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your a star, you blaze. . . [05 Jul 2005|09:45pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | deftones- "needles and pins" ]

hm..so i have to go to arizona tomorrow and i pretty much don't wanna go. i just don't feel like dealing with everyone and everything. it sucks. big time. i thought this summer would be so great but so far its filled with dissapointment and saddness. i think i'm just getting so depressed from everything thats happened this summer. i'm gonna miss holly's grad party and i was supposed to hang out with shan and the girls but i guess that stuff will have to wait till i come back.

on a happier note, my grad party is july 30th. not too long after i get back from az. should be muy fun.

there's something better wrong with you

your in control, is there anything you wanna know? [20 Jun 2005|06:09pm]
[ mood | i fuckin hate boys. ]
[ music | Coldplay-"Square One" ]

Boys suck and i hope they all rot in hell.
DOn't fuck with my heart or i'll fuckin kick you in the balls.
Again, this happens again.
Do i have a sign on my forehead that says, "DICKHEADS WELCOME"???
i must cause thats all that seems to enter my life.

and hey,


there's something better wrong with you

you wear those shoes and i will wear that dress [13 Jun 2005|06:06pm]
[ mood | loved ]
[ music | Six Pence None The Richer - "Kiss Me" ]

soo...school is over and i have to say i'm lovin every minute of it...so far my summer is good..nothin too much is happening just work, hanging out, anthony, and being with family. my pop-pop, nanny, and aunt kath are out so kinda been hangin around them a little bit. ok well i don;t feel like writing anymore.


1 not made to stand and fight. . . | there's something better wrong with you

everything means nothing to me. [06 Jun 2005|11:11pm]
[ mood | excited ]
[ music | Elliot Smith ]

i have to say this weekend was amazing..just everything. it as great. everyone had an awesome time and i enjoyed every minute too. the weather was perfect, well except for friday but that was fine cuz we were just driving and shit. and i don't think i was sober one bit..it was heaven.
and there's a new boy. he's very nice and i like him a lot. everything is different with him and i like it. it's good and in this moment i am very content.
graduation is 2 days away and i couldn't be more excited. i'm a little sad also and i know i'm gonna cry at either bacallare mass or graduation. its just going to be inevitable.

hmm..summer here i come.

there's something better wrong with you

Do you remember all those nights we never slept? [26 May 2005|03:23pm]
[ mood | i just wanna be loved ]
[ music | movielife-"hey" ]

ughh..this week needs to end..and it is cuz tomorrow is friday..and i have no work this weekend..woot for me!! ahh i love it but i have to go to the mountains with the whole fam...should be fun? i hope cuz aunt jules is suppousedly coming down from ny to see us..and i miss her like whoa..so that will be good and ry just bought a trampoline so yay to that! i'm not going up tills atuday morning cuz i have a concert friday night..yeah team sleep..chino marino bitches!! lol..it should be a good time.

my mom has been on this cleaning spree recently and its kinda getting annoying..ryan got accepted into prescott college for the fall so..i'm happy and sad...i'll miss him so much..arizona is 3,000 miles away....*sigh*
but on a good point i'll get my own room! yeah and i graduate in like 7 days? yeah somethin like that. i've never been happier about something in my life..this summer will be amazing, well it better be.
yeah and i hate my job. i need a new one. i can't quite before i find another one so...we'll wait and see.

theres just a lot of mumbo jumbo goin on in my head and it sucks..i've been thinking about the past so much. and i'm just frustrated with some things that are happening right now. i'm just not caring for a while and i'm gonna see where that gets me, cuz caring sure isnt gettin me anywhere. i actually just feel a little worse then before. but it's ok...i'll survive and try to move on with my life like i always do..

people and the world just seem to suck right now, like they never have before. everything is starting to have a lesser meaning to me. and that is depressing.

ok i've written wayy to much. later*

there's something better wrong with you

i wanted u to know that i love the way you laugh [19 May 2005|07:09pm]
[ mood | lonely ]
[ music | Seether n Amy lee- "Broken" ]

i wanna hold you high and steal your pain away

blah..i have to take some stupid placement test tomorrow for holy family..i'm actually kinda nervous and i dont know why..i just cant wait for school to be over! summer 05 is gonna be awesome..shore, parties..ahh i cant wait! but only like a week left of school so i'll just have to bear with it...hm..im takin off tomorrow so 3 day weekend for me! ok well thats enough fo now..


there's something better wrong with you

its just a matter of time it'll we're all found out.. [16 May 2005|02:36pm]
[ mood | mellow ]
[ music | fall out boy-"sophmore slump or comeback of the year ]

ugh..this weekend kinda sucked considering no parents were home..i didn't really do anything..friday came home from work and went right to bed..there was nothing to do..so i just went to sleep...saturday i ws a bum and it absolutely nothing and saturday night i just hung out with fran, dina, and ry..we went on an adventure to wawa on like byberry rd. frans friend worked there and he gave us free food and stuff..he was pretty cool..then we came home and drank and smoked a little..good times..then i couldn't fall asleep till like after 4..it was crazy and i had work the next day but it was ok because we were slow and i got to leave early..so it was an ok weekend..hopefully next weekend will be better?

ok well..later..

there's something better wrong with you

you make that dance look so new and i'm in awe [10 May 2005|05:43pm]
[ mood | anxious ]
[ music | team sleep-"ever" ]

i only think of you

and it's breaking my heart

i'm trying to keep it together

but i'm f a l l i n g apart

ahh i'm going to see team sleep may 27th! so excited! yeah, if anyone else wants to come just let me know.its gonna be fun as shit.

1 not made to stand and fight. . . | there's something better wrong with you

today was a bad day. . . [08 May 2005|09:42pm]
[ mood | sad ]
[ music | my mom talking on the phone ]

it just sucked..and i'm in such a bad mood. i think about every one at work yelled at me twice, including the customers. everyone was mean today and it made me mean. i've come to a conclusion: mothers day at gallo's sucks. yup, pretty much covers it. this weekend was good pretty much spent most of it with sean, which was fine with me. and today just blew. and i don't feel like going to school tomorow. ughhh..ok well thats enough complaining for now. i'll write more when i'm in a better mood. later love.

there's something better wrong with you

prom was great. [03 May 2005|09:33pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | one tree hill ]

well prom turned out to be pretty awesome. danced, took lots of pictures, ate, danced some more. it was very fun. afterward was even better. everyone had a great time up the mountains..i just wish prom wasn't over already...ahh its already may..next is graduation, i can't believe it. well thats all i feel like writing for now.


there's something better wrong with you

yap yap yap. . . [28 Apr 2005|08:29pm]
[ mood | sad ]
[ music | stupid pres. bush on tv..instead of the oc.. :( ]

so lately i've been kinda down and i don't know why. i should be happy, this is a great time of year prom, graduation, summer approaching. But i just keep looking back at how everything has changed over the past year and even since febuary.. and it sucks..like i know i said i was over him, but i guess i'll never be,i'll always want him back. but then i look back on when we were together and i remember crying so much at the stupid things he did to me and i realize now that i barely cry at all..like this year has been amazing, i've had so many different encounters and experiences and its awesome, i guess i just still miss him being in my life, even as a friend or even an acquantince. but thats his loss i guess. another thing that has change soooo much is my friendships. me and jill don't even speak to eachother anymore and i'm lucky if i even get a glance from her in the hallways. i mean i'm not mad, it just makes me sad to think that we were such good friends and now i don't even know who she is. but on a good note my n kristina became awesome friends and i started hanging out with other people this year..like steph and shan and them girls are great too..and i know if me and jill were still hanging out and "friends" then i would have never became friends with these other people..i think i'm just getting sad that all of this is coming to an end soon and everyone is going in different directions.

sorry i just had to get all of that out...its been bothering me for a while now. on a better note prom is tomorrow night and i'm really not all that excited..i don't know why..its probably because i'm sick..blah i hate being sick. i have off tomorrow and there's soo much to do!! ahh..uhh..anyway..after prom we're all going up the mountians and it should be muy muy fun! i just hope i feel better by saturday.. :( ..ok well this is quite a long entry..maybe i'll update after prom..

later gator!

1 not made to stand and fight. . . | there's something better wrong with you

now that everything is clear, everything falls apart... [14 Apr 2005|06:45pm]
[ mood | flirty ]
[ music | ryan c- "echo park" ]

so..i haven't updated in a little bit..everything has been ok lately. prom is soo soon and i'm so excited. i can't wait. i have everything but a purse. ha thats excellent. my dress is being fixed as i type and hopefully it will turn out ok. hmm..

last weekend the parents went away. it was great..friday i had work and it was THE BEST because KRISTINA OWENS was back..although not working by my side.. :( ..it was still awesome to have her there..after work me n k-mama went out and got PANCAKES and FRENCH TOAST at a diner near her house..and we saw owens' whole gang there..mindy, gina..etc, etc..it was a good time.. then saturday i hung out with fran alll day..it was very fun, she's a cool girl and i'm glad we get along soo well..then saturday after work kristina came over and we started havin some reallll fun.. ;)..then ry and all his friends came home from the concert they went to and we all we're just ggooonnee..it was muy fun though. i had work the next day and it was slow and boring so..yeah that was last weekend. i don't think that this weekend will beat it but..thats ok, cuz prom weekend is 2 weeks from tomorrow!!!!!!!!! ahh!! should be awesome. ok well thats quite enough for now..

i wish that i wasn't a fool. oh, i am such a fool.

there's something better wrong with you

he makes me sick. [29 Mar 2005|12:57pm]
[ mood | sick ]
[ music | Something Coporate- if u c jordan ]

hmm..this week has been ok so far..i have a little cold or soemthing but no big deal hopefully it will go away soon. easter was lovely. saw the fam and ate lots of food. had off from work which was even lovelier. yesterday i worked with my dad and then went to burke's at like 1030 with shan..we only stayed for a lil, i think till like almost 1..i had a few beers and then we left and i came home n talked to mare for a little and went to bed..today i feel like a bum and i can't stop sneezing..today,i think i'm gonna go n return the movies and get some more and i think tonight burke's again? i dunno..quite possibly.

later bitches.

2 not made to stand and fight. . . | there's something better wrong with you

this is about as social as i get now. [22 Mar 2005|03:17pm]
[ mood | mischievous ]
[ music | DC-"Saints and Sailors" ]

I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
Where I would impress you with every single word I said
It would come out insightful,
or brave,
or smooth,
or charming
And you'd want to call me

And I would be there every time you need me
I'd be there every time

But for now I'll look so longingly waiting
for you to want me,
for you to need me,
for you to notice me.

everything is going pretty good.
no complaints and after tomorrow i'm off for 12 days!! should be fun.

there's something better wrong with you

hmm [14 Mar 2005|09:06pm]
[ mood | i want you, oh baby, oh baby ]
[ music | Summerland is on : ) ]

prom will be fun. all i have left to do is get my dress altered and shoes and a purse. we got a sweet deal on a limo and i have a date. yay for me! ok well thats it. later loves.

me and k-money

there's something better wrong with you

could it be the taste was bittersweet?? [09 Mar 2005|03:12pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]
[ music | ryan c- "exit to exit" ]

you've seen me,do i look okay to you?
give me your hand
ill shake it and shake it again
ill smile until my face falls off my head
if its good for you, its good for me too

hm..all i can say is that saturday was not what i expected, but it helped me...i think.
at least one of us is happy and "in love".
but that was your second chance. don't ever want me again, cuz i won't be there.

there's something better wrong with you

i'm right here if you get lonely. give this song another listen. [02 Mar 2005|06:16pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]
[ music | plain white t's- "hey there deliah"..i love this song.. ]

hmm..so last weekend was ok..parentals went away and mary was at some christian cconvention with alyssa and chris for the weekend, so it was just me and ry ry..friday i had work and came home and passed out as usual..and saturday i went shopping with kelley..it was fun..we had to get a present for laura's baby shower that was supposed to be this past monday but it got cancelled and is this upcoming monday...we also went to hollister..i swear i live at that store...i <3 it. then we got chinese for lunch and wen to other various stores at neshaminy..it was mucho fun. then i took her home and then i came home and was tryin to make plans with k-money but it fell through.. : ( ...hmm..so then chris and company came over for a little, then we went to emily gereldino's for like 2 seconds and got mellissa and came back here and just hung out..and then some how it just ended up being me and chris in my house...soo..yeah..that was fun. ;) hmmm....sunday i had work and it sucked cuz we were busy as shit. blah.

then this week..we got a lot of snow..but i didn't get off from school?!? yeah it sucked. but i did get out early on monday..so that was cool..and today i had to go and get a cat scan of my neck again..it was just wonderful. tomorrow is thursday and my last day of school for the week. i LOVE 3 DAY WEEKENDS!! yes, i do. and i'm taking off from work on friday because i am the offical supervisor of mary's party..well that is until mama dukes gets home from work, then i'm outta there...and off on saturday! should be fun stuff!! but sunday i have work..boo!! ahh ok well i'm out ...

oh bother, i need a steady boy in my life.

there's something better wrong with you

i'm cold. . . [24 Feb 2005|07:15pm]
[ mood | your taste still lingers. ]
[ music | Armor for Sleep-"Frost and Front Steps" ]

I’ll be by the front door
We’ll leave when you want
You’re having a good time
And you know me
I’ll wait around

I’m standing outside now
No one’s around
It’s so cold
My lips are numb
I’ll sit on the front steps
And wonder if I will completely freeze out here

I hear you from inside
You laughing the way
You do when I’m not there
And you know me
I’ll wait around

I’m standing outside now
No one’s around
It’s so cold
My lips are numb
I’ll sit on the front steps
And wonder if I will completely freeze out here

I think that maybe I should get up and just drive away
I’m shivering hard now, I’m shivering hard now
My face has barely any feeling left anymore
I’m shivering hard now, I’m shivering hard now

I’m standing outside now
No one’s around
It’s so cold
My lips are numb
I’ll sit on the front steps
And wonder if I will completely freeze out here

I’m standing outside now
No one’s around
It’s so cold
My lips are numb
I’ll sit on the front steps
And wonder if I will completely freeze out here

-sometimes i think i'm out of my mind for still wanting you, but then i realize that no matter what you do i will always love you. my heart wins. end of story.

there's something better wrong with you

Here I am, once again, I'm torn into pieces..just thought you were the one. [21 Feb 2005|06:25pm]
[ mood | rejected ]
[ music | kelly clarkson's new cd..i <3 it. ]

i have a lot of decisions to make soon.
like who to take to prom.
i got nothin. i thought i had something, but in the end it turned out as nothing.
i have to pick where i want to go to college soon.
its gonna either be gwenydd or holy family.

i think i'm sort of falling for you. i mean its weird. i've liked you for a while now, almost 7 months. i mean we've kissed, we still do. i just don't think that you want a relationship. i mean i can just tell. you still have your past in your present, so thats another reason why i don't think i would say anything to you. and i'm still living in the past also. so, i guess for now, what we have is cool.

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

1 not made to stand and fight. . . | there's something better wrong with you

i know i just updated but.. [19 Feb 2005|10:30pm]
[ mood | weird ]
[ music | Green Mile on TV ]

i had a weird day..it started off awesome..got up around 10, made pancakes, went to the bank, took mary to her game, got chinese for lunch, went to the mall...and thats where it got weird...i was in hollister just shopping and then i went into that back room they have(the one w. all stuff on sale) and went over to look at something, turn around and who's there..a tall, blonde guy..yeah u know who, at first i thought i was just crazy but then i looked at mare and i saw that she saw him too..so..i guess it wasn't in my head..lol..and he wasn't alone..if ya know what i mean..so i kinda didn't know what to do..so i just paid for what i had and left..i think he saw me, but i'm not sure she did..but then ry tells me he saw them and they said hello and such so i know he knew i was there.

it was just wayy awkward..why didn't i say hi? i dunno, i guess i wasn't expecting to be seeing him. it was like same place, same time. what a coquincidance.(spelled wrong) weird.

ahh well i just thought i'd share my day.

there's something better wrong with you

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