Jessi's Blurty

Damn it!!
I'm so sick of his shit! I don't know if I even want to be with him anymore.. It's been two years, and we are workin on the third and I just don't know if I can stand it anymore. He gets what he wants when he wants it if you know what I mean, and whenever I want it he turns into a little bitch and comes up with all these excuses. I know I'm not gross either because I take a shower EVERYDAY! So I know it's not that, and if he doesn't like the way I look, and he's just useing me I wish he would just leave me now before we get anymore serious, if I don't leave him first. I'm just tired of getting teased by him. Saying that he'll mess with me later that night and then saying that he's to tired and shit. He's 21, and to tired at 9-10 pm? Are you serious?!
I think I'm going to leave him... He's not even doing anything with his life. He doesn't have a car, license, apartment, or anything. He's to busy trying to play man of the house when there isn't anything wrong with his parents besides the fact that they're to lazy to get their asses out and get a job, so they leave it to the kids to take care of them? WTF??? I'm sorry but that's just pathetic, and I would have left my folks along time ago. Make them get up off their asses. I fear that he might end up the same way... dead weight... another government check collecter. I can't date someone like that. I would kill them, or myself from being so miserable. I can't stand things like that. Just sitting around doing nothing with your life. I'm to independent for that kind of shit. Maybe I shouldn't be with him... I've had this feeling for a while... maybe right now I'm just thinking that I love him,and I feel like I have to be with him because I've been with him for so long. Oh God... Please just let it all settle out!

To bleed, or not to bleed??

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Current Music: Neurosonic - So many people