mood //	sleepy
music //	"1/3 true feelings"

01.23.04 [23:43]   // dream //   I must isolate you, isolate and save you from yourself.

I'm just going to write thoughts and about events as they pop into my head. Not gonna backtrack in any specific order, I just need to get my thoughts out. Maybe then I can finally get *him* off my mind. I've been daydreaming too much lately and it's.. just not doing me much good. And I already haven't been having the best couple of days.


God, this has been a long week. And even though it's only been a 4-day school week, I've been so crazy-tired it's not even funny. I don't know why. I'm sleeping okay. I'm not unusually stressed, not any more than usual, in fact I'd say in some respects, a lot less than usual. But whenever I get home I just.. collapse. I dunno. It's weird. But I'm so tired. And I wonder how I'm going to last next week when it's actually a 5-day school week again. x_x


I went to yoga class twice this week. I went to my usual Tuesday night class and then last night mom went to the 7:30 class and I decided to go with her for the heck of it. I had some trouble staying awake, but at least it was nice and relaxing. :x


Curtis Porter is one hell of a confusing bastard. I'd love to hate him but I just can't.

I love Sample Problem day in Physics, which is what we had Wednesday. SP day = the day when Curtis and Nara get to sit and crack bad jokes, draw pictures, make fun of each other, mock each other, and in general, just chatter on a whole lot. Which is what we did practically all period long. I even had more time to make fun of Curtis because I'd had nothing to do in Study Hall that morning, so I'd already worked all the sample problems. Curtis, of course, kept accusing me of cheating, which it was not, because the page had been on Mrs. S's website for weeks, and anyone had access to it. So anyway, I got to be star person twice in one period. I was also the very first person to be star person. As soon as Mrs. Schweiger sent us off to work the first problem, I already had my hand up. ;D I gave her the answer and it was right. Curtis hadn't even started writing the problem.

Curtis: "She cheated!"
Mrs. Schweiger: "Curtis! Your reputation for having the right answers is being overshadowed by your reputation for being mean to your lab partner!"

Yeah. Stuff like that. Thursday was mainly a continuation of that because we had our major lab and built our first circuit. I didn't realize until after I'd begun setting up the computer that there was a sheet with the exact instructions, so I blamed Curtis for not giving it to me since it was next to him. He, of course, could not leave that without a retort, so we just kept going on and on for a while about that. Then later back in class we were some of the only ones, and we had a rather strange conversation about Mayans, pets, and mythology. o_O It was.. odd.

And... I'm planning something... but I'm not going to give away anything about that just yet. :x


I just found out today that the UIL Spelling and Ready Writing tests are at the same time. -.- That is a major problem. Susan K. said I can try to arrange it so they'll let me take Spelling first for about thirty minutes and then go to RW, but I may just say "screw it" to Spelling. Susan K. is determined to get me involved in Math, and she says I can take the test if I just come to at least four practices, which I still have time for, I guess. :/ But that means I will have UIL practices every morning before school, and on Monday afternoon. And then I'll have Octathlon soon too...


I also have to decide what to enter into VASE for Art, and the dilemma is this: Mrs. Peanick has had the bright idea that she wants to wait with entering my chicken into any competitions this year so I can enter it into next year's Rodeo competition. Now she has had that idea, she is obsessed with it. The good thing about doing that would be that I would have a chance to enter Rodeo after all, and if I win, that competition is a lot more prestigious, and there's monetary prizes involved. The bad part is that, since I can't enter it in competitions this year, I would probably lose my chance for a letter jacket this year, since I have nothing else really astonishing to enter into VASE. :/ The jacket's almost guaranteed next year, but I'd really like one this year. But to give up my chance for prestige at Rodeo for a letter jacket a year earlier than planned...? I just don't know. Winning at Rodeo would be tough, even with my awesome chicken. So the prize isn't even guaranteed. *sigh* Well, I have to decide this weekend.

Our new Art project rocks though. :D:D:D We finally get to work from real life and then abstract it. But this piece won't be done in time for VASE. :[


Study Hall still rocks.


We've started reading Julius Caesar in English. I mentioned that, right? Anyway, I got the part of Trebonius. :/ He's a conspirator that doesn't seem to do/say very much. ;-; Also, we had this presentation in the library the other day about something called Questia that we GT kids are getting to pilot at our school, to see if it's useful. The presentation sucked because the librarians aren't technophiles like us. :( I was sitting there thinking things like "You didn't log out!" and "Just refresh the page!" when the librarian was sitting there panicking about it not working and talking about deleting all the cookies. -_-; Adults these days. ;P

To test Questia, we get to do another smallish research project in English though. It shouldn't be too bad because it's a partner thing and I'm with Courtney. The topic is a subcomponent of Roman culture, and we're doing Religion. <333 I think Architecture was our second choice, but we were both ecstatic about Religion. The gods & goddesses of Ancient Rome are probably the coolest part of their culture. Although they really stole them from the Greeks and just changed the names. o_O But meh, they stole a lot from the Greeks. *geek moment*


I only made a 93 on the Pre-Cal test. :/ At first I was pretty happy, but then I found out Susan K. made a 100, and Curtis made a 96. And I realized.. last year I was the one making those kinds of grades. Now I haven't made a high A on a test since Thanksgiving. :[ What's wrong with me?!?!? *sigh* -_- I know it could be worse, but... still..


It was Chinese New Year and I totally didn't realize it. *death* If I'd known I would've planned something to do with my family, but.. x_x Damn. We haven't done anything for it since 8th Grade. Okay, that was kind of different. I demanded that we do something because mom was ill and we needed to cheer up. But still. Chinese culture reprazent!


Uhh, that's all I can think of now. *Haha, it's 11:30 and I can't believe I'm still awake!* I feel better though. I've just had too many thoughts floating around in my head. Now hopefully I can go back to bed, read some, and then sleep contentedly. And then catch up on everything I've been procrastinating on tomorrow. :P

Namaste!

1 spread their wings and soared   //   space out and learn to fly

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