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she's lost in coma, where it's beautiful,
intoxicated from the deep sleep...
do you wonder what it's like,
living in a permanent imagination?
sleeping to escape reality...
but you like it like that
Statscdydc
name: afton michelle k.
aliases: ashre, nara, elysia
called: afty, nara, moon, ashy, ming
age: is just a number
place: the middle of nowhere
birth: gouda, holland
date: july thirteenth
sign: cancer (the crab)
ethnic: 50% dutch, 25% indo, 25% chin
height: five foot eleven
weight: proud +/- 125 lbs.
hair: brown; red & gold streaks
eyes: brown; green specks
skin: usually pretty pale
Contactluhdyld
e-mail: ashre@moonshadow-garden.net
aol im: lunar eclipse148; Pyrefly tears
msn im: lilpenguinhugs@hotmail
yahoo: penguinbaby3013
a view into the heart
a view into the mind
a view into the soul
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| mood // | pensive | | music // | maaya sakamoto |
02.22.04 [20:05] // dream // Off the Edge of Despair.
Nevermind that last entry. I deleted it; if you saw it, forget that I ever wrote it.
Truth is, I really don't know what's coming over me lately. First there's been this whole deal with not enjoying my hobbies anymore. And now, ever since this week started, I've been having mood swings like whoa. It was especially bad since last night. First I was real upset over not getting the CD, then I was just numb and nonfeeling. Then this morning, the driver's ed guy who was supposed to give me my first driving lesson made a screw-up and showed up at my house and claimed I'd signed up for the 8-10 AM slot instead of the 10-12 one. I knew perfectly well I'd signed up for the 10-12 one. But for whatever reason I just ended up crying. Saying that it was just because dad dragged me out of bed two hours early wasn't right. I was crying. In any case, it was straightened out. Then after I got back from the lesson, I was giggling like an idiot, but within five minutes, I was crying my eyes out again for no apparent reason.
I don't even know why this is happening. It's easy to say I'm stressed, but I know that these are also signs of clinical depression. Am I depressed? *sigh* I've gotten to the point where I don't even know anymore; my emotions have become so blurred...
On the bright side, there is a boy. He's obsessed with RK and anime and he plays DDR. And.. we seem to be getting along really well. But that's all I'm going to say, for now. I hope I have more to say by the end of the week.
I don't plan to be on much this coming week, if at all. It's obvious that there's shit wrong with me. What bothers me is that I still have so many responsibilities, website-wise.. but for once they will have to wait. My mental sanity is more important than a bunch of fanlistings.
Namaste.
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