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01.03.04 [23:17]   // dream //   Happy Birthday, J.R.R. Tolkien!

I can't believe I'm really not interested in journals anymore! But I come here and I'm just like... *blank*

The feeling that I neeed to update still nags at me daily, but it's more like necessity or habit. I've gotten so used to it that it's become a part of my life. Sort of. As I said.. now it feels more like habit than something I actually still want to do.

I do acknowledge that I need to do it, however. I've withdrawn into myself so much the past month since the boat races.. and I think it's just dangerous. Mentally unhealthy. If I keep going, at this rate, I WILL become catatonic and they'll have to lock me up in a psych ward. I'm not saying this jokingly, either. The way I've been avoiding everyone and everything is becoming dangerous. I realize that, I just don't know how to stop it.

And I don't know if I truly want/care to.


I'm just going to keep this brief.

I finally saw The Last Samurai today. <33333333333 I am going to buy that the DAY it comes out on DVD. I'm serious. I'm going to set my next four weeks' allowance aside immediately and keep it until the DVD comes out, and then I'm buying it. Lovelovelovelovelove. (Cried so much too!! ;_; I've been watching too many movies that make me cry. Finding Nemo is the only movie I've seen this vacation that HASN'T made me cry.)

Yesterday was my dad's birthday. He turned 48. I gave him a Star Trek calendar. We went bowling in the afternoon. I was teh winar with a grand total of 112. Dad was in second place with 102. BOO-YAH! Not bad for a skinny, weak girl eh? ;D Also, I kept seeing the laws of physics right in front of my face as I was bowling. I am such a nerd.

My New Year's was okay, not too exciting. Especially last year, when we danced partied until 4 or 5 AM and I got stone drunk. We just sat around watching TV and playing a LotR board game until the countdown. :S Our fireworks were not very grand, either, and we were the only people in our entire section of the neighborhood who shot off any. -.- So dull. I did have a lot of champagne.. I lost count after three glasses. Then the next day we STILL had champagne left over. I hadn't been really hung over, I just felt that my mind was a bit fuzzier and about two meters further away from everything than usual. ;] But then mom was like, "Why don't I make you a Kir Royal with the leftover champagne?" in the afternoon. Which, Kir Royal is a mix of champagne and Creme de Cassis (cranberry liquor). It's good but.. yeah. ;| After that, I was pretty much gone the rest of the night. :P

Lisa's Christmas party was awesome (thanks, hun <33333); we had a much bigger turn-out than expected. We expected like, four, and ended up with I believe seven. Me, Lisa, Imran, Li, Lura, Persis, and Amber. We sat and talked, dipped strawberries in chocolate, and watched Finding Nemo. Personal gift exchanges were just done privately at the end.. dad picked me up early so I didn't get to see Lisa's reaction to my present. =( My friends completely spoiled me!! I got so many things! (Li gave me a penguin coffee mug. <3333 LOL the_urban_fairy, now I'm an Anita Blake incarnate! ^_~)

Speaking of which, I finished Blue Moon in a freakin' day and a half. And it was one of the longer AB books to date, too. x_x I feel sad, just because I've had nothing to read again since Tuesday morning. =O


So uhh, yeah. That's been my past few days, or the highlights. I got write about tons more but like I said.. I just don't feel like it anymore. Can't find the words to write like I used to.

A lot's changed in me, and I don't know if it's for the better or the worse.

I guess it's good that school starts again on Tuesday, just because it means that things can go back to normal a bit. And hopefully I can start writing like usual again. And not feel so blatantly anti-social.


I have my art project to finish before school starts, so that'll probably be taking up 80% of my time for the next two days. *sigh* I hate procrastinating. Then again, I'm beginning to hate art altogether. Or at least my art class. Wondering for the 80th time why I didn't just take Digital Graphics. Why oh why.. ~_~

Well, enough of this. I'm out. Peace.

1 spread their wings and soared   //   space out and learn to fly

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