| .life is good. | ||||
| 02:15am 09/02/2004 | ||||
 voila! it's me!!!!! yeah, i know. i haven't actually posted in quite some time. how am i? well, to be honest, i'm doing pretty damn good. not alot of major stuff...but it's always the little things that count i guess (it's a proverb, i swear). so let's see here, school is going pretty good. i'm at least attempting to get things done....some of the time. it's always me running after me when it comes to skool, and i've turned out fine in the past. so, i'm gonna try not to worry about it too much but i'm also gonna try and step it up, hopefully (make me study...please). i had one test last week which i hope went ok and i got two coming this week which i hope go ok. some fun times are headed my way. hhmmm...what else? well, girl, i mean jenn, is fine (in more ways than one) and things are actually going very well in my book. i'm quite happy (an understatement) and valentine's day is coming, so surprises should be in order....*smiles* and, finally, faith is being amazing to me right now. i've actually been praying again. and, my prayers have been more genuine. i've honestly just been giving God what's been on my heart and they haven't been cheeseball, textbook prayers. it's actually been helping to comfort me throughout the day when stupid concerns cross my mind. bible time, however, is still somewhat nonexistent. it's gonna come though and i hope soon. it's gonna take my discipline though, which i'm still working on. and, be it slowly, it's coming. and, on a final note...i went to church today and it was awesome. not necessarily the message or anything that crossed my mind. just being in the atmosphere of a real church again was amazing. and, being as happy as i have been lately, i thought it couldnt grow anymore. well, my happiness increased just being in church this morning. and, with discipline coming, i hope to go more often. it's just a necessity in my life, in our lives. we can have fellowship and bible studies and prayer. but i really realized this morning that a church completes the cycle. God is just piecing my once-broken life back together. i'm still hiding some pieces from Him but i feel i can give them over to Him, and i feel that i don't have to hold on to them, though i still do. but, sometimes, a realization is just comforting. it's always the letting go that's the easiest thing to hold on to. so, that's my life in a nutshell at the moment. actually, this is my life in a nutshell at the moment:  wow, ok well it is getting late, i'm getting tired, i've run out of things to say, people are waiting to read this, sparks are flying, so are birds, somewhere....flying, that is. and, now.....i'm done. until next time kiddos...... drink your ovaltine [+!!+..The J-Masta..+!!+] |
||||
chipper| can't describe it at all... | ||||
| 02:43am 09/02/2004 | ||||
i also managed to get my history reading done, and i also sent in my application for the intern position at my church this summer. (finally!) i had let that go for way too long. now it's just up to god to decide who actually gets the job. haha...guess whose lost phone got found this weekend at wesley? damn straight, mine. now i have to go get them to deactivate it properly and maybe then take it into a pawn shop so that i can get some money back. but tonight was good, i guess. i wasted a lot of time and got tomorrow lined up. i can't wait for the show tomorrow. i'm gonna go nuts, hit the pit, jump in the front, all the good stuff. i think it's about time i got some of this stuff out. well, if what katie thamer told me today is true, then so be it. i believe i'm just the man for the job. hahahaha....man i love my new haircut. and i get to see peter tomorrow. haha...i feel so good. well, i need to go to bed so that i can get up for my history class in the morning like i didnt on friday. hah... - jack's uncontrollable need for substance |
||||
indescribable| .first day of the apocalypse. | ||||
| 11:52pm 09/02/2004 | ||||
 well, it's raining.....again. supposed to continue until wednesday i heard. now, don't get me wrong, i love the rain, and lightning, and thunder, etc etc. i just don't like having to get out in it. if i wanna get wet i'll go swimming, or take a shower, or spill something on me. however, i do like jumping in puddles. it's the four-year-old in me coming out every now and again. in other breaking news, i slept 12 hours last night. and though i really didn't want to, it was pretty relaxing. and i only missed one class so it wasn't a total bad thing. however, it did waste most of my day so i get to scrounge around for time to get stuff done. and believe me, i have alot to do. but, then again, who doesn't? well, anyways, i think i should tell you, in my 12 hours of beauty rest last night, i had quite the weird dream. ok, so we're at the wesley with everyone and i'm supposed to speak that night. well, i get up to speak and everything is going fine but all of a sudden, everyone turns around and just stares at the back of the sanctuary, which, by the way, wasn't the one we have at the college station locale. it was this giant cathedral type thing, but that's not important. well, i'm thinking to myself, "um...hello? wtf?" and all that stuff. so i try to get everyone's attention and such but NO ONE will listen to me, let alone turn in my direction. so, basically, i go psycho on everyone. i reach behind me and come back with this metal baseball bat and precede down the isle, hitting whomever is closest. but, when my bat made contact with the respective person, they just broke like porcelain. and after destroying several people, i noticed everyone was like this. upon seeing this, i ran out the back of the "cathedral" and found myself standing in front of a huge stove/over/barbeque thing. so, once again i think to myself, "wtf?" so, i open it and look inside, but i can't see anything. i can, however, smell something being cooked. so, being a dream, i crawled in and felt around for stuff. well, when i had crawled for awhile, i reached out and got ahold of something. so, i pulled out a flashlight that i apparently had on me, and looked down, only to find the charred remains of my body. and that's about when i woke up. you thinking what i'm thinking? exactly....i know. it was just a surreal, crazyass dream. i can't put it any other way. but don't worry, i'm not actually crazy........................and so, on that, i must be off to my work.....maybe. '|.|'..J..'|.|' .i can't take my eyes off you. |
||||
crazy| apt37 | ||
|
Recent Entries Friends Info Calendar | ||
| days | ||
| Previous Next |
||