hey!!! im soo excited.. me and my awesome friend mallory( thanks sooo much for getting us the tickets)!!!! are going to see finch.. ive seen them already, but i didnt go with mal. and we will surely have some fun that day :)! today the school called my house.. i dont know why, they like to do that, there probably calling to tell my mom im failing something, they like to fuck me over like that.. thanks school. calling my house = to death.. my parents are soo anal about everything.. all well. today i went and paid my speeding ticket with adam! thanks adam for bringing me ! we went shopping afterwards and i got a bracelet, and a pink tank top, pinks the best colour ever. we went in the photobooth and took pictures of ourselves being idiots. i love it. after that i hung out with karly, and we are going to quebec march break together !!! its gonna be sooo much fun, i need to get myself a fake id. just to get into the bars. not to drink, i dont drink, never have never will, i just think its a waste of money and so is all drugs, " like im high on life okay!!"..- me when people are asking me if im high or whatnot.. fuck i hate that, not everyone does drugs.. but people in cobourg seem to think that. just because im an outgoing person doesnt mean that im drugged/drunk off my own ass to be like that. im just naturally fucked in the head.. no just a little crazy. anyways i havent talked to karly for a long time and it was good catching up. im getting my snowboarding boots tomorrow :).. i wish my feet didnt grow out of my old ones, they were soo comfy and nice. im in a good mood today i guess, still upset about certain things,hopefully i wont lay awake at night tonight for ever thinking about what went wrong and what i did, because i really didnt do anything wrong, he was the one who asked me out knowing he would be gone, and then after being gone he realized it wasnt working. so he broke up with me, im not hung up on it though.the things that are keeping me up at nights is thinking of the reasons why we havent talked and why i dont feel that he even considers me as a friend anymore, thats what has been bothering me. im one of those people who gets bothered by having someone not talk to me for a long time. i just wish we couldve stayed friends. but if hes gonna be an ass and not talk to me im not sure i would want a friend like that. im sure hes very busy, so i shouldnt be such a fucking bitch about it. i hope he knows im really proud him, and i hope hes having a blast !
i also hope erin is doing better than before, i feel soo badly for her, i dont know what i would do if my grandma(oma) passed away, and erin if you ever need anyone im here, and i will be there in seconds. i love you erin soo much your awesome babe. and i miss your smile and your jokes and your ideas ( i hope i see you tomorrow!!)!! your are wicked, you always make me feel soo much better about myself whenever im feeling down. i wish i could make it up to you, youve done soo much for me ! you are the best of the best.
well i think i will go to bed now.. sweet dreams *kisses*
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restless.
grateful.