Good morning..   
10:49am 27/02/2004
 
mood: ecstatic
music: Bleach - Almost too late (WOOOO PUT ON THE ROCK AND ROLLLL!)
xtheTragedianx: i do need to get some sleep
xtheTragedianx: right after i finish this nice little rant on gay marriages.
SetMySitesNorth: we are the groom of Christ right?
xtheTragedianx: correct
xtheTragedianx: no
SetMySitesNorth: haha
xtheTragedianx: bridegroom
xtheTragedianx: crap. okay, you got me.
xtheTragedianx: it's late.
xtheTragedianx: no wait
xtheTragedianx: he's the bridegroom
xtheTragedianx: we're the bride
xtheTragedianx: oh i hate you.
SetMySitesNorth: hahahahahaha
SetMySitesNorth: i love this, i'll wake up this early everyday just to screw with you
xtheTragedianx: here is joel, in all of this wisdom; being debunked by tyler elam. oh the pain


What a way to start off this beatiful Friday morning! It's supposed to get up to 54 degrees! I have a feeling this is going to one rockin day. Goodwen isn't playing either so we all have the night off to do as we wish! If only they still had the awesome TGIF lineup.... Oh well I wont let ABC get me down that easily.		  
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Who are you trying to convince?   
02:05am 21/02/2004
 
mood: frustrated
music: Sherwood - the summer sends it's love
Let's make his mercey into an irrelevant copping mechanism and distort the truth just a little more than it already is. Another layer to blur the truth because the reality hurts to fathem. Assumptions of grace - why we are where we are today - so put on your plastic smiles and fool yourself and the rest of the world. It's easier on ourselves that way.		  
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Woooo Weee!! Long time no see!   
04:31am 14/02/2004
 
mood: thirsty
music: You Cant Handle this - Five Iron Frenzy
Hey, I appologize for all of you that constantly check my Journal just hoping that I would make your day more enjoyable by posting my thoughts and the days events. I know there are a lot of you. Oh well.. Anyway, So tonight Goodwen tore it up at the big house (joke). We played with The Agust anthem. Two of the faded me boys graced us with their presence. (Jon and J.P). After words we had a big Goodwen / Agust Anthem (one guy) / Faded Me (two of em) / Goodwen Roadie Party at Julies house. It was rockin. I love going over here. JUlies mom is always so nice to us. It seemed like it had been forever sicne i had gotten to hang out like that. Good times. Mike Mcsherry even showed up. Gotta love that kid. So anyway.... The night came to a beautiful end. Dustin, Jered, Jon, and I all road back to four corners. From there I got in my car along with my sidekick Jered Vitek. Jon stayed with Dustin (he was dringing him to my house to get his car). So I drove Jered home and we had a long talk about The Second Law Of Theroedynamics. (not really) Anyway I drop Jered off at his hizouse and return to my house only to find Jon freezing in my driveway. Apperently his car was too cold to start somehow.. (I think he just wanted to stay at my house so he could check out my mom) and I told him he was welcome to stay the night. ... So he did. We watched Biodome... funny movie. He driften off into his beaty sleep and i went and got him a blanket and tucked him in. Then I went upstairs to get online and type this entry!! Wooo!!! What a day!

Not looking forward to valentines day... I can't remember the last time I had a girlfriend on Valentines day... Eh who needs girls anyway? Alright well... Im heading back to the world of AIM... Thank you for reading and goodnight world.		  
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-NESW- D=N -AP = S   
12:40am 02/02/2004
 
mood: _R_K_N_E_R_E_
music: By All Accounts (Today Was A Disaster) - Emery
Life preservers land miles from my flailing arms
Fighting against this current seems so pointless
My progress is similar to that of a backstroke
Exhaustion points me to the south
Along with the weight of Failures and Mistakes
I'm sinking so fast - E.W.
So far from land -
I'm sinking so fast - S

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I made it to the sunny beaches
But not how I hoped
The Beach was left with half built sandcastles
Mothers sheild the eyes of the young
Like a gift from the sea
To the captain of my ship
These sirens sing HER favorite song		  
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You might sleep, but you'll never dream   
12:55pm 17/01/2004
 
mood: uncomfortable
music: I never said I was brave - Me without You
When dreams of rings of flowers fade and blur
Giving way to that familiar ill
come over and part your soft white curtains
Where I'm waiting for you still
If you'd unlatch the window,
If you'd let me lay there on your floor
If you'd give me another chance,
If you'd forget the pain I caused before
No use in saying how I'm sorry
So I'm trying not to speak
I'll sing in silence, lay beside you
With my face there on your cheek
My stomach swears there's comfort there
In the warmth of the blankets on your bed
My stomach's always been a liar-
I'll believe it's lies again.		  
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With these diamonds you cut your throat.   
03:21pm 16/01/2004
 
mood: tired
music: Bullet to Binary - Me without you
Howdy there.. It's been a few days. Not much has really gone on though. So you know how I told you about me having to take sleeping pills and what not?? and you know how i said I wasn't really going to take them?? Well.. Since I haven't been taking them they obviously haven't been working... and my parents have noticed this. So they called my doctor and told him the pills weren't working (thinking I had been taking them) So the doctor said i should take two. Ah! These pills are incredibly strong. So yesterday I had been awake since 3:30 in the morning so I was already really tired, and before i went to bed, my mom comes up in my room with two of those pills, and makes me take them in front of her.. so i had to swallow them both. Wow.... talk about the best sleep i;ve ever had. I didnt wake up once that night. It was like I had been in a coma. Needless to say I feel sick and energyless today. But I think I'm slowly getting better. I have no idea what I'm doing today. I know I wont be seeing soozin, thats about all thats set in stone. Oh yeah!! Norma Jean's Video for "memphis will be laid to waste" is on solidstate's website now... go check it out at http://www.solidstaterecords.com/videos/		  
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oh the irony...   
10:08am 14/01/2004
 
mood: lethargic
music: You can't handle this - five iron frenzy
If you recall in my last entry i said this... "for those of you that venture to my house late at night / early in the morning do not fear... because nothing's going to change."

I couldn't have been more wrong. To fill everyone in... Almost everynight for the past 3 or 4 weeks, my basement has been flooded with teenagers between the hours of 11:30 P.M anywhere to 5:00 am. The regulars consist of Armond, Susan, Jessica, Joel, Heather, and Isaac. We would usually just watch a movie or family guy, eat some food, and talk. No big deal really. Nothing that anyone should be upset about. So two nights ago, Susan picked me up around 12:45 or so and we drove around and listened to music. Later we went to steak and shake and cought up with Heather, Jessica, Isaac, and Armond. through out the night we were deciding where we should go / what we should do. Heather wanted to go home so isaac dropped her off and we all went to meijer and "goofed off" for a while. We eventually decided to go back to my house for a little while.. Now earlier in the night i had told Susan it probably wasn' a good idea to go to my house. But I was willing to anyway (despite my bad feeling) to watch office space. So we get there and everyone goes in the basement. To make a long story short, my mom cought everyone and freaked out. She was yelling like i have never heard her yell before. It was incredibly awkward and hard not to laugh. Needless to say, I'm in trouble and everyone is terrified to ever come back..... So I take back the statement i made in my last entry.. I couldn't have ben more wrong. Oh the irony. But for those of you that were there, you have to admit..... it's something we'll never forget.		  
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zZzzzzzZZzzZZzzZZz   
07:50pm 12/01/2004
 
mood: rejuvenated
music: I used to hate cell phones..... norma jean
So I went to the doctor today to talk about some sleeping problems.. Ironicly I hadn't been asleep since 2:00 in the afternoon yesterday. So we sat there, they ran a few test, and the doctor came in our office and started talking very seriously. He looked at me and told me that I had a forum of hear disease. He then realized that he had gotten his paper work confused. He said "Oh no wait a second you Tyler Elam!" So we all had our chuckles and exchanged words of relief like "Glad I'm not that guy" and what not and continued on with our conversation. Anyway he came up with this big plan to get me sleeping like a healthy person and what not and gave me some really strong sleeping pills. (which I don't intend on taking) See the problem is.... I don't really want to get back on a schedule. I don't really care. I like having friends coming over till 5 in the morning every night and I love talking to Susan until like 7:00 or 8:00 in the morning online. I honestly don't intend fixing this problem until I start working at king's island again. It should be really easy then because I work like 60 something hours a week there in the summer... I mean seriously who wouldn't be tired then? So anyway.. for those of you that venture to my house late at night / early in the morning do not fear... because nothing's going to change.		  
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06:00pm 11/01/2004
 
music: Fugue: 24 - anathallo
"I really did want to spend time with You today,... it was just that I had so much to do." - anathallo

Wow, I never thought a song made up of 20 words could be as powerful as that one is. This world is made up of so many distractions that it blows my mind. The thing that really blows my mind is how oblivous we are to them. I wish I could take back everyday I didn't talk to him, everyday I ignored my convictions, everyday I didn't read his word, and everytime I passed up the oppurtunity to share him with someone. What a waste. I really think that somewhere within our faithless hearts lies a strong doubt in this gift we know as prayer. If we could even began to fathom that we have the ability to talk and spend time with the God of the universe that we wouldn't go a day without praying, a day without reading his word, and we would never pass up the oppurtunity to share him with someone else. I wish I could get rid of any ounce pride i have. The pride in which i hold on to so dearly. His love amazes me. We fill our days with countless distractions, forget to read his word, forget to pray, and even sometimes hold on to our pride so tight that we pass up the oppurtunity to stand up what it is we believe in, and regardless of the countless times we do these things, his love is so incredible that he is willing to look past that, forgive us, and renew us in so many ways. I am so incredibly thankful, and because I am faithless, selfish, and forgiven all at the same time. Uterly amazing.		  
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Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt,   
01:54am 10/01/2004
  So late last night (or early this morning) I was asked "Why don't you have an online journal?" by a friend name Susan Dennis which shall remain anonymous. I thought about it and after a while I decided that I too would jump on the bandwagon. My layout is pretty simple. Don't expect much more because I doubt that I'll dedicate enough time to this to make it look half way decent. Through out my posts on this Journal, you will most likely discover that I am a terrible speller.. all I can say is I'm sorry and do your best to understand whatever it it is I am trying to say. If i keep with this thing you can expect a lot of aol conversations that i find either amusing or upsetting, song lyrics which may pertain to something relevant in my life, deep mind boggling thoughts which will amaze you, thoughts that I wrote while too tired to make since out of, or an overall outlook of my day (or timespand in which I failed to update my journal).. So Howdy and welcome to my journal... enjoy  
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