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| 09:55am 04/03/2007 |
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mood:  discontent
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So from my last entry I've made some decisions...Major decisions. I decided it would be insanely stupid if I went to go work for my father. We don't get along 97% of the time and it would be ten times worse if I was working for him. I decided that I'm just going to stick it out at my job now until June. Once June comes I'm gunna be so busy with last minute high school things and I wanna enjoy my last month of highschool and not worry about work. So I'll probably end up quitting once June comes and not work this summer. So my my love triange, or maybe a square at this point has comletely taken a turn...and I don't know if its for the worse. I thought that me and 'Tommy' could really have something great but in the two weeks that we've been talking hes blown me off 3 times, not the best start in the world. And on the other hand everytime 'Tommy' pisses me off I go running back to 'Derek' and he always tells me that he would never do those things to me, but the fact that he has a girlfriend and is stringing me along is so much worse. So I wound up hanging out with 'Derek' on Friday night. I was completely in shock, we went out for pizza all of 5 minutes from his house. I couldn't believe we went out in public together on a Friday night when he has a girlfriend. So after we were done eating we went back to his house ... and thats when everything went downhill. At first I sat on the other side of the room away from him but he managed to get me to sit on the futon with him [ not to mention that this is where all the 'magic' occured from our last experience ; so you could imagine the memories that were flying through my head ]. At first we were just flirting and playing aruond with each other but then things got a little steamy and we ended up kissing. NAd you know how that goes, one thing leads to another but it didn't lead to far. When all was said and done I've completely fallen in love with him again. I can't deny my feelings for him, and he can't deny his for me. It's the worst situation to be in and I just can't help it....hopefully next time I'll have some good news :-\ |
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| 07:18pm 25/02/2007 |
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mood:  happy
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Life is crazy. Absolutely crazy. I can't believe I'm gunna be graduating high school in 4 months and probably going to Rider University. It's so exciting. I think I might quit my job and go work for my dad which is a little scary cause we dont get along haha. So I think I might like someone other than the boy I've been crushing on since August. The boy from August we'll call him "Derek" .. I met him one nite at a party and hung out with him a couple of weeks later and we would up hanging out all the time, talking all the time, being together almost every day...the only thing was he had a girlfriend. And it sucked, things got serious between us and everything got messed up at that point. We stopped talking for months until a mutual friend of ours helped us to start talking again. Which I was completely happy about but he's still with his girlfriend but you would never guess from the way we talk. It's just a really tough situation...but now this other boy is showing interest in me, we'll call him "Tommy" .. I really like him; hes real cute, great personality .. hes cool but I just keep thinking about Derek and I know I shouldn't wait around forever for him .. I guess I'm just gunna have to wait this all out && see what happens. |
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