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| Tuesday, October 17th, 2006 | |
| 7:57 pm | What a week Updates: -Sara's wedding was Sunday. Pretty but soooo fuckin cold. Left a little early b/c I had to drive two hours home and get ready for school the next day. Tough choice but had to. -Monday was my first day at Spanish Club. Let's just say I'm learning with the kids. I should start watching Dora the Explorer. I took French in H.S. but they needed an assistant to the Spanish instructor. The things I do. ;p -Still tutoring the kid in the body cast. Fifth graders in Medway get wayyy too much homework every night! I'm at his house for an hour and a half and we barely get halfway through his HW. Poor kids. -The kid I work with at school is awesome at Memory. He whooped my ass and then said, "Haha, you lost to a kid!" LOL. Trouble written all over that kid. ;) Things to think about: After seeing all the unnecessary stress and money that gets put into one day of your life, I almost want to elope. It's over before you even get to settle down and enjoy yourself. It kind of bothered me. Thousands upon thousands of dollars for like 6 hours, if that. I'm sure Sara and Noah are having a great time on their honeymoon now, but seeing them all stressed the days before the wedding was awful. Stress sucks. I'm too tired to type anymore. I'll post more interesting stuff another day. Peace kiddos. |
| Wednesday, October 4th, 2006 | |
| 7:28 pm | Some things. First off, Sara's bachelorette party was a blast. We got her all dolled up in a "Miss Bachelorette" sash, a tiara, a veil, a penis binky [??], and all kinds of other stuff. She looked adorable and it was obvious to most non-retarded people that she was celebrating her bachelorette party, but she got asked by at least one person if it was her birthday, and 'what are you supposed to be' by others. Morons. We went to TGI Fridays for a lil food and a lot of drinks, and then hit up a gay bar and watched two drag shows! I got two drinks there. One was a "Dirty Sex On My Face" and the other was called, "Angelica's Orgasm." Woo. After that we headed to Up or On the Rocks, which is a club in Hartford. It was so crowded and we could only stay for like a half hour because we got there after 1am and they close at 2. Oh well. It was still a lot of fun. I got bombeddd. Sidenote. The only thing that sucked about western MA was the ride home. It was downpouring and there was a bad accident, so it took me almost four full hours to get back home, instead of the normal 1.5. Sheeeit. My bum was hurtin' sitting there so long. So I'm sitting at the computer right now, contemplating whether I should dye my hair again. I bought a box of color to do it myself. It's definitely reddish brown but a lot of red. It could be beautiful orrrr it could be a disaster. Stuff with red in it can go either way. I think, therefore, that I will wait until tomorrow after school to do anything. That way, if it's absolutely horrid, I can run to CVS in time to put a temporary color over it, like a medium brown. The color looks beautiful on the girl on the box, but that doesn't mean it will turn out that shade on me. Also, I'm a little scared that it's called, Herbal Essences 'Bold and Brilliant,' and the color is Spicy Ginger [deeply intense copper]. Ahem. I don't want to be BOLD but right now I feel blah, like I can't do anything with my hair that comes out nice and that the lightness in my current [natural] color kinda washes me out. And on top of all this, I've been really good with just having my natural hair color. I haven't dyed it since last November, believe it or not. I used to dye it every 3 months! One more thing I just thought of is that Sara's wedding is the weekend after this coming one. If you read my journal let me know what ya think. Should I go reddish or does red look bad on me? Speaking of Sara's wedding, I have to save Matt from boredom. Not at the actual wedding but the two days before it. I'm not going to see him a lot... I think Friday night I'm sleeping at the hotel with him and then Saturday I'm gone pretty much all day then sleeping at Sara's mom's... so I'm meeting him at the wedding Sunday afternoon. So my cute idea was to make a weekend survival kit for him. I'll probably throw together a basket of snacks and goodies, maybe some dvds... to keep him occupied. He already knows a little about it, but I haven't started the shopping yet. Maybe this weekend when I go home I'll get started. And the final thing. Last night in the middle of dinner I got up and ran to the bathroom to throw up. I didn't feel sick and I was kinda pissed b/c dinner was so good I wanted to go out and start eating again. Seriously. This never happens to me. So I get back to the table and Matt's mom starts giggling and says, I hope it's not morning sickness at the wrong time of day, which gets Matt's father giving me the fake stern glare, to which I pinky swore him that I wasn't el preggo. And I'm not!! So today, I come home from tutoring and it's just me and him mom in the kitchen again... I think she was getting dinner ready. I open up the fridge and without thinking say, "Don't ask me why I want these things b/c I don't usually like them" and pulled out a jar of bread and butter pickles, popping a couple into my mouth. She's like "Ohh jeeze Jeannette, first you get sick and now the random pickle cravings?? Anything you think we should know?" OY. So now I'm just waiting to get my freaking period which is due any time now, and they're freaking me out! All this anxiety and anticipation is just going to screw me up and prob make it take longer to get here. Enough about that. The newest season of "Lost" starts tonight. If you're reading this, go watch it!! It's sooo addicting!! |
| Monday, September 25th, 2006 | |
| 8:11 pm | What's goin on Here's a quick update about my life: I LOVE the car. It drives so nice. I have put 210 miles on it so far and I still have a half a tank of gas! It's wonderful! I just got a short-term tutoring job after school. It's M-Th, 3-4pm. each day. It's for a 5th grade boy in a body cast from his armpits to his feet... football injury. His house isn't far from the school and I'm still in the same vicinity as the gym, so I'll just head there afterward. It makes for a little extra pocket cash. I don't know how much I'll be making but it's something he needs and I have the time. Why not? This weekend I'm heading to Westfield for Sara's bachelorette party. It's good news because originally we were going to Boston and the girl in charge bit off more than she could chew I think. It was going to be way too expensive. Now we're going out to eat, and heading to some clubs and comedy shows. It'll be fun... and affordable! Plus one of the bridesmaids just found out she's pregnant so it'll be closer to home for her. My student is not bad at all. I'm having a good year with him so far, knock on wood, and his parents haven't had anything to complain about. Apparently they're complainers, so I have to make sure I don't screw anything up. He's very independent, which is a huge difference from the student I had last year. I have to adjust to that, and remember not to baby him. He's already laid down the law- "Don't call me honey." "I don't want a sticker; they're babyish." "I can do it!" This is really a good thing. I have to learn to back off a little and see what he is capable of. He really is a smart boy and I need to make sure he holds onto his sense of confidence and ability. Not much else is going on. I am a little nervous about tomorrow, but I'm crossing my fingers that the session will go well and the parents will be welcoming and supportive of my work. They aren't very happy with how long it took the school to set up a tutor and they're not getting the answers they're seeking from administration, so I know I need to step up and prove myself and get their son back on track and caught up with his classmates. It'll help me and I think it will improve their current opinion of the school system. I haven't seen any of his schoolwork and I still need to meet with his teacher and pick up his books and assignments. Anyways, I'm off to bed for the night. Wish me luck! :) |
| Sunday, September 10th, 2006 | |
| 6:21 pm | Finally! After much frustration,  My car came in!! I actually got it last Tuesday after school. I just haven't had time to type. It's so nice... everything about it is great. Here are some pictures. Just know that I couldn't get a good far away shot because I was blocked in in the driveway. Everything's up really close. It's so cute though. Here it is! What a cutie:  The closest I could get to a front shot:   My car's booty:  Speedometer thingy in the middle of the dash:   That's all for now!! :) |
| Monday, September 4th, 2006 | |
| 3:08 pm | Please dear Lord, send me my car... before I lose my mind!!! Matt called Ira Friday to see what the hell is up with my car delay. Well, since today's Labor Day, they're not open and I guess that pushes the delivery back even further. Great. We're looking at Wednesday at the earliest, and the guy was hesitant to make any promises. Tomorrow's my first day of school and I didn't have a ride until 5 minutes ago. Matt's leaving for the academy at 5:45, his mom's going to work around 5, his dad's working the night shift until 8 and then heading straight to a Dr.'s appt. I went next door and asked Bill, and he's leaving for Foxwoods at 6:30. I freaked out a little. The only other person I could think of was Julie, but she starts school a half hour later annnnd has to drive her son to daycare, so she gets in a little late. So I'd be late for school. My last hope was the phone tree from last year. It only lists the Burke school staff from last year and not Memorial. But then I remembered that Erica moved to Memorial from Burke with me. I know she's from Blackstone and it's out of her way. I called her anyway, and she sounded like she really didn't want to, but still said yes. She said it really is out of her way so I felt really bad. My only other choice would've been a cab. I don't even know if Holliston has cab services. So right now I feel like a huge burden. I signed up for this stupid car back at the end of July[!] so I wouldn't have to go through this. I couldn't take it anymore. I just broke down and cried. I know I shouldn't be that upset and wound up about it, but I feel like a jerk. Not to mention, I don't know anyone's Wednesday schedules yet, and there's no way I'm asking Erica to make that extra drive two days in a row. I'm so nervous about school tomorrow too. I met the student I'm working with once, and he was really bashful. But I don't know how his behavior is going to be, if he's going to listen to me, how I'm going to get along with the classroom teacher [who I've briefly spoken to twice], and when I'm going to get his visual schedule made [because I need to use the Boardmaker program which is only on the school computers... prob. during my lunch break if I work quickly]. Also, apparently some of the teachers got a little greedy and overused the laminating machine so I'll have to run to Walmart after school to buy laminating sheets, and adhesive Velcro tabs, anddd a key ring if possible. To recap. Things that suck: -Having no car. -Having to finagle a ride everyday. -My black eye [thanks Kody! He got psycho and jumped on my face the other day leaving two large red claw marks across my left eyelid, and a black and blue at the outside corner of my eye. I also get to answer the "Oh my God, what happened to your EYE?!?!?" questions at school.] -Not knowing what to prepare tonight since I don't have the resources that are available at the school. -Not knowing any of the school staff at Memorial besides Erica and the teacher I'm with. -^Hearing rumors about said staff that were none too flattering... aka they're antisocial catty jerks apparently?? Let's hope the Burke teachers were making up stories! -Ironing dressy clothes. Things that are awesome: -Matt letting my cry on him while hugging me. I love him. -Matt gets his first paycheck this week from the PD. -The fact that more than likely I'll have a car by Friday [?] I can't think of any more good things right now, but maybe later this week something nice will happen. Ok, peace kids. Current Mood:  stressed |
| Wednesday, August 30th, 2006 | |
| 7:09 pm | Updates Matt just completed day 3 at the academy and he's doing great! He hasn't gotten into any trouble [yet! :-p], and the instructors haven't been nearly as bad as he thought they would be. So he just has to grind his way through until January 18th, then he's working full-time in Holliston! He's even getting a paycheck every week to go to there. I would love to get paid for going to class! We don't see each other nearly as much anymore, but it's all going to be worth it in the end. Matt and I wake up between 4:15 and 4:30, and I make him breakfast while he showers, and I wake Kody up to go to the bathroom and hang out with us for a little while. Around 5:45, Matt heads out in either his khaki uniform or his PT sweatsuit. He's adorable. He looks like a gym teacher in his sweats- long muscular legs and a built upper body. Just throw a whistle around his neck and he'd fit the part. The academy is in Boylston, so it's not too far of a drive, maybe 35 minutes. The guys usually agree to fall into formation by 6:45, and he finishes up between 3:30 and 4pm. Today it was such a treat to see him before 4:30. We got all of his stuff ready for tomorrow by 6pm, instead of 9 or 10. Now we have free time together to maybe watch a movie before climbing into bed early again. :) So that's the scoop on Matt. Everything's great. Now for Sara. I went to her bridal shower on Sunday and it was beautiful. I thought it resembled an actual wedding reception and not just a shower. Her sisters took care of everything.. some of us bridesmaids threw in a few ideas but Ali ran the show. For the centerpieces, there were glass vases filled with pink and white roses over a cranberry-colored cloth. The table linens were off-white I think. Each person had a place setting, which was an envelope stuffed with the directions to the wedding, because Sara's invitations didn't allow for loose papers inside. Then there was a love songs CD that the bridesmaids put together with their favorite songs [oops I forgot to send mine in... but there was an Alison Krauss song that I'm in love with that was on it, which is probably what I would've sent, honestly], and the CD was wrapped in silver ribbon and there was a red silk gerbera daisy tied on, which is Sara's favorite flower. Very pretty. We had a nice little brunch and then they served carrot cake [without raisins so I actually liked it!] for dessert. Noah showed up and they opened presents together. They looked so cute together, and they were happy to see that they got a lot of what they registered for. And that's all I have to say about that [Forrest Gump ;p]. My sister Sarah is moving into UMass Dartmouth on Saturday as I previously mentioned. Matt and I decided to surprise Mom and come home Friday night. I might bring a birthday cake for her and have it Friday night, then Matt and I will take her, Sarah, and Gretch out for dinner on Saturday night after Sarah's all moved in. I'll have to find out what restaurants are in the area. Sarah's really excited and a little nervous. Her roommate's already being a douchebag. Sarah left her like 5 nice messages on facebook and a few emails and the girl won't respond. Sarah just wants to know if she should bring certain things or if this chick is already bringing some of it. She asked her in the nicest possible way and gets nothing in response. At least Sarah's being realistic though. She's already emailed housing to let them know that she may be requesting a room change from Miss Antisocial. Sarah is going to be a freshman and this girl's a junior, so maybe she thinks she's better than her and doesn't have to answer to her b/c she's younger... but what a load of horse crap. She's probably a clone of the roommate I had my junior year in college. Douchebag to the extreme. Gets mad at me for no apparent reason one day and decides that our room will be silent for the rest of the semester... she literally went mute. And I'd ask her a question or try to resolve the problem and she would just stare at me like I had 3 heads. A psych major with her own psychological problems. Oy, what a basketcase. I hope she never gets a job "helping" people, because she couldn't help herself if she tried. I just got wayyy too sidetracked. I just hate thinking about that because it brought back a flood of bad memories and it ruined one of my semesters, but I guess it's something you never forget. I definitely don't want my sister to go through the same thing. Well I've rambled on for a little too long. I think I'll go start that movie with my lovahboy. |
| Saturday, August 26th, 2006 | |
| 12:06 pm | I haven't updated lately b/c there's not a lot to say. You all know that I'm pissed about my car not being here. Still no updates there. Hopefully next week I'll hear something. Trust me, I'm not getting my hopes up. Kody is on my nerves. He went through a few weeks of being a really good boy, and now he's back to being a hellian. He knows when he's not supposed to bark, I swear, and he purposely barks louder and more frequently at those times. He still chews up everything and people around here are like, "Oh, well he's just a puppy you know." As soon as he starts chewing something of theirs though, they get mad. There's so much inconsistency that he probably isn't learning anything!! I hate that he constantly gets mixed messages about everything. There's more I could say on this issue but I'll stop here. Matt starts the academy this Monday!! We are very excited and nervous. Once he's into the routine, Matt will be fine. It's just that unknown that makes you nervous. It's like when you were a kid and it was the night before the first day of school. You had butterflies in your stomach and couldn't sleep the entire night before b/c so many thoughts were running through your head about what your teachers would be like, whether your friends got into the same class(es), if you were going to get lost, etc. etc. New experiences always cause a little anxiety. We've been getting everything ready though. Matt got all of his equipment and uniforms in, and we spent a couple of hours the other day writing "Waugh" on everything. Even his nametag has to be labeled. Yeah even though it says his name on the front of the nametag, you still need to label it. Mindfucks. It's basically boot camp for cops. We've spent hours polishing his boots so we can almost see our reflections in them. His duffel bag is packed for the most part. We just have to double check everything and press his clothes, and we'll be good to go. I'm trying to be as supportive and helpful as possible because Matt's finally getting the job that he's always wanted. He's on the last leg of the race so-to-speak. Four and a half months of academy b.s. and we'll be in the clear. He'll be working at the station by the end of January. Hallelujah. Sara's bridal shower is tomorrow. That'll be fun and interesting. I kind of regret not buying her embarrassing lingerie or anything fun like that. Oh well. I just got her stuff from her registry. School starts September 5th. I'm in the same school building as last year, except on the 3rd and 4th grade side. I'm going to be working with a student on the autism spectrum again. I think with the experience from last year under my belt, I should have a better year. My sister Sarah is moving in to Umass Dartmouth on September 2nd, which is also my mom's birthday. Fun times for her, moving her daughter in. I'm going to try to get home and help and probably stay for the weekend. I definitely need some Stoneham time. Ok, I'm off to help Matt finish packing. |
| Friday, August 18th, 2006 | |
| 9:32 am | Updates on the cat and the car Turns out the cat doesn't have epilepsy. Something else is causing his seizures. It may be a congenital liver disease. He spent two nights at the animal hospital on a Valium drip and they gave him Phenobarbitol to try to control the seizures. He came home yesterday around noontime, and seemed ok. Mom fed him and he actually ate, but he was still in a daze. As the day progressed, he started having more seizures again, even on the meds. Mom called me around 10 last night and said she might have to take him to the animal hospital to be put to sleep that night. She said he had six or seven seizures since being home, and they were getting progressively longer/worse. The last one lasted over two minutes. I could tell she was really upset b/c she didn't want him to have to be put to sleep. She was hoping medication would work. At one point she called the cat and he got up, took a couple of steps, and then his left front paw closed up under him and he fell over. And he kept falling. This could be a tumor too. The only way to find out more about what's going on is to do a spinal tap and my mom doesn't want to put him through any more pain or suffering. So I guess around midnight, she took him back to the hospital and they put him down. Really sad. On an entirely different note, I'm a little frustrated about the car situation. First it was, "Your car will be in by the first week of August..." to the second week of August ["Ten more days! It's floating along the Panama Canal!"]... and so it doesn't show. Monday it was due in. I called Wednesday. They said they'd call me back that day with the status. No call. Yesterday afternoon they finally call back. "Your car has been 'delayed.' It's on a ship to New York, then from there it's going to get on a train to Brookline, and then it will get taken to the dealership in Milford. We're now looking at the first week of September at the earliest." WTF. It better fucking be in by then because school starts September 5th, and it's a LONNNNNNG walk. Also, Sara's bridal shower is out in Southwick, and it's next Sunday the 27th.... the DAY BEFORE Matt's police academy begins. Like he wants to be carting my ass to western Mass. He has enough to be doing as it is. Being the most amazing, understanding person that he is, he's driving me out there and dropping me off, and finding something to do for a few hours [hopefully J and Danielle will be around!], then once again I basically have to say, "Oh sorry AGAIN, Sara, I have to cut our time short. I need to leave." This girl is going to think I'm allergic to her. I'll have to leave in the afternoon to get Matt back, go over the ginormous checklist of things he needs packed/labeled and make sure it's ALL there, eat a quick dinner, and get him to bed. He'll probably be up at 4:30 and leaving the house by 5:15 at the latest to get to Boylston for his first day. I hate this. I feel like such a pain in the ass to Matt, to Sara, and to his parents. Taking a deep breath and trying to think about the positives for now. At least we're healthy, have rooves over our heads, have people who care for us and people to care about, etc. etc. I'm trying!! |
| Thursday, August 17th, 2006 | |
| 12:34 am | feline epilepsy?? Ok, so my sister Gretchen just IMed me. Apparently yesterday afternoon, Cat started freaking out on my mom's bed, growling and clawing etc etc. Suddenly, he starts peeing on the bed and foaming at the mouth, and then slips into a seizure. When he's done, his face still twitches. Meanwhile, my mom has to go to work, and the cat won't eat or do much of anything. My sisters keep an eye on it, and he goes into an even worse seizure later on. Liz and Gretch take him to the Woburn Animal Hospital, and they charge a thousand dollars for the emergency visit, some shots, and some Valium. My mom has to give Liz the credit card number over the phone from work and they actually charge it. A fucking grand. The cat has been there all day today and if he's not better by tomorrow, my mom will have him put to sleep. I guess if they take him home he'll have to be on medication twice a day for the rest of his life and he'll have to be an indoor cat. That wouldn't work. He is definitely an outdoor cat... he'd go stir crazy. Plus, God only knows how much medication will cost. It's probably not worth it. They're getting more info tomorrow. How crazy is that though??? I'm not gonna lie... at first I laughed a little, but I heard the entire story and I feel so bad for him now. When your sister says, "Oh by the way, cat has epilepsy" you don't really take it seriously... especially when MY sisters say stuff like that. Weird. It's almost 1am, and Kody is wide awake, barking and running around. This dog's a maniac. Animals are going to drive me crazyyy! At least he's not having a seizure, right?? |
| Saturday, August 12th, 2006 | |
| 8:04 am | Off to Westfield! It's adventure time. Today is going to be kind of jam-packed. I'm getting the final alterations on my bridesmaid dress [cross your fingers that it fits me with the shoes I bought] with Sara and her sister Ali. Hopefully that will be over with quickly and they won't need to do much or anything to it. Then I'm heading over to Tucker's, where Sara's shower will be held in a couple of weeks, for lunch with those two. Hopefully I will be done by 3:30 at the latest and back to Westfield. Because THEN, I still have to meet up with Matt, J, Danielle, and their kids, who we've been blowing off for a least two months now, visit for a quick bit, have an early dinner, and then get back on the road because at this point, Kody will be at the house by himself. Puppies alone= trouble. I'm hoping to be home by 7 at the latest. It's just going to be a crazy day. I hope all goes as planned and it doesn't become stressful. |
| Friday, August 4th, 2006 | |
| 3:12 pm | Hi hi hi I'm just writing because I'm bored, so don't get too excited. Matt and I donated blood today. The hospital called me earlier this week because I'm O+ [universal donor] and they're getting pretty desperate. My blood pressure was nice and low and luckily my iron was high enough to donate. For the first time in my life though, I got nervous when I sat in the comfy lounge chair. I am always brave enough to watch the needle go in, and I usually smile and talk to the nurse. Today was totally different. I looked away, closed my eyes, and tried not to panic as I felt the long needle pierce my arm and move under my skin. The bag filled up quickly at least, and then the time came to take the needle out. She cut off the tube with the metal clasps, and then connected the tube to some glass test tubes to make sure my blood is good enough for patients. I watched it gurgle into the tubes, and on the last one, I felt my arm vibrate and I thought I was going to black out. I can't believe it. Needless to say, I was happy to have the needle pulled out. I'm just surprised at my reaction. I have never been afraid like that in my life. Stupid. Also today, the Toyota dealership finally called me back. My Yaris is in Panama or something, so it's getting freighted to Milford, due to arrive in ten days. It's my dark silvery grayish color with black interior. I'm excited but nervous. I hope I love it. It's a big investment, and I know it's going to be great on gas mileage, but I just want to feel comfortable driving it. I should. I hope it's not one of those cars with a spastic gas pedal... like when you barely touch it, you jerk forward. We will soon find out. 10 days. Tutoring's been going pretty well. I'm all done on August 14th... the day the car comes in. That's a good reward for working in a classroom on 100 degree days. Luckily I got my classroom moved to the shady side of the building andddd I found a fan... shhh! The kids and I are surviving. I'm so drowsy right now. I feel like an elderly person napping in the afternoon. But that's what I think I'm going to do. |
| Saturday, July 22nd, 2006 | |
| 4:04 pm | Good stuff Matt took me to Ira Toyota in Milford again today. We put in an order and a deposit for a car. It has to get shipped in so I'll probably have it by the first week of August. :) It's a 2007 Toyota Yaris in Flint Mica with dark charcoal colored cloth interior. It's a cutie. Overseas it's very popular and it's slowly getting to the United States. It's a small four door sedan, but the interior is pretty roomy, surprisingly. I think it's going to be perfect for me. I'm happy. I'll post pics when I get it home! :) :) In the meantime, I need to set up my insurance Monday after school and drop off a business card to the dealership. I talked to the guy who is on the financial end of car buying and he was really nice. He told me I have a wicked good credit score, and explained a lot of stuff step by step. It was a really pleasant experience. Ugh, I gotta go... more to come. |
| Tuesday, July 18th, 2006 | |
| 9:08 pm | So, it's hot as balls outside. Tomorrow at work is going to be a bitch. The custodians shut my door over the weekend so when I came in Monday morning it was stuffy and humid in the room. It stayed that way all day. One of the teachers stopped by between sessions last week and with a huge grin on her face said, "I didn't want you to be here when I did this, but this is my fan, and I'm taking it." She happily trotted off with her acquired treasure and I was left with nothing. So since then, work has sucked. I feel bad for the kids. It's their summer VACATION and they're at extended year services in a hot classroom for at LEAST an hour. Some kids have longer sessions or speech or reading after me. I'm trying to find a small fan here at the house that I can bring in. It needs to be small enough so that I can stash it in the office I store my lessons in, so that nobody absconds with it. I brought in popsicles a couple of weeks ago, but the freezer's on the ghetto side... and they were half melted by the time the kids got them. Speaking of work, today was my day off. I had planning to do for the next couple of weeks, because I need to give one of the girl's mothers some work since she'll be at camp. She specifically requested it from me, and tomorrow's the girl's last day. I kind of pushed it off until tonight, because pshht... it's my day off! So after dinner, Matt and I went drop something off at the p.d. and then visit his Nana. While we were there, his friend Joey called and wanted to get together with us and his gf tonight for a double date. We were prob just going bowling or something, but Matt was really excited about it. Of course I was torn because I knew I had work that HAD to be done tonight, and I also knew that Matt hasn't hung out with him for a while and it would be fun. I said I couldn't in the end, and I felt like shit. I said, "Why don't you go?" to which he responded that he didn't want to be a third wheel. Understandable, but I felt like an asshole. So I was bummin by the time I got home because I felt bad. Then Gretchen IMed me. A couple of weeks ago it was her sweet 16, and my dad forgot. No call, no card. Nothing. She and my mom went to visit him at the fire station tonight. Dad was complaining about how he has no money and couldn't give that much to my mom, etc. etc. My mom finally said, "You know your daughter had a birthday two weeks ago that you apparently forgot about." He said, "Ohh... sorry." That's it. So after all this complaining about how he's broke and doesn't even know if he can make it through the week, the station gets a call that they need to respond to. He runs to his room real quick and throws a $20 bill at Gretch and says happy birthday. So she obviously doesn't want to take it because he's "broke," and it was like pity cash. No thought or anything. She left the fire station and cried. I just feel bad. I love my dad, but I think he's forgetting how to be a dad. He's always pulling the "poor me" crap as of late, and doesn't visit the house anymore. It's always us going to him. He complains to my mom that his daughters never call him. Hello! It's because we've lost touch. There's no commons ties or interests anymore. He's lost the ability to listen to us. He'll hear you tell him a story and sometimes before you're even finished, he jumps in and says, "Oh you think that's bad, get this..." and cuts you off, or I'm not sure if I'm putting this right, but he has to "out-do" your story. Or he'll tell you something you know nothing about, like his motorcycle engine or something just over my head and talk about it forever. It's like you can't get a word in. We're just not connected like we used to be. My dad used to be a good listener, give good advice, and care about what we were up to. Now it's all about Diane, his motorcyle, moving to South Carolina in 5 years??, random stuff. I'm just sad. I miss him. Oh well. Shitty entry. Time to get ready for bed. Peace. |
| Friday, July 14th, 2006 | |
| 3:39 pm | R.I.P. Buick... you will be missed. It's officially dead. The mechanic said something about the pistons and a rod, and it can't be fixed. Mom's donating it to Cars for Kids. We got a few good years outta that thing, but it was probably more of a hassle than anything. I went to a Toyota dealership last night and saw the Yaris sedans. The ones they had were standards but I got to peek in and see them. Very cute. They look small on the outside but most of the customers who buy them rave about the roomy interior. I think we'll be going on the 31st after work to buy one. If I go through with it, it'll be really cool. I have never had a car that has power windows and doors and air conditioning! Pretty exciting. I'm a little nervous about test driving it because I haven't driven since the end of January/early February. Sarah needed the car to get to and from school and work so I let her drive it, and Matt's been driving me everywhere since. Maybe I'll drive his car around a little before we go. So I guess that's some good news. I think this weekend I'm going to paint Matt's kitchen while his parents are in Maine. Give them a little surprise to come home to. I'll see if I'm up to the challenge in this heat. We'll sneak out tonight to "buy Zane a birthday present" but on the way home we'll swing buy and pick up a bucket. I'll prob have to wash and sand parts of the walls early tomorrow morning. Oh and I was thinking about repainting the cabinets too, but I don't want to get in over my head. It's going to be a pretty shade of green with cream color doorways and possibly cabinets. I also need to take inventory on paint supplies. I think I have some of the blue painter's tape left over from my breezeway project last summer, and a paintbrush. I need new rollers and possibly a paint tray. Ehh... wish me luck! |
| Wednesday, July 12th, 2006 | |
| 8:56 pm | Updates 1. Work is going well. It's harder than I thought, but not bad. I'm a language arts tutor, but basicially some parents roped me in to teaching math too. Fun. I initially was not going to be paid for all of the hours that I was at work, because even though I'm scheduled to be at the school for 5.5 hrs, I wasn't going to have kids the entire time. So they weren't going to pay me for prep time. The director saw how much work goes into getting ready for the new groups that she decided to pay me for the full day. Sweet. So I have a 3 day work week, make $26/hr, and work 16.5 hrs/wk, annnnd have a 3 day weekend every weekend. Not too much to complain about... EXCEPT... The Buick finally shit the bed. Sarah was driving it to the Cape yesterday and she was doing 65 when suddenly the reading on the spedometer started slowing down. She pulled over, and long story short, a heat shield fell off and the transmission may be gone too. Everything was rattling, etc. Not good. I'm thinking it's dead. SO IN THE MEANTIME.... Matt and I have been looking at new cars for me. I was going to get a Camry or a Corolla S sport edition, but it's kinda pricey. Then I saw the Yaris. Ok, the car commercial with the creepy alien and the cars like eat other cars and morph into two cars. I know I make no sense. BUT seriously, those commercials frighten me. When Matt asked, "What about the Yaris?" I yelled, "Nooo!! CREEPY!!" Buuut I gave it a chance and the sedans are kinda cute and sporty. Plus it's a Toyota and they seem to last forever. I need dependability. So with the lack of cash flow because of a new car and a wedding I'm in coming up, I guess I won't be taking any classes for my Master's this fall at Framingham State. I just can't cut it right now. Maybe I'll still take the GRE's to have them over with and start a class in the winter or spring semester. Does anyone know how long the scores are good for?? Let me know if you know! Alrighty, massive headache and I need to be up at 6. Nighty night! :) Current Mood:  hot |
| Thursday, June 29th, 2006 | |
| 9:23 am | So proud of my boy!!! :) This just in, folks. Matt passed his P.A.T.!!! Sooo awesome!! Everyone is very excited and very, VERY proud of him. He's one step closer to the academy. He just has to drop off a certificate saying he passed at the police station and wait them to contact him with details on the academy. Thank God. Honestly. With all the hope that got smashed to pieces last summer because of the town selectmen, we really needed this. He did, especially. I just had to write a quick blurb about how happy I am for him, and how much I love him. He deserves the best things in life to happen to him!!! :) We're finally getting somewhere. |
| Sunday, June 18th, 2006 | |
| 6:18 pm | Everybody else is doing it. Hi there. Ok, everyone is getting married. My friend Sara [I'm one of her bridesmaids], Katie, Katie's sister, Shaunna. Not everyone, but a lot of people. I've already been to 2 of my cousins' weddings in the past year too! Well, I guess back in the late Fall, I started this scrapbook of sorts. It's kind of a scrapbook/sketch pad rolled into one. I have all of the things I like in there from the dress I currently want to the color theme, time frame, dessert, location, and neat little ideas that go with the seasonal theme. It's pretty organized. I have phone numbers for photographers and pastry shops that make wedding cakes. Last night, Matt and I sat down together and revised our list for the millionth time and we cut it down a LOT. We will mostly have family and it will be a very elegant affair. So friends out there reading this, if you're not invited, don't get up in arms about it. We're probably still friends. We also decided on a reception site. This will make it a lot easier when I actually do have to put this plan into action. Our reception will be out of state, so that might cut our attendees down as well. We are not getting married in a church [Grammy and probably my mom are going to flip a shit] but that's our choice. We are getting married on site at the same place we are hosting the reception. Everything will roll into an all-day affair. It is going to be beautiful. Some people are reading this and saying thinking to themselves... she's not even engaged yet and she's planning her wedding?! Well, Matt and I have been together for 3 years now and we've loved each other since day one. The truth is, we didn't get the jobs we expected to get right after college. Shame on us for being optimistic I guess. If we had, we'd be engaged right now. So we're doing the best we can for the time being, and when we do get locked in on the job market, we'll be off and running with wedding stuff. We want to pay for our wedding and not burden anyone else. Family members on both sides intend on helping us out, but if we can do it, I think we should by ourselves. It's our party, after all. I love how I wrote about this without dropping any hints about season, location, decorations, cake, color, theme, or date! Sneaky sneaky. I guess my point to all this was, that I stopped doing this for a couple of months. I think Matt was the one who got me back into it, by pulling out the reception package we got in the mail. Plus, I've been reading Katie's journal and thinking a lot about how Sara's wedding will be this fall, and I guess it's stuck in the back of my mind. I'm getting back into the swing of things. It's kind of cool to come back to the ideas and realize what ideas I still like and what we should think about changing. Gotta stop here. Bye kids. Current Mood:  creative |
| Monday, June 12th, 2006 | |
| 7:51 pm | Ok, one more because it's so stupid that it makes me laugh.  WTF?! Ok, two more... because these two get way too silly.  |
| 7:30 pm | Graduations all around! As I mentioned before, Matt graduated with his Master's Degree and Sarah graduated from high school. Here are some pictures that I have been meaning to post. Enjoy!  ^Sarah on her big day... very excited!  ^Dad, Sarah, Mom  ^Four silly bitches. Hello bug eyes, it's me!, Sarah, Gretch, and Lizzy  ^Pretty graduation cake.  ^Uncle Smokey and Kody  ^Matt and me... ok that outfit makes me look preggo, but I'm not. Nor am I as fat as that pic makes me look. I just like it cuz Matt looks so good!  ^Sarah with her godparents [Aunt Karyl and Uncle Phil]  ^Indoor graduation, but it wasn't bad!  ^Excited?!  ^Matt's graduation ceremony at WSC... what a cutie! <3  ^He's psyched to be all done! Ok, that's all for now, kids! |
| Wednesday, June 7th, 2006 | |
| 5:29 pm | Job Plans 2 good things: 1. I got a summer job! I'll be working in Medway at the middle school tutoring a handful of kids, ranging from grade 1 through grade 5. It's 3 days a week: Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday [Fri-Sun off!] and it's $26/hr. Obviously it's not a full-time job, but it'll pay the bills. This will be the highest hourly rate I've ever earned in my life. It runs from July 5th-August 10th. 2. I got hired back as a 1:1 for next year. If I don't get a teaching job, it won't be the end of the world. I think I will take the GREs this summer and take a class or two at Framingham State in the fall. I want to get rolling with the Master's degree. So the child I'm assigned to is on the Autism spectrum, like the boy I worked with this year, except he's going to be in third grade. He's not behavioral, and he's a pretty happy kid. So next year I get to avoid the hitting, biting, and tantrums on the floor, and hopefully also any random perseverations. I'm hoping it will be a walk in the park compared to the hell I've endured this year. We had our good times, but we had some crazy ones too. So there's my job updates.. having something is better than nothing! I'm going to try and post some pictures but they are huge and need to be resized. We'll see. Current Mood:  excited |