Tuesday (03/18/08)
Starts: 4:32 PM
Song: mikazuki by: Ayaka
Song Info: The current that can soothe my current pissed off mood. A very soothing and emotional song.

Those who knows me that I can be easily ticked off. Assholes ticks me off, jerks annoys me, tardiness makes me wanna do something productive than waiting and the list goes on. I'm very patient by nature and looking at this I easily dismiss these kind of things but when things go too far, the tick goes further to a vein pop. Like this -> .
I shall call him MBA. MBA is of the many guys I've met with a humongous EGO. Fine, he is nice and all but he's very egoistic and he thinks he is so great that when he makes a joke or when he teases it's okay and it's all fun and games. But NOT! . He gets on my nerves at work. It doesn't help that he was my co-trainee and batchmate. We also have the same shift. Thankfully I sit far away from him. Nakakairita sya pota! Talagang tinataasan ko na ng kilay ang mga hirit na di na nakakatuwa . We used to carpool before but I found his ego as a size of mountain that it nearly choked me. Not only he got us to office once 6 minutes late and we always arrive to the office rushing because we only have 3 or 4 minutes before call time. Not only that, he is soooo "religious" that it seems he pushes it on me. I also don't like how he judge people. For example, he commented on a fellow co-trainee who was just a High School graduate. Oh common, so what if she just a HS graduate? Does it gives him to belittle that person? Just because he had his Masterals? Then WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING IN THIS FRIGGIN COMPANY ASSHOLE?! Damn you! Saying that the company shouldn't accept that person and shit. The company looked at the skills of the person and she proved during training that she can do it. It's not her fucking fault if she doesn't have any money to spend for College and she took up this job so that she would be able have money for tuition fee! You should admire her jerk!
I bet he'll go bonkers if he find's out Vica's mom who is also my officemate is a former Guidance Counselor and all that jazz. Pft. What a total jerk and an egoist.
I stopped carpooling with him because I can't stand him. I can't stand him in the office so I opted not to be him in my travel time. He joked to our ATC (Assistant Team Captain) that I was a perfectionist and I wasn't forgiving. He apologized and all that shit. I never hold anything on him with the tardiness. If he really feel sorry, he would stop pestering me to the point of me wanting to maul him and feed his innards to the shark. Sorry, if I was damn perfectionist with my attendance BECAUSE THAT IS ME! God, what are you 5 years old?
In case after 3 months, we change seats and I get to seat next to him, I will personally request my TC for me to be transferred to another seat as long I am far away from the jerk. If that doesn't happen, I will definitely bitch on him. Kung mapikon sya eh di mapikon sya.

Friday (02/15/08)
Starts: 10:00 AM
Song: Anata ga Iru Kagiri ~A WORLD TO BELIEVE IN~ by: Ito Yuna feat. Celine Dion
Song Info: I'm so addicted to this song. Very much addicted.
It's rather late me promoting it here but hey, here it goes...

Where: Casa Manila Patio, Intramuros, Manila
When: Feb 16, 2008 7:00 PM
Attire: Victorian or Renaissance (1600 to 1899 costumes), gentlemen and ladies attire
A celebration of roses, this Valentine Eve,
Fancy walking with someone on cobblestone streets?
Your path guided by the moon and posts of fairy lights
Play your part as Victorian era comes back to life.
Come dressed in Victorian fashion! Whether you prefer it elegant or punked. With a date or without, you are more than welcome to have fun with us! Ticket price will include snacks, wine and unlimited tea, served by our Victorian maids.

Gates will open at 7:00 PM. The party is up till 12:00 midnight. Ticket prices are PhP199.00 for students (please present your IDs) and PhP299.00 for non-students.

This royal ball is brought to you by Holy Ground Productions.
Planned Activities

-- Poetry Reading
-- Court Dancing
-- Raffle prizes from FreeKiss
-- Sword fighting demonstration
-- Announcement of the Lord and Lady of the Ball, and other Victorian era activities
You can find a map of the venue here
Ticket Reservations & Shuttle Service
You could now reserve tickets and shuttle seats for Victorian Valentine. All you have to do is email the following:
Your Name:
Number of tickets:
Please indicate if you will be taking the shuttle service or not.
Send your email to freekiss17@yahoo.com, and we will send you back a confirmation letter and a stub which will serve as proof of your reservation of tickets and shuttle seats as well as additional information.
Reserving a ticket automatically gets you a seat to the shuttle. The rendevous for the shuttle service is at Shangri-la Mall Edsa, Starbucks (at the top most floor)

Here is the shuttle service schedule.
Batch A : 5:00 departure, 5:45 arrival
Batch B : 5:45 departure, 6:30 arrival
Batch C : 6:30 departure, 7:15 arrival
Batch D : 7:15 departure, 8:00 arrival
Batch E : 8:00 departure, 8:45 arrival
Batch F : 8:45 departure, 9:00 arrival

Tuesday (02/12/08)
Starts: 7:21 PM
Song: Anata ga Iru Kagiri ~A WORLD TO BELIEVE IN~ by: Ito Yuna feat. Celine Dion
Song Info: It's like OMG! I was taken by surprise when I heard this song. One, it's damn beautiful and Two, Ino Yuna singing alongside one of my favorite singers, Celine Dion! "Nuff said.

This is going to be very quick.

I fell asleep while reading gay porn!!!!!
YOU DO NOT SLEEP WHILE READING GAY PORN! NUUUUUUUUU~~~~~ WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME?! .
I had a week vacation before starting in my new company meaning, I would be bumming for a week and not doing anything made me realize that I am so used to working all the time, now that I am not doing anything, I felt tired. Nyar!
I watched AVP:2 and Cloverfield yesterday at home (THANK YOU TORRENTS). Cloverfield was the domb. It was scary but not that hell bent scary that I would hide under the comforts of my blankets as what I did to 1408. The monster is pretty scary to me. I find it scary and the parasite was like ewwww, get those things away from me please . AVP:2 = NO LIKE . So many women and babies, YES BABIES died in the movie. I was like WTF! . I was more angry than scared. I was even disgusted. Yes, the movie is good but to have a theme like that is just really below the belt. I prefer the first AVP, trust me.
Anyway, I can't believe I fell asleep reading gay porn. And the story wasn't even boring to begin with. I should be drooling and having a massive nosebleed... errr... I give up. .

PS: New blogmate: Jais

Tuesday (01/29/08)
Starts: 6:57 PM
Song: Behind These Hazel Eyes by: Kelly Clarkson
Song Info: Ah what a bittersweet song. Truly.

These past few days, I was listless, restless, aloof, lifeless and deadpanned. I was in turmoil. Last Friday night was probably one of the worst Friday nights I had. Our CEO told me that the company is in debt and because of that she is retrenching people. My students are going back to Korea so I got the picture immediately. I could feel an impending nausea spreading throughout me. I could feel the bile rising up. I thought I would puke when I got home. The sickening feeling I had won't go away and at that moment, I just wanted to cry. I was in denial and the current mantra "This can't be happening to me." kept repeating like a broken record in my head. My weekend was a disaster. The turmoil I had within me is such a great burden I had a small case of insomnia. My dearest friend Tere came over last Saturday to cheer up. She managed to do it, we marathoned cheerleading movies. It did make me smile a bit. But you could say that sickening feeling I have in the pit of my stomach won't go away .

That Friday night when I got that awful news, I opened my Jobstreet account and updated my resume and started applying for a new job. I was praying to God that someone would contact me for an interview. Saturday morning, I received a call .

Today, I didn't go to work because I had an interview. I got accepted. I would leave the company by Feb. 7 and I would call back this new company so they could tell me when I can start my orientation. I feel that sickening feeling I have started to wane. I could smile now . They are retrenching almost everyone in the company. I fear what my co-teachers would do or how would they react upon hearing this terrible news. I feel sad and at the same time sorry. I love this company to bits and disappointing that THESE people didn't take care of it .

Right now my mantra is "It will be all right. Smile, you'll thrive. You will and you will make it." Please God, give me courage because I need it the most. Especially right now.

Thursday (01/17/08)
Starts: 10:42 PM
Song: My Last Breathe by: Evanescence
Song Info: Ah nostalgia.
I watched Sweeney Todd today with my colleague MJ. Here are the reasons why to watch that GREAT Tim Burton movie

1. JOHNNY DEPP. His singing voice is to die for!!! AND THE BODY!!!
2. Alan Rickman, YES Snape of Harry Potter SANG in it! OMG HE CAN SING!!!!
3. Helena Bonham Carter, Yup, she also portrayed Bellatrix Lestrange in Harry Potter and the voice of Corpse Bride. She is very Bellatrix only tamer and in-love in the movie. And yeah, she is Tim Burton's wife.
4. It is interesting to know what they did to the dead bodies. Hint: I'll never eat meat pie ever again
5. It's a dark musical. A bloody dark musical .

5 fucking great reasons. Wish to add more? Wakekekekekeke.

Wednesday (01/16/08)
Starts: 7:31 PM
Song: Desert Rose by: Abingdon Boys School
Song Info: Their new single, sang in full-blown English. Damn sexy smexy song.

I feel apathy towards my little sister. Her rebellious and disrespectful ways has reached it's peak that whatever she says even if it's the truth, I had a hard time believing her. I don't feel pity anymore whenever she needed help or something because she never showed any care or at least a little bit of sensitivity for us. She knocked me out once without remorse for crying out loud.
She manipulates the thinking of my parents making them know that she's maltreated by everyone here. Which is a total lie. I feel numb towards her. Pity. I don't if she deserves it but a little voice in my head says she does.
My parents are coming home by February. Hell will break loose. I hope I'll still be emotional stable after all the shit will happen. Definitely I will not tolerate my little sister's shitty actions. I will make sure there would be confrontation, with my parents to knowing the whole truth. My father should be not working anymore to fed us off because most of us are working already. SHE IS THE ONLY ONE WHO IS STUDYING STILL and she has a lot of nerve to act like a GOD. Foolish little sister. Karma will get you and don't expect me to pick up the pieces from you because I am apathetic already.

Tuesday (01/22/08)
Starts: 7:42 PM
Song: Anywhere by: Evanescence
Song Info: The song makes me so damn emo. I wanna cry.

A very unexpected thing happened to me today. I was shocked. I was on the jeepney when this man hailed that jeepney. He just got out of his house. As he is about to get on the jeepney, another jeepney coming from behind slammed into us crushing the poor man's leg . My co-passengers immediately went down and didn't even bothered to help the poor guy. I screamed at the bystanders, to call a god damn ambulance. They were panicking so I called the ambulance myself. The poor man was trying to move his injured leg. I saw blood on his pants and I knew at once that his leg is broken. I told him in a very stern voice not to move it. I also reprimanded the bystanders who wanted to help not to move him. First Aid 101. IN ACCIDENTS LIKE THAT, DO NOT MOVE THE VICTIM! After calling the ambulance (my poor load no more), the injured man kept pointing to his house. I told one of the bystanders if he can call for help in his house.

Minutes later, the wife came out extremely worried and panic-stricken. The jeepney driver who hit him, doesn't want to cooperate and wanted to get away, I pointed my finger at him and said, "Mas lalala ang kaso mo pag tinakbuhan mo yan. Hit and Run yan! Kuha ko plate number mo!" and then I demanded, "Akin na lisensya mo bilis." The people there verbally coerced the idiot to give me his license. The idiot did. I handed it to the wife and gave her a contact number of someone we know in LTO. Well, that idiot has to be reported for reckless driving. .

I was only able to leave the scene when the ambulance arrived. I nearly arrived late in the office but I felt relieved at the same time. It was shocking to see someone getting hit like that. I was thankful that the poor man was now safe and well me too of course. When I was telling this story to my co-workers, a co-worker of mine told me, "Ang bait mo naman. Mabuti kang mamamayan. Some people would just left it like that."

Well, I am a Social Worker by heart. For me not to get involved in matters like that, is against my principles as a Social Worker and SW or not, I will still get involved because I am a citizen of this country and it's my duty to help out my fellow countrymen in need.

Monday (01/07/08)
Starts: 8:30 PM
Song: Shining! by: Chieco Kawabe
Song Info: I fell in love with the song because of the PV. It screams cuteness and so is the song <3

OMG! I can't believe first entry in this blog for the year 2008 would be a rant. *sigh* How unfortunate. Oh well 2008 is turning out to be a sucker in the love department when it comes to a certain person (not me okay! not me!!) . I can't believe I'll be seeing my past again but in the form of another person. It's like seeing myself frustrated and irritated in the aspect of love. I feel sorry for the person and I totally feel for this person . HONESTLY! I know that you are not showy with your feelings or whatever BUT PLEASE CONSIDERATION or a bit of APPRECIATION to what this person is doing for you. It's like all bleh and that's a total turn off . It's not funny, not one bit and I feel horrid just thinking about it.

I will never understand the psyche of men, honestly and frankly it's tiring.

Wednesday (12/12/07)
Starts: 7:31 PM
Song: The Poet and the Pendulum by: Nightwish
Song Fun: A very haunting dark metal song from Nightwish.

I feel angry, really, really angry. My understanding has finally eroded. I don't get it anymore.
Last Saturday, when she accidentally knocked me out caused a great pain in my heart. My very own blood physically hurt me that greatly.

I have forgiven her. And now, she's acting like nothing happened. She's not yet home. I don't know what to do. I wanted to scream at her, call her an ungrateful brat. I hate her to what she is doing. She's wasting her life.

I don't know what to do. Somebody please tell me what to do.

Monday (12/10/07)
Starts: 11:04 PM
Song: Highly Strung by: Bond
Song Fun: A very fun and fast classical music.

Christmas is indeed around the corner. So is Nait's birthday. Yes, my dear Nait you are going to get older and whether you like it or not you are going to wait for the 15th (here in the Philippines) for you to get your birthday gift from me . And no, acting shota won't work on me LOL.
Anyway, here is my wishlist for this Christmas.

A huge coffee mug

A Jack Skellington Wallet (black please, I don't do well in white)

Undies from YRYS (Php 99 for 2): ANY COLOR EXCEPT PINK

Fishnet stockings from YRYS

Stardust the Novel with Illustration (Almost a 1,000 bucks from Fullybooked)

A Jack Skellington Plush Toy from Comic Alley

A Kazekage Gaara Plushtoy (worth 560 in one of the Hobby Shops in Greenhills)

One whole case of Vodka Mudshake

Any Gothic Accessories <3

A new webcam XD

PS: I just got a massage today. It's the love since my back is giving me the pains lately. I'm going back there next Monday for a new spanking massage. Perhaps next year, I'll get a body scrub.

Sunday (11/18/07)
Starts @ 11:07PM
Song: None
Song Info: None

Despite going to Church, despite having a good YESTERDAY and despite the scrumptious lunch in Dampa, Libis, my day is incredibly sour. Not because my lil sister has 3 failing marks but because PC, Koishiro refuses to open . Yes. He refuses to open. I was already in panic This cannot be happening to Koishiro! I protected you and cured you from annoying trojans, you can't die on me~~. I asked my lil sis what happened, since I was out of the house and she was the only one at home when she used it. She told me that it opened in the morning and when she closed it and decided to open it again, it won't.

The piss off part here is that, My ate went home earlier because from lunch I had to got back to *beep* to get something. SHE COULD HAVE TOLD MY ATE EARLIER!!! BUT NO! SHE DIDN'T!! . It's a good thing, I arrive early in the house and found the problem. I rushed to the hospital and now he is running again. Koishiro's power supply was busted and he needed a new one. Now, Koishiro has a new power supply. Koishiro don't do that again, I was so terrified .

Damn lil sister. Grrr. Alang pakialam. Buset.

Tuesday (11/13/07)
Starts @ 8:31 PM
Song: Dive: Cherry Filter
Song Info: Absofuckingly cool song.


Twinkle dee
Twinkle dot
The dark heavens collide
Goodbye sunshine, for now you abide

Turn up the knot
Turn down a notch
Clouds drift apart
The sun departs

Merry way
Merry see
To dreamland alas will be
Carry one, goodbye, we'll flee
Undoubtful sleep

Tuesday (11/06/07)
Starts @ 8:35 PM
Song: Beautiful Day: Hamasaki Ayumi
Song Info: The song fits my day. Literally.

Don't ask how, I don't know how it happened.
Don't ask when, I don't know when it started
All I know, I have fallen.




Don't ask what I saw in him, I can never really say
You can never get a straight answer from love right?
So don't bother. Just enjoy.




Don't ask how is it possible, because it is
Don't ask if it's for real, hello!! It is
And don't ever say It Will Never Work
I'll slap that into your face. Never say never not until you try.

Wednesday (10/31/07)
Starts @ 10:43 PM
Song: Upside Down by: A-Teens
Song Info: My current LSS. Don't ask.

I just came home from a drinking spree with my co-teachers and my supervisor. Yes, it's a little Halloween get together courtesy of one of the admin people. We were drinking San Miguel Super Dry, Light and Pale Pilsen. Add Coke, Pepsi and Grand Matador to that. Our pulutan is composed of Pansit Lucban, peanuts and boy bawang. And we are drinking in the office. Yeah!

We were drinking and talking about random stuff. But the best part of the drinking spree is when most of the teachers went home and all were left is my Supervisor: Teacher Leo, our Marketing Assistant: MJ, Kuya Augins: The Driver, The Head HR: Emryss and the Financial Director: Arnold and of course me. I don't know but I decided to stay and have fun. We were discussing marriage and stuff. And MJ was put on the HOT SEAT.

It was really pretty cool. I never expected that I would have a drinking spree with my Supervisor of all people. Especially not with Emryss, Arnold or with Kuya Augins. They were all guys and MJ and I were the only girls. I had fun tonight. I never drank alcohol with my co-workers in my old company. Well technically I did, I drank beer with Loie and Nathan but I didn't consider them as co-workers. They were my friends. These people were my co-workers, these were my bosses and MJ is the only person among there that I consider a FRIEND.

Drinking with the MAVEN people is fun. Absofuckingly fun. Yeah. I would love to have a repeat performance. There are so many things I learned from my supervisor about the company and from life.

PS: I've been so elated, happy, shalalala for the past few days. Maybe because I'm crushing over someone. It's good to have that kilig feeling again. Yup.

Sunday (10/28/07)
Starts @ 10:23 PM
Song: Kiss the Girl by: Ashley Tisdale
Song Info: A remake. Love it to bits. Don't care if its poppish.

It's my younger sister's birthday today and I feel stuffed. All I did was to eat and eat. . This morning, we went to mass and then my sister and I treated the whole family in Shangri-La restaurant (NOT THE HOTEL). We ordered so many food and trust me I was really full. I love their Four Season drink, it tasted like it was spiked with Vodka.
After lunch we went home to rest a bit. I actually SLEPT . I'm such a glutton, after eating so much I slept like a pig . My Ate also slept and we woke up around 4:30. My lil sister, my ate and I went out to have dinner in Itallianis (Trinoma Branch). We had Angel Hair Pasta., Margherita Pizza and Sicilian Salad. I was really stuffed after eating all of those. We strolled along Trinoma and ate bought us clothes. I got a really flimsy short skirt that if I bend a little, I would give every one a panty shot . My sister also bought me leggings to match that skirt. We bought it in YRYS, one of my favorite clothing store. After buying clothes, we had coffee and crepe in Cafe Breton. Yummy! Crepe! Coffee!.
I felt really full today to the point I feel dizzy . And now, as I type this, I'm chuggin a bottle of Vodka Mudshake . I know it's the baranggay elections tomorrow and it's liquor ban. But do I care? Lolz. I'm even going to work tomorrow. Lolz.
Allright got to go! Though I felt my post today is totally random.

Wednesday (10/24/07)
Starts @ 10:00 PM
Song: Butterfly by: BACK-ON
Song Info: The song sounded like something you would play on a fashion show. Don't ask me why I though of that.

I've been reading Uke's LJ and I could say that she's not yet used to the feeling for being a working person aka: EMPLOYED. As I look back, I never felt that kind of thing... errr... but it doesn't mean I sympathize with my bestfriend.

I consider myself a workaholic. Well, kinda. I don't like the idea being stagnant or doing nothing. I easily get bored. I need something to preoccupy my mind or else I'll die of boredom.

I could still remember that after graduation, I didn't look for a job for I was preparing for my board exam. After passing the board exam I looked for work. After a week passing the board, I was already employed. My first job was an On-Line ESL Instructor for a Korean Company in Makati. My shift starts at 2PM and ends at 11PM there. You can say I didn't like my schedule. I think it sucked big time but hey the pay is okay and I get great benefits. I got used to the working environment pretty easily. You can say I adapt quickly. I took my job seriously. I underwent various grammar training to improve my grammar and other shitty training the company required of us.

I did find new friends there but I never really hanged out much with them. The only people I trusted most there was Jimmy-senpai, Loie-kun and Nathan-san. These three people made my day complete that's why when I left the company, I cried rivers for them. Until now, I still have contact with them. You can say, they are my best buds.

Like I said, I left the company. I left the company April 30 and on May 1 I started working again. Yes, like I told you, I don't like being stagnant. My current job is the same though it's no on-line. It's man to man teaching. I find this much challenging and easier. In my old job, I found it boring and stoic. My brain died because we are using the same books all over and over again. It was fucking monotonous. In my current company, I am challenged to make my own lesson plans, to make my own teaching materials and well I could actually see progress in my students unlike in my old company that requires me to teach only for 10 minutes per student on the phone. Come on! How do you expect progress from that?!

In my current company, I love my bosses. They are cool and they treat their employees as equal but yet maintaining the employer-employee relationship. They are crack-filled people that sometimes I wonder if they are really my superiors. I'm happy not scratched that, elated in my current job. By November 1, will signify the end of my 6 month probationary. Pray that I'll get regularized. As far I can say, I did very well in my current job. They entrusted a very important client to me, gave me the responsibility in making the SAT module no matter how fucking stressing making it. I was also given a chance to teach CAT (history) and TOEFL. Right now, I am known as the READING teacher. It's like my expertise. I work 6 hours out of my 8 hours work. Not bad. I'm partially stressed free and I love my co-workers. They're very hospitable and friendly. And they adore how I look everyday. Ohohohohoho

Well that's that. See you when I see you.

Tuesday (10/16/07)
Starts @ 8:11 PM
Song: Rule the World by: Take Thatl
Song Info: The theme song from Stardust. It simply blown me away. The song, the movie and soon the gaddamn book.

Looks like I'm going to lay low from costripping and such. My best friend landed in a call center job >.< I warned her the implications of a call center job but she has not choice, she need the money. I blame the call centers not her. Fuck you call centers. Fuck you!

I hate it when I costrip by myself and my other friends are not. Chepot: MY BEST FRIEND always costrip with me. I could feel the impending emptiness if I costrip without her. I guess I got used that I'm always with her. I could imagine I would be spending less time. Going to cons won't be the same without her. I'll try to costrip on my own on, I've done it before so it won't be a problem but it won't be as fun as I am with Chepot. I always hang around Chepot. We share crack and other things. That would be lessen and I don't want that. I'm being selfish, but she needs money. WE ALL DO!!! ARRRGGHHHH! I don't know how to react properly in this. I guess I'll miss her... I feel utterly sad now. Fucking utterly sad.

Fuck you call centers!! You took my best friend away! And yes I'm being childish and I don't care. FUCK YOU CALL CENTERS!!! FUCK YOU!!!!!

Monday (10/08/07)
Starts @ 9:38 PM
Song: Goodbye by: Monoral
Song Info: A very sad song from Monoral. I love this band so much I scourge the internet for their songs!

Here is a story I wrote I think last month? I hope you enjoy it!

Title: Nox
Written by: Sese Maxwell
Summary: A start of a journey towards thy self

He has long forgotten how old he is or what is his real name. He only knew one thing. He's a fallen angel. The reason why he is one, is also forgotten.

His pristine white wings beat in the air as he lands his feet to the ground. White. He is the only fallen angel who has white wings. All fallen angels have black wings. Black as the darkness in the night.

"Hello there Nox. How's your patrol?" Midnight, a bald-headed, dark-skinned fallen angel asked him.

Nox run his hand on his chestnut colored hair saying, "The usual"

"How many lost souls did you reap?" Midnight inquired.

"About 30" Nox Answered.

Midnight sighed and said, "That's half of your quota and the day hasn't started yet." he looked up the sky and continued, "More and more humans succumb to the darkness. Why do they kill themselves just like that?"

Nox closed his eyes and answered the seemingly rhetorical question, "Perhaps they feel forgotten and unlove. Just like us."

A loud buzzing sound is heard, Midnight spread his black wings adorned with piercings and said "That's the call for the second patrol. I'll be taking your post now."

"Should I say have fun?" Nox asked smirking. Midnight merely chuckled and flied away.

~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~

"I'm sorry Anda, but's over. I love you but I'm choosing my career."

Those words still rang in her mind. Tears were streaming down her pale cheeks. Tears pouring out her obsidian eyes. Her long platinum-blonde hair is sloppily pulled back to keep it from falling on her face.

She grudgingly wiped her tears away with her hands.

"Fuck you Ray, Fuck you and your stupid career. Fuck you!" she muttered angrily.

She sat down on her bed grabbing a pillow and started pounding her fist on it.

"Damn you! Fuck you! Go to fucking bleedin' hell! You , you bastard!" she cried. When she got tired of the pillow, she grabbed her alarm clock and threw it at the window.

The sound of breaking glass echoed through her painful sobs of anguish. Amanda Schwarz never felt so miserable. At the age of 25, she has her own apartment, has her own car, earns more than an average employee a month. You can say, she's very fulfilled. Great lifestyle, a great job, and a supposed to be a great love life.

Ray Mario Sanchez, a half-Spanish-American broker whom she met on a night out with her friends. There's no need for courtship, for they both knew they are on to each other. Anda as her friends call her, prioritize Ray next to her job. Unfortunately, Ray always prioritize work first. Anda understood of course, earning money is essential but it to be a reason for a break-up that is something Anda cannot comprehend.

Ray went over her place minutes ago just to say it's over. The message was clear and simple. It's okay if the relationship is falling apart but it is not. Ray needed more time for work, for money, for his career. So goodbye Anda.

Indeed goodbye. Anda found herself standing on the ledge of her window. At tha back of her mind, a small voice is telling her that she's not thinking straight.

There's nothing straight. Nothing. Everything's crooked and twisted. Anda looked around to see more buildings. She's on the 30th floor and by god that is high. She looked down and could see a rooftop of a building.

"Jump there..." Anda muttered.

And she did.'

~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~

Nox stares at the empty rooftop. Its has been the headquarters of most fallen angels. Since the building was built, fallen angels has been gathering there. It's usually filled with fallen angels at this time but today, he is alone.

Nowadays, less and less fallen angels go there. Maybe because of the 40 floored Apartment Complex built right in front of it. The fear f being seen has always been a trait of fallen angels. They're not beautiful like the holy ones. They are impure. Nox has been pondering this for a very long tome now. Why he doesn't have that fear, Even Midnoght has that fear. Perhaps because he is different. The only fallen angel to have white wings.

Speaking of being seen, right now he could see a body falling towards him. A body. Falling.

"What the - "

The body crashed onto him knocking him down. A body falling down like that would have died. This one didn't.

"You caught her fall, rather you break her fall"

Her. Nox had the body off him and had it lying on the cemented floor. This woman just committed suicide. But she didn't die so there's no point of reaping her soul. If she does it again and succeeds then that's when the reaping starts.

The woman's eyes stirred, it looked straight at him and asked, "Am I dead?"

"Far from that." He answered back. Wait. She can see him. They're not supposed to be seen. The constant hiding and moving away. They do not want to be seen. They. But how about Nox? Do he wants to be seen?

"You can see me." Nox whispered audible enough for the girl to hear him

"Yes, that's why I ask if I'm dead. You have wings, I presume you're an angel." The girl replied not looking a bit shocked.

"I'm not that kind of angel"

"Oh... what are you then?" she aks

Nox frowned and said, "Look. Aren't you a bit scared? I'm not human, you jumped from you 40 floored apartment trying to kill yourself and now you're talking casually talking to me!"

"Because my life has turned upside down! I am in shock stupid! I should have died you idiot! Why did you save me?" she exclaimed almost shouting.

"I didn't! You fell on me. I break your fall woman!" Nox explained looking irritated. He never saw a suicidal like this. Weird.

"I have a name. It's - "

"Miranda Schwarz. Anda for short. You're a Supervisor in a computer gaming company, you live in that apartment building, 30th floor. your boyfriend just broke-up with you that cause you to not to think straight and jump to your supposed to be death." Nox dabbled making Anda to gape at him.

Anda gulped and said, "I am dead an you are an angel!"

Nox rolled his eyes and said, "You are not dead and I'm not an angel."

"Fine. Then what are you? A winged psychic?" Anda demanded sarcastically.

"I'm a fallen angel. We, fallen angels patrol the cities reaping souls of people committing suicide or what we call lost souls." Nox explained.

Anda slowly got to her feet saying, "In that case, reap my soul"

Nox shook his head saying, "I can't. You didn't die. If you want, jump again, die and your soul is mine."

Anda sighed replying, "Like that is easy..."

"Well you just did it"

"I wasn't thinking straight!"

Nox sighed and said, "Fine. Now go back to your apartment. The other fallens will freak knowing and seeing you talking to me."

"Why?"

"We're not supposed to be seen but you can see me. Now, leave!" Nox exclaimed reaching the zenith of his patience.

Anda sat down again saying, "No."

Nox stared at her in disbelief. Anda bit her lip and said, "I don't want to be alone at the moment. I might do something crazy again."

"Yeah, like slit your throat or your wrist over angtsying." Nox exclaimed crossing his arms.

"Hahahaha funny" Anda replied sardonically. "Anyway, you have a name?"

"Nox. They call me Nox. Not my real name. It's what they gave me when I became a fallen angel." Nox answered not bothering to look at her.

"What's your real name then?"

"I forgot. It's been a very long time. I can't even remember why and how I became a fallen angel." Nox replied looking upwards.

Anda smiled ruefully and said, "That's sad"

Nox nod his head and said, "True but what I think is sad is that humans like you kill yourselves because you cannot take the pain that this world offers."

A pang of guilt washed over Anda, her gaze lowered down and muttered, "You say like it's easy..."

"I never said it was. I didn't even mean it that way. God made tribulations to test your kind. We also have those." Nox explained. "Even if I don't remember why I became a fallen angel, I know I must have failed on something. But God gave me a chance, so here I am. "

Anda stood up and demanded, "If that's the case, why can't God give a chance to those who committed suicide?"

"He does Anda. If not, you won't still be alive." Nox pointed out making Anda's eyes swell with tears. Nox placed his hands on Anda's cheeks cupping it. He stared at those tearful eyes and said, "Live your like Anda. Don't waste this chance."

The tears fell and Anda found herself being lifted up to the sky.

Midnight raised his eyebrow slightly at Nox. His fellow fallen is looking at the apartment complex that stood in front of them.

"What's so interesting?" he asks.

Nox sighed and said, "Weird it may sounds but I want to remember why I became a fallen."

This reply made Midnight shook his head saying, "You have to work yourself up to the heavens then my friend."

Nox smiled. He could remember the parting words Anda told him as he bid farewell. He brought her up to her apartment and there Anda said,

"Thank you Nox, I hope we see each other again because I want to return the favor."

"Favor?"

"I want to help you. I want you to remember your past, your real name."

"That would be impossible Anda."

"Nope. God gave me a chance to live again, He gave a chance to a former angel like you. In that case, it's possible. We just have to work ourselves up to the heavens I guess." with that Anda gave Nox a smile that for the angel is the most beautiful of all.

Midnight gave a confusing look at Nox's smile. Nox pat his friend at the back saying, "Yeah, I will work myself up to the heavens Midnight."

A buzzing sound is heard. Nox spread his pearly white pristine wings and thought "I'll see you again Anda, I promise."

THE END
Sequel? Perhaps

For the blog of what to happened to me during the weekend please refer t my LJ! Thanks!

Thursday (10/04/07)
Starts @ 9:38 PM
Song: Back to the Future by: Cherry Filter
Song Info: For some reason this song makes me wanna dance despite that it's a rock song.

Oh Holy Crap. I would never imagine a weekend like this. Tomorrow night, I will be going to Chepot's house to start my very long overnight stay at her house. On Saturday we'll be doing a shoot with Tere and later in the night, is the much awaited photoshoot. I feel I would be so dead tired by then but I can't cancel the shoot. No... I made a promise to Luigi that this will push through and I'm not btreaking it! Don't worry Luigi, this will work out!

And to those who commented on my previous post thanks a bunch. To AnoN, do I know you? It seems I do. .

Anyway, I'll keep you guys posted what will happen to me on Monday night. Ja! I'm not yet finish packing.

Tuesday (10/02/07)
Starts @ 8:30 PM
Song: Winter Moon by: Angelo
Song Info: Fuck this song rocks!


I can say... the burden is off my chest. Mom, dad I love you! Thank you for being there for me. As for my friends and those who commented, thank you.


I can say I can get up from my emotional problem aka: depression dumb. I can't believe having a heart to heart talk with my parents abroad will lift it all up in just a few hours.

Yes, I can breathe. Finally.