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Tuesday, October 14th, 2003

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Subject: this is what i'm like Time: 1:47 am. Mood: weird. Music: dead inside the chrysalis - come 2 daddy.

when, i'm not on my meds. i sleep all the time, i'm like a cat....i have a vertigo-feeling. i seem to always have headaches and i get fucked up dreams when i nap and actually sleep more than 5 hours. my dreams have been consisting of vampires.....vampires of friends that i have....and lots of blood. and body parts like hands, turning into vampires and me making them blow up in ovens. yeah, i'm weird.

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Subject: ye gods! Time: 11:31 pm. Mood: confused.

i just saw a skunk run across the street in front of my car in town! what the hell?! why are there skunks in town?! i'm confused. i know that wahpeton is close to the river and all, but i didn't think that wild animals (besides turkeys) came into town! ah! that so strange. i'm glad i didn't hit the poor thing. i thought it was a cat! i've heard tho that skunks are just like cats when they are de-scented. ah, i got my dress for the witches ball today and i'll be getting my tattoo finished (hopefully) this weekend. and then i'll take photos of everything. and that'll prolly be all done in november, after i'm done with the play i'm in. kat

(lightning)

Subject: sickness Time: 11:32 am. Mood: sick.

i hate being sick, i went to the doctor yesterday i'm missing some blood now. slept all day yesterday, except for the doctor. missed my class yesterday, missed one class today. and i still feel like crap and i want more sleep!

(lightning)

Subject: meow Time: 12:10 am. Mood: confused. Music: mew.

well, okay i've started college (uni) and all that jazz. i work now. i have made some new friends. one that is a downer and one that is positive all the time, except when he is drunk. and i found out that he (the positive one or tyler) use to have a big crush on my younger sister kierann, because she was in cross country and was like all buffed out. and yeah, there were a ton of guys that liked my sister. but anyways to my story. tyler and i are friends, and sometimes i hang out in his room. we cuddle and watch movies....well most of the cuddling turns into makeout weee fun things.....(no sex). i'll admit that twice it was my fault and after the second time we promised to behave whevever we wanted to cuddle. *sigh* tyler didn't live up to that promise. we cuddled tonight and well yeah....the bra - pants - and among other things came off. damn and was he ever horny. of among all the things he asks was if i had a condom.....which no i never carry them around. well sometimes, but no not very often. i have this fear of penises, i think they are ugly and ummm...remind me of a mushroom. so, i won't give head, plus i kinda have a gag reflex, and that wouldn't work. but i like sex. anyhoo, i boob fucked him in a way. and i are not sticky there. woohoo! so, now he has a new promise that no clothes will come off the next time we are together. *pfhhhtt* like he will stay true to that. so, i'll get to torture him with tickling and pinches. kat p.s. i got to see 'once upon a time in mexico'. excellent movie. plus got to johnny depp with no eyeballs. hehehe...twas spiffy.

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Subject: vampires Time: 12:09 am. Mood: confused.

i guess i need to watch tv more often. there's a new vampire movie coming out! and i didn't know about it! ahhhhh! i love those types of movies. 'underworld' as it is called, from what i heard from my little brother it's about a vampiress name Selene. that's all i know. i went on Internet Movie Database to look for other new vampire movies. next year, there will be a new Blade movie, called Blade: Trinity in 2004. i grabbed one of the bios about it. "As an apocalyptic event takes place that could shift the control of the planet Earth from the hands of humanity to the claws of vampires, the Daywalker, Blade (Snipes) is the only person who can turn the tide of the crisis against the undead blood suckers and prevent the world from becoming a "Planet of the Vampires". To make things a lot harder for Blade, the vampire leadership launches a public relations "smear campaign" against Blade, letting the world of humans know that he exists, so that the police start hunting him down, thinking he is some sort of horrible monster..." kat p.s. more updates soon, getting use to my college schedule

(lightning)

Subject: (a) i like to / (b) i'd like to Time: 9:26 pm. Mood: tired.

(a) run my fingernails down guys' barebacks when i'm making out with them (a) beep noses (a) skip down the street, even if i look like an idiot (a) whistle dixie (a) drink lots of caffeine (a) tell people that i'm weird and they don't have to tell me that already (b) meet a guy who could understand my craziness (a) think that i'll be in a famous band someday (b) call up my friend shelton in auckland, new zealand and give him hell, cause he hasn't sent me any photos yet. (b) tell shelton to stop being in my dreams (b) get into a pie fight with someone (a) make pies for bands i like (a) pay credit card bills online, cause it's faster (a) bite noses (b) learn how to wakeboard (b) go to new zealand (b) go to school (full sail) in florida for computer/video game design (b) beep shelton's nose

(lightning)

Subject: interesting Time: 1:37 pm. Mood: hungry.

Kathleen is the #36 most common female name. 0.424% of females in the US are named Kathleen. Around 540600 US females are named Kathleen! source namestatistics.com Smith is the #1 most common last name. 1.006% of last names in the US are Smith. Around 2515000 US last names are Smith! source namestatistics.com

(lightning)

Subject: kinda dead in here, ain't it? Time: 12:52 pm. Mood: crazy.

well, hmmmmmm.....i experienced my first threesome, early sunday morning. twas exciting and interesting. and the best thing about it was that it was with my best friend aurora and my mutal friend metro. i shall update more later about the powerman 5000 concert and other things kat

(lightning)

Subject: online personals Time: 12:01 pm. Mood: giggly.

yes, i have to admit that i do have an online personal. i'm not gonna say where, but i only do it so i can see if guys actually reply to the damn thing. and i'm surprised that alot have. well, today i decided to do the match-me-with-someone-button and low and behold i got matched with someone that i met way back in may. lol! it was hilarious. actually the guy is in the band Screaming Monkey Boner and his name is bryan. hehehe, it's funny. i emailed the band, so that they can get a message to him from me, the rest of the band is gonna give him so much shit for getting an online personal. lol! *falls off the chair* poor bryan, but yet he's so cute.

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Subject: the complex Time: 8:33 pm. Mood: hot. Music: grinspoon - chemical heart.

okay, so there's jarrett. i meet him two years ago at a halloween show at reed land (in fargo). i complimented him on his choice of halloween gear....dressed as chad from mudvayne, well what he looked like on the first album. anyhoo, jarrett the lead singer of the band invividly. he has the lead-singer complex. where as to me it seems that he can date any girl. mostly i see him with blondes. and from what i heard they are 16 and he's 20. hmmmm.....he seems to be robbing the cradle and also possibly committing satutatory rape. so, if this should occur. if he breaks some poor girl's heart and well, they ahem.....and she's smart enough, could turn him for satutatory. he then would have to registar as a sex offendor. poor jarrett, then no more 16 year old blondes would be able to come to the shows or any kids for that matter. so this has been on my mind for awhile now. kat

(lightning)

Subject: up at 1 pm Time: 1:36 pm. Mood: calm. Music: grinspoon - chemical heart.

i'm feeling much better now, no more head spinnys. ooo, i got my jerk and grinspoon album that ordered from Whammo today. eh. the jerk album is alright, but i love grinspoon. nice. fucking good album. hmmm, need food. kat

(lightning)

Subject: in circles Time: 1:02 am. Mood: sick.

i feel like i'm gonna throw up. i don't even know why. my head feels like it has been turning in circles all day long. urg....i'm not tired. i got enough sleep, but why do i feel like this. i ate some food hoping that my weirdness would go away, it did for awhile but now it's back. and i don't know if i'll make it thru the night without woofing my cookies. at least, my dad won't have to chat with me, cause i'll be sicker than a kid that has a runny nose. excuse me, while i go sit next to the porcelin goddess for the next 3 hours. kat

(lightning)

Subject: stop whining Time: 1:59 pm. Mood: annoyed.

lemme rephrase what i said last night. yes, andrew is gorgeous but he is also a bitch and he whines too much. i don't like whiney people. i remember now why i stayed my distance from him in first place. on a brighter note, i have an acoustic/electric guitar that i put on layaway last week. it's a fender and it's blue with pink, green and yellow flowers on it. when i finally get done paying it off, i'll post a pic of it. now i'll be off to find a job

(lightning)

Subject: i saw a squirrel Time: 2:17 am. Mood: crazy. Music: the sound of five computers.

i bought a $26 bottle of jag. and stevo is going to die tonight. not literally, tho. moooooo i need sleep and um...i still think andrew is really fucking gorgeous. and he just walked down the stairs. woohoo! lol! oh yeah, i'm in this really cool house out in the country outside of fargo. gonna go mingle and watch a really cool cat bitch fight a stray

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Subject: "i can see up it's nose" Time: 2:34 pm. Mood: crazy.

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Subject: months past Time: 3:38 pm. Mood: crazy. Music: 8 foot sativa - before your suffering.

order of concerts: (hed) pe - june 5th stone sour / powerman 5000 - may 27th mudvayne - april 30 (?) now about what has been happening with me and here in fargo. i'm doing promotion for concerts, i got into the (hed) pe concert for free too. except for the mudvayne and stone sour i paid for those. but i made friends out of chad and corey from the both bands. okay, this is how it went: i have friends that are in the band invividly (http://www.invividly.com) and they opened for mudvayne. the deal was between me and the bass player, andrew that i make two pies for the lot if they opened for them....i talked to steve, the guitar player and he said i should make one for each of the members, so that would mean i'd have to make 5 pies altogether. so, they got to open for mudvayne.....i make 7 pies.....five for invividly, one for mudvayne and one for the other band that played too. so, now when chad (lead singer for mudvayne) emails the guy that i do the promotion posters for he asks how the 'pie girl' is doing. hah! with stone sour, i made four pies.....but one of the bands didn't show so that one went to a friend....you should've seen the look on corey's face when i gave him the pie....i kept getting hugs all night and he calls me by real name, which is kathleen. one thing tho, is that when either stone sour or slipknot come to fargo....corey will get a pie to a himself and the rest of the band will get cookies....cause a friend that was at X Fest told me that corey only got a bite of pie and jim ate the rest. i also gave cookies to (hed) pe and sunset black. and when the next band that comes thru that i like, they will get cookies. that will either be evavesence or static-x. except for evavescence comes the singer will get a tori amos mix from me. yes, i'm too nice, but i don't let people walk all over me. gotta get dressed and all tidied up. kat

(lightning)

Subject: not dead Time: 10:07 pm. Mood: hungry.

okay, so have a modem and living with poor friends isn't good. on a good note i've seen a shiteload of concerts in the past month and half......i saw mudvayne at the end of april, stone sour at the end of may and (hed) pe just on thursday. been making alot of cookies, pies and grilled cheese sandwiches. mmmmmm need food. sometime, i shall post some piccies of myself and concerts. need food

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