tis time for an update   
02:55am 29/04/2004
 
mood: blah
music: Requiem For A Dream Soundtrack
well, lotsa crap has been goin on lately. i managed to make it through my tests alive so far, just a little bit longer to go in this semester. but i still have to write my poetry review, and i've got a lot left on my plate. in addition, i still have no clue whatsoever as to the situation on the internship. and it's starting to drive me nuts. it's not fun being unsure of your summer situation with it only a few weeks away. NOT FREAKIN COOL!!! ugh. but i got another job opportunity that i'm applying for too, so that might work out. really though, i want to work with jim.

let's see, other stuff that's going on... well, life is interesting. specifically the past few days have been interesting. i found out that i made it into the aggieland this year somehow... like a picture of me at the 2nd javashock...kinda wierd. ooooh, and speaking of pictures, my mom made these awesome prints of me from spring break...remind me and i'll show em to you. they look like awesome neat headshots. i look like such a hottie. speakin of being a hottie, i've decided that i AM going to work out this summer, no matter how hard it takes, i will have washboard abs...and i will be freakin irresistable. even the girls that i bug the crap out of will have to be beaten off with a stick. add that to my amazing charm and sense of how to treat a lady, and i'll be the ladykiller. hahhahaha...

and the ladies situation as it stands now....does not need to be discussed in detail. just know that it's f***ing with my head as usual. and that i don't particularly care for that. grrrrrrrrrrrr. women...can't live without em, sure as heck don't know what to do with em (which seems like a direct contradiction of my statement in the previous paragraph, but it's not....if only you knew the entire story). oh well...stuff happens, and that's how life is. meanwhile, i'm still gonna keep up my attempts at forsaking the ladies for jesus, bc that's how it should be.

ok, well i'm gonna go to bed....i get to sleep in tomorrow morning. yay for no class!!!

peace out you mothers!!!!
m to the izzay, r to the cizzay

someday, i believe we will see world peace...
and then somebody will start shit just for the hell of it, to f**k with everyone
  
   

(.the frailty of words.)
 
almost forgot...   
03:15am 29/04/2004
 
mood: moody
music: Requiem For A Dream Soundtrack....still
and to top everything off, i had a dream about alicia last night. really wierd, i haven't had a dream about her in months, not to mention been able to remember a dream at all recently. but it was wierd, and i dunno what to make out of it. it was like...she came and visited here or something, and we were sitting on the couch together, talking. and i knew that there was no way she could really be here, she's still in europe and everything, and doesn't get back till the 10th. but it really felt like she was back for some strange reason. and all of a sudden, i really really missed her, and being with her. this, however, does not do anything at all to help my lady situation. aw, shit, here i go saying more than needs to be said. oh well, i never was smart about crap like this anyway.

i swear, when it comes to dealing with girls, i'm dumb as a rock... maybe not really, but it sure as hell feels like it sometimes.

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(1 broken heart | .the frailty of words.)
 
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