and she goes and treats me like that? so much for that idea. infact right now the idea of even talking to her seems bad. god what the hell. why is it that everytime i think i've found someone they turn out gay? the same thing has happened with michelle and whitney. i hope this isn't the end cause alicia was really cool so i might give her one more chance but i can't just be a sucker either. when is enough enough?.this is all bullshit. im so mad
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| i think of a while ago....... |
[19 Jan 2003|12:35pm] |
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woah kids, it's been a while since i've updated. why? cause i didn't feel like it. and if you care then im sorry, if you don't then uhh why are you reading this. not much has happened since i updated. 2 days of school and those were boring crap. uhm friday night i went to the talent show. it was ok i guess. it's not really my type of thing though. uhm saturday i sat around most of the day just hangin out around the house then later that night i hung out with scott which i haven't done in forever. we used to be super good friends till ashley. but yeah that was cool. then i woke up this morning and went to church. it was alright it was cool seeing some of the kids there. and i dunno what i have planned for the rest of the day so i'll have to update later but yeah. tomorrow is NATG practice. our first official practice with me in the band. so that should totally rock. ok well i don't have much to say. hope you kids have a great day!!
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| pick up the pieces that i've left behind |
[15 Jan 2003|09:09pm] |
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eh, this entry made people mad. the opposite of what it was meant for. so i took it down.
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| it's our time to shiiiiiiiiiiiine |
[14 Jan 2003|09:47pm] |
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so.....overall an awesome day. i'll start off with the crap though...school. always gay so what's to be said. track, hard long run, so much fun. not. im thinking about quitting. especially now that (good news) duuuhh dun dun dun dun DUN!!! Im in a band! woo the day finally came. now that everyone has asked me to be in their band lol and im not even that good so this'll be good practice. im still jamming and trying to develop a band w/david and jordan though cause they're rad kids. so it's like im in a band and a half now. but the band i was just asked to join is Not All That Great (aka NATG). it's really diverse music. like i jammed with them and the range of genres is pretty crazy. there's like some punk songs, hadcore songs, ska songs, like everything. it's really cool though and they're just starting to get really good. so im excited. im recording with them soon too. the first show that i'll play in is feb 14th. so make sure all you kids come and bring your valentines to my first show! wow im really excited. not necessarily cause it's the exact music i wanna play and that's they're awesome or anything but just that im getting the experience. they are good though if you like that music. anyways so yea. kristen owes me starbucks! yes. score.
onegirlarmywins: i get a medium carmel frap
onegirlarmywins: you get the sn
onegirlarmywins: deal?
JesusRocks64: i hate you and yes
onegirlarmywins: ok cool
there's the proof! haha. yum....ok well im out kiddos....love peace and rock!!
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| i know the sun is shining behind the clouds |
[13 Jan 2003|08:08pm] |
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hey kids...a brighter day it's been. i think i got all my stress and worrying about all this out yesterday for the most part. i think everythings goin to be ok. we're doing all we can to stay here and there's nothing else that i can do. im damn proud of my dad and how he's dealing with all this. he's so great. soooo school today, again. another dumb day of crap i don't want to learn. i guess i need it and stuff but i dunno. i just wanna rock. lol. uhm so yeah nothin special happened just another day. then we had a 1 mile time trial for track afterwards it sucked hard. i didn't want to do it at all infact im debating quitting track. i like cross country but track is a killer esp. for the distance runners considering we carry like the entire team. so good shows just keep popping up it's making me poor. finch, atm, see spot rock is coming up i can't wait, hurray for relient k. so i finally pulled out the old blink stuff, i still love this band as much as everyone hates them. im nervous about their new album. im hoping it'll be better than TOYPAJ but i dunno. supposedly mark says they're adding a lot of electronic crap so im hoping it wont turn out like techno or some crap like that. well i guess that's all i have to say for now maybe i'll update later, most likely not. but thanks to everyone that's been there for me the last couple of days. you all rule!
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| never have been one to write it down now i think i can |
[12 Jan 2003|10:27pm] |
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hey kids. so not much has changed since earlier, still uncertain. things still suck. i'm in one of those moods where im not motivated to to anything at all cause you know it's gonna go wrong. i don't even want to wake up tomorrow. and what sucks about this is it isn't just a one day you'll be over it soon thing. this'll have me down for a while im sure and i hate being down cause it's such a waste of time. so i'll probably end up faking it. like i do best. it sucks *push it out, fake a smile, a hurt distaster, just in time, i need a drink cause in a while worthless answers from friends of mine*. i really need someone but i don't know who to go to cause it seems like nobody can help me, even my best friends. it's a really lonely feeling. sad. i know you all care. and you're all awesome for it i just don't know why that doesn't help. i don't know what to do. it's such a lost feeling. im only 17 i shouldn't be dealing with stuff like this and the decisions involved with it. i guess i can just be thankful that i don't have it as bad as a lot of other people. im sure you guys are all sick of hearing my sad story but it's all i can think about right now. well. i dunno i guess i just have to wait it out and see what happens. life isn't fair. the comfort in it is i know i'll be stronger and a better person when i overcome this and it'll give me an experience so that i can help people who later have to go through the same mess. ok well im gonna go now.bye kids
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| me face down, down across your floor |
[12 Jan 2003|01:53pm] |
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so kids....today is...scary. uhm some really crappy stuff is happening with my dad's job. things are really unclear.
i could be packing it up and leaving anytime now. that's a scary thought. especially since i've gotten comfortable with all the kids here and things were just starting to get good. i have no idea what's going to happen or what the future holds in store. im really insecure and im so confused. i feel incredibly helpless. it's a really bad feeling. but there's nothing i can do but sit back and watch. it's a really bad feeling when that's all you can do and your life could just crumble to pieces in right before your eyes. i hope none of you ever have to feel that. without it all
I'm choking on nothing
it's clear in my head
and I'm screaming for something
knowing nothing is better than knowing at all
On my own
look in my eyes
I'm jaded now
whatever that means
by sharing these things
I rip my heart out
it's worth my time
whatever that means
so...
hard to see up
my neck feels stiff until I wake up
the orange I choked
and back to my neck
it's worth my time
whatever that means
so
i really don't feel like finishing this entry. i guess i'll just update later or something. i dunno. who cares anyway.
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| weekend here! |
[11 Jan 2003|12:21am] |
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hey kids...so i haven't updated in a bit and here it is. the culmination of events in my life in the past like 24 hours. wicked awesome. so not too much has happened. i went to school and got all that jazz over w/ asap. i was pretty tired cause i stayed up late again. but yeah. then i came home. visited alicia briefly. then i went over to siobhans and we hung out listening to the distillers and transplants. then we went to my house and picked up the nfg dvd. made my hair all sexy and what not and then watched the dvd. then i went home. it was fun. just chill nothing big. i liked it. so now im just hangin out talking to heather and such. good times good times. im in a chill mood. nice.....calm..i like. normally im all spazzmatic. but yeah i guess im running out of things to say. so i'm gonna make like a fetus and head out this mother. double deuce! later
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[09 Jan 2003|10:45pm] |
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so not much has happened since i last updated but yeah i said i'd update again so here i am. uhm i sat around mostly. tried doing some hw. unsuccessfully but yeah. hw sucks. i can never do it. ohh well. so heather is super down and i want her to be happy! :). so me and siobhan have decided on my new hairstyle. it's gonna be rockin. i just need to grow it out another inch or 2 in the front and get it trimmed around the ears and in the back. yeah other than that there's not much news. be happy heather! later kids
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| heather is cool |
[09 Jan 2003|04:34pm] |
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so kids, it's thursday. another day of school down. yes! so this week is going by quick which is good. i was feeling somewhat proactive today so i did good in school. i was a bit tired though. i had planned on going to sleep early due to my loss of sleep the night of the used concert but i started talking to heather. we talked for a while and that was cool. i like meeting/talking to new people. it's exciting! heather is cool too so that made it even better. yeah so i dunno if im gonna be able to go to finch. my dad was upset cause he doesn't trust me to come back when i say i will (which i did) so he had to stay up and wait. i dunno. i wanna see finch but knowing that FATA and Steel Train are playing makes me kinda not wanna go. i really like finch though so we'll see. my dad is getting really weird. i think he's worried that the family is falling apart when it really isn't at all. it's just that he does counseling for all these families with lots of problems so he worries. it sucks. i really wanna just be cool with him but he's constantly nagging about something i've never done. like if im drinking or doing drugs and stuff and he wonders where all my money goes. when i only spend it on normal teenage things like cds, clothes, my instruments and stuff like that. it bothers me that he's so paranoid. it's kind of driving me away. it makes me wanna move out as soon as i turn 18. it's nice that he cares but he's so annoying and paranoid. i guess he doesn't trust me for some reason even though i've never done anything. oh well. so i might be going to impact tonight if i have time. that might be cool. i wonder if i'll know anyone there besides the people im going with. i dunno we'll see. well i guess that's it for now. i'll update again later.
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| we'll see if this works |
[08 Jan 2003|09:28pm] |
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grr didn't work...try again later? yes
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| school sucks |
[08 Jan 2003|04:51pm] |
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hey kids....so another day of school done. one day closer to the end. i hate school so much. and my new speech class sucks im really bad at talking in front of lots of kids i don't know. ohh well i'll get over it. so i went to go get my pictures from the used developed and they should be ready around 530. rock on! yeah i'll scan a few and post them probably. so all you kids can see what gave me that massive orgasm. i think i got good pictures i hope they all turn out. i love you kids that comment. i feel so special. so i guess i could go indepth about the concert. here goes. so we get there at lik 630 right and doors are supposed to open at 730 but they never open on time so they opened them at 8. i went to the merch section and got me a used and a tbs shirt. they're cool. then i stood around and watched the first band. they were good but they only used like one chord. a little variety and they'd be awesome. then this crap band called blood brothers came on. it was nonstop screaming. no singing whatsoever. they had two guys just scream the whole time and yeah i thought they sucked. it was bad. then tbs came on and they kicked a lot of ass. they did part of that eminem song from 8 mile which was funny then they went into cute without the e...rock. so they finish up and the used came on. it was so awesome. bert gets really into it and it's crazy. i love that dude. and they did almost all their songs. i was dissapointed that they didn't do noise and kisses but everything else rocked. then they came on for an encore. bert didn't throw up this time. i was hoping he would! haha. but yeah. the concert was amazing and if you have a chance to catch these 2 bands you should really consider going. yeah well i guess that's about it for now. love peace and rock
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| THE USED!! |
[08 Jan 2003|01:36am] |
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wow the concert freakin kicked so much ass. wow great stuff. im getting my pictures developed tomorrow then i'll scan them and post them they should be pretty awesome. ok well it's like 130 am and i have to be at school at 645 to run.....craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap. much love. double deuce....comment
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| first day |
[07 Jan 2003|03:33pm] |
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yeah so it was the first day of school today. suckage. i only had one schedule change so that's not that bad. i have speech instead of psychology but now i don't see siobhan *tear*. so yeah the day was super boring and all i could think about was THE USED concert tonight. they are so freakin awesome. wow really excited. well i don't have much else to say but im sure i will after the concert. short entry. ok kids i love you all!!! on a scale of one to awesome. im really gay cause i've used that too much. ok goodbye for serios
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