Steve

5:11pm: I Return
Well it seems that college life is going well I mean what can you say bad about a school that only requires you to the minimal amount of work and do the things that you could do easily in your sleep. Hell I have even dropped a class since last week. Oh yeah and this may sound really strange but I did just get engaged to my new fiance named Jon just a few weeks ago. Hopefully everything will go alright and we can get hitched somewhere, but you never know. I guess I just have to wait and keep hoping for everything to go alright. Well gotta go cause my foot has fallen asleep. BOO-Hoo!!!!

12:08pm: Grrrrr.....
well I was really bored yesterday so I jetted over to Midland, in the middle of the night without my parents knowin.
I really really wanted an intalian soda so I went and got one. it was yummie and caramelie.... ^.^!!! Well besides that I managed to get home before they really noticed I was gone, I also watched Feardotcom which was a strange movie at best but that is okay. It was funny at the ending sorta...

welll..... I better go. till next time.

8:06pm: Extreme Bordem
Well today has been very uneventful as to say. I help two of my now married wicca lesbian friends move into their new two bedroom apartment. But whatever. I still had to do most of the moving and it really sorta pissed me of. Sorta... Well anyway now I am extremely bored and have a full tank of gas I think I just might drive to Odessa or Midland and get a good cup of coffee or something. No clue might just drive around for no reason at all, just cause I am very very very very bored. Well anyway I hope things turn out to be more exciting so I can fill this thing with more info on my life. But or less it isn't exciting so well I guess I better go. Till next time folks.


P.s. I put a secret alter ego on this website try to find it. If you read most of my journal entries it souldn't be that hard to find it. Well gotta go. -.-... I need some major sleep.........

1:55pm: The Pandas.... RETURNNNN!!!!!!! 0.o;;;;;;;;
Well i am more bored than usually and that means it is time for a porn rate!!!! Yes here on Steve Blog we will discuss the indepth ramifications *as to say* of gay porn. What are the proper procedures, etiqette, and requirements that goes into making grade A man on man debauchere!! How exciting. Well first we will discuss the proper etiquette.

If you have a vivid imagination and can't take a joke please scroll to bottom of entry...

Rule one all actors must at least find each other sexually appetizing, they may hate each other, but if the sight of the other nude gets them off there is nothing to worry. Also on occassion any necking, petting, blowing, sucking, fucking is allowed but make sure to save some for the camera!!! When you are dealing with couples it is a good idea to leave the two lovebirds to each other unless they ask otherwise. In the gangbang area make sure that everyone gets a turn.

In the procedures area it is a generally good idea for the camera to be able to catch the mens full glory head on and as well make sure that the techniques used by the actors do not conceal or hide anything unless there is some penertration of some sort. Also when dealing with ejaculation remember that without the consent of the actors now semen may be introduced inside any of the actors orfices.

The requirements for an actor are thusly, they must be well formed and shaped. Muscles are preferred but remeber to much is unattractive, as well body hair should be trimmed and well groomed. Remember to bath and to keep yourself clean. The size of one's phallus should range from eight to ten inches and be of a good thickness. Also it should be as straight as possible. Ones genitals should be slightly heavy set to heavy set and of a good size. The rectum should be as clean as possible and not have strange odors, As well before any penetration make sure to be well lubricated!!!
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MUWHHAHAHAHAHA!!! FEAR THE PANDAS... You know that is what boredom does to me. Damn anyway I need to go buy some shoes tired of wearing sandals and well my other shoes have been ripped to bits my dog. So Till next time. I miss Armando....

11:19pm: Love Lost or Fashion Boggled???
I miss my boyfriend.... Sigh... but I guess it is sorta bad karma cause I did not get online last time.

Onto other things I have made a lot of new sketches for clothes today like two or three. I had to learn how to draw again in like in a hour, but I did it. Mostly they are like a collection of guys and chicks clothes which are really cool. But I think I still have some tweaking to do on some of them. But I have to find colors to go with some of them cause most of them are still really iffy. But I can figure it out. I got into the raver ware thing too, so hopefully I'll be able to make some really sweet clothes.

Well until next time. Hope I talk to ya soon Armando!!!!

5:53pm: AIS
Hmm.. Got finsihed with interview with a lady from the art Institute from Seattle and I think I am gonna go there but ya know there are a lot of things that are unkonwn. But I will figure them out eventually, but hopefully it won;t take to long. I went to Midland yesterday too. Mostly we just hung out and did nothing important just sorta looked around and had funny playing with the books. Did I say playing I meant reading!! well I did get into a book I saw there it was Utopia but you know I didn't have any money saved to do anything there so we took off to the a coffee shop where we ate cookies and wrote qoutes on the mirror. Nothing deep or something that proved usefully for me I just wrote whatever I wanted to write at that moment and it worked for me. So I better go. Oh yeah I have a new sketch book it is sorta crappy but it is a sketch book YAAA!!!!! Well gotta go!

1:33pm: Girls Night Out!!!
Well I had a sweet surprise yesterday I got a visit from my friends who though I was out of town for like a few months when in fact I was asleep. Or more or less being lazy which was very fun, but now I am being forced to go out but oh well better than doing nothing all day. Which really sucks. Anyways we really didn't do anything but just hung out with some of my chick friends. Talked about stuff you know sex, oral techniques, how large a guy's wang should be. How bad I kissed this one chick who I was dating mostly cause I didn't like her, but that is alright but I got a other compliment which said I necked and did everything else pretty well. Hmm.. never making out with chicks again. Well besdies that I have nothing else to do I guess they are suppose to stop by later on but they are probablly still asleep. So I don't really count on it.

I didn't talk to Armando yesterday either which sorta sucks but was okay. We can't talk every day so whatever. Well I gotta go!!! See ya!!

4:34pm: A time for change
Well I have decided it is a time for change. Just cause of the things I know that are gonna start happening. Well today I woke up around eight and headed for Midland and helped my sister shop for clothes at the mall. It was so terrible and we ended up returning one of them back because she didn't have the right feelin on it. But she got her money back and she bought me a cute shirt. I missed my chance to eat chinese too, but I was really too tired to notice because I had been walking for at least three to four hours before we did eat but that is alright. I have a sorta image of all the things I want to buy when I go back with money. I really don't know if I am going to this waterpark with my family but I guess I will, can't hurt can it. Maybe I can sneak away to San Antonio and party for the night. Well till next time all you jive fellas and hip cats. Till next time. I need a major nap too!

4:11pm: Boredom...
Ughh.. I hate it when I am bored I think I am really am going to dive in to programming again. I have mostly spent my day away trying to some good online games, bad thing is that it has to be free, and at least a good online rpg. Don't matter if has graphics or not it just has to be able to play well. I am going to try to recreate pong on my comp which sounds harder than it looks when one is using only a half assed knowledge of C++. I mean my teacher wasn't very good and I mostly breezed through the class by just playing games and helping other students. Well anyways till next time if you want me you know where to reach me!! Fear my h4|<3rz s|

9:50pm: Cthuthlu The Destroyer
WEll I know I didn't spell Cthuthlu right at least i think so, but that is okay, I was just updating cause it seem like the thing to do and well I haven't really anything else to do. SOOOO.... I feel like going out to Midland or something and like having a party or something I think I'll call Rachel and ask if she wants to go out for coffe or whatever at the mall. Cause I am so bored right now and I have absolute nothing to do. Except listen to music ph34r /\/\y p1r471/\/g 5|<1||5!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait till I am able to visit my boyfriend!!! I wanna be everything he wants me to be. Hmm.. well I guess I am just gonna sit and you know watch a movie Shanghai Knights... Watched How to Lose a Guy in Ten Days...,.. Was cool and Matthew McCoughnay is soooo cute too!!!

Well Till next time!!! ^.^

6:31pm: MUST GO OUT!!!!
Ahhh!! I am so bored my car is fixed and i so want to go out today!! I even got my new licensce and it says that I am 18 which means I can get into clubs!!! Sweet!!! But then again I don't have anybody to go out with and I can't go out with my sisters cause I don't wanna bother them, and I really don't wanna drag them to a gay club. Which sorta sucks but that is okay. Oh and the rest of my friends are too young to actually go out. -.-;;; How lame.... ooh well I need to go out and buy some club gear anyway and look for a good rave, hmm... maybe I wear something tight and skimpy. ???? I really don't know. Though I have to make sure I can be able to dance in it and fight just in case I have to be able to move. Maybe a mesh shirt and a good pair of flare pants. Or short shorts and belly shirt. i dunno... Or just wear body paint.... Hm... I'll figure this out sooner or later...

by the Way, Loves Armando!!!

6:42pm: Fear the Return of Muffins!!!!
All right it has been a long while since I have been back and well it has been a boring long while, though I have had time to see all this talk of people proposing an amendment to define a marriage that it is only a union between a man and a woman, and that same sex unions are not to be recognized which I think is wrong. I mean I hoped by the time I was old and mature enough to make to settle down and have a lifelong relationship with somebody and be able to have it recognized by the federal government. All this really is is a way for anti-gay groups to deny rights of gays. Not only do I think it will hurt the gay community but it will have severe negative effects on all the progress we have made so far. It just isn't something I want to have to think about, to not be able to show my love to the person I love because of some law. Besides the constitution isn't something meant to reduce the rights of a group of people, it was meant to be an equalizer for a nation of people who were persecuted. Now other people are trying to make into something opposite of what it was created for. I know my voice isn't something that is very clear or makes much sense, but it is a big step beackwards for gay people everywhere when if this is passed. Well I better go... Can't be broody I am talking to my ARMANDO!!! I missed him!!!

12:11am: My sister....
Hmm... how cute my sister is waiting up for her boyfriend. I guess that is what you can call him, she went with him all day even with her two kids. How CUTE!!! I am so happy for her! Mostly because she came out of a bad marriage a while back and since then has been sorta iffy around guys a bit but I guess that is natrual. I mean he was a total twatcookie. He doesn't even deserve the name of a pussy, so I had to make up a name. Right now though she is dating a guy named Chase and even though he looks a little scary and my mom doesn't approve of him, because he is white, I glad she has found somebody. Hopefully he doesn't come over a lil tipsy cause he was drinkin with his friends and there is the rule of no beer in the house either, unless it is a good brand and he gives me some! ^.^;; Well I gotta go. By the way WUvs To mY ArmaNd0!!! Hope you have a good night and sweet dreams.

8:46pm: Gay Pride
Yeah gay pride it sounds very strange to me though I have no idea why. I mean I am a half closeted guy well the only people I haven't told yet are my family memebers and comlete strangers though most know when I am out with a guys I like, but that is a diffrent story. I was just reading up on gay pride on some web site and yes I actually read the WHOLE article. But is it really necessary to have gay pride these days. I mean I do think that we are just regular people except we just are attracted to diffrent people. I see know reason why we can't have the right to marry who we love, but still in the same I can't wholly condone the actions of most people of the, as I like to call ourselves, the homoerotus. I mean I am all up for a good time and I don't mind the casual sex thing, but we have gotten ourselves a rep to most people of being sexually crazed. Though being that due to the years of sexual frustration and the lack of gratification from the other sex during our closeted period I must say it is giving all lot of people preconcived misconceptions about us. I mean I know we have a right to do what we well please but what can we do to make people actually take us seriously? Parading through the main avenues of major cities while scantily clad men and women parade and express out to the world that we are queer, we are here, and we are proud is something I seriously doubt that makes others take us seriously. Though I would be by far the last person to don on shorts shorts and a pair of wings and go through the middle of a major city during a gay pride parade with many other succulent men. Which makes me a contradictary creature I know but at least I am analyzing the situation. Anyhow I am going to continue. Since we already have the attention of the masses I don't see how anything is going to be done as we continue to strut ourselves blatantly shocking people into submission. All of us should really being concentrating on getting the rights that as citizens of the Unites States should deserve. To let be who we are and to have these laws that were based on religious and moral beliefs to be abolished. Such as sodomy laws, which are even effect here in Texas, meaning be caught with a guy would be something I would have to serve a jail sentence for. The law should be something that is seperate from our moral and religious beliefs, something that doesn't simply cater to those who happen to the same set of morals as another person. By the way I believe in morals I just don't seem to have them. Well until next time!

6:22pm: Fear My Muffins!!!
I soo love my new kitten. It is sooo cute. Well I'm over that. Anyway I signed up for this new profile thingy on MTV to see what kind of people I can meet and you know get some new music to hear. I currently found this new band called Nickel Creek, it might not be new but it is to me! The guys look so dreamy and they actually have talent to back it up which makes it even better. I just got my room cleaner then it has ever been before also, by the way I need to get my digital camera back up working again as well as that annoying program to clear it up because all the pics it takes are really pixelly and blury, but there really isn't nothing I can do about it. Well till next time!

11:08pm: Fear Muffins!!!!! =3
Yay!! Today I got the cutest newest kitty. Muffins!!!!!! Yup Yup! That is his name and he is soooo cute and fuzzy too. Hm..... I love him and hopefully he'll be a good evil kitty for me too! Yes that is right Muffins, destroy all in your path. Yay!! To make things better he is also a cute black cat which means when he rides around on my head is nearly invisible. Especially when I wear black and clings to my shirt. All fear my Muffins!!!

Besides my new cute kitty their is my cute boyfriend. Which I haven't talked to all day not even an email!!! I feel so unloved!!! WWWWWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! I am only appeased by the cute lead singer in Sugar Ray. Dance baby dance!!!! Shuka shuka!! Shake dat ass! Well I really don't mind Armando not talking to me I know he is having a fun time in Dallas and I hope he does have fun! Speaking of fun. I am going on vacation with my family in August on the fourth and fifth. YAY!! A waterpark with cute half naked guys. If I wasn't so hitched and not have to go to every place with my dad, brother, and nephew I would so make out with every guy there. My god I could just imagine all the eye candy...... drool drool.... I wonder how Armando is doing now though. Which reminds me of my dating rules which are you can look but not touch. Unless that is we both want to touch and the third party agrees. That is about the only thing, besides making sure you don't fuck up my stuff. Yes no touchie of stuff, mostly for your own protection, sense I usually play with things that are sharp pointy or explody stuff.

Yay I am talking to my e-bf! Sorta late in the day but better than never. Hmm... Well I guess that is all I have to talk about now.

What not so!! I forgot I talked to my old best frien d Amber, I mean it has been only three months but it feels like we haven't seen each other in a long while but if only I can get here to talk back online instead of buggering her annoying boyfriend... Grrr.... But the chocolate pahllus joke got her, I've been saving that one for a while.

8:22pm: The 4th Circle of Hell.....
Well I am bored.. Not angry anymore, maybe a bit irritated but that is about it. I mean why get mad when there is the probablity that they will all die in a firey death, due to some strange malfunction of the fireworks. Or a car crash. Funny... I really do feel better than Idid before, well besides that I have decided not to go to some ranch to fire of interesting fireworks because I thought I would go and wonder around for an hour or so maybe just walk around, I haven't talked to Armando either but that is okay. On a positive note my dad tried to fix my car, which seemed more like him just hitting the battery but I give him his props for getting the engine to start for about ten minutes or so. Though he finally decided that it was best to get a new battery as well as an inspection sticker and then I have to renew my licencse later on this month too, before it gets to close to my birthday again.

Well anyways I think I am going to take a nap now, cause I really don't wanna go to the dinky fireworks show, somehow I think it is for the better, besides if someone gets hurt I really don't wanna be bleamed for it. Which is a very good reason. Hopefully one of them do get hurt, I'll laugh and laugh and laugh, but then again I got nothing much but the misery of most people to keep me entertained.

1:49pm: Everything Must Die
Okay due to many reasons I am very disgruntled and a diagruntled gay teen is something to be feared yet only the thought of Lenny Kravitz's superiorly toned asss makes me subdued for the moment. Here are all the reasons I feel grumpy, so grumpy that even a full nights of great sex couldn't fix.

For starters I have basically been stuck at my house since the month after school and all my friends have been ditched due to either absolute neglect or to the fact I have becoe a hermit. Which further disassociates me with the world and hinders my ability to hold a half sane conversation with others, based on other than T.V., or to anime. The gay thing really isn't something that helps me indentify my place in the world, it bascially just says who I like to fuck at the moment really. I also still think the worst thing is why they ask why I am such a son of a bitch, well when you are only exposed to most negative aspects of life one tends to grow cynical towards humanity and feels only hate for most things, and becomes a vessel for all that hate and evil. Sorta like the Grinch.

So after being totally scrutinized and annoying the hell out of my parents they then realize that I need to get out. Yet i have no friends now due to me extreme exclusion from the rest of the human populous, and no sort of transportation they get pissed when they realized I have nowhere to escape away too. What really gets me is how much of a paranoid fuck my motheris, I mean I don't have a life anymore as compared to the half assed one existence I had during school. I haven't even had a semi-nice buzz since tenth grade. As well as any gratituous sexual relationshipwith either sex for about... for a long time, drudging up past girlfriends and boyfriends really isn't fun, but I give more than half a year since the last time I have done anything and a really long time since I've done anything worthy of a police warrant.

Even all of my hobbies have faded to dust, no new life experinces leads to no new inspiration. My small talent has been atraphied beyond the hopes of ever coming back to life and my destiny to be an annoying peon in the evil known as coporate america seems iminate... Also any paintings I have had thought of long since turned to small shattered images in my mind due to the fact one of my prick friends stole my paintbrush which pisses me off to now end since I consider the stealing of one brushes a sin against the art community. I swear if she ever shows her face it will but be a second until I rip off her face and feed it to the jackals!!!! Even if I have anything remotely good to sketch it seems so half assed that I don't want to do anthing with it which is due to the fact I have no feelings or emotions that I used to work off of. Just a cold hard space with nothing but a giant blackhole as a heart. From whicch nothing escapes, not even the the hope of freedom I even think that I may be homeless when I attend college because I have yet to find an apartment or get a dorm and I doubt I will be able to afford all much less any one of my books for this year. How totally lame.....

4:11pm: Food....
Well due to certain circumstances my mother has left for Midland to do something and without me... How extrodinarily unfair, but that is alright.... Just hope she brings back some chinese food for me. What I would do for some sweet and sour chicken, or some good egg rolls.... But besides that things are going good, though I think I need to get my parents to realize how urgent it is I get a dorm room before the year actually starts becuase I don't want to have to drive and waste a bunch of gas on going from home to college it really isn't that practical. Speaking of driving I also need to get a new battery for my car. I thought about backward engineering one but the chances of an explosion are a bit to scary for me to actually try it. That and I don't think my insurance covers it.....

Besides that I am trying to figure out where the hell I can get some potassium nitrate.. and some really pure carbon. I wanna see how flammable those two are when they get mixed and lighted... MUWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!! Besides I think I might take up chemistry in college, maybe but then again, maybe not. Chemistry became sorta dull to me because of one of my teachers who was totally a blow out in that area. Just ruined it for me. I swear sometimes I wish the public school system had much better teachers. But I guess that is out of the question due to politics. As long as the masses stay ignorant, damn spelling!!!! Knew I should have paid attention in sixth grade spelling class, but that is besides the point.

In over view for the past like three weeks I have the unsettling urge to have a threesome. Two guys, a guy and one girl, maybe two girls, but I just have this evil dark notion chewing away at me and I have no clue why... Maybe because I am just really horny. But still the curiosity of it is still killing me or it could be the hunger, my parents still aren't back, and I need food.... The fridge is totally empty!!!!!!

Well I gotta go so see ya all next time. =3 chu.....

4:46pm: Burnt burrito
That is what I exactly feel like a very burnt burrito.... make me sick just thinking about it, but oh well. Let's see nothing exciting has happened yet but I will get back to you when I can, mostly I am thankful to be able to be online for this small amount of time, mostly because my brother is both a baby and an internet hog. So I really haven't been able to talk to anybody online especially my lil Armand... ^.^ but hopefully I'll be able to later on tonight but that is okay if we can't. FU,FU,FU,FU,FU,!!!!!! I just got a response from my online personal on this place. Very very funny and actually my age and very cute but he really isn't my type. but it is funny. Never thought anybody would reply to it. Which reminds me I need to get some pics taken of me with some of my friends that is if I can find any of them, though I think they have all started summer band camp by know but that is okay. I can always find someone else to do that for me. God I so want to paint but I have no more canvases god must hate me. Also one of my friends stole all of my paintbrushes too!!!! NO fair!! It had all my good brushes in there to. GRRRRRR!!!!!!! Pain and destruction will ensue and follow.

Fear the wrath of the evil martial artist painter fear!!!! .... 0.o.... After I rest up, my body is sore, cause I just decided last night to get in shape, and that was the worst thing. But now I now how bad my body has slipped, I barely could do three minutes of crunches and only about sixty push ups. No FAIR!!!!!!! But I guess no pain no gain thing huh.. That reminds me I have to ask for money for a new cd burner. Yes must brun cd's!!!! and still my neices cd player... or just buy a new one. doesn't matter. well I must go now!! Till next time and

I WUV J00 Armand!!!!!

Till, next time

11:55am: All that love entails.... And Chinese food =3
Well today I think I might actually meet my possible new bf.... Damn I sure hope he likes me and in a way I am afraid that I might let him down in some way, but there is really nothing I can do but wait till we actually meet and see what he thinks of me. Hopefully it is all good, anyways I wanted to an analysis on love.

In some strange way I both believe and don't believe in love, maybe cause of all my past experinces or because of all the casual sex I have had during my lifetime which isn't very long, but in some way my hope for love was diminished when I realized that the driving force for most people is to have pleasure. Nothing more and nothing less than that, and sometimes not even for pleasure most of the time it is for self gain. Yes people have gotten together before in that way and sadly to say it I have seen all the ways a person could possibly be with another person for all the wrong reasons, hell I have even done some of them myself. I mean what kind of world is it where people use each other for their own greed and wants I mean that just leaves a person sorta cold and cynical some of the time, but then again I can't completely say that my opinions on the human race as a whole is bad, I mean there are some people who aren't that way. But technically greed and self destruction still reign true above all that is good in this world. I mean many people have been hurt in the name of love or something that seemed to be love. But that is just the way the world is. Hopefully my feelings for this guy will prove to be true, cause it has been a while since the last time I have really fallen for someone. So maybe it is just my own insecurity that has made me write this or just my anticipation, but I know that my feelings for this guy are strong, though I have yet to see if he feels hte same for me. Bt this much I do know!!! I'm gonna be so happy when I see him!!!!! YAAAYYY!!!! =3 <---- cute kitty face!!

Damn now that I have finished all of that self proclaimed study of love I feel really hungry... Damn my bad luck for my car being broken I mean I even have to walk to the park to meet my new guy... but oh well I really don't mind that much,.. Not wearing my glasses though... Hope, hope, hope he will recognize me.

TILL NEXT TIME ALL YA"LL I'M GONNA GO GET SOME FOOD!!!!!! =3

4:31pm: Edward Hau Wong Pepelu Tivrusky IV
Well hello folks welcome to another edition of Steven's Bitchy Talk. On today subject I really have nothing to bitch about. So that makes the introduction completely irrelevent but who cares. My new name comes from a comic book character and I am going to try to change my name to that but if I can't the who really cares I can always do something else with it but then again maybe not. I wonder how one can go about putting pics on this I have had it for so long but never put anything on it.... I know maybe I'll get one of my cute Sessshomaru pics and put it up.

Well besides that I have meet this guy online and I know I really don't like to do the online thing because I mostly show how I care for a person by my physical actions, and my head is a lil' twisted in the talking department, but I really hope we can like get along and that we have a good relationship which means Imight have to change some things in my life but I think I can work it. I'm tired of having just plain sexually relationships and want one where I can be happy with the other person, and who knows maybe it will be a long term thing. Heheh... while talking about long term relationships it seems I got sidetracked by the gleaming call of laptops.... Can't deny a good comp with an amazing refresh rate and a rather fasst net connection and a massive hardrive... Though I like that in a guy too.

Well I guess I must go and look at more online goodies more or less I'll probably update in about an hour or so. but then agian I do get easiily sidetracked so until next time!! Blood spray, bullets, and bodyparts ^.^ Till nexttime!!!

9:55pm: The Pandas.... 0.o.....
I have now fallen to the full bordem of this place called andrews texas and though my typing skills have greatly improved I can only wonder and think how my time is ill spent. I was going to go the mall but then dueto some circumstances my car died. The damn dome light didn't want to turn off so it caused my car's battery to drain and so now I am stuck with no car, but I don't mind, not like I was going to go to the mall or something, but I do miss driving out into the country just to clear my head. I've think my parents have finally decided to let me dorm, but that means I am going to have to only live in Odessa during the fall and winter semesters and I really rather live for the entirety of the two years I am going to be there because Idon't want to have it where I can't go out and have boyfriends over, cause I was going to be actually out out to people around me and try to do that sleep with people casually thing. A.K.A be very permiscous.... I jsut like sex, that doesn't make me a slut, but that doesn't make me a bitch either. Hopefully things will go well and I can find a really good apartment with lotsa cute guys maybe I can find a guy to room with me. Cause personally I don't like to live with girls. No offense but I can't deal with girls and all they entail. Which also means I have to make sure no overly fem guys stay either, but what the hell is their to do. Shu shu...

Well all that in less than two minutes which is pretty good considering most the errors.... But then again I have to make sure my fingers can catch up with my brain mostly cause it is a simple matter of making myself thinking at a certain speed and making sure I can keep up with it and leave the synapses and brain pathways to work the way I want them too... But I really have to learn to not make stupid errors and then my typing could be so much faster but enough of that subject.

I am really happy that my online guy is back because lately I have been so bored and nothing really fun has happened and hopefully soon I will be able to move out and do what I want but then again there are always obstacles that i will have to over come.

11:08pm: Interrogative.... Move out...
Well due to some things i have know have to think of the possiblity of living on campus as well as not having a job meaning my source of income will have been diminished to almost nothing... How irritating... but then again I know that even while in school my lackey father will keep on giving me money as long as I do something though I hate the fact that I have to keep spongening off of them like some leech but Ireally don't want to work in annoying places like those but until then I have no idea what to do until that tiime comes which reminds me I need to figure out when registration and the first day of classes are because I really think I may drop some classes and I need to check up on my financial aide.... The fact still remins is that I have no money and my contemtable mother is being a major bitch but wat can I really do I have no place to say anything towards the contrary but hopefully things may get better but until then I just have to wait. And plus due to some insane reasons my father has stopped woring and now is just sitting around the house we really not sitting just tearing down our house in an effort to rebuild but I think it is all going to turn out very very very very very badly but the new tile and the door made my mom really happy even though it was crappily put up.

Well anyways i do have this to be thankful for, my father hiatus is over he is going back to work and he is taking my little brother with him who by the way has become a major pain.

Till next time....

7:14pm: College....
I am so bored now that I can't wait for college to start so that I'll be doing something... Even if it is something I realy don't like but you know what can you do? I feel as if I am going to go insane and if I don't get out and do something I am going to kill something... I have to go out and do something but I can't... My damn annoying parents why can't they treat me like other people who have children and just give me money and let me go out, but then again, they wouldn't be my parents if they did that. It is something they don't do their like the only people who actually have morals in this annoying town and damn them for having them. Why can't I have rich, antisocial, immorally wrong parents??? I mean is the world just trying to get back at me for all those people whose minds I have manipulated and lives I've ruined, who cares if those people are emotionally scarred for life or for a good while after I have meet them. They can handle it. Damn I have just figured out my problem... I want to get fucked... or fuck someone... Let's just put this way I want to have sex... In any case it really sucks that I have to go through my height of sexual frustration after everybody I know has left... Must go out... MUST SHOP!!!! MUST FUCK!!!!

There now that that is out of my system I am trying to see how fast I can type this whole thing out and how fast I can do it as well, but then again it is kinda hard to maintain this typing speed mainly because my mind works faster then my fingers and I quit typing one word half way through and then start on another word right after that. But then again who the hell is perfect, I mean only freaks whose fingers are like triple jointed can tupe that fast. Okay one minute passed and I have manage to finish this lil paragraph... .Maybe if I practice more I can get faster than I am right now. Though I have to remember not to type in mistakes... Well till next time!!!