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Crashing Down To The Pit of My Heart [01 Sep 2003|08:04pm]
[ mood | crushed ]
[ music | From Autumn To Ashes - "Reflections" ]

I feel like the whole world has forgotten who I am, and what I've become. Do not try to test my intelligence, do not test me, do not see if I meet your standards. Judge me simply on how I come. I will not change unless I want to and unless I see fit. You cannot make me into anything else. So take me or leave me, your decision but ultimately my gain.
I am the rock. Everyone looks at me as the rock; is it because of how I handled my father's murder? Is it because everyone looks at my sarcastic wit and thinks "Oh, she bears no emotions" ? I feel more than you know. A prick feels like a broken bone. Heartbreak feels like a slow death.
I want to be kissed and held by you. I would rather die than be forced into anyone else's arms but you. I want you to see me, accept me, and love me for me. But alas, because I am known as Steffani, you will never see me. You will overlook me and kick me out of the way as if I were a rock.

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