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[12 Oct 2004|12:26pm] |
john: you+lou+me= bff
john is such a good kid. hahahaha. hes so mad that hes at school waiting for class...and im at home waiting for class. what a sucker.
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[11 Oct 2004|02:39am] |
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this weekend has been good. mike came home on friday but i was in a real bad mood cuz my car died..but..it changed cuz..i love some kids! but yeah....ive pretty much been with mike and rory all weekend..cuz..they find me first? or something..haha...weve been watching real badass movies..well...one badass movie..no no no...2..counting mean girls..yeha 2...hmmm...my freakin car is dead!!! i dotnknow when my dads coming home..so im tihnking at some point i should go get my stuff out of his house..haha..what a sucker..i totally took over! im prtty convinced kaylas mad at me ..but...whateva..cuz..i really didnt do anythng wrong..and she wont tell me what she thinks i did wrong..sooo...that gets us nowhere. hmm ill try tomorrow or something. now..i must go over there!
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| i bought you gum..now you hafta be nice. |
[08 Oct 2004|12:42am] |
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today was so good...i saw mike which was eh..but..me john and lou hung out all day and talked about how were gonna get a shitty apartment tiogether and were gonna have our own radio station andim gonna be the'token girl' bc according to john theres ALWAYS token girl hha it was such a good day..we all..hung out and stuff...went to subway..went to panera..hung out in various places and eventually went to advetising..oh man..i love those guys..and were totally gonna be friends for life!!! hahaha love it!
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[05 Oct 2004|01:30am] |
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i really....dkfjhsdklfjhjustdsklfjslkdfjsdfwannalkdjsldfkjsldkjsdlfkjdielksgfhjjklajsdkljasf
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| crimson and clover... |
[04 Oct 2004|11:56am] |
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last night was fucking GRAND!!! me and rachel totally plated dance dance sophomore style...kinda sucked but..we just hafta get back into things..haha..it was sooo amazing and i was so happy..and i talked to mike too..that was cool..cuz i hadnt talkled to him since he left really cept online. then i came home..did some stuff..haha..and then i was talking to shawn and then..he just called me and i was like ahh hey!!! and i was soooo happy to talk to him cuz i hadnt talked to him since he dropped outta school! it was so good..and then i talked to steve..who told me to call his friend...and..for some reason i did..soi talked to this kid justin for like 049358903485 hours...except it wasnt that long at all..haha but hes a real cool kid. and this morning..at 7 40ish..haha..kayla called...why do i always answer?! hahaha i loved it..shes so cool. i like kids who think they can call me so early like its ok..but for her it is ok...other wise i wouldnt answer..or i wouldnt answer cuz i was sleeping or something..but..she just called me but i didnt answer it cuz i didnt knw the number and her message said she was gonna call back..but im still waiting for that..mhmm...im in a good mood i tihnk. =)
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[27 Sep 2004|02:21am] |
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i havent been this mad at myself in so fucking long....if you want it so bad..it wont happen..hahaha..its never gonna fucking happen. and i knew the night was gonna end up like this..i knew it. and here i am...so mad at myself for..reasons ...and..im so fucking mad..and i cant stop crying and..nighttime is so bad...but i love lindsay belles for trying to help
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[27 Sep 2004|01:51am] |
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do you want me?
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| jason luby. nuff said. |
[26 Sep 2004|10:34pm] |
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shotEshotSshotA (10:27:33 PM): thats what ann shmidt says at the nursing home when i bring her her food im like ann schmidt how are ya and every single time she goes thats meee. haha she can never tell me how she is. just lets me know its her
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[26 Sep 2004|03:38pm] |
you can disregard that last entry.
umm..
im ok. well see how the night goes..haha..cuz that usually when tihngs get shitty cuz i tihnk too much.
me and coopa had soooo much fun yesterday...kay and matt went to the movies..and me and coopa watched mr smoothie play dance dance and cheered him on that being after we got yelled t for riding the elevator too long..and then i got stalked by this guy we named jack...well coopa named him jack but he didnt look like one at all..he was real cool...cept his gauges were huge..but..he had tattoos..and they were SWEET and i was in love <3 but yeha...he watched us alot..and we watched him..hahaha...and we rode this ride thing that was so fun =)
i love coopa soooo much!!
but yeah...tonight.
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| misery is worth being a decent girl. |
[26 Sep 2004|02:16am] |
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im not gonna lie to you...i wish i could do it. i wish so bad right now that i could just do it. but..i cant bc..i cant. but..im back to where i was right now...im so fucking miserable..and everything..is just making it worse. i had such high hopes..and theyve killed me. i didnt even have high hopes..i didnt..i promise..but..i just thought..i dont know what i thought..i thought something..and i was happy..and that something made me happy..but...just tihnking abotu how pathetic i am disgusts me..and thats all it comes down to..and i cant be me anymore...bc i hate me. i hate me so much. and its only a matter of time before everyone else hates me too..bc im not a good person..im not a 'decent girl' and i guess people were deceived by that...i dont want to do anything...i just..want to go to sleep...just sleep...thats all i want to do. i need someone to talk to..and yet..that would probably be the worst thing for me. bc...noone would get it...and i cant explain it..so...i guess...nothing will be accomplished. i was telling coopa today about how i hated analyzing people..but i think what i really hate...is analyzing myself..and it will never end. ill just leave this as it is..and go away.
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[21 Sep 2004|09:10am] |
i talked to coopa and kayla...then kayla talked to matt...then everyone talked to meghan...
haha.
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[19 Sep 2004|09:18am] |
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coopa and kayla...i hafta talk to you.
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| 48..maybe..i think i messed up..haha |
[19 Sep 2004|01:37am] |
Give yourself two points for everything you've done. Then post your score in the subject line and pass it on. The maximum score is 102.
1. Smoked?
2. Been Drunk as hell?
3. Screwed someone of the opposite sex?
4. Screwed someone of the same sex?
5. Shoplifted?
6. Lied?
7. Betrayed a friend?
8. Been to jail?
9. Smoked weed?
10. Done LSD?
11. Done any other illegal drug?
12. Given oral sex?
13. Received oral sex?
14. Screwed something not of the human race?
15. Screwed something not alive?
16. Cheated on someone?
17. Used someone?
18. Paid someone for sex?
19. Been paid for sex?
20. Played strip poker?
21. Skipped school?
22. Skipped school to get high/drunk?
23. Danced naked?
24. Danced naked in public?
25. Flashed someone?
26. Mooned someone?
27. Kissed someone?
28. Kissed someone of the same sex?
29. Held hands?
30. Hugged someone?
31. French kissed?
32. Had sexual fantasies?
33. Had gay/lesbian fantasies?
34. Stolen money?
35. Stolen money from family?
36. Stolen drugs from family?
37. Been convicted of a crime?
38. Dated someone because you heard they were 'easy'?
39. Had someone date you because they thought you
were 'easy'?
40. Been called a whore?
41. Been called a bitch?
42. watched porn?
43. Taped porn?
44. Watched porn you taped?
45. Kissed someone in a moving vehicle?
46. Screwed someone in a moving vehicle?
47. Used sex 'toys'?
48. Tried to kill yourself?
49. Tried to kill someone else?
50. Told someone you hated them?
51. Told someone you loved them and didn't mean it ?
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[17 Sep 2004|10:55am] |
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oh man...yesterday school was real good! advertising was..amazing...we did group shit and my group is the greatest of all...me john and lou...oh man...were so cool! 'the alliance' whoa..like the band. so..we al bonded and were doing our final project together im excited cuz it should be fun...today i hafta work on my essay for english...500 words on the form and function of a skateboard...yeahhh....due tuesday! this is gonna be diffcult..but ror helped me out alot..and some other kids helped me a little.
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[16 Sep 2004|12:01am] |
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im not doing very good.
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[09 Sep 2004|10:57pm] |
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steve is my favorite
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[09 Sep 2004|10:25pm] |
things are fucked.
=(
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| it seems this is a battle that i never could win. |
[08 Sep 2004|11:40am] |
ive been in such a good mood latley. its real cool. im excited about today cuz i only have 2 classes and nothing else to do..its so exciting! i really do love thrice.
and you!
my true love!
you call from the hilltop.
you call through the streets,
"Darling don't you know,
the water is poison."
and i say!
"come on and give me my poison."
<3love it!
ok i hafta go get ready for school!
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[04 Sep 2004|12:03am] |
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schools going great..i loooooove john..hes such a good kid and hes realll fucking cute. haha..i wanna go to his show tomorrow but im going to cp and its 18+ so ive got noone to go with me cuz everyones 12...so it sucks..but at least he invited me to it..and ill go to the next one? haha..i cant wait till my computer class. hahaha...yayyyy...thats it. bye.
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[01 Sep 2004|12:33am] |
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mike has some crazy issue...i tihnk maybe hell realize that someday..hes gonna need to grow up.
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