another day goes by slower and slower   
03:03pm 26/09/2003
 
mood: anxious
yeah so i spent the night at krystal's house last night. it was fun. we watched "attack of the killer tomatoes" it was so fucking awesome cuz it was the corniest movie ever! it was great though. and we went to denny's which was fun cuz i was really craving it. i had pancakes and they were yummy and fluffy. tomorrow is the interact car wash. ya'll should definitely all come! it'll be exciting. ummmmm oh yeah and tomorrow i have cheerleading from 12-4 (which is gonna suck) but then joseph and hopefully gabry are gonna pick me up from practice and we're gonna go out and do shit and it'll be fun. maybe we can get gaby's goldfishies finally! oh and today me and matt are gonna go feed ducks and i'm really excited!!! it's gonna be a lot of fun. i haven't fed ducks in forever! kaylyn said she was feeding them the other day and one bit her so i'm kinda scared. i hope they don't bite me. it'll be ok though! and lacy is showing her pig for FFA on sunday at the fair and i'm sad cuz i don't want her pig to get killed. i'm gonna miss it alot! i love that pig. i've grown attached to it! ok well time to go straighten my hair! love ya'll!!! kisses
 
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love goes a long way   
11:51pm 20/09/2003
 
mood: confused
yeah so i had a pretty bad day today. well it wasn't so bad but it still sucked. i went to that interact round up thing in the morning which was kinda ok. we got lots of good food which was good, but it was boring and REALLY cold!!! i like almost froze to death. hehe i met this really nice girl though. i forget her name. and ummmmm ok yeah well then we went home and i talked to david and he and i went to starbucks and got some coffee than we went back to my house and stayed here for awhile and then we went to go see matchstick men with gaby. it was a really good movie, a tad bit confusing though. i like wanted to cry cuz i really really didn't understand it. i didn't like that. it was good though. (david-good choice sweetie) but ummm yeah then when i got online later daniel got on and we talked and it was weird. i'm not sure if it was a good thing or a bad thing. i'm still trying to decide. i'm pretty sure i didn't need that though. like i think it was ok but i'm sure it would have been better if i had had more time to think things over and what not. maybe i just didn't need to talk to him at all. it just makes me think of what we could have had and what we don't have and i hate that shit. so yeah i guess it probably wasn't the best thing in the world to talk to him tonight but what can you do right? oh well. ok well i'm off to bed cuz i feel like shit. love ya'll! kisses
 
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for david   
06:59pm 20/09/2003
 
mood: cranky
ok well i haven't updated in a long time and david was just telling me that he tried to read my journal but since it wasn't updated he didn't bother. so he's over here and i'm updating just for him. i'll update later tonight as well. i think we might go to the movies. yup ok well bye. love ya'll!
 
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goodnight sweet stars   
11:21pm 12/09/2003
 
mood: drained
ok well i'm really tired and i'm going to bed now but i just wanted to say goodnight and have sweet, sweet dreams! love ya'll! kisses!
 
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goodnight sweet moon   
11:18pm 12/09/2003
 
mood: drained
oh and i wanted to say that i went out with gaby tonight and it was fun cuz we got cheese cake from friday's and then we went to chik fil a and she got a kid's meal and i drank half her lemonade and she got slapjack cards! yay! and then we went to the book store and sat and read magazines. good times! we still need to get your goldfishies gaby!!!! i love ya'll! kisses! night
 
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04:08pm 11/09/2003
 
mood: cold
i had this really strange dream about jared last night. i have no clue what it means, but i don't wanna have another one cuz i don't wanna be dreaming about the guy. it's creepy. well, daniel showed up during lunch today. it was kinda weird seeing him. i mean, i've wanted to see him for awhile now since we haven't talked for almost a week and i miss him and all, but what are you supposed to do when you know someone is bad for you and that they can't possibly bring you any happiness in the long run, but you still like them a lot and you would still go back and do everything over again if you had the chance? sure he's not the best guy in the world, and plenty of people have plenty of bad things to say about me being with him (well not anymore since we're not together anymore) but i can't help my feelings. i talked to someone about it today and he completely understood what i was saying and it was great cuz he didn't get mad and tell me i'm dumb for feeling like i do cuz he felt the exact same way about someone else. i don't know it was just good talking to him about it. but i do miss daniel, even if we didn't get along half the time cuz we both always thought we were mad at each other even if we weren't. and i mean sure, he cheated on me, and yeah i think that's really shitty but you gotta understand my point of view here, the feelings i have. you know what i mean? it's like how you punish your dog and yell at him and stuff when he does stuff wrong, but he still loves you and wants to lick you and play. yeah i don't know what to do anymore though. whatever. love ya'll! kisses
 
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i got this from someone's comment off of a journal..........i liked it   
04:06pm 11/09/2003
 
mood: confused
"my gosh, look at her footprints
all over your face
the way girls will walk all over you
and leave the biggest trace

cuz the trails we leave
are the ones that really scar
we're girls and we're dumb
and you'll never stray too far

from the drama we have dumped
on our adoring victims minds
and the way we tear you all up
and leave behind the peal and the grind"
 
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04:50pm 09/09/2003
 
mood: distressed
LAST PERSON WHO..

Slept in your bed: me
Saw you cry: michael
Made you cry: no can make you cry, you can only choose to yourself
Spent the night at your house: uh i don't even remember
You shared a drink with: michael
You went to the movies with: kerry and mom
You went to the mall with: dad
Yelled at you: mom
Sent you an e-mail: sara & kayle
You kissed: daniel


HAVE YOU EVER..

Said "I love you" and meant it?: yes
Gotten in a fight with your pet: no i would never
Been to New York?: yes
Been to Florida?: yes
California?: yes
Hawaii?: no
Mexico?: no
China?: no but japan, it's kinda the same
Canada?: yes
Danced naked?: in my room
Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: not that i can think of
Wish you were the opposite sex:yes
Had an imaginary friend: yes


RANDOM...

Red or blue? either
Spring or fall? both
Are you bored? yes
Last noise you heard? me coughing
Last time you went out of the state: july
Things you like in a girl/guy?: personality, eyes
Do you have a crush on someone? i'm not even sure anymore
What book are you reading now? go ask alice
Worst feeling in the world: hate, jealousy, pain
What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning: sleeping again
How many rings before you answer? 2
Future daughter's name: savanah
Future son's name: don't know
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? sometimes
If you could have any job you wanted: child psychologist
Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous? righty
Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? yes
What's under your bed? clothes
Favorite sport to watch? cheerleading
Current Age: 16
Siblings: 2 brothers, 1 sister
Location: sugar land, texas
College plans: college and stuff for child psychology
Piercings: ears, belly button
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: no


THE EXTRA STUFF

Do you do drugs: no
Do you drink: yes
Who is(are) your best friend(s)?: lisa, gaby, joey, lacy
What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: herbal essences
What are you most scared of?: losing someone i love
What clothes do you sleep in?: pjs
Who is the last person who called you? gaby
Where do you want to get married?: europe somewhere
Who do you really hate?: ah well right now..........
What Type Automobile Do You Drive: i'm too scared to drive
Are You Timely Or Always Late: it depends, mostly on time or fashionably late
Do You Have A Job: does randomly baby-sitting count?
Do You Like Being Around People: yup most of the time
Best feeling in the world: being loved
Are you for world peace: yes
Are you a health freak: yes


STUFF

Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: ha all the time
Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: yes
Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: na not really, but i tend to lean towards the ones that never work out
Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: kinda
Ever Liked a close Guy/Girl Friend: yes
Are You Lonely Right Now: i'm wishing i could have someone back, so kinda
Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: yes
Do You Want To Get Married: yes
Do You Want Kids: yes

FAVORITE
Room In house: mine or my brothers
Type(s) of music: mostly anything
Song: it changes a lot
Memory: me and lisa playing in my backyard when we were little
Day Of The Week: friday or saturday
Color: pink
Perfume Or Cologne: versachi on guys and ummmm i don't know about girls, but i like aura from american eagle
Month: i don't know
Season: fall

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU..

Cried: yes
Bought Something: yes
Gotten Sick: i am right now
Sang: every day
Said I Love You: yes but only to my friends
Met Someone New: uh i don't remember
Talked To Someone: yes
Had A Serious Talk: yes
Missed Someone: every day
Hugged Someone: i'm always hugging people! i love hugs!!
Kissed Someone: no
Fought With Your Parents: yes
Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: day dreamed
Had a lot of sleep: no
 
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04:45pm 09/09/2003
 
mood: sick
Individuality
Individuality


Which Life Stage Are You?
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=)   
10:49am 06/09/2003
 
mood: awake
yeah so i might have out with josh today. i talked to him last night and he said he wanted to hang out today. he was really drunk last night. he's such a cutie! hehe awww i love that guy. he's funny when he's drunk. i saw him last night and i went up and hugged carlos and he was like "whoa dude" hehehe i just had to laugh at him. i don't know it's just the way he acts, it can always make you smile, even when he doesn't mean for that to happen. it's great. but yeah so i'm not feeling too good today. my head hearts, my nose is stuffed up, my throat still hurts, and now i'm starting to cough. it sucks. i think i'm gonna drink some tea and take a hot shower and maybe i'll feel better soon. i'm good though. i just needed some sleep last night and i got it so i'm not tired anymore. ah ok well i'm gonna go color some more. love ya'll! kisses!
 
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i'm an angel in disguise   
12:27am 06/09/2003
  Heaven
You come from Heaven. You're the purest of pure, a
saint. You're probably an angel sent directly
from Heaven.


Where Did Your Soul Originate?
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i like sun and brightness   
12:22am 06/09/2003
 
mood: drained
Sun Goddess
Goddess of the Sun and there's no doubt that you
have a bright and cheery exterior!


What element would you rein over? (For Girls)
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weird stuff   
12:17am 06/09/2003
  Hoech is your Vampire name.
Your Vampire name means that you are both powerful
and wise. People come to you with questions
about everything, and you have all the answers.
To use your new Vampire name and become a Vampire,
go here:
www.life-blood.cjb.net


What is your Vampire name?
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ah carlos- this one's for you   
12:00am 06/09/2003
 
mood: discontent
well sweetie you still amaze me with that wonderful loving heart of yours. you have got to be one of the most caring people i have ever met. ah i know you're gonna help so many people with so many problems. you always seem to be there at just the right times, just when i need you. i don't think i'm ever gonna figure out how you do it. i'm glad you're you though. it's people like you who make the world seem like such a better place. it's amazing how one person can change you whole outlook on things. and that one person can make everything seem so much better and make it seem like everything is ok, by just being there at that one moment when you need them the most. and it's not even that they say just the right things, it's just the way they look at you and give you a hug and let you cry on their shoulder. the way they hold you tight until you're finally ready to let go, and then when you finally do let go and you realize that you need to be held again, they're always happy to lend you that shoulder again, even if it's already all wet from tears. i love those people more than anyone else in the world because at those bad times, they can make the world look so much more beautiful than it already is, without even saying a word. that's the most precious trait that someone can have.
 
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10:16pm 05/09/2003
 
mood: crappy
ah i'm threw with guys. and i know i say that everytime but i really am just so sick of this shit. it's like it's all great and happy for awhile and then the shit starts happening. i was just telling someone this and that i was just waiting for the shit to start and now it has. well, it started before but now it's really sinking in. why do i even bother? i mean why do i even get involved in this shit in the first place? what's the point? there isn't one! everytime i think i find a decent one, it turns out i was wrong. so really why bother? i don't think i even will anymore. there's no point. yeah but so that's today for ya'll.
 
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hehe i am a girlie girl!   
08:26pm 03/09/2003
  GIRLY GIRL - Clever Kitty
A GIRLY-GIRL. You dont have a lot of self-esteem
and people are always bringing you down for
being sad. What do they know, anyway? You feel
like youre too mature for your age and are
frustrated by the trend-followers who refuse to
accept you because youre not like them.
Your virtues: Intelligence, understanding nature,
modesty.
Your flaws: Lack of social life, inferiority
complex, timidity.


What kind of girl are you?
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i love kisses!! (daniel i need you!)   
08:16pm 03/09/2003
  dominant
You have a dominant kiss- you take charge and make
sure your partner can feel it! Done artfully,
it can be very satisfactory if he/she is into
you playing the dominant role MEORW!


What kind of kiss are you?
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i love kisses!! (daniel i need you!)   
08:11pm 03/09/2003
  dominant
You have a dominant kiss- you take charge and make
sure your partner can feel it! Done artfully,
it can be very satisfactory if he/she is into
you playing the dominant role MEORW!


What kind of kiss are you?
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08:06pm 03/09/2003
  CWINDOWSDesktopPowerRangeres.jpg
Power Rangers Movie!


What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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yucky picture!   
07:55pm 03/09/2003
  Lisa Kudrow
Lisa Kudrow


Which Celeb Without Makeup are you? - Girls (INCLUDES GREAT FUNNY PICTURES!)
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