I haven't wrote in awhile, and I think its cus I'm tryin to get things figured out. But hopefully you don't mind hearing me out for a bit..
I dunno where to start..but the last 3 days I've been really upset and kinda in my own world. Things with my bf.. have been outta control.. I dunno what happened between us, but lately something has changed and I don't know why or what it is.. I was beginging to think maybe it was me, maybe all my of my compliants and moddiness is driving him crazy. I mean I don't blame him if it is, cus no one deserves to put up with me and the way I am. But, on the other hand...I question that, cus its seems as if he simply doesn't care anymore, he never jokes around, he never wants to come up or have me there, it just isn't the same. Yet, when I ask him if we are still together he says we still are? Then I say that I get the feeling that you don't want to be..and he says I'm wrong..so figure that out! I can't. Things have been crazy at home too, my family starts flipping out at me for no reason, then when i says anything I always end up in a huge fight with one of my parents.. everything anyone does or says lately is aggravating me.
Then I found out last night, one of my close friends Kirk says he has to move on Wednesday and won't be back for next our last school year. That really bothers me, cus I really don't want him to move, and its just not gonna be the same next year, my last year of school and I won't have him there.
Then I have my last exam tomorrow.. my chemistry public. That exam depends on a lot of things.. If i don't pass it.. I don't pass the year:S Well anyhoo Im gonna go and try to take my mind off o things by studying.