Date:	2003-06-27 23:55
Subject:	still on my quest
Security:	Public
Mood:	thoughtful
Music:	Super Joint Ritual - Takes no guts

well as each day goes by i seem to be getting lonlier and sad, it sux, i just need to have some one to be with and love. i would wish for just one time that i knew of a girl that likes me. there has like never been a girl out there that i liked that liked me back. agh!!!! but besides me babling on and on about me still looking for love this week had been a pretty good one. i have been pumping iron like a mothe fucker and am so getting buff as hell so it makes me feel better about my self because im loosing my fattnes. i hung out with one of my good friends this week, one who i havent hung out in a while to much. then i also got a pool so i can go swimming and work on my beatuiful tan. and then i got cool with this girl allison which who has been hanging out with my friend kyle so im happy a bout that and stuff, and she told me i have a cute face but wether that is for real i font know, but oh well. thats all i got for now so i will talk to you later.

Date:	2003-06-19 00:42
Subject:	today sucks ass
Security:	Public
Mood:	lonely
Music:	down - losing all

today sucked azz a lot becasue it was hot then it rained and botho of those things together make me sick. also i feel like shit! i am mentally and physically drained, tired, etc... i just wished i was better off dead ill tell ya whut. i mean basically my life sux, l feel so empty in side and i really dont show it or tell anyone but i am really lonely and it makes me sad cos i need someone to be with. i wished i had a girlfriend or something but it just seems that every time i like someone i just dont try to tell them that i like them and/or they like someone else and someone else likes them that would obviosly have a better chanceat being with her than my lame ass self. god i am so ugly!! i wished for once a nice girl would like me, it make my life a lot better and make me feel good about my self which hasent been for a long while. and it seems that no one ever wants to listen to my problems and wants and it makes me mad and i just dont say anything about it so i just keep it in side. its always me listening to others problems and i try to help but they could really give a shit about how i feel but fuck it. well thats all i got to say for today so enjoi reading this, and i will talk to you later. bye

Date:	2003-06-18 02:56
Subject:	First post...
Security:	Public
Mood:	melancholy
Music:	Down - lifer

my first journal entry(sp?)!! well anyway um i really dont have much to say but like today was pretty good. first i went to court :) then just slept all day and went to the nabors crib for a while and shit and got a contact high from the beautiful aroma of yeah you can figure it out. then like i went out with my woman friend from down the street named meaghan for some late eating at like 12:30 or something it was fun! well im like fuckin tired as ever and shit and dont know what to really write so yeah. later