Wednesday, February 27th, 2008

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2:54p	Yeah so things are going alright right now. It seems that things are finaly settling down again, which makes me happy. I hate when things tend to get out of hand and I have no control what-so-ever! It drives me crazy. I need to be in some kind of control of the situations that pertains to me. Otherwise I tend to go a little nuts! Justin and I are still fabulous. I believe we can make it through anything just as long as we can talk to one another. Once we lose communication I think it's over. I'm more of the talker though. I wish that he would open up to me more. I found out something that he was hiding from me, and that just tells me that he can't trust me with everything. I want him to be able to tell me. I just don't understand why he told me at first. Yes, I would have been mad, but eventually gotten over it like I always tend to do. Ugh.. I just don't understand what is wrong with talking to me. He says that he wants to spend the rest of his life with me, but he can't talk to me. I hate it! Now that will drive me insane! Besides that, school is going good I guess you could say. I believe I will take a break though.. a long one. Get a secound job and save up some money to move out on my own. I will probably go back in October. We'll see anyway. The only problem with me taking a break is that I will have no insurance. So... that puts me in a perdicament. I really need that secound job though, and also it would be nice if I could find a job with benifits ya know? Moving along now, nothing really new has been happening lately. It'd be nice if it could be that way more often. Stay the same.. But then again it would get boring. ------------------------------------------ don`t I`ve done things that you won`t There`s nothing like a trail of blood to find your way back home I was waiting for my hearse What came next was so much worse It took a funeral to make me feel alive Just open your eyes Just open your eyes And see that life is beautiful. Will you swear on your life, That no one will cry at my funeral? -SixxAM Current Mood: okay Current Music: SixxAM - Life is beautiful (Comment on this)
6:11p	Dear ME, Quit being so stupid! I can't stand you anymore the way you act, and feel. Why can't you ever just be happy? Don't you want to feel joy and true happiness? Or would like to be miserable the rest of your life. Quit settin yourself up for shit! Or just let shit go! Don't dwell on everything all the time. What the fuck is your problem? Maybe you like wallowing in self pity for yourself, because you just don't want it from anyone else. Quit screaming into your pillow at night when you're alone. Tell someone how you feel, and just get it out of your system. Quit cutting yourself up over nothing. Well hell... why don't you just say fuck it and commit suicide!! Current Mood: restless (Comment on this)

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