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[29 May 2003|09:54pm]
this is just a test
1 wished Upon a star**

ugh im not gonna cry [13 Apr 2003|02:37am]
i've been so depressed lately on my way down to smyrna i just felt like crying i dont know why its hard for me to cry now a days because ive done so much of it lately well not lately but ive done my share of crying anyway though me and justin are long broken up now.. i just havent been online lately to blurt anything.. ummz.. i havent talked to vick inm a few days im going to have to call him tomorrow i miss talkin to him.. he always treated me soo good.. but he did want to be with me and now he doesnt know cuz of all this paul bullshit which was waste of my time cuz i was down there tonight and he was being a total dick so i left i was supposed to stay down there oh well i want to cry but im not that upset cuz i know i can do better, he aint got no job and no education and hes nothing but an asshole unless he decides to be nice i dont want nothing to do with him not even as a friend.. its all good though im graduating this year and im going to college and im going to do something with myself so i dont have to be miserable the rest of my life.. like everyone should do at least go to night school, vick is trying to get his education and he got a job i dunno why i cant make my standards higher i always go for a pretty face, just like everyone else does.. ugh i dunno.. i feel alone right now, i know im not but i do.. well im going to get off of here.. buh byez ONe
Upon a star**

damn its been a while [08 Apr 2003|09:29pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | 21 questions - 50 cent ]

well its been a minute since i've last updated this bytch.. oh wellz. ive been pretty busy with school and work and smyrna.. yeah I met paulie down there.. omg hes so banging... he makes me happy we were together but then he cant trust me cuz of some vick shyt and now we are talkin but i know hes got feelings for me so i know we'll be together soon.. i just want to be friends with vick now but i dont know how to tell him... i like him soo much though.. i really wanna be with paul...but time can tell.. but anyways though.. i dont feel good right now and im bored.. and there aint shyt to do and its early and im inside cuz my dad said so.. anyways though.. i dont talk to derek no morez.. he dont want to talk to me.. lolz.. god i really like paul.. ummz yeah i graduate this year and i start del tech this fall.. yeah so there really aint shyt to talk bout... so gotta go buh byez

Upon a star**

uhh.. cant sleep [09 Mar 2003|05:59am]
[ mood | irritated ]

okay so its definately like 7 o' clock in the morning and i havent fallen asleep yet... i've been up since 2 in the afternoon today.. prolly early actually but i just cant sleep, i dont feel tired at all and it sucks because i know that i should be.. well derek doesnt want me to call him anymore, guess cuz i bugged.. havent talked to justin in forever we arent together anymore obviously... me and victor are going to be friends.. and well thats pretty much it in the guy update.. every guy i meet ends up doing something and i get rejected like always.. its all good though because i just gotta keep telling myself that one day im gonna meet someone and im gonna know and all the searching will be well worth it.. right now im just being 16 yrs old having fun doing what i gotta do and just being as happy as i possibly could be for feeling lonely.. i just dont let the loneliness sink in, i just go out and do something with my girls and i end up forgetting why im even worried bout all the guy crap.. well im not tired. but i dont feel like writing anymore, my wrist hurts.. okay buh byez ONE

Upon a star**

decisions.. decisions [26 Feb 2003|05:37pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | crush - mandy moore ]

well.. i dont even want to be with justin anymore, i just cant get a hold of him to tell him that i dont want to be with him anymore, hes grounded off of the phone.. i got to go to school tonight YAY.. ugh i hate school so much, but oh well i need to get my education so that i can graduate from this shyt and go to college.. anyways though ummz.. well im in a pickle right now, i dont know who i want to be with victor freaked out on me last night cuz he saw me chillin with derek, i like both of them alot, and i dont know what to do, they are both gentlemen and they both treat me good, but i mean its only the beginning right, of course in the beginning they are nice as shyt right.. ugh i dunnoz, i just dont want to make the wrong decision and end up regretting it, cuz ill end up doing that.. ive been like busy lately, right now im like wired, im tired, but im wired.. i dunnoz how to explain it. i went to the YMCA today for like 2 hours, and i went yesterday and im going tomorrow again.. i hope i notice a difference soon.. ugh i cant stop thinking about what i should do with victor and derek.. i just dont know anymore i hate being in this situation.. i wish that this didnt have to happen but of course my life is never good, its just full of confusion and upsets, and disapointments, and wondering like always.. well the saying is what doesnt kill ya makes ya stronger.. i guess its true.. i really think the only reason victor is so mad now is cuz he realizes that i could be with someone else, and that hes not the only guy in the world.. ugh who knows.. im sick of thinking about it.. g2g buh byez ONE

Upon a star**

well.. well [24 Feb 2003|11:26am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

well i was grounded all weekend cuz i came in late.. that sucked.. anyways though vick likes me but he doesnt want me to be up his butt.. perfectly understandable.. i get like that from time to time... umm.. he likes me but he doesnt see us together right now, well thats cool, he doesnt even really know me anyway.. umm i met this guy derek hes 23 years old.. hes a hottie, but i dunno whats gonna happen with us anyway.. i talked to him and he said that he was lookin for my number.. so he was glad that i called.. well im getting ready to go over erins.. i just cant find my purse.. oh wellz buh byez..

Upon a star**

... [18 Feb 2003|04:21pm]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | beautiful by christina aguilera ]

well i've seen vick for the past couple of days.. i really like him a lot.. he told me that hes attracted to me, but he just doesn't know what he wants right now.. that he really really doesnt want to hurt me and that hes going to try his hardest not to.. but i guess we'll just have to see where that takes us.. im not sure if i love justin anymore.. i mean i love him as a person but i dunno if im still in love with him.. im really liking vick and me and vick have a lot of chemistry.. not just attraction, but chemisty too.. like i dunno how to explain it, it just feels right when im with him.. i dunno, i aint trying to fall for him, but who knows what'll happen next.. i didnt go to work today, i just didnt feel like it, it was just too much for me.. i got off tomorrow and i go in thursday so i aint gonna fawk up and not go.. im trying not to fawk up what i got, i got night school tomorrow too, i got tons of homework so imma try and get that done, i got the worst of it done though.. well i dont really have much to say which is why i havent updated in a while.. justin loves me though, he called me cuz i didnt call him one day to make sure we were still together normally a guy wouldnt of cared, but he does.. ugh.. i dunno im confused.. oh yeah and jeff hates me.. go figure.. well he'll get over it.. well im going buh byez.. ONE

Upon a star**

....... [15 Feb 2003|12:43am]
[ mood | indescribable ]

Well, Me and Justin decided to have an open relationship until we can see each other again.. Since the fact that we don't get to see each other like we would wish, we just thought it was be easier on us if we had an open relationship, which i like.. Anyways though some drama that has happened.. i thought me and justin broke up well the fact of the matter is.. we didn't well i had started going out with Jeff and i liked him.. or so i think.. well anyways justin told me that he wasnt going to tell me he loves me until i broke up with jeff, so i broke up with him but now he hates me, and i guess i like him, but not as much as this guy vick that i was with tonight.. we were so close to having sex, but i wouldnt let him.. it was so hard to say no, but i did and im proud that i did, anyways im not a smut i dont even know the boy.. ive only met him 2 times and that hes friends with katie, well anyways when i kissed him it felt like there was no one else there.. ive never felt a kiss like that before, ever, it was just perfect. omg i dont know how to describe him, hes soo cute. . i like him, i hope he likes me too.. i swear we were making out for like 4 hours.. it didnt even seem that long, it seemed like maybe an hour topz.. ugh well i dunno how to describe how i feel right now, but seriously i never felt a kiss like that, he kisses perfectly, like ive never met a better kisser.. omg.. ugh i need to stop.. okay im getting off of here.. buh byez

Upon a star**

.. my stephanie, and lil man, and kaylynn left me [12 Feb 2003|01:03pm]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | all i have.. by ll cool j and j.lo ]

I just took kaylynn, lil man, and stephanie to the train station.. i hope they make it home okay.. im gonna miss them.. i had lotz of fun with them.. those kiddies are soo cute.. and stephanie is a funny funny girl.. well i dunno heres a quiz that i took.. stole it off of someone else blurty but im not gonna tell u whos.. lolz.. take a guess.. k here it goes..

[ .001. ] first name: Danielle
[ .002. ] middle name: Marie
[ .003. ] last name: None ya
[ .004. ] nickname(s): chink, chinky, chink a mister, chink a choo, korea
[ .005. ] gender: female
[ .006. ] age: 16
[ .007. ] birthday: april 24th
[ .008. ] height: 5' 4
[ .009. ] hair color: dark brown
[ .010. ] eye color: dark brown
[ .011. ] race: asian
[ .012. ] do you wear glasses or contacts: both
[ .013. ] do you have braces: yuup.. gettin them off on april 7th at 10:10 am
[ .014. ] is your hair long or short: too long.. i wanna cut it
[ .015. ] where were you born: seoul Korea
[ .016. ] current location: newport
[ .017. ] zodiac sign: taurus
[ .018. ] how many languages do you know: english.. and a lil spanish.. and i can say thank you in korean..
[ .019. ] nationality: 100% korean
[ .020. ] bad habits:.. biting nails, smoking
[ .021. ] piercings you have: i got 4 in each ear.. bout to have 6 in each ear
[ .022. ] piercings you want: i wanna get my nipples pierced.. lolz
[ .023. ] tattoos you have: none
[ .024. ] tattoos you want: i wanna get a fairy on my lower back
[ .025. ] today's date: february 11th
[ .026. ] the time: 9:37 pm
[ .027. ] ready for a bunch more questions: i suppose

. : FaMiLy : .

[ .028. ] mother's name: barbara
[ .029. ] father's name: ray
[ .030. ] step-parent's name: none
[ .031. ] brother(s)'s: shawn
[ .032. ] sister(s)'s: none
[ .033. ] favorite aunt: umm.. dunnoz.. aunt janet
[ .034. ] favorite uncle: dunnoz.. cant decide
[ .035. ] favorite grandparent: dunnoz..
[ .036. ] worst relative: aunt jackie at the moment
[ .037. ] best relative: my cousins jon and alicia
[ .038. ] do you get along with your parents: depends.. we are starting to
[ .039. ] does anyone in your family understand you: no.. they never will

. : PeTz : .

[ .040. ] do you have any pets: yes
[ .041. ] what are their names: angel and onyx
[ .042. ] what kind of animals are they: a cat and a dog

. : ScHo0l : .

[ .043. ] are you still in school: yeah.. night school
[ .044. ] did you drop out: yeah
[ .045. ] current gpa, or last gpa you got: 4.4
[ .046. ] favorite grade: 9th
[ .047. ] least favorite grade: 10th and 11th
[ .048. ] favorite teacher: Mr. Thomas
[ .049. ] least favorite teacher: Mrs. Casper and Mr. Cresci
[ .050. ] favorite subject: english
[ .051. ] least favorite subject: math
[ .052. ] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: i bought
[ .053. ] play any sports on the school's team: yeah..
[ .054. ] do/did you do any extracurricular activities: yeah
[ .055. ] are/was you popular: alot of people knew me.. so yeah you could say that
[ .056. ] favorite dance: the electric slide
[ .057. ] favorite memory: all of 9th grade
[ .058. ] least favorite dance: dunnoz
[ .059. ] least favorite memory: .. fawkin 9th grade summer.. ugh.. oh and then the whole Bryan episode
[ .060. ] most humiliating moment: .. hmm.. when i did a diva in front of justin.. lolz

. : FaVeZ : .

[ .061. ] number: 13
[ .062. ] clothing brand: tommy hilf, american eagle, rampage, xoxo,
[ .063. ] shoes: timberlands, nike
[ .064. ] saying: WHATEVER!!!
[ .065. ] tv show: friends, gilmore girls, charmed, drew carey
[ .066. ] sport: none
[ .067. ] vegetable: corn and broccli
[ .068. ] fruit: strawberries,
[ .069. ] movie: i dont know
[ .070. ] magazine: cosmopolitan
[ .071. ] actor: BEN AFFLECK.. OMG HE IS SOO BANGIN
[ .072. ] actress: Reese Witherspoon
[ .073. ] candy: starbursts
[ .074. ] gum: anythin fruity
[ .075. ] scent: love spell my victoria secret
[ .076. ] candy bar: snickers
[ .077. ] ice cream flavor: vanilla
[ .078. ] color: pink
[ .079. ] season: spring
[ .080. ] holiday: christmas,
[ .081. ] band: dunnoz
[ .082. ] singer: ashanti, mariah carey
[ .083. ] group: dunnoz
[ .084. ] rapper: ja rule, 50 cent
[ .085. ] type of music: rap, r & b, the girlie shyt
[ .086. ] thing in your room: my bed
[ .087. ] place to be: beach, ocean city maryland
[ .088. ] radio station: 92.3, 101.7, 102.1
[ .089. ] tv channel: umm.. prolly 7 or 14 or 19
[ .090. ] junk food: candy
[ .091. ] overall food: pasta.. oodles noodles
[ .092. ] store: debz, rave, american eagle
[ .093. ] shoe brand: nike, timberlands
[ .094. ] fast food: taco bell
[ .096. ] shape: heart
[ .097. ] time of day: night time.. afternoon
[ .098. ] country: korea cuz i was born there
[ .099. ] state: north carolina.. wishin that was where i was with my baby
[ .102. ] mall: christiana.. and the one in philly i forget what its called
[ .103. ] video game: mario brothers
[ .104. ] shampoo: herbal essences
[ .105. ] board game: monopoly
[ .106. ] computer game: ummz.. dunnoz
[ .107. ] car: a 2003 lancer.. or 2003 mustang
[ .108. ] music video: ummz... all i have by j.lo and ll cool j
[ .109. ] swear word: fawk
[ .110. ] word: dunnoz
[ .111. ] month: july
[ .112. ] cartoon character: ummz.. hello kitty
[ .113. ] scary movie: ummz.. the blair witch.. scared the shyt out of me
[ .115. ] possession: myself

. : PrIvAtE LyFe : .

[ .186. ] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: yes
[ .187. ] do you have a crush: yes
[ .188. ] do you love anyone right now: yeah with all my heart
[ .189. ] have you ever been in love: yeah
[ .190. ] how many people of you kissed: ummz.. i think im at 23 now
[ .191. ] who was your first kiss: Mike Wilson
[ .192. ] how many hearts of have you broken: well.. i dunnoz
[ .193. ] how many people broke your heart: hmm.. lets see, mike, james, owen, mike p., danny, bryan, .. so thats ummmm...6 peoplez :(
[ .194. ] best quote to sum up love: in life u gotta take risks and if u dont take those risks you'll never know what you are missing.. or missed
[ .195. ] so what is your bf/gf/crush like:well i love him.. and he treats me good.. and he loves me.. and right now hes theo nly one that i can see myself with
[ .196. ] do you have a picture of him/her: yuuppz
[ .197. ] please post it if you do: i dont have them with me
[ .198. ] do you have a picture of yourself: yeah
[ .199. ] please post it if you do: i dont have any with me
[ .200. ] do you go by looks or personality: well looks is what attracts you to the person to begin with u wouldnt date someone u didnt find attractive.. but the personality is what keeps u coming back for more.. so really no one can just pick one
[ .201. ] ever kiss a friend: yeah unfortunatelyl
[ .202. ] are you still friends: yuupz.. sort of
[ .203. ] so moving along..do you smoke: yeah
[ .204. ] do you smoke weed: i used to alot but now every once in a while
[ .205. ] ever trip on acid: nopez
[ .206. ] how about a little x: nopez
[ .207. ] crack, heroin, anything else: nopez
[ .208. ] beer good or beer bad: beers nasty.. unless its like smirnoff ice or something
[ .209. ] are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers: nope.. i have but i like vodka and bacardi
[ .210. ] do you like smirnoff ice: ya
[ .211. ] prefer beer or liquor: liquor duh!
[ .212. ] what kind of cigarettes: newports
[ .213. ] are you a virgin: nopez
[ .214. ] if no, when was the last time you got some: umm.. its been bout a lil over amonth.. like a month and 2 weeks or so.. its all justins fault!!!

. : WouLd Ya EvA : .

[ .215. ] bungee jump: yeah
[ .216. ] sky dive: yeah
[ .217. ] swim with dolphins: yeah
[ .218. ] scuba dive: yeah
[ .219. ] go rock climbing: yeah
[ .220. ] eat shit for $1,000,000: fawk no i dont care how much money it is
[ .221. ] turn your back on your friends for personal gain: nopez
[ .222. ] steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: nope thats one of the golden rules of friendship.. thats just something u dont do
[ .223. ] cross-dress: lolz.. well if be a thug girl is than yeah.. but that was back in the day when i thought i was cool
[ .224. ] lie to the police: yeah
[ .225. ] run from the police: lolz.. well no.. but i was the church with a couple of my friends and i saw a cop and i ran to a different place but we werent in trouble
[ .226. ] lie to your parents: yeah all the time.. unfortunately
[ .227. ] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: no
[ .228. ] be an exotic dancer: nopez
[ .229. ] walk out of a restaurant without paying: lolz no i've never done that
[ .230. ] streak: i prolly did when i was lil
.
: Ur FrIeNdZ : .

[ .231. ] best friend: holly k, jackie, Justin
[ .232. ] known longest: Lynda
[ .233. ] wish you talked to more: Danielle S.
[ .234. ] wish you saw more: Justin
[ .235. ] how many friends do you think you have: define friends.. i got a lot of peoples that im cool with.. but my real friends are the ones i talk to every day
[ .236. ] who drives you insane after a while: .... christina
[ .237. ] who can you stay around forever and never get sick of: Justin
[ .238. ] ever lose a good friend because you took it to the 'next level': yeah.. unfortunately
[ .239. ] craziest: jackie
[ .240. ] loudest: holly k
[ .241. ] shyest: phelan
[ .242. ] best hair: erin
[ .243. ] can always make you laugh: def.. holly k.. lolz love ya babiez
[ .244. ] best eyes: ummzz.. brett at capriottis.. hes not really my friends we're cool but hes got really pretty eyes
[ .245. ] best body: My babiez justin
[ .246. ] most athletic: phelan
[ .247. ] sex symbol: justin.. lolz
[ .248. ] hot tempered: holly k..
[ .249. ] most impatient: i am
[ .250. ] shortest: dunnoz
[ .251. ] tallest: dunnoz
[ .252. ] talented: dunnoz
[ .253. ] best singer: christina
[ .254. ] skinniest: amber
[ .255. ] nicest: all my friends are nice
[ .256. ] best personality: dunnoz.. sometimes personalities clash from time to time
[ .257. ] biggest drug user: well i guess justin cuz barely any of my friends do drugs

. : HaVe Ya EvEr : .

[ .258. ] flashed someone: yeah
[ .259. ] told the person you liked how you felt: yeah
[ .260. ] been to michigan: nope
[ .261. ] gotten really REALLY wasted: yeah
[ .262. ] gone to jail or juvi: nopez
[ .263. ] skateboarded: nopez
[ .264. ] skinny dipped: ummz. no
[ .265. ] stolen anything: yeah
[ .266. ] wanted to kick my ass for making this so long: i got nothing else to do
[ .267. ] kicked someone's ass: i dont fight
[ .268. ] pegged someone in the head with a snowball: i think so.. dunt remember
[ .269. ] broke a beer bottle: prolly yeah
[ .270. ] gotten into a bar, under-aged: never tried
[ .271. ] kissed someone of the same sex: yeah
[ .272. ] flipped someone off: all the time
[ .273. ] gone on a road trip: well attempted one and then got scared and turned around
[ .274. ] gone on vacation without adult supervision: yeah
[ .275. ] been to a concert: yuupz
[ .276. ] been to another country: well for 3 months i was in korea.. but that was when i was first born
[ .277. ] talked back to an adult: yeah
[ .278. ] got pulled over: yeah
[ .279. ] go in a car accident: well.. no technically
[ .280. ] broke a law: yeah
[ .281. ] given money to a homeless person:.. nopez
[ .282. ] tried to kill yourself: .. ummz.. no but thoughts have popped up once or twice in my lifetime
[ .283. ] cried to get out of trouble: .. i dunnoz prolly
[ .284. ] kissed a friend's brother or sister: nopez
[ .285. ] kissed a brother or sister's friend: nopez
[ .286. ] dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and let someone eat it anyways: no

. : ThE LaSt : .

[ .306. ] thing you ate: chicken noodle soup
[ .307. ] thing you drank: coke
[ .308. ] thing you wore: these rampage pants and black rampage shirt
[ .309. ] place you went: nowhere just driving around with erins..
[ .310. ] thing you got pierced/tattooed: my 5th holes on both side but the closed up
[ .311. ] person you saw: stephanie
[ .312. ] person you kissed: no one.. :(i wanna kiss my babiez.. justin
[ .313. ] person you fucked: justin.. but we dont fawk.. we make love.. lolz
[ .314. ] person you talked to: my babiez Justin
[ .315. ] song you heard: wangsta.. by 50 cent

.: NoWz : .

[ .316. ] what are you eating: chicken noodle soup
[ .317. ] what are you drinking: coke
[ .318. ] what are you wearing: clothes
[ .319. ] any shoes on: yeah
[ .320. ] hair: in a clip
[ .321. ] listening to: silence
[ .322. ] talking to anyone: nopez
[ .323. ] are you pissed i made this so long: i dont care.. i got nothing else to do

. : YeSz or NoZ : .

[ .324. ] are you a vegetarian: no
[ .325. ] do you like cows: i dunnoz
[ .326. ] are you a bitch: i can be
[ .327. ] are you artistic: i can be
[ .328. ] do you write poetry: yeah
[ .329. ] are you a fast runner: yeah when i want to
[ .330. ] can you ski: dunnoz never tried it before
[ .331. ] are you british: no
[ .332. ] do you want to spear britney: yeah without the fakeness
[ .333. ] do the voices talk to you: no.. that would mean im crazy and im not
[ .334. ] did you ever give barbie a haircut: yeah duh who hasnt
[ .335. ] would you eat mac & cheese with hotdogs in it: no sorry
[ .336. ] do you think disney creators were on acid when they made 'alice in wonderland': i think i heard that they were
[ .337. ] are you straight: yup
[ .338. ] are you ½stupid, ¼insane, and another ¼physically handicapped: no
[ .339. ] are you fat: no
[ .340. ] are you skinny: so im told
[ .341. ] are you short: average
[ .342. ] are you tall: average
[ .343. ] do you own a hot pink shirt: i dont know
[ .344. ] how about orange pants: i dont think so
[ .345. ] can you see the flying monkeys: no
[ .346. ] are you evil: no
[ .347. ] did you ever know someone who had a mullet: i think so
[ .348. ] is britney a whore: i dunno bout all that
[ .349. ] are you a teenage zombie: no
[ .350. ] am i annoying you: no
[ .351. ] do you like marilyn manson: no
[ .352. ] are you secretly from another planet: no
[ .353. ] did you ever touch someone else's private parts: yeah
[ .354. ] do you shop at hot topic: i like some of their stuff but i havent bought anything

. : StUpiD ?'Z : .

[ .355. ] if you could be any animal, what would you be: a kittie cat
[ .356. ] if you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be: oodle n noodles
[ .357. ] do you remember any of your dreams: yeah
[ .358. ] do you dream in color or black and white: color
[ .359. ] do you admit when you need help with a problem: yeah
[ .360. ] can people read you like a book: some can.. some cant
[ .361. ] what's your biggest fear: dying alone
[ .362. ] do you talk a lot: yeah
[ .363. ] are you afraid of clowns: scary ones
[ .364. ] do you like spiders: nopez
[ .365. ] how about grape kool-aid: yeah its good
[ .366. ] can you drive: yeah
[ .367. ] are you spoiled: yeah
[ .368. ] are you anti-social: nopez
[ .369. ] do you see dumb people: yeah
[ .370. ] do you see dead people: no
[ .371. ] any last wordz: i love justin with everything that i am.. i hope things work out ight and we show everyone that they were wrong
[ .372. ] now that this is over, what are you going to do: sleep

k well now that u read that.. holly k i love u and i hope that ur dayz get better.. u know im here when u wanna talk.. k.. i know u'll read this hopefully so than u will know that i still love you..

i love my babiez justin.. .. always and forever.. yay!!!

Upon a star**

.. a poem i wrote [11 Feb 2003|01:23pm]
[ mood | loved ]
[ music | dream lover.. mariah carey ]

.. well me and justin never broke up... lolz.. yeah he just wasnt able to call me like i thought he would unfortunately i have another boyfriend and im not sure how im going to break up with him.. i love justin.. ugh yeah i know all my entries are about that.. well guess what i got a lil surprise for ya.. i wrote a poem so im gonna post it in here.. hope ya like it ...

Why?. Written by: Danielle on 2-10-03

Why am I always getting hurt
All they do is treat me like dirt
All I ever wanted to do is help someone
BUt then when everything is said and done

I'm the one who ends up crying
Crying so fawking hard it feels like im dying
All I want to do is hold out my heart
To show them that someone could be there and never part

All I feel is good things and want to see them forever
But it just seems that it will never happen together
Why is it that my hearts so big
I search through their hearts and dig and dig

Trying to find some good in their heart
To feel safe and feel like we'll never part
But it seems like I just try and get nowhere
And as if I am nothing and they don't care

Why am I cursed with such a big heart
And get so upset when we grow apart
They say its good to have a big heart and care
But as always it never gets me anywhere

I'm so mad that this has to happen to me
I'm just hoping someone will see
See that all I ever wanted to do was be there
To be there and to care

.. Yeah.. this was a poem i wrote when I thought me and Justin had broken up.. I still think its true and it sucks that its gotta happen to me.. but oh wellz.. oh yeah here are a couple of quizzes that i took a while ago..


Take the test, by Emily.




Take the test, by Emily.



You're Perfect ^^
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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Brown Eyes


What Color Eyes Should You Have?
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I am... masochistic.
What are you?


i love justin.. always and forever
Upon a star**

.. a poem i wrote [11 Feb 2003|01:23pm]
[ mood | loved ]
[ music | dream lover.. mariah carey ]

.. well me and justin never broke up... lolz.. yeah he just wasnt able to call me like i thought he would unfortunately i have another boyfriend and im not sure how im going to break up with him.. i love justin.. ugh yeah i know all my entries are about that.. well guess what i got a lil surprise for ya.. i wrote a poem so im gonna post it in here.. hope ya like it ...

Why?. Written by: Danielle on 2-10-03

Why am I always getting hurt
All they do is treat me like dirt
All I ever wanted to do is help someone
BUt then when everything is said and done

I'm the one who ends up crying
Crying so fawking hard it feels like im dying
All I want to do is hold out my heart
To show them that someone could be there and never part

All I feel is good things and want to see them forever
But it just seems that it will never happen together
Why is it that my hearts so big
I search through their hearts and dig and dig

Trying to find some good in their heart
To feel safe and feel like we'll never part
But it seems like I just try and get nowhere
And as if I am nothing and they don't care

Why am I cursed with such a big heart
And get so upset when we grow apart
They say its good to have a big heart and care
But as always it never gets me anywhere

I'm so mad that this has to happen to me
I'm just hoping someone will see
See that all I ever wanted to do was be there
To be there and to care

.. Yeah.. this was a poem i wrote when I thought me and Justin had broken up.. I still think its true and it sucks that its gotta happen to me.. but oh wellz.. oh yeah here are a couple of quizzes that i took a while ago..


Take the test, by Emily.




Take the test, by Emily.



You're Perfect ^^
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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Brown Eyes


What Color Eyes Should You Have?
brought to you by Quizilla

I am... masochistic.
What are you?


i love justin.. always and forever
Upon a star**

break upz.. [07 Feb 2003|10:04pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]
[ music | why u gotta act like that - tyrese ]

Well justin is real fawked up.. i remember telling me that when he broke up with kim he didnt call her for 2 weeks.. well i havent heard from him going on 4 days.. and its pissing me off.. so i guess he dont want to be with me anymore.. which is funny though because sunday when i talked to him we had this big discussion on how he wants to be with me for the rest of his life.. and how he loves me with all his heart.. ugh whatever i already got other people in mind.. i mean i love justin to the fullest for what he is.. and how much he means to me..but i dont need this drama in my life anymore.. oh wellz.. ill be depressed over it but ill get over it.. i mean he meant alot to me but its all good... well anyways though.. i gotta work tomorrow and then im going over ambers and then im spending the night and then i dont know.. well im going to get off of here cuz im upset bout this whole break up thing and i hate justin right now.. its like i love him but i hate him...... well buh byez

its all good how things worked out.. u'll be missing me when u cant find anyone who cared about u like i did

Upon a star**

long day tomorrow... [05 Feb 2003|10:45pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | come back in one peice - dmx and aaliyah.. ]

well justin hasnt called me since monday.. and actually i called him monday morning... ugh whatever.. its all good though.. he probably cant get to a phone.. well lets just hope thats the case.. anyway though.. im bored i cant sleep im not tired but i gotta get up at 10:00 tomorrow ugh i dunno if i can do it.. its gonna be packed tomorrow at work.. i hate working but gotta make a living somehow.. then after i go to work i gotta go to school for 4 hours.. yay.. i cant wait.. schools not that bad its pretty boring though.. i feel like im in like 6th grade with some of the work that they give us.. but alot of the people there are drop outs and have been out of school for a while so i guess its hard for them.. who knows.. anyway though.. i miss justin lotz but im getting used to the distance.. i talked to justins mom yesterday and justin needs to call some lady for something i dont quite remember what for but i got the number and name and all that good stuff so i guess he better call soon.. hmm.. what else is new.. ummm.. well in school i got a class with my cousin.. lolz.. its pretty cool.. never had a class with my cousin before.. umm theres some real cute guyz at night school... lolz.. not like that matterz anyway i got a boyfriend.. one that i love with all my heart.. well im going to stop writing because there isnt much to write about.. so i guess ill update tomorrow buh byez

justin and danielle forever and a lifetime.. the only guy that holds the key to my heart luv u

Upon a star**

schoooool.. [04 Feb 2003|04:16pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | they dont know.. jon b.. explains us perfectly bo0 ]

I went to school last night.. my first day.. it was FUNN.. lolz.. jon my cousin is in my class.. who would of thought.. lolz.. oh wellz though.. i gotta go tonight too.. and tomorrow.. and thursday.. and then i have off on friday.. its like going to regular school.. YAY.. i love being back in school.. i feel like im doing something with my life now.. instead of just working and being at home all the time.. i actually gotta go to school real soon.. in like an hour or so.. my hair needs to dry first though.. well it me and justins 2 months today YAY.. we made it 2 months lets see if we can make it another and another and another.. and so on and so forth.. ugh anyways though i just got back from the YMCA i feel refreshed and in shape.. well at least for right now.. i dont really have mucb to talk bout except Mark is a punk and he keeps telling me hes going to make my life a living hell.. well so be it.. hes so petty he can talk mad shyt on other people but if someone does it to him oh no hes gotta get revenge or do something.. its not my fault that he got an ugly girl.. i just speak the truth you know.. its not my fault that hes ashamed of it.. too bad for him.. he talks bout justin being a bum well at least justins got his GED mark dont even go to school and wont get shyt.. hes prolly on in 9th grade still cuz he dont ever go to school.. but yeah justins a bum too bad mark aint got shyt but his grandmom and when she dies or whatever then what.. he gonna go live with his mom.. hes gonna have his family supporting him for the rest of his life.. at least justin lives on his own.. ugh oh wellz.. im gonna go now buh byez

justin and danielle 2 months today.. YAY!!.. love ya baby

Upon a star**

i love love [03 Feb 2003|12:29pm]
[ mood | loved ]
[ music | you're still the one.. by shania twain.. for u baby ]

im soo happy.. i love justin so much.. last night we had a lil talk... talk about us like always.. i asked him what he wanted and he was like well i dont know cuz you seem to get jealous alot.. i said yeah i get jealous because they get to be with you.. i dont.. of course im jealous of them.. im just jealous because they are lucky enough to be with you at the time and i can only talk to you on the phone.. i was like do you understand and he was like yeah im with you.. i was like i just want to feel like you still want me that you still want to be with me and he said baby your all i want.. i said well i dont want to hold you back.. i mean if you find someone down there that you want to be with i want you to be with them.. well i dont but i want you to be happy and i dont want to hold you back.. he said i would never let that happen because i not looking to anyone down there and that i wouldnt let it happen because i love you and i want to be with you... he was like i miss you soo much baby and i just want to be with you.. because i love you.. awww.. i love him soo much.. anyways though.. mark is a dick head.. nuff said bout that.. i just dont want to talk to him anymore.. he ruined our friendship and thats his fault.. oh wellz though.. you know.. how you take things for granted.. like the small things that you never knew were so important until you dont have them anymore.. like i miss the way justin used to put his arms around me from behind.. how he used to just hold me and tell me how much he loves me.. and just kissing him.. i never knew how much i could miss that from one person.. i miss him so much.. ive never missed someone so much before.. i mean all i can think about is the way he used to hold me and the way he used to find the spot on my neck and kiss it ever so gently and the way he used to look in my eyes and tell me that he loves me.. and make me feel like im the only person in the world that matters at the very moment in time.. ahhhh.. all the lil things that just i took for granted.. i wish i never did... i love him so much.. and i cant help the way i feel i just want to see him again.. i love the way he loves me.. and i love the way he makes me feel.. ahhh i cant wait to see him.. well i know i just keep talking bout justin and i know u dont want to hear bout him anymore.. so im going to get off of here.. buh byez.. love ya lotz.. justin I love you..

justin i love u .. this feels like forever doesnt it baby.. 12.o4.o2..even if it doesnt last forever ur a person that i will never ever forget.. i love u baby with everything that i am

Upon a star**

...break upz...:'( [01 Feb 2003|07:11pm]
[ mood | lonely ]
[ music | i love you.. faith evans... cuz i do love u justin ]

well i just broke up with justin.. i told him that i loved him and that i wanted to be with him but until he can prove to me that im the only one that im going to break up with him.. and he was like ur going to listen to my punk ass uncle and i said no im following my heart and i told him that i love him with my whole heart but that he needed to prove his love for me.. and he said how am i supposed to prove it and i said if you love me you will.. and he hung up on me hes pretty mad at me.. i cant blame him but i dont konw why he hung up on me and wouldnt continue to talk to me but oh wellz.. i feel like crying but im not going to.. im going to be strong.. i miss him so much and i know its going to be hard for him to prove anything but i mean if he loves me he'll find a way.. well i dunno.. there isnt much else to say.. this is my second time writing this time.. and having to write this sucks but what can ya do.. i mean i love him soo much but i had to do this.. it was the only way i would know if he was really in love with me and if he really wanted to be with me.. well i got to go buh byez.. love always..

justin i love you with all my heart but you have to prove that im the only one and that you love me with all you heart.. im sorry.. i had to do this.. but i do love you

Upon a star**

upset [01 Feb 2003|10:51am]
[ mood | hopeful ]
[ music | all my life - kci and jo jo ]

well i never got to see my babiez.. ugh oh wellz ill be alright.. i miss him so much though.. ill see him soon though well i hope so.. i miss him so much god he makes me soo happy.. i cant wait to see him.. oh wellz though.. im bored.. god i hate not being able to see him everyday.. i just want to kiss him.. and hold him and feel him wrap his arms around my waist and kiss my neck.. ugh i hate this.. this distance thing is killing me.. but he'll be back soon.. i just dont know when.. ugh anyways though.. enough getting depressed and not being able to see my hunny.. i got to take holly to work soon.. i went shopping last night it was soo much fun.. i got all this cool stuff.. ugh anyways though.. i dont really have much to say though.. not alot of drama that i wish to talk about.. or even care about .. so i guess ill be off of here.. buh byez.. Justin i love you baby..

justin and danielle 12.o4.o2.. i love you with all my heart

Upon a star**

nothing new [29 Jan 2003|04:57pm]
[ mood | excited ]
[ music | bump bump bump.. b2k ]

well not much new really... i leave friday yay!!.. i cant wait.. its gonna be so much fun.. anyways though i gotta start packing.. ive got laundry in the washer and dryer so i can start packing.. i just got my eyebrows done today.. and i painted my toe nails last night.. alls i gotta do is get in the shower.. tomorrow night.. well im gonna get in again tonight.. but i mean for my hair to be straight im gonna get in tomorrow night and blow dry it straight and curl it and the whole nine yards with my hair.. ugh im soo excited i cant wait.. anyways though its like snowing crazy outside.. the roads are slippery i went out in my car today and i was sliding trying to come home.. i hate when it snows like this.. oh wellz though.. anyway i got a doctors appointment tomorrow.. for my teeth im getting some fillings.. and then i gotta be at work at 12:30 to 4:30 .. ugh oh wellz i need the money thats the only 3 days i work.. thursday.. last monday and sunday.. since i requested off for the weekend.. anyways though.. i aint got really much else to say except that im bored and that there isnt much to do since its raining.. well buh byez.. love ya lotz.. LOVE YOU JUSTIN... Mwwahzz

Upon a star**

its late.. im not tired.. so im bored [28 Jan 2003|12:32am]
[ mood | sore ]
[ music | got to be.. b2k ]

have y0u..
x. Fallen for your best friend - yeah..
x. Made out with JUST a friend - yuupz.. too many of them
x. Been rejected - yeah.. it hurts
x. Been in love - yuup.. this is my third.. but im hoping this one lasts.. cuz i feel complete with him
x. Used someone - nope.. my motto.. treat people the way you wanna be treated
x. Been used - dunnoz.. prolly.. by Bryan
x. Cheated on someone - yeah.. just so that if we broke up i could throw it in there face
x. Been cheated on - nopez
x. Done something you regret - yeah.. unfortunately

Who was the last person..
x. You touched - prolly holly.. she gave me a kiss on the cheek goodbye
x. You talked to - holly on the internet
x. You hugged - my daddy
x. You instant messaged - holly
x. You yelled at - justin
x. You laughed with - erin.. and angie.. tonight
x. you had a crush on - Justin.. love you baby
x. Who broke your heart - Bryan.. bastard

do you..
x. Color your hair - yeah on occasion
x. Have tattoos - nope
x. Piercings - yuup 4 in each ear.. i have 5 in each ear but they closed up
x. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both - i got a boyfriend.. Justin <3
x. Floss daily - not daily but on occasion
x. Own a webcam - nopez
x. Ever get off the damn computer - yeah.. alot.. i dont get that often.. just when im home
x. Sprechen sie deutsche - huh??
x. Habla espanol - a lil.. not alot

Have u/do u/do u have..
x. Considered a life of crime - nopez
x. Considered being a hooker - nah
x. Considered being a pimp - nopez
x. Are you psycho - i can get that way.. but im sure everyone can
x. Split personalities -nopez
x. Obsessive - yeah.. but alot of things
x. Obsessive compulsive - nah it aint like that
x. Panic - depends on the reason why i should
x. Anxiety - nopez
x. Depressed - well not really.. i dont feel too bad
x. Suicidal - nopez
x. Obsessed with hate - nah.. i love everyone :)
x. If you could be anywhere, where would you be - i know it sounds bad but with justin right now
x. What are you listening to - the quiet
x. Can you do anything freakish with your body - nope.. dont want to.. well i can do a straddle.. not to many people can do that
x. Chicken or fish - chicken..
x. Do you have a favorite animal, no matter how lame it may be - i love kittie kats
x. Current Clothes - gray sweat pants.. and an orange sweat shirt
x. Current Mood - dunnoz.. bored?
x. Current Music - quiet
x. Current Taste - winterfresh
x. Current Hair - wet.. and down
x. Current Annoyance - nope
x. Current Smell - nothing
x. Current thing I ought to be doing - sleeping
x. Current Desktop Picture - a picture of an eagle.. tribute to the 9/11 thing
x. current Favorite Group - dont have one
x. Current Book - deadly deception
x. Current DVD In Player - well i watched princess diares.. 2 nights ago.. does that count?
x. Current Refreshment - sierra mist
x. Current Worry - if justin is being faithful
x. Current Crush - justin.. love you babys
x. Current Favorite Celebrity - reese witherspoon

Favorite..
x. Drink -sprite
x. Color - pink
x. Shoes - nike air
x. Candy - sour worms
x. Animal - kitties
x. TV Show - friends, charmed, gilmore girls
x. Movie - cant remember
x. Dance - dunnoz

Are you..
x. Understanding - try to be
x. Open-minded - yeah
x. Insecure - depends what situation im in
x. Interesting - yuup.. i make life colorful
x. Hungry - nope
x. Friendly - of course
x. Smart - so im told.. im very smart
x. Moody - not really
x. Childish - im sure everyone has there moments
x. Independent - trying to be.. but its hard
x. Hard working - yeah.. but i complain alot
x. Organized - not really..
x. Healthy - yeah.. except for smoking
x. Emotionally Stable - yeah..
x. Shy - well.. i dunnoz.. depends
x. Difficult - yeah i can be real stubborn if i dont wanna do what they want me to
x. Attractive - damn riight
x. Bored Easily - ehhh.. yeah
x. Thirsty - no
x. Responsible - yuppz
x. Sad - nah i got my man.. and i got my family and my friends.. im happy :)
x. Happy - yuupz
x. Trusting - nope.. its hard to trust anyone..
x. Talkative - yeah all the time
x. Unique - yuupz
x. needy - yeah.. i need to be in a secure environment.. JUSTIN

Who do you want to..
x. Kill - ummmz.. kim
x. Slap - ummz.. kim
x. Look like - dunnoz.. britney spears.. without the fakeness
x. Be like - myself
x. Talk to offline - everyone.. my peoplez.. HOLLY, justin, Erin,

On you..
x. Name - Danielle
x. Nicknames - chink, chinky, chinkster, chink a choo, korea, baby <~~ justin <3, asian
x. Age - 16.. bout to be 17
x. Hair color - dark brown
x. Birthday - april 24th
x. Eye Color - brown
x. Siblings - 1
x. How do you describe yourself - very good with peoples, pretty, can get along with just about anyone.. im a good person.. and im trying to get my life back together
x. What's your sign - taurus
x. Do you have a Boyfriend/Girlfriend - yuupz.. my baby justin.. love you

On friends..
x. Best Friend(s) - Holly, Justin
x. Friend(s) you go to for advice - Holly, Erin, Steph
x. Friend(s) you have the most fun with - Holly.. lolz.. condoms out the window
x. Friend(s) you've dreamt about - no onez??
x. Friend(s) your tell secrets to - Holly, and now Erin, and justin

On preferences..
x. Chocolate milk or hot chocolate - hot chocolate
x. McDonalds or Burger King - burger king
the perfect lover or the perfect friend - perfect lover...
x. Sweet or sour - sweet
x. Root Beer or Dr. Pepper - root beer
x. Sappy/action/comedy/horror - comedy
x. Cats or dogs - cats
x. Ocean or Pool - ocean
x. Cooler Ranch or Nacho Cheesier - cooler ranch
x. Mud or Jell-O wrestling - mud
x. With or without ice-cubes - with
x. Shine or rain - shine
x. Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring - spring.. so pretty
x. Vanilla or Chocolate - vanilla
x. Snowboarding or skiing - skiing
x. Cake or cookies - cookies
x. Cereal or toast - neither
x. Gloves or mittens - dunnoz.. both
x. Eyes open or closed - both
x. Fly or breathe under water - fly damn right
x. Bunk bed or water bed - water bed.. oooo
x. Chewing gum or hard candy - depends..
x. Motor boat or sailboat - motor boat
x. Lights on or off - i dunno.. dont make me think this late

What's your favorite..
x. Number - 13
x. Holiday - christmas, and valentines day
x. Radio station - 101.7
x. Place - i dunnoz..
x. Flower - daises.. and roses
x. Scent - victoria's secret.. LOVE SPELL

Upon a star**

more drama [27 Jan 2003|06:34pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

well more drama in the guy department with justin.. i dunno he left a message on my answering machine talking to his uncle saying how he could get some bitches and some condoms and what not.. and to not tell me bout it.. well i found out cuz it was left on my answering machine i was pretty pissed.. but i talked to justins mom and she said that justin was really upset about me thinking he would actually do that.. ugh i dunnoz.. im gonna see him soon and well talk about it then.. until now im just gonna give him this one and if anything else happens that im not approving of then im going to leave him.. i mean i love him and i want to believe that hes not doing that stuff but hes a guy.. what i dont exactly understand is why i guy would have a girlfriend if they arent going to be faithful whats the point ya know?? well oh wellz.. i have off work tomorrow and wednesday and i got to go get blood work done tomorrow.. to see if im prego or not.. i hope im not that wouldnt be good.. im not ready for a kid at 16.. well ill be 17 very shortly so i just mainly say that im 17 but im not oh wellz.. anyways though.. im going to the Y today.. with erin but she takes forever to get somewhere so we'll see.. well there aint much to say really i mean besides the whole justin thing.. i mean i love him with my whole heart.. and i want to trust him.. i just see it as in life you gotta take risks.. and if you dont then you'll never know.. well im going to take this risk and if i dont take this risk then im going to wonder forever if he really did that or if he didn't.. ill never know and im just going to see.. plus im going to get hurt many times after this.. if not by a guy but by something else.. so its not like it'll be the first time anyway.. it'll actually be the 4th.. well im going buh byez.. love ya justin i love you

Upon a star**

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