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05.19.04 [15:38]   // dream //   ...the love that we shared before time.

If anyone cares what has become of me, I would like to inform you that my two new blogs are open as planned;

beyond-sanity.ORG
pyreflies.NU/blog
The former is basically a continuation of what this journal used to be, with long posts about the basic events I encountered during the day, just without the random otaku rants about anime, jmusic and video games. That's what the latter is for.

Keep up with them, or not -- whichever you desire. These two journals also have syndicated accounts over at LJ; aengelwynd for b-s.ORG and __pyrefly for p.NU/blog. I will add back anyone who adds me there.

And for all my Blurty friends who still stayed loyal; check my previous friends-only entry for something extra.


That's all. This will now be the final post, for real. Thank you for all the good times.

Wishing you all the very best,


~ Nara (Afton) K. // ashre

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mood //	irate
music //	"insanity"

03.17.04 [20:18]   // dream //   The end of all things yet to come.

Well, it's over. All of it. Even this journal.

Apparently Deborah found the link and has been reading all of what I've been writing. Not only that, but she's given out the link to her bitchy, preppy 12-year-old teenybopper friends, so THEY've been reading it too. Apparently they have all been blind to the disclaimer that specifically asks ANYONE who knows me in real life to TELL ME that they have found my journal and ASK FOR PERMISSION to read it. But, oh, I forgot. Deborah has no eyes. She's just an egocentric bitch with no regard for other people's feelings or right to privacy.

You know, Debby, what amazes me most of all is that you seem to think that I don't hate you.. that nobody is capable of hating you. Oh, but they are. I, for one, hate you. I have hated you ever since you started middle school and have become the bitch that you are now. You used to be my friend along with being my sister, but I no longer share that sentiment. No -- I hate you. And one day I will shove you through that window, and you will see it in my eyes, and you will know.

Until then, bitch. Enjoy life knowing that you're hated.


Everyone else -- I am sorry, but this is the end. And there may not be another blog, now that my domains all seem to have disappeared again. Well, you can thank my bitch of a sister for that.


Namaste.

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mood //	downtrodden
music //	s.e.l. ost

03.17.04 [19:42]   // dream //   I hate my life.

Oh, fuck.

The very DAY I start working on websites again, I think Anix has disappeared off the face of the earth just like Endore.

It just never fucking ends, does it????

1 spread their wings and soared   //   space out and learn to fly

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mood //	chipper
music //	"ongaku"

03.16.04 [09:37]   // dream //   Eat sushi. Get smoochy.

Hola, mis amigos y amigas.

*/end blatantly bad attempt at writing in Español*

I'm feeling pretty chipper this morning, if you can't tell. :P The weather is beautiful, and I'm about to go out for a drive..

Ah! Driving! Lots to tell there.

I took my second drive for class on Sunday, 10 AM - 12 PM. I had Mr. Foster as the instructor. -_____- Suckage. I hate that guy. He's too hasty. Makes me jumpy. The only thing I liked that he did was that he didn't make me drive a full hour by myself; he only made me drive half an hour. Then the other guy went, and then I went again. It went much better that second time because I'd had time to think and prepare, and I wasn't so nervous. It was only my second drive, and I had to drive in the pouring rain. @_@

And no, Jason was not the other person in the car, though we had drives at the same time. =( I called him later that night and he'd had Mr. Gregoire, the lucky bastard. >:/

After my drive, we went downtown to the theatre to see another musical, Brigadoon. It was alright; none of us were ecstatic about it. I wasn't feeling totally 100%, so it wasn't much fun to have to sit there with a play that just dragged on and on. >_> I loved the sets and costumes though. It's just.. it didn't come together. The music could've been better. And they got too distracted incorporation Scottish traditional dances and music styles. They needed to keep up the pace.

Afterwards, we went out to eat Japanese food, which was yummy, although the restaurant was insanely expensive and probably more than we should've spent for a pretty normal dinner on an occasion not really any more special than any other Sunday night. But it was yummy.

Funny convo:
Me: "You know, I really do hate potatoes. I would much rather eat rice for the rest of my life."
Debby: "You're so weird."
Mom: "No, but she was Asian in a past life. I've always said that, ever since she was born. I'm sure of it."
Dad: "Or maybe she will be in a future life."
Me: "Or maybe I was & will be in all past and future lives. I tried it out once to see what it's like as a European, but didn't like it. 'Those stupid Westeners with their disgusting potatoes.' ;o"

As I said, when I got home, I called Jason. <3 We talked for a while. Although, the upstairs phones here are blatantly bad. >:[ I had trouble understanding him a few times. Which was not cool. We need to get better phones. But anyhow, we had a good time chatting anyway. And he said he's trying to figure out something else we can do together this week, since he's not going to visit the college he's hoping to apply to. w00t! :D

Then I went to bed.


Yesterday, I had another drive. Same time. A different instructor.. we'd had this guy in class a couple of times. I liked him much better. He was much more relaxed, which helped me to relax, which in turn made the drive a smashing success. I was in control of the car today. I drove almost 20 miles down FM 1960 going 50 miles an hour without making a single mistake!! My accomplishment of the week. :D I was actually sad when my drive time was up and we had to switch to let the other guy drive for a while. =( I could've driven a long while longer. I was actually thoroughly enjoying it.

The rest of the day I kind of lounged around.. listened to music, worked on my story, drew, watched the end of Excel Saga (except for the very last episode, since I'd been warned about extreme hentai content), went to yoga class. Relaxing. Was nice.


And now I'm about to go for another drive. Ciao!


P.S. benvenuto, if you read this, we need to plan our e-mail for the Orsôrum members about next Monday's meeting.

space out and learn to fly

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mood //	jubilant
music //	les mis ost

03.14.04 [00:14]   // dream //   Hehehehehe.

Well, it was just Jason and Courtney over, but we had tons of fun. Everyone else TOTALLY missed out. XP

They were supposed to leave around 10:30ish, 11 PM at the latest.

..Jason just left a few minutes ago.

It was 12:05 AM.


Think we are getting along? :D

2 spread their wings and soared   //   space out and learn to fly

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mood //	lethargic
music //	sounds from the tv

03.12.04 [22:40]   // dream //   If good people die young, am I immortal?

This week has dragged, probably because it's Spring Break next week and everyone's been looking forward to it.

Not much has happened though. I've fucked up my share of grades again.. made an 80 on a Physics quiz, a 62 on a Pre-Cal quiz. Managed to do okay on both tests. 95 on Pre-Cal test was especially miraculous, though I could've made a 100 if I hadn't made a stupid mistake on the bonus. >:/// But hey, it's an A, and I needed an A. It's my first A in like.. four weeks.

I've had Octathlon and lit mag stuff for an hour after school every day. ..That's been the main time-consuming thing in my life lately.

Found out something stupid today: remember that I said that I got kicked off the Science UIL team because I didn't score high enough at district? Well. Somewhere at the end of last week, Susan told me she was confused about me not being on the team because they'd announced people's scores and I'd scored higher than Justin L., yet he was on the team. I was confused but decided not to make it an issue, since I had enough to worry about. Today, I found out from Susan that Mrs. Sherwin had said this morning, "You know, I wonder what Nara's going to do since she has a conflict on UIL day." Susan asked her to clarify and apparently -- I am supposedly still on the Science team after all. This is complete and utter BULLSHIT because Mrs. Sherwin never came by and told me how I'd done or that I was still on the team like she did for everyone else!! Well, in any case, she can fucking find herself another team member, because I already told Mrs. Mitchell that I'm doing Spelling, and they're at the same time. *loathes Mrs. Sherwin with a passion*

Other than that, and other than a highly amusing lab in Physics, today was pretty boring.

Although, I have made a new friend. It was kind of weird because I've seen this girl, Rachel C., around the school for a while now, and even though I didn't know her she would always smile at me in the hallways. Well, yesterday morning I finally sat in my usual spot before school again, and she just started talking to me like we'd always known each other. o__o I was like, okay. Can't complain. I've made some of my best friends that way. :) So, we've been talking.

I'm amused by the fact that people seem to like me. For several months now, I've stopped altogether trying to be likable. Before, I used to care about what people think. Well, let me rephrase. I don't care what they think about my clothing or my attitude. I just care about being considered decently likable by the average person. But the last few months, I stopped trying. Yet people still seem to like me. It's odd.

I've been a bit crabby since I got home. Last night right before I fell asleep, I suddenly got real good inspiration for my story. So, all day I felt the writer's energy coming to the surface, and couldn't wait to get home and write. Well, to be able to write, I have to get in a certain mental state.. a certain level of relaxedness and peace and creativity. I've been trying to get to that place all afternoon and evening, but my stupid family keeps interfering and pissing me off and keeping me from it. >:/// So now I will have to wait until tomorrow.

Tomorrow will be a better day.

Actually, it will. Because, guess what -- I get to see Jason again!!! :D:D:D He and Courtney and hopefully Li are coming over to watch anime. Hee. Will be lots of fun. *can't wait*

But sleep first. Very tired. Glad it's spring break. Finally time to catch up on everything. Sleep especially.

Good night.

space out and learn to fly

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mood //	giddy
music //	"surreal"

03.08.04 [19:41]   // dream //   Private Pickles the Penguin on the Prinny Squad, reporting for duty!

Haha. Finally. Time to write. Actually, I've had time. Last week wasn't so busy. I just didn't feel like being online.. at all. I was content to follow the same pattern after school each day: watch anime, cook, watch more anime, sleep. ;x It worked for me. In fact, I'm planning to do pretty much the same thing this week! Except I'll also be playing a couple of VG's I borrowed from Jason, and talking to him on the phone. <3

So anyway. To refer back to forelast entry and the dollhouse, we did get the circuits fixed. Curtis, Erwin and I came in Monday morning at 6:30 AM to work on it. The weird thing was that all the circuits malfunctioned because of different reasons. o_O For Curtis's series circuit, the leads got separated. For Erwin's parallel, the light bulbs were bad. And for my complex.. we still don't know what was wrong with that one. We only got the buzzer to work, but for the buzzer to work, it meant that current HAD to be going through the lightbulbs. Yet, they didn't light up. And yes, we tried a ton of different bulbs, and they didn't work. But, she gave us credit, because the buzzer worked. So that's all that matters.

The rest of the week was pretty uneventful. Like I said, anime anime anime.. That was most of it. ;x And I cooked. Which, surprisingly, went really well. The only real problem was that on Thursday I made spaghetti, and I went with mom's advice not to use all of the spaghetti in the box, and we ended up with too little spaghetti. >:/ The sauce was good though. Anyway, yeah. I was surprised. Most of my cooking so far has relied on intuition and luck rather than skill or experience, and I keep thinking next time my luck's going to run out and I'm going to end up giving everyone food poisoning. But I've been doing quite well!

And mom has been home since last night, so I don't have to worry about cooking anymore.


Saturday morning I went to a math contest at Doerre. I actually didn't really want to go since early last week, but I'd already signed up and they'd already written the check, so I had to. :/ It wasn't so bad though. I had some time beforehand to hang out with Susan K. and Lara and listen to music. Then I just took three tests in a row, and met up with Li in between. A lot of KC people were there, and man, they've changed since middle school! They're all so preppy now. :o It's totally not cool. Anyhow, I didn't stay for awards. Dad picked me up at noon and after a stop at Walgreens, we went home.

Now, what everyone probably wants to know about~ my trip to Kemah with Jason. Which, to clarify, Kemah is a sort of port/fishing town to the south of here. A lot of people come there to fish, but even more come there for Kemah Boardwalk -- a place with a ton of restaurants, arcades, and often live music. A sort of party/amusement place in miniature. (It actually isn't all that exciting, but then, Houston severely lacks any truly exciting ventures aside from the Museums of Fine Arts and Natural History -- and those are just my personal geeky favorites.)

So anyway.. they picked me up around 3 PM. Jason himself came to the door, which made Deborah happy because she got to pass judgment on his physical appearance (she actually approves), and, yeah. We got in the car and left. Funny thing: we were both wearing Rurouni Kenshin shirts. No, it was a complete coincidence.

Well, I won't go through all the events and places and conversations, because a lot of it is a blur, and even if I did, it wouldn't serve a purpose. Just know that, aside from the fact that I was extremely low on sleep and aside from a bad run-in with an arcade and a DDR console, my night was basically perfect. :DDDD Some of the highlights:

- Before we went to the Boardwalk, his mom and dad fished, and we took a walk to this gazebo. And it was sunny and beautiful, and we just sat and talked, and.. yeah. =)))

- We had our first "deep" conversation. A couple of them, actually. Mainly they concerned the bad traits of the general populace at school, and our sisters. And.. it was just nice to truly talk about something. Especially the sister thing. I've talked about my sister to other people before, I mean truly, how she's changed since entering middle school, and they'll listen and offer comments, and it's nice. But Jason actually understands because his is going through the same thing. :)

- We were again talking about people, namely annoying people and classes that we didn't like. He started talking about his Pre-Cal class, and he was like, "The people in there are so obnoxious. And there's even these two girls who are so obsessed -- they had a Harry Potter anniversary day last week. They both wore scarves and glasses and everything." And I started thinking.. oh God, I just might know these people. (Most of my KC friends are HP freaks.) So I asked, "What're their names?" and he replied, "Allyse L. and Vanessa O." I just started cracking up. XD The bad part is, I could see that. I told him I'm friends with Allyse, and he was like, "I knew it!! I knew you have to be friends with her!" XD

- Now for the next part, let's flashback for a moment. Last week I spent a lot of time wondering.. just what exactly is my relationship status with Jason? I was thinking just friends that are maybe interested in becoming more, but when I told Kitty about him and how he called me and asked me to go to Kemah with them, she reacted as if he'd asked me out and we are now dating. o_o I have so little dating experience that I really couldn't tell which, so I figured, okay, well, I'll wait 'til the weekend and see how he acts, and hopefully I can judge from that. Well, basically he just acted normal and also since his sister had brought a friend he'd probably just invited me as a friend, so I figured, "Okay, we're still friends." (And I'm fine with that. I mean, I'd much rather that he'll really officially ask me out when/if the time comes so I know for sure and don't have to wonder about our in-between state.) ...Except for a few comments that he and his parents made.

The most prominent one took place at dinner. Jason's sister Rachel had won a little stuffed animal blue fuzzy Devil thing at some arcade game. Jason was playing with it and put it on his shoulder and pretended that it was like his bad conscience speaking to him, and he called it his Devil. So then Candice, Rachel's friend, said, "Well, if he has a Devil, he's also got to have an Angel to sit on his other shoulder," and his mom immediately responded with, "Oh, I think he's already got one, and she's sitting beside him. He's got Nara for that!" And I was over here going O___o allllrighty.

- Arrangements were already being made to get me & Jason to hang out again. His mom was talking about some anime movie that's coming to town, but they're only gonna play it downtown and only in Japanese with subtitle. For the latter, she said that like it was terrible to watch a movie in a foreign language with subs (I watch almost all my anime subbed), so I said, "..That's not a bad thing," and Jason said, "Yeah.. we don't mind!" So his mom was immediately like, "Well, I can take you two downtown to go see it! It's not a problem for me!" I'd really like to go; it was just funny because I'd never even heard of the movie or that it was coming or expressed interest in it, and here plans are already being made.. ;x

- In the car on the way back, he was again playing with the Devil toy, and his mom told him, "Maybe you should give that thing to Nara to remember you by; after the way you've been behaving today I wouldn't be surprised if she never wants to see you again." So, going along with the joke, I said, "Well, we're kind of forced to get together again because we have all of each other's DVDs and stuff." To which Jason replied, "Yeah, see mom, I've got it all figured out. I've got a plan."

- The subject of prom kept repeatedly coming up in the conversations. At dinner and in the car it was like.. "Hey Jase, you know the seniors are having their after-prom party in the gym this year?" "You know the seniors are going to have prom at Julian's next year?" "Jase, have they called for volunteers to help with prom yet?" (That was all from his mom.) And it was just like.. *PROM* *PROM* *PROM* So much that it was hard to believe it was just coincidence. We both got on the topic of dances as well. We were actually talking about dumb recent music, and somehow started talking about Homecoming, and soon I'd confessed that I'd gone as Éowyn and everything. It was light-hearted, and we were laughing and stuff, and then suddenly he turned totally serious and asked, "So uhh, did you just go to Homecoming with friends?" and so I told him about just going with Anett, but inside I was just enthralled with the totally serious look on his face, and I was thinking, "Don't worry Jase, another guy has never so much as put his arms around me with any more than just friend-ly intent." XDDDD

- We were talked into taking a picture in one of those photo booths where you give them $5 and smile dorkily and it prints out a crappy photo with a cheesy frame of you and your friends or whoever. (Yes, I have it; I'll scan it later.) His mom even came by and closed the curtain, but thankfully we were already done by then. :x That was pushing it a little.

- The best moment of the night, however, was the ferris wheel. Now, I came to an amusing discovery that night: Jason and his mother are EXTREMELY afraid of heights. The ferris wheel at the Boardwalk is not really that high at all, but they both refused to ever go on it. Now, towards the end of the night, his parents bought tickets so everyone could go on at least one ride. They had a ferris wheel, a merry-go-round, and one of those swinging ship. Now, I'm not much into the swinging ships, and I'd just eaten, so that was a no-go. Jason didn't want to go on there either, obviously. And we're teens so.. we weren't about to go on the merry-go-round. Which left the ferris wheel. Now, I knew about Jason, so I told him he didn't have to go. I could go alone, or we wouldn't go at all, we could give the tickets to his sister and her friend. But he said, no, he wanted me to have fun (which I tried to assure him I was having anyway), and he didn't want me to have to go alone, so he would go on the ferris wheel with me. o___o So I repeatedly told him, "You don't have to go if you don't want to," but he kept insisting that it was fine and he didn't want me going alone. So.. we went. The bad (or, well, bad.. more like embarrassing) part was, the entire thing reminded me of the part in FF7 where you're at the Gold Saucer and you go on your date with Aeris or Tifa or whichever character. And I was so embarrassed, and I was like, "Oh, God. Don't let him remember it as well," and JUST THEN he was like, "Man, this reminds me of the part where you're at that amusement place in FF7.." I was like, x___@ *thud* Well. So much for that. And then later when we were at the top and we got a good view, I was overcome.. it was breathtaking. It was just dark and it was a full moon, and you could see the city lights, and the moon and the boats' lights reflected on the water.. it was gorgeous. So before I knew it, I blurted out, "It's so pretty.." and Jason was like, "Man, this is REALLY like that date in FF7. 'Oh, it's so pretty.'" Me: "..Yeah. ^^;" *awkward silence*
But yeah, it was just so sweet.. him sacrificing himself to go on the ferris wheel with me. =) *insert audience "awwww"* He was a little uncomfortable, but he admitted that it wasn't too bad. When we were up there and he got a little queasy, I thought about taking his hand, but just then I was overcome by a moment of self-doubt. >:| That was really stupid. I mean, maybe taking his hand would've been pushing it, but the moment of self-doubt was stupid. Because as soon as we got back down I was sure he's "interested" again. Stupid self-doubt.


So umm.. yeah. ^_^; Those are the key moments. Looking back, I feel kind of bad.. I should've been a little more forthcoming. I felt like I wasn't saying enough, or everytime I did I just felt stupid because some of the things I said were so.. stupid. But I'm trying. I've gotten into this pattern of withdrawing further and further; now here's a chance and an incentive to come back out of my shell. It's not an easy chance to make. It's not that I'm not willing to do it, but it won't be something easy to do.. not a step I can take overnight. I'm definitely trying. I'm not going to ruin this.

And now it is definitely my turn to come up with something to do over the weekend or Spring Break. Since I have met his friends, maybe he should meet a few of mine. We could just get together to watch anime or movies, or to just.. hang out. Anyone from this area up for it?? :D


When I got home, I was dead tired, but I couldn't for the life of me go to sleep. And I mean, it figures -- the one day (night) when I can sleep for almost 12 hours straight without having to worry about having to do anything, I can't go to sleep, and then I wake up again at 5:45 AM. The universe really does hate me.

Yesterday was muy uneventful. I got carried away playing Disgaea, a PS2 game Jason lent me to try out. I'm hooked now. I'm not normally into strategy games, but man.. that game is elite. I'm going to have to buy it.

Today was.. okay. Found out I'd actually won at the math tourney; two sixth-place medals for Science and Math. Other than that.. Fucked up the Physics quiz on Friday, and probably fucked up my Pre-Cal quiz today because I didn't even answer three questions. My grades are, as Curtis would say, SOL. But what else is new?


I'm going now. Anime time. Peace.

3 spread their wings and soared   //   space out and learn to fly

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mood //	exhilarated
music //	azure ray

03.06.04 [22:17]   // dream //   Wow.

Woah. My life is insane.

More details to follow later, when I have had a chance to rest, catch my breath and collect my thoughts.

My life is spinning out of control.

..but I actually don't mind it. :o

space out and learn to fly

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mood //	calm
music //	"kokoro"

03.02.04 [20:22]   // dream //   Vanilla coke is nummy.

The past two days have been days to break the record of all previous shitty days. Enough said.

Okay, so you probably want details.

ONE.> The art competition. We got our results back yesterday, bright & early in the morning during 1st period. At first, prospects seemed excellent. Mrs. Peanick came in carrying enough medals for everyone from our class to have won at least one thing, so I was optimistic. I felt that despite some things, both of my interviews had gone pretty well, and at least one of them should have made a IV (the highest rating; the only one that will earn you a medal and make your piece eligible to go to state). Well, she went through the names and I wasn't on the list. To make things even better, every person from our class that had gone had won at least one medal. Except me.

Then I got my judges sheets back to see what I got. I got III's on both of my pieces. The first one, for the bags, I could understand. That judge gave fair comments and everything. Although, it did hurt that he told me he could turn it into a masterpiece in an hour, yet still gave me a III. But whatever. What pissed me off was the second one, for the watercolor. As you may recall, THAT JUDGE SAID NOTHING WHATSOEVER ABOUT ANYTHING THAT HE DIDN'T LIKE OR THAT I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER. He didn't even write down any comments on the sheet whatsoever. And that just bugs me. I mean, if he's not going to give me the highest rating, he at least owes me an explanation of what I could've done better. >:/ Asshole.

What's more, I didn't finish that project until LAST WEEK in record time. I didn't go to that much effort to finish the project before the competition only to have it get a bad rating from a judge who apparently was BIASED AGAINST ME FROM THE BEGINNING with no explanation whatsoever.

TWO.> The dollhouse. Worked on it all day Sunday from 9 AM until the Oscars. Worked on it all afternoon yesterday from the time I got home until bedtime. We bring it up to school today, and guess what? None of the circuits will work.

Combine that with the fact that I got kicked off the UIL Science team because my score wasn't high enough (so all my studying and practicing went to nothing), and you can tell that I do not really feel like all my efforts are going to good use at the moment. Maybe I should stop trying to do well in school, because apparently I just can't do shit!! My last two math test grades have been B's, I fucked up my lab practical, I even failed a Chem quiz last week.


Then today was also lovely because I just plain felt like shit but the schoolday just dragged and dragged and dragged, and all I wanted to do was go home. The only really good thing was Physics (as usual); first of all there was Curtis's reaction to the dollhouse, Curtis' Flower Shop (the look on his face was priceless); and then we had a blast messing with a slinky all period. But of course it went downhill again after that when I saw my lab practical & math test grades. -_-

I really needed a hug, but it is just my luck that none of my friends at school are of the huggy kind. :[ So, I decided on the next best thing (or the better thing): I would call Jason once I got home. I wanted to do it as soon as I got home, but then I remembered that he works until around 7 PM or 7:30, so I decided that I'd wait to call until around 8. I really miss talking to him. =(

When I got home, I decided to watch the first three episodes of Trigun (my boxset came in yesterday <3) because anime makes happy and happy makes anime. Umm.. right. Anyway, that was cool, but afterwards I was still tired and felt like shit, so I went to bed. The last thing I heard was Debby's bus come home. I didn't even hear the door open, meaning I was out cold in minutes.

At 6:30 PM I was suddenly awakened by my father. First he said something about the dishwasher, and then he said, "Oh yeah, there's someone on the phone for you.. Ashcraft? Is that Jason?" So of course I jumped out of bed and made a mad dash downstairs to the phone, and it was him. <3 All of a sudden, my bad day was just instantly better. It's amazing what a simple phone call can do. That's probably the best wake-up call I've ever gotten. ^_^ There was nothing particularly special about it, and I was still sleep-drugged and everything, but just hearing his voice after such a crappy day... =)

AND. What's more, I get to see him again this weekend!!! I don't have to worry about organizing anything after all, because his family's going to Kema and he invited me along. And my dad trusts his parents now that he's met them, so he says it's okay. ^_^ WHOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

So now, all I have to do is survive until Saturday.


Saturday, please come soon... Saturday, Saturday, Saturday I love you. <3

Namaste!

1 spread their wings and soared   //   space out and learn to fly

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mood //	dizzy
music //	the oscars

02.29.04 [22:55]   // dream //   In five minutes we'll know if it's a FULL SWEEP FOR LOTR:ROTK!!!!!!

Wow. Just when I think my life couldn't get any crazier, it does.

Yesterday was probably the busiest, wackiest, and funniest day in ages. It started off with the Jr. High tourney that Mu Alpha Theta held at our school. I was there by 7:30 AM, proctored until around 11, worked in the gameroom, ran around looking for pizza, and socialized lots. Proctoring was definitely one of the most fun things I have ever done. (If I have time later, I'll write more about it. Right now I'm just trying to get through everything.) The game room wasn't all it was wacked out to be for me personally, and I was angry that they forgot to give us pizza. >:/

We were done & out of there by around 12:30 PM, so then we went home and I worked on painting the Physics dollhouse some more. After that, I called Jason to tell him I had permission to come over that night. I started off with, "Umm, hey. Do you still want me to come over tonight?" and he was like, "Yeah, definitely! We'll even come pick you up if we have to!" I was like, "Nah, it's alright, my dad can bring me. ^_^;;" It was like.. geez, you're just determined, huh? :P Hehehe. It was cute. ^o^

Then around 2 PM we left so dad could take me to Westfield for the VASE Art competition. I saw Lisa there and we talked, and then I went off to get judged. My first judge was running late, I guess because he liked to tell lots of personal stories. He said he liked my graphite drawing of the paper bags; the only problem was shading, or lack thereof in a few places. He said directional light could've made things easier, and otherwise I should've taken the liberty to add shading where it really wasn't. He said that if he had only an hour, he could have me do a few things and just those few things would make the artwork "brilliant". So I guess that went well. The second judge, amusingly enough, had gone to Oak for high school!! He recognized the staircase I'd used as the subject of my watercolor piece. ^_^;; He was like, "Is this the stairwell that goes down to the cafeteria?" and it was. He didn't ask that many questions or say that much. He was just like, "Yeh, I like this, and why did you use this?" He didn't talk about anything he didn't like about it or that could've been better, but then again more often than not that can be a bad sign. :|

Right after I was done with that, we had to quickly drive back home again to pick up mom & Debby so we could all see off mom at the airport. She's going to Holland for a week because my cousin's getting married. *very jealous* Man, things are going to be chaos here this week without her. XD

So after that we went home and I made dinner, and we ate quickly. Then dad got up one more time to drive me to Jason's house, where I had an absolute BLAST meeting his friends Aaron, Jeff and Sean and playing video games. My parents were a little concerned because I've only really known this guy for a week (and if my head wasn't so far up in the clouds, I probably should be concerned too) but it was fine. Jason was so sweet; his friends are a little pervy (like most guys at this age), and sometimes they'd make some pretty bad jokes, so he'd turn to me every time to check and make sure that I was laughing too, that I was okay with the joke.. as if if I wasn't, he'd tell them to stop or something. ^_^;; And sometimes he'd cough loudly to remind them that there was a girl present. I didn't mind the jokes though.. I have enough guy friends to be used to the bad content and sexual innuendos. ;| But it was sweet, especially because most of my guyfriends tend to sort of forget that I'm female.. I think they view me as "just another one of their buddies", so saying all those types of things without regard is just okay. Not that it isn't, but it's nice to know that someone is completely aware of the fact that you're female for a change. I felt flattered. Anyhow, his friends are GREAT. They were so hilarious.. they almost make my friends look insipid in comparison. XD Just kidding. Aaron's quite a character though. Heck, they all were. And we played all these multiplayer games on Jason's GameCube.. god, it was the funniest. I never knew that SSB: Melee would be so much fun. Final Fantasy: Crystal Chronicles is pretty awesome too.. as long as you have friends to play it with. ^^; We had a great time. And god, I still can't believe that I've found people that I have so many things in common with. Aaron's an artist; he was at VASE today too! And all of them are obsessed with FF, video games, anime, they even listen to Jpop! o__o And Aaron listens to Rammstein. AND JASON OWNS A KATANA. *drool*

I could go on, but for time's sake, I won't. :P You can pretty much just tell that I had a fabulous time. It was nice, too, because I'd had such a stressful week, with all these school things out the wazoo. It was nice to be somewhere to just simply have fun and not have to worry about anyone's expectations for a while. <3 Everyone left at 10:30 PM, and I met his parents, and they were very nice, and he and his dad drove me home, and uhh that was it. :)

Today, I found out that dad had stayed for a while to talk to his parents. Okay, I'd known that, but I hadn't known that he had stayed long enough for Debby to watch Spy Kids 3D all the way once through. o__o This is both good and bad.. good because it means they get along (can't have a Capulets/Montagues thing going on here :P), bad because.. I hope they weren't talking about just me & Jason the entire time. O____o Mom called from Holland today, and I heard dad talking to her in the study, and he was like, "Yeah, they were saying that Jason's been talking about Nara all week long," and I was hoping to hear more but just then Deborah walked up and started chattering. >:/ Also, I'd been hoping that I'm not his only female friend because it would make this occurance less odd, but at breakfast dad was like, "Yeah, his parents were thrilled because you're the first girl that he's ever invited over." I was like.. greeeaat.

No really, I'm thrilled. XD My dilemma now is just..

Question: How soon do I call him again?

I was thinking tomorrow night, since I'll have found out how I did at VASE, which he'd asked a lot of questions about. But maybe I should wait until Tuesday because A) I won't be stressing about the dollhouse anymore and B) I'll probably have more to talk about.

Another get-together is unavoidable because I have two of his anime DVD's and he has one of mine. :D Since he invited me, I'm figuring it's my turn to invite him. But umm.. what to do. >_> I'd invite him to meet my friends, but A) I wouldn't know what to do, and B) my friends haven't exactly been very responsive in my pleas for get-togethers of late. :/ Well, I'll figure something out. Until then, I can talk to him on the phone.


I've been working on the dollhouse all fucking day today. Enough said. I will be happy when that shitload of a project is finally done with.

Lab practical in Physics tomorrow. >_< And a Pre-Cal test.


Okay, enough rambling. I'm gonna go finish watching the Oscars and then head off to bed. :P I'm hella tired. This has been one heck of a weekend.

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