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So I gave up on this journal and now it's break so I am very bored. End of the semester came and went. Overall my semester was great, love my roommates, loved my friends, loved the atmosphere in my suite and how people were always sleeping over. I had a really kick ass time at school and I am so glad I met all of my Clarkson friends cuz they keep my life interesting. Nothing that special happened over the semester. I worked, went to class, went out, and played board and card games haha. Me and Elijah did have a one letter party which was mediocre if you know what I'm talking about. We will be having another one letter party next semester and hopefully it will be like what everyone talks about. Got my grades last week and I got a 3.73. Go me. I don't think my grades will be that good next semester because I have crappier classes but we'll see.
I've concluded that my journal is boring because my life lacks the drama that everyone that has an interesting journal has. I'm not that disappointed about that though. Rarely do I have outward drama and only sometimes do I have inward drama. Today is one of those inward drama days. I always am in a worse mood in Massena. I don't like it here and I want an apartment somewhere else. There's nothing to do and I have little connection to my high school friends anymore. I'm just typing in my journal so no one get offended. But it seems once again that I try to make effort and get nothing in return. I call my friends and try to make plans and then no one calls me back. I had plans with them one night after I got off work and got over to the house they were supposed to be at and I was supposed to call them to let me in so I didn't wake up their parents and no one answered their cell phones, but they were inside. Who does that? So after I drove all the way there in a practical blizzard, I had to get in my car and drive right back home. So what am I supposed to do huh? Not call anymore? Well when I'm pissed I say yes to that but at times I want to catch up with them and hang out so I don't know. My computer and bed are my best friends in Massena.
Break hasn't been all bad. Christmas was good and I got a bunch of stuff and money. I like sleeping in everyday and not having any classes but I am ready to go back and I still have 3 1/2 weeks left. Thank god Clarkson comes back on the 5th and I can just stay there.
Some people confuse me. As in telling me they want to date me and have liked me since the summer, and at first I honestly didn't believe him and I was really surprised. So ok that's cool, whatever, we'll hang out and see what happens and I was considering it ya know. Oh yeah until like 2 weeks later he tells me that he was confused and he doesn't know. Who does that? Not that I care that much cuz it's not like I was attached but that's a little sketchy.
Alright that's enough for now. I guess I'm gonna go to Wal-Mart and the mall to return some stuff alone because my "friends" didn't return my calls like they said they would.
Current mood:
content.Current music: Brand New Colony - Postal Service.
I got offered a job last week. Good for me right? Not really. It was a crappy one. They wanted me be a tutor... me. Hmmm I don't think so. Not to mention it's for Dr. Lin's microeconomics. It is actually pretty flattering that she recomended me but I don't want to do it. School overall has been going pretty well lately. I know I'll do better than last semester. I also have to go to this business dinner with President Fallon for being a scholarship recipiant.
Me and Elijah got our first skateboarding lesson from Eric. He taught us how to ollie and we tried for a while and still can't do it. It was fun though so I took my brother's skateboard from home so I could practice. I'm aiming to get sponsered haha
My weekend as always was full of adventures. It was Potsdam's break so most people went home but I stayed. I went to Hamilton with Dan and Eric and Stephanie on Friday. I like it there a lot. Everyone there is good shit. There's a good mix, I see a lot of people from my past that I used to hang out with in high school and from shows and stuff plus a lot of my new friends like it there too. The house is populated by 80% Massena people so I think I know everyone. Running out of beer is also not a question which is good. Dan and Eric walked me home cuz I was way drunk. I peed in someones front yard on the walk home on Pierrepont but I really had to go. I guess I was in a pissed off mood so Dan called me angry. He was good to me though, he set my alarm for me and put me in bed and everything.
"Auto response from Ash Furnace: Dan called m and angry drunk... no one ever told me tha t before, I don't get abgry, I am cool shit"
Saturday I saw my sister for the first time in like 3 months. I went to her friends wedding with her so it was nice to see her. We only stayed at the reception for a bit because my sister had to get back home to Plattsburgh but at least I got my food for the day since all the on campus palces were closed. I just chilled here and Steve Kubiak from Clarkson randomly showed up here. Good random though. I haven't seen him in a long time so I was glad he came over. We just sat around and did nothing, just talked.
Dan, Eric, Chris, and 3 other Clarkson kids came over to drink. Chris used a fake id to get a 30 and we drank for a while until the cops showed up. Yay me. Chris gave the cop his fake id which is such a bad idea bc it said he's a 24 year old Canadian. He told the cop he just lived in Potsdam but didn't attend school, not smart. He asked how we got the beer and about if we had any in our fridge and I used my quick thinking skills to avoid opening the fridge completely since we had a big thing of vodka. The officer was like " Well I'm not ticket you, just keep it down and I have no idea why you're drinking keystone". He started joking with us so we were soooo relieved. He left and we toasted to him since he didn't make us empty our beers.
Well I suppose I should get started on my homework. Have fun.
Current mood:
indescribable.Current music: Holiday - Get Up Kids.
Working has been sucking a lot lately. I don't actually mind being there, I mostly mind going there and not being here. I hate getting up before 9 on Sunday's, my Sunday's and Wednesday's are shot because of it and I feel bad cuz people always call me to work extra day's and I have turned them all down every single time. On top of that something is always broken or someone is in a pissed off mood. I honestly don't mind the job but I'd rather be here. We'll see what happens.
This weekend is our four day break but I think I will stay here till Sunday. I have a paper due next week and I can finish it since I will have the suite to myself. Jenna is staying too and I always have my Clarkson friends to hang out with.
I had a really good weekend, well starting Thursday. Maybe the best one this semester, I know I know, I say that every weekend but I love it here. Now I understand why I get depressed over the summer's, because being here is a lot better. Thursday night me and Elijah picked up Dan and Eric from Clarkson and they came over to watch Survivor and they taught us how to play Euchre. We watched a movie and just hung out and they were gonna leave around 2 and we were running around the hallways being loud and dumb and the RA yelled at us. They started to leave but then called us 1/2 hour later wanting to come back. So they stayed the night and we stayed up till 6ish which wasn't smart because Eric and I had class at 10 which we both ended up missing.
Friday Elijah went to Kyle's and the guys across the hall went to Montreol and my Zeta girls went to BT which I don't really like so I went out with Sarah and the Clarkson guys. Eric, Sarah, Chris and me went up to Canadian Mike and Bob's room then a bunch of us crammed in my car. Chris got in my trunk, it was funny shit. We ended up going to Brahn's house for a bit but it was kind of bad so we went to Clarkson so Devon could get beer. On the way to Clarkson we saw a bunch of deer so Dan and computer Chris chased them and Dan said he touched a hoof but he is a big liar. We came back here and played Kings, it was a lot fun. I'm so excited to know people that love Weezer so all of the Irish kids sung Pinkerton songs for a while. So many people slept in here, Dan in Elijah's bed, Computer Chris in my bed, Devon on the floor, Chris and Sarah in her bed and me and Eric on the futon. They stayed till around 4 on Saturday and I took them back to Clarkson and hung out there for a while.
Me, Missi, Eric, and Chris went to 61 Elm on Saturday night. I told everyone I was going for really drunk and I definately achieved it. It was the quarter rule that kicked my ass. I had gotten a pitcher of beer for my beirut game and Louis put a quarter in it, dumbass. People keep telling me funny shit I did and I can't help but laugh at me. I guess me and Eric and some unidentified person kept singing punk songs really loud the whole night. We got back here around 3:30 and even tho Dan didn't come out with us he still loves me a lot and wanted to sleep over so he came over but I was already passed out. The worst part is that I had to be up before 9 to work on Sunday. I found a random tea cup on my desk which doesnt belong to me. Missi told me Eric found it in the bathroom and "brought me tea". I think I was still drunk for the first few hours of work but I wouldn't have changed anything. So we've known Dan and Eric for 8 days and Eric's slept here 4 times and Dan 3. haha I'm happy we met all those Clarkson kids, they rock pretty hard.
A couple things at home having kind of been on my mind lately. I'm not gonna say what they are becuase that's what I do. Whatever really matters to me is too important for blurty. Sorry to all of you that are religious Ashlee blurty readers to keep you in the dark. I just don't know though. I don't think many people understand they way I look at things and analyze certain situations but I have certain morals and convictions. Well it's pretty pointless for me to keep talking about it.
Alright I think that's enough. Have fun
Current mood:
jubilant.Current music: Losing Streak - The Ataris.
I made it more than one month of classes without skipping a class until right now. I skipped so I could have time to write in here, not really, I was just tired cuz I stayed up too late last night. A bunch of us stayed up playing uno for way too long.
Friday night Alicia was supposed to come and we were gonna stay in and bond but she didn't show up so at least we still had enough time to go out though. We decided to go to Emo Evan's, Chad Hatch's and Greg someone from Massena's house. It was probably the best time I've had out so far this semester. It was practically a Massena Central High School reunion. The best thing about the place was that they actually played decent music. Me and Elijah met a few Clarkson kids that are cool shit. We're gonna keep going there. Jenna got WAY too drunk and a bunch of us had to take care of here. Kyle had to come pick her up because there was no way we could walk her home. I ended up being up till after 4 because she was out of control.
Saturday we decdied to go back to 61 Elm. Jeremy kept giving me and ELijah free jello shots because he loves us. It was an alright time until I started to take a drink of my red powerade/vodka mix and some guy bumped into me knocking it all over me. It was dripping from my face and my hair and all over my shirt and pants so I left and Kyle and Eli came with. Walking home I saw a sign in the yard of the aprty we were at that said "You honk, we drink" and I wanted it so I took it and ran. Then ELijah found this tree in a pipe and she took it. Once we got back to the quad we took like 20 feet of caution tape and put it up around our room.
I went to bed around 2 because I had to get up for work in the am. That didn't happen. Eric, one of the CLarkson guys we met on Friday called Eli drunk and didn't know how to get back to Clarkson so he wanted to come over. He was ridiculously drunk and sooo funny. He kept saying dumb shit and I laughed for 2 hours straight. I regretted staying up until 6 am the next day during my ten hour shift but it was fun nonetheless.
Me Eli and Kyle went to see Fahrenheit 9/11 last night in Massena again and it always riles me up. I don't understand how anyone could want Bush to be our president again. It may sound dumb but I am pretty excited to vote. Ok that's it till next time, enjoy
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Current mood:
nerdy.Current music: Sureshot - Yellowcard.
So instead of working all day last Sunday I spent it in the Emergency Room. I guess I severly sprained my ankle, sometimes I really suck. I had to wear a brace and air cast all week and I got pain pills. It looks pretty nasty but it doesn't hurt that bad anymore so I didn't wear the brace today because I wanted to wear capris.
My parents took good care of me. They came out yesterday to bring my meds and we went out to dinner. I think I appreciate them more as I get older. It's hard to appreciate them when I live there though, I don't know, I just go crazy when I live there. Being out of the house makes me see things differently I suppose. Some people aren't as lucky as I am and I know it. I'm glad my parents aren't divorced and I'm glad my parents don't smoke pot with me b/c I know lots of parents that do with their kids. My parents are perfect for me I guess you could say.
I've been feeling kinda emo tonite. I dunno what brought it on either. I guess the fact that I haven't had a lot of homework and more time to think. Although I have tons of friends, the best I could ask for, I still feel kind of lonely sometimes. Like I know there's something way better out there but I'm so tired of waiting, I just want it to be here now. Sometimes when I get drunk, it intensifies more and I say dumb stuff, sorry if you have even been present during one of my drunk crying emo moments (and there have been more than one) but they just pop up out of know and I totally regret them the next day and wish they never happened. I suppose I am jealous sometimes but all I want is someone to nap with and play uno with and go to shows and just do nothing with. I miss having that. In a way I don't want to post this because then whoever reads it will read it and see it as a weakness. But I guess there's no hiding it. Oh well I guess I am done whining now.
Anyone that wants to go and see Matchbook Romance, Hidden in Plain View, and Midtown in Clifton Park on November 13th for $10 let me know, I am driving.
Current mood:
bored.Current music: Ohio is for Lovers - Hawthorne Heights.
Next weekend my hunny Alicia is coming up and staying here. I can't wait. School is definately different without her here, a little more boring I suppose. I'm not sure what we will be doing, but just having her here will be awesome.
Well its finally been 3 weeks so me and Elijah went to Alchemistress to get a smaller hoop and a stud for our lips. We went twice and they told us to come back later twice so we had to make an appointment for today.
The other night Elijah me and Kyle found this site that analyzes your name or something. It told me that I have to learn to be more expressive. I think that's probably true. In my blurty's I saw a lot, a lot of nothing pretty much. I don't care, I am expressive to who I want to be expressive too usually so thats enough for me.
I went out last night with Jenna, Kevin, and Rob and eventually Stephanie. I left with $8 and somehow now I have $10, sweet. We went to some crane house on main street. I didn't really like it that much. Like if you're not a Cranie they kind of make you feel unwelcome. I pretty much just sat on the couch the whole time. I guess it was better than staying in though so I shouldn't complain. There was a total Prince William look a like there and when I tried to point him out to people no one knew what Prince William looked like. lol We left there and walked to 17 pierrepont that wasn't even having a party so then we just walked home and some people kept drinking in Jenna's room but I was pretty much done. Jenna didn't want to stay in her room alone since Missi is gone so she was gonna sleep on the futon in here since Elijah and Sarah were gone but I feel asleep like 2 hours before her so she didn't sleep here. That about concludes my night, not the best night this semester but not a bad one either.
On the way to the 1st party,I was kind of drunk already since we had pregamed for like an hour and I fell. Yeah go me right? No, my ankle is all swelled, I think it's sprained but I'm no doctor. I don't want to have to go to health services though so we'll see how it looks later. I think me Elijah and Kyle are gonna go to a free show at SLU to see Abbott Hayes and Monday Mouring. Have fun
Current mood:
okay.Current music: The Shotgun Message - Norma Jean.
So another weekend at Potsdam state has been concluded and it as always was a good one. Jigga And Dennis came over on Friday to pick up some flyers and newspaper articles I had written for the press kit for Miscaif. Jigga tried to help me with my computer since it is being dumb lately and scanned it with adaware and found over 6000 files. It's still not working that well so he might come back today. It was good to see him, I guess I didn't realize over the summer since I didn't see him at all how much I like to hang out with him.
After he left a bunch of us from around the hall pregamed in here. That is my favorite tradition. Our room is the shit. I was also excited because I found someone else with the red cheek curse and that's Jenna from acorss the hall. We went to some random house party that we thought was Prometheous but I guess it wasn't. Kyle's friends from Tupper Lake came up so it was fun to hang out with them. I know some of them and I met others and I don't remember what their names are or anything. Oh well. I was drunk but not extremely. Me eli and kyle hung out mostly with Micha and Josh Trombley. They were a lot of fun to be around and at the same time I hated being around them. Confused? Josh kept calling me farter because when we slept in Kyle's room last year on the same mattress he said I farted on him and I soooo did not. Then some other story sprouted up and it changed to "Ashful Bashful", don't ask. We just hung out in Kyle's room for a while after thatand then Kyle and Josh came and slept in here since there was like 21478484 people sleeping in Kyle's room.
Saturday we of course pregamed in here again but we decided to try bicardi limon since we usually get vodka. Whew, that made us all pretty drunk. We went to Irv's and that was not fun so we walked to Jeremy Couch's apartment. He promised me and Eli on friday night if we didn't leave his house really drunk than he would refund our money. This weekend was the 541 reunion so we saw Deuce and Nate. Evan was there too and I talked to him for awhile. Jenna, em eli, kyle and steph left together to walk home. We were all very drunk this night and I remember me and Jenna holding each other up than we both fell down somehow. Elijah felt left out so she fell on top of us. It was funny shit. We got back here and went to the vending machine. For some reason me and Elijah started to wrestle and I fell down again literally smashing my head on the brick floor. It hurt sooo bad. I hate her now and I will kick her ass when she is least expecting it. I went to bed around 3 and woke up before 9 to work a 10 hour shift, yeah I suck at life sometimes.
Me Eli and Kyle are gonna go to some show at SLU to see Abbott Hayes and Monday Mourning. If anyone wants to go just im me. Pics from the weekend are posted on my webshots page, the link's in my info. The End
Current mood:
chipper.Current music: Onto Morning Stars - Anatomy of a Ghost.
I made a huge mistake. I partnered up with this AKO girl in comp and gave her my sn. She's a super nice girl but her sorority got my cell # and room # out of my info and have been calling me to go to their rush things and functions at least once a day.
Elijah and Sarah are at class still. That means I have the suite to myself for like 2 more hours which is a good thing because I get so much more stuff done when they are gone. No offense guys, there's just less distractions. I pretty much already have a lot of work. I hate working all day on Sunday's. That used to be my big "do your work" day and now it's gone. Oh well I will figure something out.
My sisters car broke so my parents have to give her money for a new one. Awesome for her right? Yeah, not good for me. Now they can't give me the money they were going to so I could get a new one. Oh well so when I found that out I went shopping online and got a bunch of new stuff. Then Eli, Kyle and me went to the mall on Saturday and I got some more stuff. I don't know how it happens but me and Elijah always end up picking out the same everything. Now we probably have like 5 of the same shirts, 1 pair of matching shoes, and 1 pair of matching pants. I even have a matching shirt with Kyle. haha
My lip is kind of annoying. As much as I like how it looks, it doesn't look so good when I drool while drinking. Not anymore so much, I kind of learned how to drink.
Me, Eli, and Kyle went to Phi Chi on Friday cuz it's where we go a lot. I guess about 200 other people had the same idea and it kicked before 11. I think we met like all the punk rock/hardcore kids there tho. I was wearing a Coheed shirt and 2 or 3 people started talking to me about Coheed and these two other guys were like "cool lip ring". Me and Elijah met this hardcore kid from Long Island, Lois. He seems like cool shit.
Me, Eli, Kyle, and Tanya and Missi and Kevin from across the hall went to Psi Phi Saturday night. Psi Phi has always been good to us. Lois was there and Elijah, Kyle and some other people smoked with him and Kyle ended up feeling like puking. Him and Eli almost left after being there for like 15 minutes. I'm glad I didn't smoke. I honestly don't think I will ever do it again. I ran into 2 people that worked at KB Toy's the first Xmas I worked there 3 years ago that don't go to Potsdam at that party. How random is that? But the same deal again, they kicked before 11. Why don't these frats realize they need more by now.
We stopped at this house on Pierrepont that asked us to go to their party when we were walking to Psi Phi. I think I drank more than I thought because Eli told me today that she asked Kyle for the time at one point and I tell her the time first and then say "I can still tell time and I'm drunk. What now bitch?" haha. Seriously I am a funny drunk. I ended up running into 2 guys from my business fig from first semester, Christian and Scott. Eli and Kyle left around 12:30 and I stayed there talking to Scott till like 2. It's kind of weird actually. Ya know how you can see a person a lot and not give them a second thought and then you randomly run into them and it's totally different? I don't know, I am bad at explaingin things but it was probabaly the most stimulating conversation I have ever had here at Pdam State. It was like one of those nights where you think, "Umm where did the time go? and you don't really want it to end?" But it had to because we basically were the only people left in the house besides the people that lived there.
So it was overall a really good weekend. I met a ton of awesome people. Weekends like this one make me appreciative. I can't really describe of what but just in general I guess.
Current mood:
satisfied.Current music: Casting Curses - Fairweather.
I only have time for a quick recap of the past weekend. I moved in and and Elijah and Sarah are here so it's good. Our bedroom is small but our common room is nice to have. We have a futon and a coffee table.
Me and Elijah stayed true to our word and went and got our lip pierced at alchemistress and I got a smaller ring for my tragus so it looks better. I went first and the anticipation was so much worse than actual pain. It didn't bleed or anything. I have pics of the adventure up on my webshots thanks to Sarah. On our way back to campus we stopped at Zeta to show the girls. I told my mom today and shes not that pissed but she told me she thinks it looks bad. I don't take it personally though because it's piercings in general that she dislikes.
So I get back on to campus and I'm driving to the parking lot and Sarah goes, "be careful theres a Uuniversity police behind you" as he turns on his lights and pulls me over. I was like wtf I was going the speed limit. But apparently I made a rolling stop through a stop sign. Who cares though? Honestly who stops the whole way? No one. But he just gave me a warning but it still sucked.
That's all for today, we have to fix up our room a bit more.
Current mood:
cheerful.Current music: crab- weezer.
The other night after work I went to my car and someone had been in it. You know how you can just tell sometimes? Well this isn't one of those times, it was blatantly obvious. My seats were completely reclined into the laying down position. The stuff from my center console was on my dashboard and the stuff in my glove box was in my seat. So I started my car and the windshield wipers were on full blast and so was the radio and air conditioning. I thought my Albany stalker had come up to mess with me. J/k But I was pretty freaked out by it. Turns out teo of my co workers did it then I laughed.
I developed my film from warped tour and the pics came out pretty decently. I'll post them on my webshots once I get my scanner hooked up at school.
I went and got 3 of my 6 textbooks from computer guys today. I also got my parking pass so I don't have to worry about that over the weekend. Elijah told me today she got a coffee table for our suite and we also have a futon so it will be pretty sweet. I'm soooooo psyched to go back but not too psyched for classes but I will deal. I also can't believe that in less than 72 hours Elijah and I will have our lips pierced. Wahoo
I signed up on myspace.com because it seems like the cool thing everyone is doing so I had to do it too. It's kind of fun and weird finding all these random people that you knew back in the day and then talking to them again.
I got Something Corporate's newest cd North off ebay and I am addicted to it. It's absoltely wonderful. Ok that's it. I'll write again once I am moved in to school
Current mood:
okay.Current music: Pizza Day - The Aquabats.