Austin Jones' Blurty|
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Austin Jones' Blurty:
|Tuesday, October 28th, 2003|
Parents Can Sometimes improve your life.......fuck that
I dont see why, but my parents are being really strict on me lately..like since i got my liscense... Yesterday i called to tell them i was going to be late no matter what, and i got grounded....well i have to rake the yard before i can do anything this week... ryan is telling me that he doesnt want me to go on vacation with him because of my parents.. Witch sucks even more.. Im hoping something good might happen here in the next week or so. Running away from home isnt looking that bad right now. I have a plan, and people think im crazy, but i know i can last in the woods for at least a couple weeks, if not more.. i would find a way. anyting to get the fuck away from my god damn parents.. Im gonna start planning my move- out for when i turn 18, thats in about a year and a half. Im gonna most likely move out of state. Or try my hardest to. So that means finding a home or apartment in a different state. finding a job, and finding a school for further education. It can happen. Ive heard of more weird things going smooth. My dad keeps discouraging me from living. He will tell me that i will never amount to anything if i keep up what im doing.........IM NOT FUCKING DOING ANYTHING WRONG. I fuckin have a job, i get fuckin A's and B's in school.God forbid i get a mother fucking C. The only thing i ever do wrong is maybe forget to do my chores. Or i dont eat dinner because maybe i wanna have fun for one night without getting a phone call that says come home for dinner......My life is at a breaking point.. This whole parent-children relationship is about a mile down the shitter. I dont ever want to talk to them again, even though i know im gonna go home today and have to..... The day i am happy is the day i am gone from home, far from them....
Peace everyone ~Aust~
|Wednesday, October 22nd, 2003|
Today was pretty shitty for me... i woke up tired and thoguht about school.......GOD I HATE IT.. school sucks ass.freinds are good right now.. relationships are rare,.. at least for me. i need a vacation. as i said,, and a girl.
|Tuesday, October 21st, 2003|
Parents say that teenage life is supposed to be simple, and that we have absolutely no stress. fuck that shit, i think im gonna have an ulser before im 20 at my rate. With school, work, and freinds, i have no fuckin time to relax. My parents keep teling me to give up guitar, to stop spending money, and stupid shit. I really have an urge to run away, and ahve been seriously planing it for about a month, The next serisous fight me and my parents get in, or if i get grounded again for somthing stupid, Im gone. I probably will just pussy out when the time comes, but hopefuly not.
I dont know if this sounds gay or not, but i am feeling a really lonely feeling right now, like i need someone to talk to, and to be with. I need a girl. Really bad. All my freinds tel me that its good to be single, or that i just plain dont have achance with anybody in the world. I realy wish i cound find a good looking, non bitchy person out there that iget along with. But its not gonna hapen. Whitney was perfect, and i dont know wy my stupid ass gave up. But i think its got somthing to do with the fact that we didnt get along all that well. We couldnt talk.
there are a couple seniors that i THOGUHT i would go good with. But my freinds say i have no chance with some. i guess there right. Maybe i have too high of standards. i dont know.