i'd rather be anything but       ( ordinary )

February 11, 2003 @ 01:58 pm I miss Lindsay, sob. 3 tried to save my life.

February 10, 2003 @ 07:29 pm mood:    enthralled music:   always on my mind - phantom planet I'm thinking people should update. And come online. And stuff. SOB. Hmm. Eden came back. YAY. I'm gonna throw a party for him. HAHAHA. Not really, but it sounded cool. I have nothing of interest to say. I just wanted to update for the sake of updating cuz we're dead. Sob. save my life.

February 09, 2003 @ 03:41 pm mood:    discontent music:   god of wine - third eye blind Ew I've been dead and it sucks. Bad Ari. Hmm. I'm confused about something. How can someone have me in their profile with, and I quote, "My bestest gal friend, Ari" next to my name when I don't even TALK to that person. We haven't had a decent conversation with eachother since before.. well, nevermind. But yes.. that confuses me. Whats the point? Are we trying to pretend that we have some solid friendship? Because that friendship we HAD was proven to not be solid awhile ago. So I think its time we both moved on and forgot about eachother. Anyhow. I haven't talked to my boyfriend lately. -shrugs- I don't know what to say to that. I guess he's going to abandon me as well. I should be used to guys doing that by now. And an edit on one of my other posts.. I have three friends. Haha. So Kait & Chase & ABBY <33333 Um.. I have nothing else to say. I suck. People should get online though. save my life.

February 08, 2003 @ 04:06 pm mood:    amused apparently i'm secretly in love with chase. this is all news to me. hahahahahahaha. actually. i'm secretly in love with kaitlin. -big cheesy grin- 2 tried to save my life.

February 08, 2003 @ 03:32 pm mood:    amused haha. i think james is right about me. i only have one friend. no, i have two friends. but at least the two friends that i have are the greatest ever. kait & chase. <333333 edit; and you know what? i give up on boys. except chase that is.. but he doesn't count. but i do give up on boys. because they all suck. 6 tried to save my life.

February 08, 2003 @ 03:06 pm mood:    frustrated valentines day should die. i had a soccer game this afternoon. we won. hmm. where is everyone? save my life.

February 06, 2003 @ 11:45 pm mood:    mischievous music:   flagpole sitta ass licious ari: I'M RUNNIN UNDERGROUND WITH THE MOLES. DIGGIN HOLES. ass licious ari: I HEAR THE VOICES IN MY HEAD I SWEAR TO GOD IT SOUNDS LIKE THEY'RE SNORING. IF YOU'RE BORED THEN YOU'RE BORING. ass licious ari: lsjdflajk. ass licious ari: see what you did?! x cha SEX me: My fingertips have memories, they can't forgive the curve of your body...and when I feel a little bit naughty.... ass licious ari: I RUN IT UP THE FLAGPOLE AND SEE.. WHO SALUTES BUT NOONEEVERDOES. ass licious ari: baaaaaaaaaaaah, i'm not sick but i'm not well. ass licious ari: jklsdafljka. ass licious ari: i don't remember all the words ass licious ari: just bits and pieces of it x cha SEX me: and i'm so hooooooooooot cause I'm in helllll. x cha SEX me: and my favorite verse. x cha SEX me: been around the world and found that only stupid people are breeding ass licious ari: the creatins cloning and feeding. x cha SEX me: -grins- the song owns. conversations like that are the reason that chase and i are friends. hahahaha. only the two of us would still know the words to flagpole sitta. lmfao, we have serious issues. save my life.

February 06, 2003 @ 06:34 pm mood:    cold music:   angel - dave matthews band So.. lets see... what did I do today. I went to school. Wow, eh? Haha. I went yestarday too. And the day before that. Come to think of it.. I've gone to school every day this week. I'm proud. Its really good that soccer has started again. -shrugs- Gives me something to do besides sitting on my ass sulking about everything. It feels good to be back out on the soccer field again. lmao, I'm being a loser. But yeah... I'm definetly glad to be playing again. Of course, I have to come home and soak my ankle in a bucket of ice because my ankle is still pretty fucked up. Oh well. If I don't practice I won't be able to play, so I'll just suffer. I thought I had more to say but I guess I don't. I suck. edit; highlight of the day... when me and chase mooed at eachother in the hallways and got looked at like we're crazy. -grins- MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ... CHACHO!! 9 tried to save my life.

February 05, 2003 @ 06:22 pm If you people here someone screaming "MOOOOOOOOOOO ... CHACHO!" in the hallways in school... thats just me trying to get Chase's attention. HAHAHAHAHA. save my life.

February 05, 2003 @ 07:17 am mood:    pessimistic I've got to be at school in 20 minutes so I'm gonna type this as fast as I can and hopefully it will make at least some sense. Hmm.. I could beat around the bush and type about everything except that one subject and save it for last.. but well, I'm not going to. I'm just gonna type about it and get it over with and then go to school and try to act like I'm in a good mood. I don't hate Kaitlin, ok. I could NEVER hate Kaitlin.. it just doesn't work that way. Its just like.. I could never hate Sebastian. -shrugs- I'm just not the kind of person that can hate someone she calls (or in Sebastian's case, called) her best friend. I honestly have no idea why so many people don't like Kait. Maybe if people would just take the time to actually get to know her they'd realize that underneath everything she's one of the sweetest people you'll ever meet. How do I explain what happened... I don't know.. I don't think I can. I guess... you know, I've already lost one best friend. I've already typed up huge journal entries about that and how much it hurts me that I've lost him... and then all of a sudden Kait was acting like she didn't want me around either.. she just kept pushing me away.. I started to feel like I was losing my other best friend. I don't know what to say about it.. Its not even Kaitlin's fault... I mean, yeah, she was the one pushing me away.. but I feel like its my fault she does that. I know how she is and I know she doesn't like to talk about her problems or whatever.. but when she won't even tell her best friend.. it makes me wonder about how good of a friend I really am. All I do is whine to her about about my problems and maybe the problem with us is that I never stop and take the time to listen to her problems. I don't know.. I don't know what to say right now. Well, I do, but I can't seem to think of the right words to say. I just... Kait, I don't hate you. I love you to death... you are the best friend I've ever had in my life. I've got to go... whoever came up with the genius idea to have soccer practice before school starts in the mornings should be shot. 2 tried to save my life.

February 04, 2003 @ 05:26 pm mood:    numb So I actually went to school today. Soccer season is starting, so I actually have to start going everyday.. blah. Oh well. I'm still sick as hell, but I just stayed drugged up on dayquil all day and I was ok. The highlight of the day was lunch when the rest of the girls on the soccer team sat there trying to cheer me up. -laughs- I love those girls to death, I really do.. I should really start spending more time with them. Anyways. I'm going to spend the weekend in Sarasota. I think Noah is gonna come with me. We're gonna drive over there Friday right after school and then come back on Sunday. It'll be good to see my aunt and my cousins and all that shit. Hopefully the weather will be ok so we can hang out on the beach, even if we can't go swimming. And.. I guess I'm moving back into my parents house. -shrugs- I have nothing to say on the matter. I don't want to talk about it. So just don't ask. Anyways, I'm at Noah's house now and I just took some nyquil, so I should be passing out soon. I guess I'll stay here tonight unless he drives me back to my parents house. save my life.

February 04, 2003 @ 02:51 am mood:    numb music:   cruz - christina Would it make all of you feel better if I just stopped caring? 2 tried to save my life.

February 04, 2003 @ 01:11 am mood:    sick well... I have no fucking clue what to say to that. as soon as i'm feeling better i'm going to sarasota for a few days. -shrugs- my aunt wants to see me and to be honest.. i just need get the hell away for awhile. at this moment i could be mean and vicious but i won't be. i'm sick and being sick makes me cranky and it also makes me take things the wrong way. so i'll just sit here quietly and drink my fucking thera-flu, then i'll go back to bed and pretend like everything is just fucking dandy. noah- thanks for being there, ok. save my life.

February 03, 2003 @ 01:16 pm Yestarday I talked to Chase. Since people weren't online yestarday and stuff, we had to entertain eachother... so we did so by mooing and telling moo knock knock jokes, and singing. Chase moos, mkay. Moochacho! I'm sick right now. Insanely sick. 103 tempature sick. Its not any fun. I've been asleep in my bed for a good part of the day and I'm fixing to go back there. I just wanted to post some random update and this is it. Goodnight sweatheart, goodnight........ 2 tried to save my life.

February 02, 2003 @ 05:06 pm mood:    amused Publically humiliating Chase and myself again.... x cha SEX me: knock knock. ass licious ari: whos there? x cha SEX me: interrupting cow. ass licious ari: interrupting cow who? x cha SEX me: -interrupts her- MOO! -big cheesy grin- 8 tried to save my life.

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