mood //	lethargic
music //	sounds from the tv

03.12.04 [22:40]   // dream //   If good people die young, am I immortal?

This week has dragged, probably because it's Spring Break next week and everyone's been looking forward to it.

Not much has happened though. I've fucked up my share of grades again.. made an 80 on a Physics quiz, a 62 on a Pre-Cal quiz. Managed to do okay on both tests. 95 on Pre-Cal test was especially miraculous, though I could've made a 100 if I hadn't made a stupid mistake on the bonus. >:/// But hey, it's an A, and I needed an A. It's my first A in like.. four weeks.

I've had Octathlon and lit mag stuff for an hour after school every day. ..That's been the main time-consuming thing in my life lately.

Found out something stupid today: remember that I said that I got kicked off the Science UIL team because I didn't score high enough at district? Well. Somewhere at the end of last week, Susan told me she was confused about me not being on the team because they'd announced people's scores and I'd scored higher than Justin L., yet he was on the team. I was confused but decided not to make it an issue, since I had enough to worry about. Today, I found out from Susan that Mrs. Sherwin had said this morning, "You know, I wonder what Nara's going to do since she has a conflict on UIL day." Susan asked her to clarify and apparently -- I am supposedly still on the Science team after all. This is complete and utter BULLSHIT because Mrs. Sherwin never came by and told me how I'd done or that I was still on the team like she did for everyone else!! Well, in any case, she can fucking find herself another team member, because I already told Mrs. Mitchell that I'm doing Spelling, and they're at the same time. *loathes Mrs. Sherwin with a passion*

Other than that, and other than a highly amusing lab in Physics, today was pretty boring.

Although, I have made a new friend. It was kind of weird because I've seen this girl, Rachel C., around the school for a while now, and even though I didn't know her she would always smile at me in the hallways. Well, yesterday morning I finally sat in my usual spot before school again, and she just started talking to me like we'd always known each other. o__o I was like, okay. Can't complain. I've made some of my best friends that way. :) So, we've been talking.

I'm amused by the fact that people seem to like me. For several months now, I've stopped altogether trying to be likable. Before, I used to care about what people think. Well, let me rephrase. I don't care what they think about my clothing or my attitude. I just care about being considered decently likable by the average person. But the last few months, I stopped trying. Yet people still seem to like me. It's odd.

I've been a bit crabby since I got home. Last night right before I fell asleep, I suddenly got real good inspiration for my story. So, all day I felt the writer's energy coming to the surface, and couldn't wait to get home and write. Well, to be able to write, I have to get in a certain mental state.. a certain level of relaxedness and peace and creativity. I've been trying to get to that place all afternoon and evening, but my stupid family keeps interfering and pissing me off and keeping me from it. >:/// So now I will have to wait until tomorrow.

Tomorrow will be a better day.

Actually, it will. Because, guess what -- I get to see Jason again!!! :D:D:D He and Courtney and hopefully Li are coming over to watch anime. Hee. Will be lots of fun. *can't wait*

But sleep first. Very tired. Glad it's spring break. Finally time to catch up on everything. Sleep especially.

Good night.

space out and learn to fly

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