Amber's Journal

Saturday, October 18, 2003

1:00AM - Sorry Been A While Since I Updated My Journal

Life been CrAzY since homecoming. Although I had a great time, getting drunk w/ my friends lol. Lonnnggg story. Dan and I will get back together just not right now. We have some problems we need to work out first. Yesterday was my volleyball tournament. We played Virginia. We lost but we played good. Anyway, right before my team left, a scout was talking to my coach about me and heather pegg. She wants us this summer go to South Carolina to recruit us. Their school is division 2!! I'm soo excited. She said coach will love us. Can't wait!!! Well, I'm gonna hit the bed. I'm sooooooo tired. Bye!

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Sunday, September 28, 2003

12:03AM - I don't get him...

I don't understand him sometimes (you know who u r). I really like him a lot. I don't think he understands that or doesn't care. Not sure though. Maybe I should let him go and move on? I tried to tell him soo many different ways that I'm really interested in him but he doesn't seem to get the idea. I'm sorta talking to someone else. He's 24 but he's soo fine! Even Haley thought so. LOL. Age doesn't matter right Hay?? lol. We both know its sure not. Age is nothing but a number. =) I'm not sure if we're be more or what but don't worry I'll let you know. Bye for now...

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Saturday, September 27, 2003

1:38AM - = /

I don't understand what happened today. Just a confusing day I swear. I don't know if him and I are even friends anymore or if we're still gonna talk. I have to ask him tomorrow to find out. I hope nothing changed between him and I but I think it did...Tonight I was supposed to meet someone but he ended up working. Matt B. said maybe next weekend but can't because of homecoming. So I don't know when I'm gonna meet him. I'm single right now and will be for a while. I'm not looking for a relationship. Trust me I'm not. Going to bed. Bye!

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Friday, September 26, 2003

4:29PM - What Happened =*(

Today is the worst day of my life! This week been hell and today is just worst. Someone I actually liked hates me now. That's nothing new!!!!! I don't blame him. He totally read my journal wrong. Ya I think he's a great person and all and yes I don't know him well enough and would like to. God knows for sure he doesn't now. I fu*ked it up. Like always. Me back being the old me, fu*king things up. He's the one that actually got me to write a journal again and now I think I'm done. Doesnt help. Make things worst! I guess this is a good bye. =*(

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1:07PM - Do I have to put a subject here every time I wanna update my journal?

I recently just read Chris's journal. He doesn't know but I read it everyday or every time he updates his. He probably doesn't care if I do only if Allie does. I feel bad for him. He's not a happy person and I wish there was something I could do. He wishes there were bunch of girls in a group would talk about how hot he is and all. Well, there is CHRIS! You just don't know. I talk about you everyday and so does my friends who thinks you are hot. Stop putting yourself down. You're too focus on Allie right now you wouldn't know if anyone likes you...

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12:59PM - At Home!!

Sorry guys I haven't been on for a while. I don't know if anyone cares or what. Anyway you all are probably wonder why I'm at home. Well, I'm home because I have poison ivy all over my body including my right eye!!! Now I look even MORE uglier!! I'm gonna go and lay down and try not to scratch my poison ivy on me!! Lata

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12:58PM - At Home!!

Sorry guy I haven't been on for a while. I don't know if anyone cares or what. Anyway you all are probably wonder why I'm at home. Well, I'm home because I have poison ivy all over my body including my right eye!!! Now I look even MORE uglier!! I'm gonna go and lay down and try not to scratch my poison ivy on me!! Lata

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Tuesday, September 23, 2003

9:31PM - F*ckin Sucked

I hate BROOKFIELD people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We lost today again. I don't understand. We beat Girard but Girard beat Broofield. Why couldn't we do that??? I'm Confused!!! I am not going to my homecoming. I think it's stupid in the first place. F*ck homecoming and F*ck men 2!! Now I'm gonna shower lata!

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Sunday, September 21, 2003

8:53PM - Thinkin

Just wishin my life was different. I just wished I was a senior last year so I would be in college now with my bestest friends ever!! Guys in niles sucks!!! They never know what they are doing or going to do. I'm just now finally getting over Chris. I don't know what I saw in him. Good luck with Allie. I hated the things he said to me. I knew everything he said was a lie. Now I gotta get over it. Just to let you all know, I'm hard of hearing. So don't IM me if you got a problem with that!

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3:55PM - My boring life

Well, I didn't really want to do this but I guess I'm going to, to see if it helps. My life is pretty much boring, nothing new. I missed soo many of my friends who left to go to college. Ever since they left I felt soo lonely. I need you guys. Haley introduced me to some boy named Chris C. He's such a sweetie. People who think other wise are nobody. I don't care what others have to say or think of me because of what I think of Chris. To me it seems like he like this girl he's taking to homecoming. I know they are good friends but it seems more to me. Maybe I should just back off for a while and see where it leads them after homecoming is over. I probably shouldn't wait but it's not like I got anyone else. O well same old same.

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