| 11:16p |
lent...so far
So, I'm not going to lie, I'm in a little bit of a funk. It was the final week of training at work, and we covered some really tough topics. I've always been good with boundaries in my work, and very good at not taking it home with me, but I've been having trouble shaking Tuesday's training on the dynamics of sexual offenders. Which isn't uncommon for people who've been the victims of sex crimes, but I never have. Not even close. But it was really disturbing. (Side note: I really do think I'll feel BETTER rather than WORSE when I start actually working with clients. Maybe that's naive of me, but if I'm working with them, I'm actually doing something to help rather than just helplessly learning about it.)
Then, there's this whole mess with one of my groups of friends. I'm not sure if they pushed me out or if I pushed them away. If I could know for sure that my "place" with them was just forgotten, and I didn't have to feel any guilt about it, I think I'd feel a lot better.
And then, it also seems that I'm having trouble connecting with some key people. I don't really know how much more I want to say about that, because I think it's my insecurity in a large part.
I went to mass tonight, and in some weird mixup, there were no musicians. So we had a relatively silent mass. Which sucked, I wanted music, but you know, maybe this is all about lent. Maybe I am traveling through the desert with Jesus and this all has a purpose.
So cool. If there's spiritual growth from this, then I'm all about it. |