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I remember being in-love with you
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[05 Jul 2004|03:16pm] |
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Lastnight.was.awesome.
YOU might now want to know this but that's okay..I don't write in here for what YOU read..I write because I have something to say. Kinda.
( What did Megan do this morning? )
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[24 Jun 2004|01:58am] |
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Okay, so today I woke up at 830 and so did my mom. We were cleaning the house and doing all kinds of weird shit until 2. I went to Carrie's until 530 or so and come home to my mom being pissed off because I was gone so long. "you should have called if you were going to take forever!" Shutup :) Anyways, she was drinking, of course. And the ONE thing that REALLY bothers me about her drinking is that she'll get on the phone and repeat herself FOR HOURS! She says the SAME THING over and over and over...it's so damn stupid. That and she thinks she knows everything. I asked to use the computer and what not at 11 so I could talk to Carrie some more and have some fun since i didn't get to do a single damn things I wanted to do on MY DAY OFF. Noooooooo she had to talk to my sister for 4 hours about the same thing over and over and over and over.
my whole family doesn't want me to stay here in south central texas by myself after my mom and dad move to Arkansas. I'm 18 but they all treat me like a baby. It's crazy. I know alot of people say this BUT IT'S TRUE!
I never get to do anything because my parents are always tired and the one friend I do have is married to an asshole who won't let her do anything. I give my parents most of my checks and I'm so unhappy it's unreal. I really need to cry and I really want to because I'm going insane here. I'm glad they'll be gone this weekend. I told my mom that I'll be moving out in one month. I just need to find a place now.
I can't even describe how pissed off I am right now...
*Hugs & Kisses & a "hey fuck you!"*
.Megan.
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[17 Jun 2004|02:28pm] |
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I have a new journal. I'm not using this one anymore. Blurty Sucks :)
Greatestjournal.com
username - VictimAuthority
actually its not NEW but I use it more than this one so go make one and read my journal. It's friends only :)
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| sleeping off the night before cuz when the sun goes down we'll be back for more |
[17 Jun 2004|12:52am] |
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So much for my day off. I get a phone call around 7 from Heather asking me if I could come in and close because she's been there since 6 this morning and can't get ahold of Kristie. Carrie quit :) She was a friend of mine and she didn't even tell me. It just pisses me off that she quit today, of all days. She knew it was my day off and she knew that if she called in or quite, they'd call me. I wouldn't do that to someone. Now, I don't get a day off this week. But that's okay really because it will make my check bigger. Speaking of checks, I get pain on the 20th and it's going to be pretty good. I got my blue shirts and my SHIFT LEADER tag and tonight I got my own stroe key :D That's exciting as hell. I haven't even seen Ms Brenda since she kinda talked me into staying. I'm happy with my job though, I like being shift leader and I think everyone likes me :) It really made me feel good when David said that he'd rather close with me than Heather or Kristie :D I'm cool like that.
Anyways, I think I might have to make myself clean my room tomorrow, It's getting pretty bad. Clothes on the floor, shoes under the bed, CD's EVERYWHERE. Someone come clean it for me. And change my lightbulb, I think it's about to go out :)
Well kiddos, that's all I really have to say right now. I'm going to eat me some crackers :)
*Hugs & Kisses & a Hobo's shoe*
.Megan.
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| i wont let fear clip my wings and tell me how high I can fly |
[16 Jun 2004|05:09pm] |
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[15 Jun 2004|01:24pm] |
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I'm so glad to be talking to Michael again. In a way, it scares me but the giddy feelings knocks the hell out of that :) I guess you'd have to know him to see why It's making me so happy, confused, and scared all at the same time lol
I only slept from 9 to 1. I'm feeling fine. He'll be asleep until 7 or 8 tonight lmao. :)
*Hugs & Kisses & a A bag of skittles*
.Megan.
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| you kinky bitch :) |
[15 Jun 2004|05:26am] |
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AW SHIT <3 Okay, i'm confused. Michael. I wubbles much. BUT, I am SO not ready to start liking him like that again. I talked to hime for like....2 hours (?) lastnight and the WHOLE damn time, I had a HUGE smile on my face. hehe. I mean, OMG not only is he AMAZINGLY cute, but he's funny, smart and I'd have to say a pretty awesome friend :) God dammit. I am one of the happiest girls in the world right now but I am also the most confused. I don't want to go to sleep because I don't want this to end...
*Hugs & Kisses & a bag of skittles*
.Megan.
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| So called chaos |
[15 Jun 2004|12:45am] |
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Deadlines, meetings and contracts all breached
D-days and structure responsibility
Have-to's and need-to's and get-to's by three
Eleventh hours and upset employees
Heartburn and headaches and soon-to-be ulcers
Compulsive yearnings non-stop to please others
Line towing, and helping, expectations up to living
Inside box obeying, inside line cutting
I want to be naked, running through the streets
I want to invite this so called chaos, that you'd think I dare not be
I want to be weightless, flying through the air
I want to drop all these limitations and return to who I was meant to be
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| its about time you invest in me cuz if not i think it's best you leave |
[15 Jun 2004|12:05am] |
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No matter what I do. No matter how hard I try. No matter what gets in the way, I'll still fall to my knees in my own pathetic actions.
I'm thinking nothing is going to turn out for the better because nothing is ever good enough to suit anyone anymore.
You give me headaches and you break my heart, but you still seem to carry on.
I guess I just don't understand any words that come out of your mouth because I'm too busy already worrying about the consequences.
Thanks in advance for screwing me over so many times.
I'd cry, but honestly, there are no more tears left to fall down these rosey cheeks that have been hit so many times before.
Maybe I don't need you. Maybe I don't need anyone.
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| tonight I'll be your NAUGHTY GIRL |
[13 Jun 2004|12:52am] |
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Tonight I'll be ur naughty girl
I'm callin all my girlz
We're gonna turn this party out
I know u want my body
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| 2004 summer swim suit for Kirby :0) |
[11 Jun 2004|08:58pm] |
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I can't believe i'm actually going to wear a bikini with my curvy, chubby body. atleast it looks WAY better since last summer. I've lost 35 lbs since then. I'm not hawt but damn..im alright now.
I could lose...15 or 20 more...couldnt hurt..
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[11 Jun 2004|06:25pm] |
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My day was okay, I guess. We weren't busy at all. We didn't even have a lunch rush. BORING. I cleaned. That store was so clean today, you can tell I did it. :) Now i'm all bored and hot. SO HOT. bleh it sucks to live in Texas. If you ever have a chance to..pass :)
*Hugs & Kisses & a bag of skittles*
.Megan.
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| it hella sucks to be me right now |
[10 Jun 2004|06:27pm] |
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Well one thing that has really been driving me crazy is my mom. Not my mom herself..but her health. She's been having trouble for a year now and she's finally getting something done to help. Monday she goes to the doctor for an xray to see why she's always needing her nitro pills and the doctor thinks something is wrong with her stomach too. Which worries me because two of her aunts have had tumors in their stomach and she might too. My mother and father will be moving to Arkansas after my father's time here is up. I don't want to move up there with them but I don't want to be here alone and I want to make sure my mom is okay. If I do move with them, i'll get my own apartment but If I don't, I wont stay in central Texas. I'd really be alone because all of my family is in north and east Texas. I'm not saying I want to live next door to any of them but I do want to live closer than 200 miles. I'm not even sure where to begin on my own. I think I'm going to be the one kid that never leaves.
I noticed the other day that my mother is always telling my brothers and sisters that she's proud of them. Travis is a great father, Kristin is dealing with shit that no mother should, Josh is raising 3 kids on his own and Wendesday just had her first kid and my little brother just got his first job. lmao I don't do shit. Come to think of it, I really am a boring person. Think about it, I wake up, go to work, come home, shower, read or write something, clean up after everyone that has came through the house that day and go to sleep. I don't go out and have fun like normal 18 year old girl's do. I don't think i really know how to explain what I mean here....nevermind.
Sometimes I wish my parents would have let me stay in public school instead of that homeschool bullshit. Yeah, we did move around a bit but I think I might have turned out different. I mean, a person that is alone all the time is going to be different from a person that's around people like in public schools. I almost wish I could just go back and start all over. Yeah I'm going to college and everything but everyone should have the high school experience. I don't even know what it's like to have a schedule or homecoming games and a graduation. I truly do think that I'd be different if I were in public school. I don't know where I'm going with this...just some thoughts.
*Hugs & Kisses & a bag of skittles*
.Megan.
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[10 Jun 2004|03:26pm] |
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I think I might change my journal a little bit. I like the stripes and everything I have now, but i miss my CA picture :) We'll see...
OoOOooOooh JOHNNY DEPP <3<3<3<3
*Hugs & Kisses & a bag of skittles*
.Megan.
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[09 Jun 2004|08:28pm] |
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I've lost repect for you.
I thought I could look beyond and be "cool"
but I cannot.
I will not respect people that basically ride short bus because they are killing brain cells because they are STUPID.
I dont like stupid people.
your short bus doesnt even come with tinted windows.
you are an illusion of everything you are not.
you are nothing but a pretty shell on the outside.
you are rotten inside. smelly egg rotten.
this is not me acting immature and unforgiving and holding a grudge.
this is me growing up and coming to the realization that you are stupid and will never grow up.
good luck to you
:D
*sigh of relief*
Yeah so hmm. It's raining. Again. BAD. I hate being alone in this weather. :( Wimp.
Yeah so...Michael, HI :) Ya know, I really want to talk to you but you, im guessing, are never online (meaning, on aim, yahoo or msn) but that's okay I guess.. :)
I dont really feel like updating...why am I?
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[07 Jun 2004|07:28pm] |
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( Pucker Up )
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| SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX |
[06 Jun 2004|11:32pm] |
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WHY DO I ALWAYS THINK OF SEX?
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[06 Jun 2004|11:24pm] |
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My finger still hurts :( I can't belive I fuckin cut it with a cd player lmao. geez Megan, you're a dorkwad. I think I might be going out next weekend with Hope, my little...girlfriend...yeah it's going to be FUN FUN FUN. She's so cute. It's really cool because we're both tall and we're into the same things. *smile* I think Megan has a crush on a girl that has a crush on her...oh what to do now...haha..
*Hugs & Kisses*
.Megan.
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[01 Jun 2004|10:48pm] |
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Alright so..I've been in the truck ALL DAY LONG. My butt is a little tired. Oh well, atleast I wasn't at work. haha. First, we went to lunch. yum. Then my mom and I took my dad back to work and headed toward the bank, which is 60 miles away. We stop at the DQ in Coppreas Cove and I got a milkshake and she got a tea. My shake was yummy in case you wanted to know. We finally got there and got the money and the money orders and then we were on the road again to come home. We stopped at this little store we always stop at and got a soda and gas. We saw this old man on the side of the road selling fruit and veggies so we stopped and got some onions, tomatoes and new potatoes (my favorite) and get this, that old man was looking at my mom's boobs! I noticed it and I had to walk away and giggle. The old man's gotta get his kicks somewhere, why not get it from a lady buying your veggies. Anways, we finally got back in Killeen and we had to go to the cash store to pay some money and there were so many people there we decided to run to office depot and wal mart real quick and then be back in time before they close. We put in my 3 rolls of film at wal mart and then went to office depot. I wanted to get a webcam because...well...I just want one but the only one I found was $38 and so I got it. We head back across town to the cash store and we get caught behind a damn train. We sat there for ATLEAST 20 minutes waiting to cross over. We FINALLY get over and there's still people at the store so I wait in the truck and my mom went in. She was in there 30 minutes before she was able to pay it. Meanwhile, I was outside sitting sideways out the door of the truck talking to some guys that worked beside that store about tattoos while I was tanning my legs :) We head home so my mom can call the landlady and tell her that she'll be over today to give her the money for the house while i'm fucking with this cam I had gotten earlier. I install everything and when it says to plug in the cam, I take it out of the bix only to find that damn thing is broken! Oh that pissed me off. Our friend Esmaralda came over and we decided to go out to eat. We either had to wait for my dad to come home and then go or Esmaralda and I could go to Wal mart and look what kind of cams they have while my mom goes and picks up my dad and pays the rent and then we meet at the resturant. We go do our thing, they do theirs and we barely make it inside when it starts raining like hell outside. BAH. We ate and took our movies back to Hastings and now here I am typing this and listening to the news on t.v. I can't say I really enjoyed my day off but it was a damn sight better than being at work
I didn't get to talk to James at that much tonight which really sucks because I LOVE talking to him. I like him. No, I really like him...there's my problem.
I have to go to work at 8 in the morning. I work all friggin' day. 8-2 and then 7-close. We close at 11 everynight now. *grr* dammit. I really hate closing that late because It doesn't really give me any time to do anything after work. They better hope Miss Brenda isn't there telling me to get on my hands and knees to clean the sides of the walls, i'll walk the fuck out. I don't care. I'm good at what I do, and I could get a job and any other place in town. I really do hate fast food though...bah. But, that will change since I just got my dimploma and will be starting college soon. WEE WOO I'm all out of things to say.
I'm going to go take a bath now, I was sweating today when I was "tanning”. I love bath time..
*Hugs & Kisses*
.Megan.
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