| 6:25p |
Well life's ok but a bit frustrating. It's really wearing, having my best friends at war, I don't even know if they'll ever want to be friends with each other again. It makes me really sad, but I am doing such a good job of keeping it together, you'd be proud of me :D It hurts but I'm somehow not letting it consume me, and by "somehow" I mean "by the grace of God."
Who, has been really awesome lately. For Lent I started cracking down on my spiritual devotion harder, I decided, "ok girl, you gotta make this better, you've strayed so far that you can't even feel His presence anymore, NOT good." I was so not feeling it at first but you know what, sometimes you just have to persist...when you can't do anything better than just go through the motions, at least go through the motions...God knows how weak I am and when I humble my heart enough, He allows His strength in. THen I get all prideful thinking it's my strength and that's where the trouble comes. LOL...the spiritual struggles I go through and never talk about. Not that I'm shy about talking about them...ok I am a little it makes me squirmy...I just never do...I don't wanna make anyone else uncomfy either. I mean, if I were to get into an arena where a good discussion could happen, I'd talk with anyone about it, I'm not ashamed of it...just...yeah.
Ok, off to have a good weekend. |