| 9:29p |
I don't have a lot to post on. I feel like my job is making me mature, and I'm not sure if I'm ready to be mature. I had a really good talk today with a coworker when we went on a very long transport. We talked about bad relationships and I realized that I've learned so much about what makes a good one and what makes a bad one--both through my limited experiences, and through my willingness to learn vicariously through others. I also realized that I won't make the same mistake twice. I might come up with new and creative ways to make mistakes, but I don't repeat 'em. I also have an incredible amount of strength that can only be accredited to my amazing support system and God.
Recently, I've also started telling people, in context of a conversation, that I used to have an eating disorder. If it's relevant, I will bring it up. I'm becoming braver and realizing that most people aren't going to treat me like a leper because of it, or really think any differently of me because of it.
I feel good about myself. I don't by any means feel like I've realized the person I'm meant to become, but I will spend my whole life figuring that one out. But I feel like I have a pretty good grasp on what I want from life, and what it's going to take to get there. I think I have good boundaries, and a good sense of balance. I also have a tendency to value "play" over "work" which I think will benefit me well in this field :).
The thing I think I need to work on most is focusing less on me. I feel like I've become a little selfish. Prayers are helpful. Thanks. |