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Friday, June 18th, 2004
11:26 am - ch ch ch changes!
alright loves, here's the deal:

I have finally moved over the livejournal universe. So, in order to be privvy to my musings and such, you must now direct your respective browsers to http://livejournal.com/users/likecatsontoast ....

yes, the user name is borrowed from a phrase oft-used by my dearest Kat. i hope she does not mind that i have ganked it for my own personal usage, i just think that it is an excellent phrase. :j

and also, i expect lots of comments. you have no excuse. got it?

alright then, to livejournal with you! leave me some love because i love and miss you all. :j i promise.

current mood: awake
current music: eric clapton

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Monday, June 14th, 2004
7:31 pm
Meet Obie.....my cute puppy of unnatural hue. Because I love puppies. And also because I am nerd enough to be excited over a cyber-puppy.

my pet!

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Wednesday, June 9th, 2004
2:54 am - Mooo.
Hello. I'm alive. So much going on, and yet nothing really at all seems to be going on.

If anyone still reads this, please leave me a comment. I promise I will write something soon. Well, soon as in after Bonnaroo.....so in a few days, yes.

Right. So get started on that comment, hoss.

current mood: drained
current music: Glory Box - Portishead

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Tuesday, May 18th, 2004
1:18 am
DAH!!!!!! I just wrote this huge long entry and this ridiculous server erased it!!

Absurd piece of technology....BAH!!

current mood: irritated

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Monday, May 17th, 2004
12:53 am
Feeling a bit dried up lately.
Nervous about the boy's homecoming. He's so up-and-down that I just don't know what to expect. And being unsure is the one thing that drives me crazier than you could ever imagine.
Feeling restless. Looking for a job. Should hear from Wild Oats Market tommorow.
Have slept a lot. Getting bored with sleeping, though.
Have watched many a cartoon. Eyes starting to hurt.
Have read half of "Goddess: Myths of the Female Divine." This is a good thing. And also there are many more books to read. Comforting, yes.
Want to write, but feel like I have nothing to say.

Going to the airport on wednesday. Like I said earlier, I'm nervous. But I'm also incredibly excited. Of course I am, this is the boy who has had my heart for years. I can only hope that this up-and-down business will stop once we get some time together. And I can only hope that this chaos will stop on the up note, rather than the down note.

These are the main things which occupy my mind. Happy times, eh?

current mood: anxious
current music: Self - I Am a Little Explosion

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Monday, May 3rd, 2004
1:05 am
you always managed to be intimate with your touch even before we were intimate with mouths,
and when i see you now i think,
"you are my hesitation."
please do not melt my wax just now;
i am waiting for something to come my way.


just a bit of nonsense. i've been experimenting lately with the reconciliation of my thought patterns with my writing style. my hand has been trained in ways that my mind feels are insufficient for its expression.

also, i am fairly certain that My Ex-Boyfriend will be going to emory for grad school in the fall. capitalized because he's the one i think of when i think of "ex-boyfriend."

it's just one of those weird, world/dimension-meshing phenomena. not really a big deal, just sort of a strange thought.

but hell, he may go to princeton.


in other news, jacob comes home in 2 1/2 weeks. i am excited down to every last particle. :j

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Sunday, April 18th, 2004
3:39 am - awesome-town, brian is my favorite

Which Family Guy character are you?

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3:22 am - this is the most happenin' survey i've found in quite awhile...humor me
1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
"When she was of an age to marry, many suitors appearaed and her father set a test to discover who would be the most suitable husband." from the Encyclopedia of Mythology, the myth of Alcestis from Greece

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?:
"The Professor's House," by Willa Cather. rapidly becoming one of my favorite novels.

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?:
actually airing on tv it was Inuyasha. I did, however, just finish watching some Buffy.

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is:
3:00 a.m.

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?:
2:57 a.m.

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?:
the hum of the AC unit outside of my window

7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing?:
about 4 hours ago, i went downstairs to retrieve ben's tequila and margarita mix from allison's room for safe keeping until he could come get it

8: before you came to this website, what did you look at?:
my buddy list

9: what are you wearing?:
broomstick hippie skirt, brown tank top, blue underwear, bead necklace, band aid

10: Did you dream last night?
well the only one i remember was that i thought i answered the phone when riz called this morning, but i didn't really. though i remember the conversation.

11: When did you last laugh?
a few moments ago, during Buffy

12: what is on the walls of the room you are in?:
in front of me: big uneven rectangle comprised of red and purple paper with gold ivy, picture of me and daphne, chinese fan straight from hong kong, Trina's number, number for a lady who works at the Tennessean, pressed leaves, a long red scarf.
to my right: photograph of feet with dirt called "Spare Sod," taken by my sister and given to me as a graduation gift, a mask I bought in Venice, retro potholder which says "what's cookin?", a scarf I bought in Venice, a Paul Klee print "Girl with a Flag"
behind me: another Paul Klee print "Little Girl with Green Ball," a tapestry, rectangular paper lantern with red lotus-y flowers on it
to my left: Toulouse-Lautrec print "Back of a Female Nude," more pressed leaves, a Matisse print "Goldfish," and bamboo rods framing my window

13: Seen anything weird lately?:
always. tonight's occurance was a young african-american couple both dressed in bright, firetruck red clothing. she was wearing a tight cargo dress, and he was wearing some sort of fubu athletic suit, akin to Nelly attire. they were even wearing firetruck red shoes, and she had big red earrings. it was strange, and interesting. i like to watch couples who wear matching outfits.

14: What do you think of this quiz?:
i like it.

15: What is the last film you saw?:
Kill Bill: Vol 2, last night.

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?:
honestly, right now i'd probably buy a plane ticket to hong kong. that, and a puppy or 2.

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know:
i really wish that my boyfriend appreciated lingerie as much as i do.

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?:
I'd have the magical power to undo everything Bush has done in one fell swoop.

19: Do you like to dance?:
i LOVE to dance and we all know this.

20: George Bush:
see no. 18

21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:
Fiona ... though i have yet to come up with a middle name, and i've been set upon Fiona as a child's name for years. someone help me think of a name that goes with Fiona.

21: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?:
Simon Finn, or Simon Isaiah.

22: Would you ever consider living abroad?:
in a heartbeat. i'd love it.

current mood: mellow
current music: Circles, by Soul Coughing, but the Propellorheads remix

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Wednesday, March 10th, 2004
3:09 am

The Devil Card
You are the Devil card. The Devil is based on the
figure Pan, Lord of the Dance. The earthy
physicality of the devil breeds lust. The
devil's call to return to primal instincts
often creates conflict in a society in which
many of these instincts must be kept under
control. Challenges posed by our physical
bodies can be overcome by strength in the
mental, emotional, and spiritual realms. Pan is
also a symbol of enjoyment and rules our
material creativity. The devil knows physical
pleasure and how to manipulate the physical
world. Material creativity finds its output in
such things as dance, pottery, gardening, and
sex. The self-actualized person is able to
accept the sensuality and usefulness of the
devil's gifts while remaining in control of any
darker urges. Image from The Stone Tarot deck.

Which Tarot Card Are You?
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current mood: awake

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Monday, March 1st, 2004
9:07 pm - For this moment, I am part of The Herd.
Nietzsche would find me dispicable.

Yeah, this is that thing that EVERYONE is doing where you post the first 25 songs on your winamp playlist. Just call me a sheep. Baaaaa!

1. Soul Coughing - Circles
2. Yonder Mountain String Band - Bluegrass Breakdown
3. Ben Harper - Sexual Healing
4. The Kinks - Waterloo Sunset
5. Dirty Dozen Brass Band - Everything I Do Gonna Be Funky
6. Built to Spill - Joyride
7. Squirrel Nut Zippers - Winter Weather
8. Weezer - Tired of Sex
9. Soul Coughing - Mr. Bitterness
10. Green Day - Hitchin' a Ride
11. Erykah Badu ft. Rahzel - Southern Girl
12. Taj Mahal & Ry Cooder - Candy Man
13. Ani DiFranco - Phase
14. Modest Mouse - A Life of Arctic Sounds
15. Ben Folds - Narcolepsy (Live)
16. The Clash - Rock the Casbah
17. Coldplay - For You
18. Ani DiFranco - In the Way
19. The Faint - Casual Sex
20. John Coltrane - Resolution
21. Cowboy Mouth - Love of My Life
22. The Tindersticks - Rented Rooms
23. Mike Doughty - All the Dirt
24. Peter Schilling - Major Tom (Earth Below Us)
25. Busta Rhymes - Everything Remains Raw

Tonight I had a moment where I really felt my age in regard to someone younger than myself. I ate dinner this evening with Lizzie and Freshman Rachel (aka Eva). While I think Rachel is a sweet girl, I feel like she is constantly seeking "upperclassmen approval," and this makes her sweetness often come off as extremely fake. Which, it is really, if she's just acting that way to seek our approval and acceptance. Anyways, tonight at dinner, everything she said seemed to be formulated expressly for the purpose of making herself seem larger than life, and more mature. I thought it was a bit odd. And then JoJo walked by and they made faces at each other, which horrified me (as I find JoJo rather detestable), and evidently my face betrayed my thoughts because she started babbling something about "don't burst my little bubble, i like to pretend things are this way on campus, bla bla bla." Yikes. It honestly made me feel a lot older than her in that moment. Perhaps a bit more jaded? I don't know. It made me think back to my freshman year, in all my starry-eyed naivete and idealism about college. Not that college has turned out badly by any means, because I've loved Oglethorpe, despite all of its neuroses. It's just that people like Rachel remind me how far I've come into myself, but also of how far I still have to go.

Point of above rant: Sometimes my age and place in life join together to run up and slap me in the face, and it's rather startling, and I often wish to protect my younger friends, because I know what's coming.

Anyways, I really just needed to get that out. I'd been thinking about it since dinner, and will probably continue to think about it through the evening. Oh well. In the meantime, I'm going to go to Joy's Starbucks and see if she can get me some free coffee. :j It's good to have friends in the business.

current mood: sleepy
current music: Galactic - Thrill

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2:05 pm - a real entry, not some poetic nonsense which i sometimes take to writing
It's strange how some people can be so perceptive. Especially the ones you don't know very well. I had a very interesting moment on Saturday night with Colin. I really like Colin a lot. I think he's a very clever guy, and we share the same sense of humor: extremely dry and sarcastic (though I think he is wittier than I). However, we don't really know each other very well despite the fact we're around each other a lot through the likes of Kat, Ben, Riz, etc. And I would love to be friends with Colin; I think we'd get along swimmingly. I'm just never sure how to initiate conversations with him, because frankly, he's always intimidated me a bit. I must admit, I'm always just a tiny bit afraid that I will do or say something to make me the recipient of one of his cleverly biting remarks. But anyways, this whole rant has been a detour from my actual point.

So, Colin and I don't know each other very well at all, right? Okay.

Saturday, I went to Mary's with Kat, Riz, Tina, Dana, and Colin. We had a few drinks, etc. It was a good time. So, at one point, Colin is trying to reassure a very drunken Dana that she is a beautiful person, and a ray of light, etc. etc. Then, this happened (observe the amazing perceptiveness):

Colin: (looking at me) And you are a ray of light, and Kat. You are a ray of light!
Me: Thanks! I do certainly try.
Colin: Good! That's great (he gets pensive for a moment, then looks at me seriously) ... You know, I sometimes find it difficult to talk to you.
Me: (taken aback) Oh wow, I'm sorry..
Colin: No no! Don't be, it's not really you. It's just that, well, frankly I'm a very depressed person, and well, I sense the same in you.
Me: (dumbfounded stare)

I swear to God, you could hear the clanking of my eyelids Zorak style as I just blinked in amazement. I mean, I have just now figured out that I'm dealing with this depression thing, and here's Colin who doesn't know me well at all, and he can immediately pick up on it. Never before has a cliche rang so true to me: It really does take one to know one.

I thought it was cool though that he did pick that up so easily. A little strange, but cool.

And for anyone wondering, Mary's was everything I had hoped a gay bar would be. Large rainbow colored neon sign garishly lighting up the street, attractive gay men singing half-decent karaoke, and a group of friendly gay men sitting at the neighboring table. It was a nice, relaxed place; very fun. :j

As for the other corners of my life, I have really just been studying for tests and writing papers. I am exhausted and ready for Spring Break. Everyone else is trying to make plans to go to beaches and whatnot, but me, I just want to go home and sleep for a week and play with my dog. Oh, and also go see Mike Doughty on the 17th. Yeah, that'll be awesome. *hides extreme excitement so as to appear cool and collected*

I miss Jacob like I just can't even describe. Why is it that I always feel like the spring semester is longer than the fall? I mean, maybe it really is, I'm not sure. But I just feel as though the months are dragging their feet like diasppointed children in the back of a line. May is so far away ...

Oh however, I do have a new Korean friend named Jamie. She is Jacob's best friend in Hong Kong, and she really wanted to be friends with me because evidently Jacob tells her about me often. So she emailed me, and I have written her back. I'm pretty excited about this new correspondence. She seems like a really cool girl, and she wants to send me some music. I'm curious as to what this will entail. :j Jacob has mentioned Canto-pop to me before. Maybe I'll get some Canto-pop. That'll be awesome.

Look at that, it's time for me to go to class. And by go to class, I mean go sit in a claustrophobic basement classroom and hastily scribble notes to keep myself awake amidst McFarland's monotone and the whirring of the air conditioner. *sigh* Ah Medieval and Renaissance Lit, I am definitely never going to specialize in you.

current mood: drained
current music: i have the shins in my head

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Tuesday, February 17th, 2004
2:54 am - feeling so very 'American Beauty' here . . .
She thinks:
Sometimes it's the most random things that remind you of the existence of unexpected beauty. Like tonight, walking from the parking lot to the room, she sees 3 pairs of shoes, and one plastic bag strung upon the electric lines. The shoes are all chuck tayors. She looks down at her own well-worn pair, laughs and knows that these things were not thrown in anger. Shoes cast off in a playfut fit of drunkenness? Perhaps. Cast off in a desire to uncover the feet and reconnect with the earth? Maybe. But not in anger. Surely not in anger, but with a playful spirit.

A spirit which finds the tiniest things amusing. A spirit similar to her own. And what of the plastic bag?

She also thinks of smiles in the chilled, lazy air. The character of various smiles. Distanced smiles. Intimate smiles. Scheming smiles. Curious smiles. Impersonal smiles. Desirous smiles. I've-got-a-secret smiles. She thinks of the one sorely-missed smile preserved on the insides of her eyelids, that only she can see in that singular space.


thoughts in third-person seem to have pervaded my mind of late. i like it when things like this come over me. i feel as if my writerly-ness is given a new set of toys. :j

as if the writer-aspect of me were a child to be nurtured. indeed. :j

it is also wonderful when the words "i love you" get such an emphatic response as "AH!! WOOO!"
how comforting to know that my love is still a thing to be excited and happy about after 2 years. :j

current mood: accomplished
current music: Howlin' Wolf - Wang Dang Doodle

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Thursday, February 12th, 2004
1:55 am - a blatant distraction from the fact that i haven't truly updated in ages
yes yes, she thinks, this will make up for my heinous lack of journal entries over the past month. if i razzle-dazzle them with this survey, no one will notice my extensive absence ...

First best friend: Jennifer Belote. cute little red-headed bespectacled girl. i hear she's married now which is really hard for me to imagine.

First real memory of something: being absolutely sure that i flew down the stairs in our condo when i was maybe 2. i still remember the sensation of the flying. i promise you i flew. :j

First date: haha. it was a double date plus one with my sister and her boyfriend taylor, plus their friend nikki. i was with ben/cain. we went out to a pizza restaurant in downtown franklin where we each proceeded to, in clockwise fashion around the table, spill pizza on ourselves. we then went to see "anastasia," and ben held my hand. in retrospect though, what i really have to say is poor nikki!

First real kiss: ben. the night of the aforementioned first date. once it was over, my 14 year old just out of catholic school girl self panicked and ran inside. :j

First Break-up: again with the ben-ness...and as most break-ups are, it was an extremely unpleasant experience

First Job: babysitting at a church during the services on sunday

First screen name: oh god...how awful. BaBaLu311 .... yes, i was once an adolescent suffering from the mixed case letter syndrome. *sigh*

First self-purchased album: hmm....it's been quite awhile....i believe it was perhaps "Ten" by Pearl Jam. that would be the logical answer

First funeral: my grandpa Johnny, my dad's dad. i think i was 8 or so.

First pets: two miniature schnauzers named Eddie (*sniffle sniffle* only the best dog ever) and Victoria. and then a goldfish named Marigold. yes, the creative genius began developing early in my naming of goldfish. :j

First piercing/tattoo: my ears

First credit card: ooooh still don't have one. how am i ever going to establish credit?!?!

First true love: Chai Green

First enemy: Bryan Walsh. it became apparent the other day in talking with kat about middle school that i still have a smidgen of residual bitterness toward that kid. hmm..

First big trip: 8th grade trip to Washington DC

First play/musical/performance: a christmas play in kindergarten where I got to read a whole construction paper page about red people, and blue people, and purple people, and yellow people, and so on..my mom has it on videotape of course. that was back in my extreme southern accent days.

First musician you remember hearing in your house: Obviously Eric Clapton.

Last big car ride: what constitutes a BIG car ride? i mean, i drove to kroger and hollywood video tonight, so i guess that's it.

Last kiss: i guess it's been about a month. it was in an airport. it was lovely. :j

Last great love: well, my last and current are neatly rolled into one tall, goofy package complete with what ben calls "a god voice" :j

Last good cry: last thursday night

Last library book checked out: books from last semester about ancient egyptian rituals and customs

Last movie seen: i believe it was "Storytelling."

Last beverage drank: raspberry ginger ale, good for upset stomachs

Last food consumed: sushi....avacado and carrot rolls....again with the easiness on the stomach

Last phone call: ben

Last TV show watched: American Idol last night....yes, laugh if you must. we all have vices.

Last time showered: last night

Last shoes worn: my camel ankle boot things...my 'ugly shoes' as david calls them (but they are NOT ugly)

Last CD played: When I Woke by Rusted Root ....excellent driving cd, and i know practically every word, which helps :j

Last item bought: sushi, raspberry ginger ale

Last annoyance: lots of negativity from someone i love

Last disappointment: i was a bit diasppointed with the Blockbuster Video and Hollywood Video corporations this evening. apparently they do not see it fit to carry episodes of star trek: the next generation for rental. sure, you can rent episodes of the original series, but that leaves us next gen fans in the dust, and consequently cuts out some money that i'm sure could be made. it's really an unfortunate marketing decision on their part.

Last soda drank: again with the raspberry ginger ale

Last ice cream eaten: ben and jerry's chocolate chip cookie dough

Last shirt worn: the shirt i'm wearing now... kat's baby blue 'murder by death' ebonics t-shirt, which has a scribbley silver alien head (which is why i like it so much) and says 'yo yo yo . . . murder by def'

Last website visited: the oglethorpe email site. how boring.

current mood: sleepy

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Tuesday, January 20th, 2004
12:37 pm - of a life filled with departure gates
I'm beginning to feel the twinges of hostility towards airports these days. Before, airports made me think of my trips to Europe.

Now they are looming things which take people I love to places that are too far from me for too long a time.

I've been to too many airports this year.


(happier post later...)

current mood: frustrated

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Saturday, January 10th, 2004
2:13 am

Big Fish is a beautiful movie. Beautiful. Period.

And Loudon Wainwright is in it. Who knew?

Way to be an actor, Loudon. Awesome.

Also: I will soon be updating this silly journal more often as I am going back to school on sunday, and we all know that this is my fiercest weapon in the fight against scholastic productivity.


current mood: awake
current music: a cacophonic mess coming from the other room

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Saturday, January 3rd, 2004
1:21 am - girl! i wanna take you to a gay bar!
Hello, my name is: I made all A's for the first time EVER in my career as an Oglethorpian!

Today, Dean's List; Tommorow, well....I still don't know what I want to do with life, so we'll just leave it at a nice open state of possibility.

In other news, the new year fell into place with a kiss and some old friends. :j I couldn't have been happier. The Green party was far more mellow than usual, but it was nice. We shot off some fireworks, played some cards, and just talked and laughed for awhile. And I got to begin the first day of the new year by waking up to the feel of Jacob lying next to me. I feel that things are simply beautiful lately.

I have yet to make good, solid new year's resolutions, but I do know that I want to get in shape and focus more on my schoolwork. This past semester overwhelmed me so much with its absence of Jacob and 2 jobs. I now know, however, how to handle all of these things. I feel that I will be less crazy in the upcoming months.

And, in order to help me make solid resolutions, I am going to list them here:
1. focus more on schoolwork
2. get in shape
3. really try to strengthen relationships with my friends
4. continually try to strengthen relationship with jacob
5. try not to be so absent-minded. it hurts too many people.
6. seriously think about what to do after oglethorpe
7. write more (creatively, that is. i do not wish to fall back out of habit simply because i'm no longer in a writing class)
8. save up money for small beach trip over the summer
9. try some journalistic writing
10. get troy back!!!
11. talk more. i feel like i had such a quiet semester. so really, i guess this goes hand-in-hand with strengthening my various relationships.
12. research grad schools.

i'm sure there are more. there is always something about myself i am wanting to change. however, it's 2 a.m. and i've had a tiring evening. my brain is quickly falling out of introspection mode and into sleep mode.

next time: tales of the lipstick lounge and riz's 21st birthday.

current mood: drained
current music: gay bar by electric 6 is in my head...fitting.

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Sunday, December 28th, 2003
7:30 pm - So this is christmas...
Christmas break is a happy time. Except that I haven't really gotten to spend much time with the one person I wish to be with the most.

But he's coming back from Phoenix in 3 days. And what is 3 days after 4 months?

An eternity, really.

But I digress. I just listen to some Bright Eyes and some Polyphonic Spree and it balances out the mood. And also, we talk every night, and plan what we're going to do for 2 weeks when we actually CAN spend the days together. My ears have never heard a lovelier prospect.

First off, there is a Hamtaro puzzle all the way from China that is begging to be pieced together. And I do love me some jigsaw puzzles like nobody's business! And also, it's Hamtaro. And because I am a Nerd, I do love Hamtaro. (hiff hiff, hiff hiff!! ticki ticki!)

Over the break, I have:
read almost all of "The Poisonwood Bible" *Drool*
cut my hair and re-dyed it dark red (sexy sexy)
bought some cds: Flaming Lips, Polyphonic Spree, Hot Hot Heat (and I received a Bright Eyes cd courtesy of my amazing sister)
driven. a lot. a. lot.
seen my Greens. :j
watched cartoons
watched far too many episodes of Trading Spaces
seen oodles of family
held the most wonderful baby in all of babydom

Now for a girly moment:
My boyfriend is wonderful and cute and goofy and sweet and nerdy and the best.

Sometimes I have to have those moments of giggleness.

I hope that Sex and the City comes on tonight. I haven't seen it since I was home for the summer and now that I have cable at my fingertips, I feel that it is high time to sit myself down and catch up on the season as much as I can before the second half begins in January.

"It's high time." That's such a tennessee phrase, isn't it? hehe.

Best thing about tennessee:
John Deere tractors in yards with john deere-color scheme-appropriate christmas lights adorning them.

Worst thing about tennessee:
It's colder here than Atlanta. Granted it's only about 5-7 degrees colder, but to a girl with no blood such as myself, those 5 degrees make a difference.

I do believe that colons are my favorite form of punctuation.

And with that useless bit of journal fodder, it is time for me to attempt to gain control of the tv from my sopranos-loving parents.

to oglefriends who read this: i hope you're all doing well, and i miss you all very much while i am here in the frozen tundra of tennessee.

current mood: relaxed
current music: the living room is sounding mafia-tastic

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Monday, December 15th, 2003
10:23 pm
Here's what I don't understand:

I don't understand women who come into a pet store to buy food for their furry little puppies or kittens or whathaveyou, but they come rolling up in a mercedes and step out wearing a full length FUR COAT. What the hell?! How can you have so much love for a pet and still have a desire to wear a fur coat? How can someone have the AUDACITY to do such a thing?? Jesus!

Two women came into the store today doing just this and it made me want to claw their eyes out and throw rawhide at them. Ugh.

People are ridiculous.

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10:49 am - and my capacities are dwindling till they're gone, gone, gone...
Exams are severely weakening me this semester. I didn't think they were going to be bad at all, until I got scheduled for 30 hours at work, and until some exam things took far longer than anticipated.

I've slept maybe 7 or 8 hours in the past 2 days. awesome. I am the anti-sleep!

And before wednesday morning at 10:45, I have to spend 10 more hours at PetsMart, rewrite about 7 poems or so, clean my room hardcore, pack, get my last work-study checks taken care of, get a few christmas gifts, and maybe sleep if I have time.

Tommorow night is the mini-Bacchanal. yay! It will be most excellent, I just hope I'm awake enough for it.

And seeing as how this is a pretty boring entry, I'm going to end it and get ready for work. Oh joy of joys. If only I could not have to work today, then I could stay in my warm, quiet room, cuddling my cup of lentil soup, perhaps napping a bit, and then doing some of the 50 things I must do. ::sigh::

Here's the deal, semester:
you need to END.
love, rachel.


current mood: exhausted
current music: soul coughing is my current mental music

(1 blew a fuse | it's oh so quiet)

Thursday, December 11th, 2003
9:23 pm - P.S. . . .
I found out the other day that Elton John lives down the road from me. No, literally, down the road. Elton John lives next door to a two-story Target. heh.

He has a christmas tree in his window. :j

And now every time I drive by, I try to use the power of my mind to will him out onto his enormous balcony. No luck so far. But I believe that my mental powers are strong enough. Elton will heed my call, just you watch.

okay, back to my core exam, which is optional mind you, but like a nerd, i am doing it anyways. ::sigh::

current mood: bored
current music: ben folds - tiny dancer

(1 blew a fuse | it's oh so quiet)

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